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me and the girls who still use tumblr in 2022

I remember a Lana Del Rey songs would come on n i would always ask u “if u were depressed or sad” lmao just to be a pain in the ass. I’m listening to a song now bc of euphoria… lol now my eyes are alllll sweating lmao

I’ll never forget…

Shits really crazy to me…

I wrote a whole fuckin letter in my notes today. I wasn’t planning on texting u. I wasn’t planning on sending it at all tbh. But I feel like u should know yet then I’m sure u can careless n that’s fine. Really.

*snorts line*

It is what it is.

143…

Idk

It don’t feel right

I don’t feel right

Thought it was us against the bullshit…

Cuz of what we were

We was strong like that

Now we nothing… just like that

In a couple hours it’s gonna be New Years. I’ve never felt so alone in my life. I’ve never witnessed this feeling. I’m 28. I have no idea what I’m doing. Here or wherever. I have no idea where I will end up. I have no idea why… idk. I don’t feel right. I don’t feel good. I have this feeling in me rn where I’m so scared. I have this anxiety creepin rn, I’m just scared. I really don’t think I wanna be here any longer. Being dead would be better than dealin wit this shit.

I just wanna go home…

There’s no home…