CUNNINGHAM, CHRISTINE E.

i'm a dead girl walking.

[monstersmuses]

@risencheer

''so this is how it ends? just like that?''

[risencheer]

" flynn, " her voice is hardly a whisper. this is breaking her heart but she knew they couldn't last. not with jason, a spectre who loomed over her life. " i-i love you. i'm sorry. we're can't... keep doing this. "

[risencheer]

this barbie is an angel.

[memesomething]

Dissociation Starters

FROM THE EMPTY

“No… I’m not hurt.”

“I don’t…”

“… Sorry. Say that again?”

“Sometimes I just … do this. It’s fine.” 

“No, it’s bad, but I’m. Like. I’m fine. Just give me like, ten minutes.”

“I don’t - I don’t remember.”

“You waited how long?”

“… I don’t like [trigger].”

“Will you walk me home?”

“I love you, I just… I can’t… I’m dissociating.”

“I.. don’t know how I got here.”

“I didn’t feel that. At all.”

“Did I zone out?”

“Don’t touch me.”

“My name is [name]. I’m [age]. I live in [place]. My name is [name] -”

“I can’t think of anything to do that isn’t stupid, canyouhelpme?” 

“How did you find me?”

“I think I’m in [different State]. Will you come?”

FROM THE FULL

“Hey. [Name]? Look at me.” 

“I’m right here.” 

“How long have you been sitting here?”

“What happened?”

“Your shirt is on backwards.” 

“Is it okay if I touch you?”

“It’s windy today. This bench has a nice texture, don’t you think?”

“Do you mind if I sit with you?” 

“Okay, I’ll be here.”

“Hey - come in. Don’t worry about it. I’m glad you came.”

“Drink some water. It has ice.”

“I’ll run a shower.”

“Let me wash it for you.” 

“I can’t clean you up if I can’t touch you. Will you give me your hand?”

“We’ll ride it out. You’re safe here.”

“I’ll put on a movie.”

[rp-meme-world]

crying starters feel those emotions!! possible tw: death, depression

WORDS

❝ i’ve never seen you cry before. ❞

❝ i don’t like crying in front of people. ❞

❝ you cry so easily. ❞

❝ stop it with the crocodile tears. ❞

❝ it’s okay to cry, you know. ❞

❝ are you crying in there? ❞

❝ do i need to worry about you? ❞

❝ i’m worried about you. ❞

❝ i’m not crying. ❞

❝ i heard you crying. ❞

❝ please don’t cry. ❞

❝ i’m not crying. it’s allergies. ❞

❝ are you… laughing, or crying? ❞

❝ i just miss him/her. ❞

❝ she/he was lying to me. ❞

❝ she/he broke up with me. ❞

❝ i broke up with him/her. ❞

❝ it was mutual. but it still sucks. ❞

❝ it’s okay. it’s okay. you’re gonna be okay. ❞

❝ i can’t do this anymore. ❞

❝ it’s all just too much. ❞

❝ it hurts so bad. ❞

❝ please stay. ❞

❝ please never do that again. ❞

❝ you’re not a burden. ❞

❝ you’re not bothering me. ❞

❝ we don’t have to talk about it. ❞

❝ we don’t have to talk about it. but i’ll listen, if you want. ❞

❝ i don’t want you to see me like this. ❞

❝ i kind of just want to be alone right now. ❞

❝ i don’t think you should be alone right now. ❞

❝ i just feel so alone. ❞

❝ i’m sorry. i’m getting your shirt all wet. ❞

❝ come on. let’s get out of here. ❞

ACTIONS **add ↔ to reverse roles, if applicable

[ hug ] - sender hugs a crying receiver

[ shoulder ] - receiver buries their head into sender’s shoulder as they’re given a hug

[ hand ] - receiver covers their mouth/face with their hand to try not to be heard crying

[ loss ] - receiver comforts sender after the loss of a loved one

[ reunion ] - one or both muses cry as they are reunited with each other after a long time apart

[ laugh ] - one or both muses laugh until they cry

[ yell ] - receiver cries after sender yells at them

[ news ] - one muse has to deliver some saddening news, making the other cry

[ together ] - one muse starts crying while holding the other, who is also crying

[ hair ] - receiver strokes their fingers through the other’s hair while comforting them with a hug

[ wipe ] - receiver wipes a tear off the sender’s cheek with their thumb

[ breakdown ] - one muse completely falls apart after holding it together too long

[ injured ] - one muse cries after getting injured

[ kiss ] - one muse kisses the other in an attempt to calm them down

[ trivial ] - one muse starts crying over something trivial (like spilling their coffee or losing a game) 

[risencheer]

@monstersmuses

fuck! chrissy almost silently chides herself for thinking a swear word but right now, her brain feels a little fuzzy. she'd come to the party at the insistence of the other cheerleaders (not friends, not now) and they'd plied her with drinks... and now, she couldn't find a soul in this house she knew. she knows it's revenge, a slight against her for her breakup with jason but... it feels cruel. she scans the crowd for a soul she knows, and she sees him. "eddie!" the word leaves her lips, a mixture between a drunken giggle and a sob of relief. "i need your help... gettin' home." and even through the prom queen's smile, the tears start to fall down her face. "my friends left me here.... can you help?"

[risencheer]

@monstersmuses

" i-i shouldn't be here, " breath hitches, arms cross across her chest. if jason knew, if her mother knew.... but she finds peace only in eddie's company. she can't sleep since... since everything happened. she'd survived, but god, she didn't feel whole anymore. she sits down on the small sofa, draws her knees to her chest. " can you.... can you hold me?" his arms are the only place she feels safe.

[monstersmuses]

part of him still in shock from the fact that she's sitting on his couch, but he wants to be there for her. how could he turn her away when she looked as scared as she did? he's trying his hardest not to jump out of his own skin right now when she asks if he can hold her. ''i-- of.. of course.'' reaching for a blanket that had been near-by, eddie manages to cover the both of them up while wrapping an arm around her shoulder. ''i.. its okay that you came.. i won't.. tell anyone.''

[risencheer]

chrissy bites her bottom lip, worries that she might be the reason he gets hurt. cheeks flush at her own question and she ducks her head slightly. but the minute he wraps a blank and an arm around her, she leans against him. head rests against his shoulder, and eyes squeeze shut. "i know you wouldn't tell anyone. i-i just ---" a pause and a shake of her head. "i only feel safe with... with you. is that totally stupid?"

[risencheer]

@monstersmuses

" i-i shouldn't be here, " breath hitches, arms cross across her chest. if jason knew, if her mother knew.... but she finds peace only in eddie's company. she can't sleep since... since everything happened. she'd survived, but god, she didn't feel whole anymore. she sits down on the small sofa, draws her knees to her chest. " can you.... can you hold me?" his arms are the only place she feels safe.

[hydegone]

AND WHAT IF I AM RUINED?

[nothingbutloveforyou]

want to be kissed against a wall while we both don’t know where to put our hands first

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐯𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐨𝐮𝐬 𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧 𝐬𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐜𝐞 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫𝐬.

(  a  mix  of  angst,  fluff,  and  plot  focused  dialogue  prompts  in  the  form  of  questions.  feel  free  to  change  how  you  seem  fit.  )

❛ what are you listening to? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ did it hurt? ❜

❛ are you sure this is a good idea? ❜

❛ do you mind if i sleep here tonight? ❜

❛ what are you doing out here by yourself? ❜

❛ are you wearing my shirt? ❜

❛ don’t you know what you mean to me? ❜

❛ will i see you again? ❜

❛ are you comfortable? ❜

❛ are you trying to get us in trouble? ❜

❛ do you enjoy playing with people’s hearts? ❜

❛ don’t we deserve to be happy? ❜

❛ why can’t i come with you? ❜

❛ are you here to kill me? ❜

❛ you think i’m jealous? ❜

❛ do you want to share this? ❜

❛ is that blood? is it yours? ❜

❛ how do you know my name? ❜

❛ you’re an asshole, you know that? ❜

❛ like what you see? ❜

❛ was that your first kiss? ❜

❛ are you happy here with me? ❜

❛ sorry, did you want to be alone? ❜

❛ do you want my jacket? ❜

❛ how are you still alive? ❜

❛ you’re beautiful, you know that? ❜

❛ what are you so afraid of? ❜

❛ today isn’t your day, is it? ❜

❛ how does it feel to be in love? ❜

❛ you’ve been crying, what’s wrong? ❜

❛ do you remember when we first met? ❜

❛ isn’t this amazing? ❜

❛ did you miss me? ❜

❛ alright, who am i beating up? ❜

❛ that was a close call, wasn’t it? ❜

❛ am i worth so little to you? ❜

❛ how is it you’re never scared? ❜

❛ do you ever think about the future? ❜

❛ can you look at me? please? ❜

❛ you got me flowers? ❜

❛ well, how do i look? ❜

❛ what aren’t you telling me? ❜

❛ how about a kiss before i go? ❜

❛ you don’t know who i am, do you? ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜

❛ who’s going to stop us, huh? ❜

❛ wait, you’re leaving already? ❜

❛ it’s my fault, isn’t it? ❜

❛ have you ever lost someone? ❜

❛ do you think i’m a good person? ❜

❛ what are you thinking about? ❜

❛ is it really you? ❜

❛ what if i hurt you? ❜

❛ if you won’t take care of yourself, then who will? ❜

❛ have you come to laugh at me? ❜

❛ will you still look at me like you do now? ❜

[risencheer]

@monstersmuses

" please don't ask me who did this to me. i can't tell you, " she pulls her arm away, tugs her sleeve down to hide the bruises. " it's fine, i can handle it. "

[monstersmuses]

‘‘you want me not to ask & not to worry, that’s unfortunately not possible.’‘ with a gesture toward her arm once she’s pulled it away-- demarco is running a hand along his face. ‘‘i’m worried for you, chrissy.’‘

[risencheer]

she sighs as he speaks, arms crossing over her chest, as though shielding herself. "don't worry about me. it's nothing, it's no one." though she knows jason isn't no one. "i'm fine. it'll be fine, if you ask me about it it'll.. it'll make it worse if you know."

[risencheer]

@monstersmuses

" please don't ask me who did this to me. i can't tell you, " she pulls her arm away, tugs her sleeve down to hide the bruises. " it's fine, i can handle it. "

[risencheer]

so i super briefly talked abt this w tara last night but! the entire premise of this blog is chrissycoming back. she was found in the woods, injured and near death, but still alive. how she survived can be discussed or plotted, whether it's eddie's death as a sacrifice in her place, or whatnot. but she came back, but she's not the same. her soul is tormented by horrors she can't remember, as htough part of vecna is in her mind. she herself is plagued by chornic pain and struggles with it everyday. she also is still experiencing mental health struggles as she was prior to the events of season 4: panic attacks, disordered eating, depression. she comes back and she's angry but stronger but also wounded. it's abt finding the pieces of urself after trauma.

[risencheer]

kitty carver @heartsbreaking asked "does it still hurt?" / meme.

the question makes chrissy freeze. how can she begin to describe the pain that plagues her? her back aches, her neck is always stiff. some days she can hardly stand. cheer has been put aside, much to her mother's dismay. every day is a struggle. she looks at kitty for a second, however, and forces a cheerful smile. she knows it's a reference to the cast on her arm, not the rest of the pains and aches. whatever had happened to her, whatever she had survived, it hadn't left her unscathed. "no. it's healing pretty quick." a smile, and then her gaze flickers to the books in her other arm. if she can't cheer, at least she can lose herself in some books. "i'm tougher than i look." maybe if she says it, she'll believe it.

[roleplaymemeworld]

𝐁𝐋𝐎𝐎𝐃 & 𝐁𝐑𝐔𝐈𝐒𝐄𝐒

                                                     𝐀𝐍 𝐈𝐍𝐉𝐔𝐑𝐘 𝐒𝐓𝐀𝐑𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄                                       

“You’re dripping blood on the carpet.” “When I said scars are kinda sexy, I didn’t mean you should get one right away…” “Press that against the wound, I’m going to get the med kit.” “It’s bleeding quite badly.” “Oh God, what happened to you?!” “You’re covered in blood! Is it yours?” “Your head looks pretty bad. I’m sure it’ll need stitches.” “It’s going to hurt for a moment, but I’ll need to clean the wound.” “I’m so sorry this happened to you. But you’re safe now.” “That’s a pretty nasty bruise. Want some ice?” “Does it still hurt?” “I don’t think a band aid is gonna fix this…” “Whoa, hey, stay with me! You’re as white as a ghost. Don’t pass out.” “Damn, that must hurt. I’m sure there are some painkillers around here.” “You have to be seen by a doctor. This isn’t going to heal on its own.” “It looks broken. Can you move it at all?” “Here, lean on me. I’ll support you.” “I’m not going to leave you behind. If need be, I’ll carry you.” “I’m going to pick you up now, okay? Just hold on to me.” “Everything is going to be okay. Just hang in there.”

“I don’t feel so good.” “It’s seeping through the bandages.” “My head is throbbing. I think I have a concussion.” “I can barely breathe, it hurts so bad!” “It looks worse than it is. I’m sure it’ll be gone in a couple of days…” “You should see the other one.” “Don’t look at me like that. I don’t want your pity.” “It was my fault, really. I wasn’t paying attention and got hit in the face.” “Getting stabbed wasn’t really on my bucket list.” “I don’t think I can walk.” “Leave me behind, please. I’m just going to slow you down.” “Am I going to die?” “I can’t stop the bleeding.” “I think the bruise matches my eye color.” “Don’t touch it, please! It hurts.” “I don’t want to go to a hospital. I hate doctors!”