I Am A Disater

I am a guy. FTM names River

[river-tofreedom]

So, I have cancer

I found out a little over a month ago that it was a maybe after and ER visit

After being admitted twice and multiple tests because they weren’t fully sure what it was causing pain and other problems.

They found a 10cm tumor on my cervix, and 5cm tumor on each ovary.

It’s stage 4 and they’re hopeful about treatment and if it shrinks by my third round of chemo they’ll be a full hysterectomy, which I’m fine with.

I’m just in shock about it all to an extent but honestly it’s causing my anxiety/ocd to be stupid. Like I just feel like I did something wrong to deserve this but I know I didn’t. I’ve increased my therapy sessions.

What sucks the most is I’m almost always dehydrated and hungry but it hurts once I swallow and it’s annoying as hell.

I’m just tired of it all already physically speaking, and I want to be done with pain and be able to eat/drink.

Just needed to rant/vent.

I will say my friends have been amazing and my boss/coworkers have also been great.

[river-tofreedom]

Well I went into kidney failure even though the kidneys weren’t being affected, luckily it was caught quickly and I’m no longer in failure after surgery antibiotics and a week in the hospital. But yeah it’s been a time lmao.

[river-tofreedom]

So, I have cancer

I found out a little over a month ago that it was a maybe after and ER visit

After being admitted twice and multiple tests because they weren’t fully sure what it was causing pain and other problems.

They found a 10cm tumor on my cervix, and 5cm tumor on each ovary.

It’s stage 4 and they’re hopeful about treatment and if it shrinks by my third round of chemo they’ll be a full hysterectomy, which I’m fine with.

I’m just in shock about it all to an extent but honestly it’s causing my anxiety/ocd to be stupid. Like I just feel like I did something wrong to deserve this but I know I didn’t. I’ve increased my therapy sessions.

What sucks the most is I’m almost always dehydrated and hungry but it hurts once I swallow and it’s annoying as hell.

I’m just tired of it all already physically speaking, and I want to be done with pain and be able to eat/drink.

Just needed to rant/vent.

I will say my friends have been amazing and my boss/coworkers have also been great.

[allegedly-human]

Let's irresponsibly breed a dog together!

this dog will be:

nose

ears

legs

tail

heart

lungs

eyes

pelvis

behavioural issues

teeth

spine

tongue

Voting ended onApr 20, 2024

Share as much as possible that dog gotta be atrocious by the end of the week

[mothergoddessofmadripoor]

[sayruq]

[dimonds456]

Don't forget about the Palestinians.

Don't forget about them now.

Don't forget about them tomorrow.

Don't forget about them in a week from now.

Don't forget about them in a month.

Don't forget them next year.

Don't forget them in 5 years.

When the history books start to update, don't let them put lies in there.

When documentaries come out, boycott the ones who call this a victory for Israel.

When books release talking about soldier's personal experiences with Palestine, remember the victims. Remember the truth.

Don't forget about what we've seen.

Don't forget about what we've heard.

Don't let them tell lies about Palestine.

Don't forget about the Palestinians when the world tries to make this go away.

[cbs-scorpion-coffee-shop]

Nazis backing Nazis. What a shock.

[portraitofadyke]

I just saw a girl on tiktok talking about how her Palestinian grandma won’t be able to renew her passport with her place of birth as Palestine. She will have no place of birth.

Tell me why people were trying to compare it to Czechoslovakia and Yugoslavia etc.

My whole ass family was born in Czechoslovakia. Guess what. They now have a passport in Czechia/Slovakia, depending on where they lived. They have a country to call their own. They have some of the strongest passports in the world.

Palestinians are intentionally being eradicated. Their land bombed and stolen. Please educate yourselves before you say bullshit on the internet.

[google-searchhistory-official]

[themythicalcodfish]

reblogging SPECIFICALLY for the End Note which is widely applicable

[jame7t]

The fact that Tesla autopilots abort self driving 1 second before a crash so the company can state “self driving wasn’t active during the collision” should be grounds to dismantle the entire company.

Like, seriously, if you’re making 4000 pound death machines, and you program this shit to work on a technicality? Your company should be dismantled. Gone. No recourse. Just terrible shit dude

[animentality]

[stuckinapril]

The US is not just withholding a truce. It’s actively participating in the eradication of Palestinians.

[sandleer-deactivated20240516]

[nezreblogz]

[murphmurphthejerk]

So I found Aaron Bushnell's reddit and went through his comments/posts. That young man was well read and stable as they can be. Nothing in his writings pointed to someone who was "unstable" or "brainwashed".

He held leftist and anarchist ideals. He belong to the ACAB subreddit. He recognized the evil of the US Military even though he himself was a part of it. He hated TERFS and called out fatphobia. He understood the dangers of white supremecy and the evils of capitalism.

He had a cat. He liked the show fleabag and played elden ring.

Apparently in his will he wants to leave any money in his name to palestinian relief funds. He was trying to find a new owner for his cat.

Rest in peace Aaron Bushnell. The world won't forget & we sure as fuck won't let the media paint you out to be some crazy conspiracy theorist who had no idea what he was doing.

[onehand-oneheart]

I do NOT want Buddie to go canon in the last episode of a season. They too often do time skips and I don't want to miss out on their early relationship moments like we did with Bathena. We never got a Bathena first kiss!

I don't want to potentially miss Buddie's first kiss. I want to see their first date, first argument, maybe their first time. I want to see them adjust to the change and tell their friends and family.

I don't want to just jump into a season and 'boom they're together' and that's it

[bi-buck-coded]

Im sorry but when they wrote the will scene they dug their own grave. How are any of us supposed to NOT ship them when buck is legally tied to them like that? Like someone really brought their own buddie fanfic to the writing room by accident and everyone approved it.