anna sun

hong "luna" euijin carter, occasionally sunyoung, born august 12th, 1995. she started her journey as a sphere trainee on september 1st, 2014, and so jisub ended it on october 23rd, 2019. now, she is luxe's main rapper ashe and goddess of the sun.

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ah yeah, ah yeah~ did you like our comeback? our first full album!! it’s exciting! the songs are all really good, right? they were really fun to record, but not as fun as it is performing for you again 💕be sure to watch our performances, okay? 😊👍

[rkashe]

` in the waiting ━ *

rkyena·:

( ☾ )

“i have a little training in acting, but not as much as naeun unnie. the other unnies are much better dancers. seolhyun is a really great model, too. i guess i’m just kinda… here.” she flashes a self-deprecating grin at euijin. some had called seoyoung the all-rounder of luxe, which was nice to hear, but the downside was that she didn’t really shine in any one particular area. “i mean, i’m the best at aegyo, but… that doesn’t pay the bills,” she says with an exaggerated pout and a faux-sad whine.

“i’m surprised you’re not busier, though. why haven’t you gone to show me the money yet?”

seoyoung does make a good point. group activities can be a lot already, and really, luna is lucky to have debuted at all. there's something greedy in wanting more than that when she spent so many years truly unemployed, hidden away from the world entirely. being in luxe is a privilege, and she should remind herself of it more often. she's grateful every day, but after spending as much time in the group as she has, sometimes she forgets where she came from, and how much she suffered to get here. sometimes she forgets how much a luna of the past would've given to be where she is right now alone.

"i think it would be fun to be busier," she begins. "i always feel kind of sad when group activities are over, and eager to be working, but i think i would get burnt out eventually, and just want to be able to sleep." sometimes she surprises herself with how much she's apparently overcome her lazy streak. well. not really, because she's not doing much outside of their mandatory group activities, is she? maybe she should find more projects to put her time into.

seoyoung's words sound sad, but when luna looks over at her, she doesn't look particularly torn up about it. "i'm kind of like that too," she says. she has minimal acting and modeling experience. she's only an average dancer. she's funny, though. surely she would kill it on variety, right? right? she hasn't had too much of an opportunity to prove it outside of their group shows. she frowns a little to herself, but she smiles softly afterwards. "i just have my songs." she raises her notebook for emphasis, and luna is thankful for that much too. songwriting is her niche and her place in luxe. who knows where she would be without it.

"they haven't invited me! can you believe that?" she says, mock outraged, as if she's sharing some unbelievable, shocking rumor. maybe it is a little bit of a shock. "i'd love to go whenever they'll have me. i'd like to keep up my trend of fighting men in all of my activities." it's a reference to practically her entire history as a luxe member-- more than that, as a human being. it's funny that it's carried over so much into her career without royal even knowing-- almost a little eerie, really. from chasing a man with a whip in like a cat, to literally stepping on one in the end of the year music shows, to whatever they did in up&down, now to ah yeah, where she got to essentially yell at one while rapping in their music video. she loves it.

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A LOVE MACHINE  ━━     ﹡ 𝙰𝚂𝙷𝙴 、

her footsteps are light and fast as she comes bounding down the hallway from the front door, box in hand. having gotten the alert from her phone that a certain package had been delivered, naeun had excused herself from their room to grab it from the doorman. in a way, it was to avoid getting scolded again by their manager for buying miscellaneous things that took up space that was nearly nonexistent in the dorm. but naeun insisted ( in her head, at least ) that this was something all of them would like. if not, needed in their lives. with that certainty, she had bought the thing – not really thinking to ask whether the others agreed or not. 

( not that naeun expected them to turn her down or anything, but still ) 

by the time she makes it into her room, she’s plopping to the nearest bed – unfortunately it was euijin’s rather than her own – to show off what she had bought to the younger girl. “hey - hey - hey, do you want to see what i bought?” her eyebrows waggle as she goads the other one, probably disturbing her – but nonetheless, continuing to do it until she got an answer from her. 

[rkashe]

luna wishes she could say she was doing something productive. she wishes she was reading-- she should really get more books so she isn't carrying a nintendo ds or nintendo switch with her everywhere she goes, or playing some mobile game. however, that isn't the case right now, and she is indeed playing said nintendo switch. she's cleaning up her island in animal crossing when she is so rudely interrupted by naeun practically flinging herself onto her bed. (it's not like she minds. luna bothers naeun plenty; it's only fair their leader and one of luna's closest friends do the same. she's rarely anything but happy to talk to her anyway.)

she sits up, looking curiously at the box in naeun's hands. "duh," she replies, eager to see the contents. naeun is always buying random stuff online, but it's always fun to see her latest purchase, too. "is it something i'll want to steal from you?" given they're roommates and as close as they are, there's plenty luna has borrowed from naeun, with and without her permission.

[rkashe]

luxe september schedule ☽ september 5th ☀ album photoshoot

the month before a comeback is always exciting: shooting their teaser and album photos, shooting their music video.

luna doesn't have spectacular modeling skills. she's spent the past near year (year!!) with luxe relying on her confidence and faith that she's hot to get her through all the photos more than experience, but she thinks she's getting better at this, or maybe it's easier because she loves the fashion for ah yeah era. she feels more comfortable in this than anything else so far, even for as much fun as she had in all of the revealing, skin tight black outfits of like a cat era. she loved the faux leather pants and crop tops of up&down era, too. she had confidence in her ability to rock that, but this is more natural somehow. she still reveals a lot of leg, but it's with gaudy leather jackets-- a little bit tougher, and it reminds her of her days back home in chicago a little, slightly reminiscent of old school hip hop mixed with modern class. was class the word for it? with shorts this short, probably not, but still.

"i get to keep this jacket, right?" she teases to the production crew while they review her photos. she's not really kidding if they'll let her have it, though.

she thinks the teaser pictures turned out well, maybe even better than all of her others so far. she looks more casual, more carefree, like her confidence translates better to the pictures. they look more her than any of those before. she hopes she'll only continue to improve, both here and everywhere else.

"let's take a few more," the photographer decides. "yes sir," luna replies, not even offended that the pictures they just took apparently weren't good enough. it's fun enough that she's happy to keep going. it's definitely better than waiting around for the others to finish getting their photos taken, anyway. she makes her way back over to the set, popping the collar of said jacket in hopes of looking even cooler than before.

[rkashe]

` in the waiting ━ *

it doesn't really bother luna that the other members have more schedules than she does. well, not really, anyway. most of the time.

seolhyun and naeun have their dramas, faces plastered everywhere from endorsements, and their zoe isn't too far behind.

she and seoyoung, however...there's a little less for them, and luna especially. she wonders why. it doesn't make her insecure, it just makes her question royal a little. she has a great personality, and she's hot-- she has a viral fancam for it, if there was any reason for doubt. why doesn't she have a busier schedule? why didn't royal take advantage of said fancam and send her out into the world of variety shows and endorsement deals? surely some of them called and wanted her, right?

it makes her think, and sometimes it makes her a little restless. for the most part, however, she doesn't mind staying home and playing video games and catching up on sleep, or training more, or most importantly, working on more songs.

that's one thing she is thankful for: royal wanted her songs. she has cream under her belt, and the song was well received, even if it was a little scandalous. that much was pretty intentional. she intends to add more songs to her resume, so she writes as much as she can. lately, she's trying to diversify a little, and tap into more emotion. it's proving difficult, but if she has free time while the others are busy, she might as well try to take up the challenge.

still, she's a little tired, and her lack of activity weighs a little heavier on her mind than usual. maybe it's time for a break. "hey seoyoung," she calls from where she's perched by the window, notebook in her lap. it's just the two of them in the apartment, unsurprising even though it's only nayoung with the individual activities this month. "do you ever wish we had more activities? it seems like the others are always so busy."

@rkyena -- *

[rkashe]

` where the heart is ━ *

rkyena·:

if euijin hadn’t found her way to korea under such unique circumstances, she probably wouldn’t be a member of luxe now. and who knows who else might have joined the group to fill in xayah’s absence? all things considered, seoyoung is glad that it was euijin. they may not be quite as close as she is with the other members - not yet - but she’s talented and a good person, warm and strong like the sun. “i’m glad you found your way to us, unnie,”  seoyoung says, leaning her head on euijin’s shoulder for a moment.

“i’d be bragging too!” it’s adorable to think of euijin’s - luna’s - little siblings proudly supporting her. the fact that luxe has fans all over the world still stuns seoyoung at times. it’s enough to walk the streets of seoul and be recognized, or see their own faces in store windows. to think that the same could happen on the other side of the globe? it’s wild. “i hope we can go to chicago as a group sometime. you could be our tour guide.”

she’s glad, too, for the gesture of comfort. seoyoung’s halfway to revealing the full story of last year’s trauma to euijin. she wonders when that moment will come. it’s not like it’s a secret, but it’s never really been the right time, either. and she doesn’t want to drop that heavy burden in the middle of euijin’s emotional moment. this is something joyful, a bittersweet yet beautiful gift from her sister. seoyoung is curious about the contents, especially since sunmi is someone she’s seen before but never gotten to know. 

picking up her head from euijin’s shoulder, she asks. “can i see some of the photos?”

luna places a gentle hand on the head now on her shoulder, patting seoyoung lightly before letting her hand fall back into her lap. her words make her grin, and perhaps surprisingly, cause more emotion to swell up in her chest. i’m glad you found your way to us, unnie. it's good to hear, especially from seoyoung, who she isn't incredibly close to yet. luna worried for a long time that she was added to the group too quickly following xayah's departure. she was worried the other members would have a hard time accepting her, and maybe they did, even though they were never unkind to her. seoyoung is glad. luna is glad too. for luna, luxe is the greatest evidence that god is looking after her after all. they're like a gift, and for luna, as family oriented as she is, to essentially have three families, means the world.

she laughs. she would like to be able to see it. "they told me over video call that nobody would believe them because they're not asian. i guess it would kind of sound like a lie, even to the fans that know i'm adopted." it's still funny, though, and like seoyoung said, understandable.

strangely, luna hasn't thought too much about traveling the world since becoming a member of luxe. it's ironic, considering this is her greatest opportunity to after remaining stuck in seoul for years. she grins, wider than ever, at the thought of returning to the city she considered home more than anywhere else, leading her luxe sisters to all of her favorite spots. thinking about it now, she can't wait until luxe gets to travel the world together, and she can return to cities only in her distant memories. "i can't wait," she says, smile still on her face. "i've traveled a lot, so hopefully i can be tour guide in lots of places we go."

she's happy to show seoyoung the pictures, too, even as her eyes widen in brief surprise. "yeah, of course!" she reaches for the box, and subsequently the photo album, quickly, then scoots even closer to seoyoung so she can see. "this is the one that really got me," luna says, pointing to the photo of all of them, including her deceased mother, in one picture. "my mother passed away before i could meet her. i never knew there was a picture of all of us together."

[rkashe]

「 Gryffindoom 」

yuzurk​:

luna’s apology is kind. yuzu returns it with a soft smile and a short wave of her hand. “dun mind it. yer trainin’ in a completely different wing than the trainees do now. I know cause I tried t'find ella eonni n’ zoe eonni before n’ got super lost in the process,” the dancer admits with her tongue extended mischievously. her sense of navigation could only be so good in an environment completely unknown to her.

at being put on the back bench however, the younger female clutched her chest dramatically. “ahh I thought what we had was special eonni… my poor heart…,” she plays it up dramatically, having no issue switching from serious to crazy in a matter of seconds.

“it’s yuzu doe. I prefer t'go by yuzu. ’s my most common nickname, even if korean’s struggle with the ‘zu’ a lil. I’d rather be yuju than yena. ’s a personal preference thing, I guess.”

luna can never decide whether it's unfortunate to train so far from the trainees or not. on one hand, the sense of separation is nice, like a vip treatment, a reminder that she isn't one anymore after so many years. on the other, it does keep her away from other people. it does feel like a shame to not be able to really get to know the others that work under royal considering her ultimate unfamiliarity with the company after being tossed into it so suddenly. of course, she could probably meet everyone if she made more of a conscious effort to, but idol training left her busy, and tired, and sometimes luxe felt like all of the people she needed. living with so many girls ensured her social quota was met, even for someone as outgoing as luna.

"just one of many..." she sighs wistfully, speaking of her numerous fans, of course. she almost feels full of herself for it, but it's just...true. " i have something special with lots of people," and she nods solemnly. "i hope you can understand and find peace with it." luna was never that interested in acting, but she isn't too bad at selling a joke.

she nods again. "yuzu," she repeats, saving the name to her memory. "how did you get that nickname?"

[rkashe]

do it for the girls,

rkjisoo·:

( ☾ )

jisoo laughs a little as she nods her head in agreement. “that’s true, we never really know what kind of plans they would pull out.” it can be just about as shocking as their past decisions or not at all but she supposes that is a part never being in the know. they are left to make assumptions only to be railroaded by something else entirely. “it would be nice to be a part of the group though, i’m not going to lie.” she says after some consideration. “i mean you and seolhyun are there so it wouldn’t be completely unfamiliar but aside from that, i think it would be great to finally witness the fruit of my labor. just to let me know i’m actually doing something worthwhile here.” those were the full and honest extent of her thoughts; words she’s unafraid to let go only because it’s luna who she’s sharing it with. 

“it’s okay. i think can stick around for a couple more minutes.” she smiles. the worst they can do if they catch her slacking off would probably be just a few extra rounds at the treadmill or whatever they can concoct for her that day.

luna laughs. she understands that concept of wanting to stay at home. "me too. i can't believe i've become that person." she used to be such a social butterfly-- so restless, to use jisoo's word from earlier. she almost left sphere because of it, but she's glad she stuck it out now, and glad she mellowed out a little too. sometimes she still misses all of the partying and stupid decisions and hook ups, but she's glad she managed to avoid enough trouble to ensure her a successful career. here she is now, multiple music show wins and a viral fancam under her belt. she would say who could've guessed? but really, she could have. she was always determined to succeed from the start, and luna has never lacked much confidence. "maybe we should go see a musical together or something," she suggests. "i'm way behind on them. i don't think it would hurt for me to be seen there, as long as i don't have anywhere else i should be."

inconspicuous spots also sound like boring spots, but as a celebrity (it still feels a little strange) she should probably take what she can get, or at the very least carefully analyze where she'd like to inevitably get recognized. watching a musical seems fine. getting coffee with her ex? not so fine. of course, she never did that. of course not. who knows. maybe they would find somewhere nice. finding a secret spot could be fun in itself. "we could try to find inconspicuous places too. i could probably use more of those."

luna will give royal credit for their unpredictability. even in all of her dreaming of debut, she never imagined it would be under a company under sphere, at least after she signed with them. it always felt like her options were sphere or leave and go home. seo jisub apparently had different plans, and she thinks she'll always be grateful to him for that. "who would've guessed i would be an idol under royal, right?" she comments with a smile, a rhetorical question, because luna suspects the answer is nobody. part of it still feels wrong: royal benefitting off of her after she trained with sphere for so many years. she has to frequently remind herself that sending her to royal was baek jiyoung's decision too. she knew it would be to her benefit, and luna agrees.

jisoo's utmost honesty comes out, and luna nods along. "i think you would fit well," but maybe she's biased. couldn't anyone that wanted to be a part of the group fit, so long as they were willing to put the effort in to do so? jisoo was a good actress, too. luna had faith she could pull off any concept, even if she hated it. "but that would mean someone would have to leave, probably, and that isn't ideal," she laughs lightly. "but maybe seo jisub would want to add someone randomly. there used to be more members of luxe than there are now. it could be nice." she already has a close friend in naeun in the group. having jisoo join her would be a dream.

luna smiles back. she has half a mind to ask her if she wants to skip training altogether. maybe, in the end, luna hasn't changed that much after all. she doesn't, though, and instead just smiles. "i'm worth getting in trouble for anyway, right?"

[rkella]

role playing.

Based on what they saw of the storyboard and how their ‘Ah Yeah’ music video would go, Seolhyun was going to be the sweet, maybe passive kind of person when speaking to a man while Euijin’s character would be the complete opposite of that. Whatever aggressive thoughts someone may think about this relationship, Euijin’s would have no hesitation to show with her words and her body language (though with her experience, Seolhyun also knew that Euijin would act like this regularly too). It was an amusing turn of personalities, but Seolhyun wouldn’t say that she was as ‘passive’ as her character in this music video. At least it meant cute outfits.

With Seolhyun’s part as a news anchor finished, the directors moved on to get it ready for Euijin’s side of the scene while filming another member. It was resting time, or rather a play time, for the others, so Seolhyun took her spot again behind the news anchor’s desk. “Euijin ah, you should come over here,” she said while patting the empty chair next to her. She complimented the red dress that the other was wearing and settled into her chair. 

“I feel like a professional sitting here. Like I want to look straight at the camera and have a go at being a reporter.” Seolhyun pointed towards the prop studio camera pointed at them and then cleared her throat, speaking with as formal a voice as she could. “In recent events in the Luxe dorm, main rapper Ashe-ssi, was allegedly shouting expletives at the TV screen when she lost a match of Overwatch. The other members reported with, quote, ‘This is normal from her.’ end quote. The action still raised concerns of Ashe’s well-being. Something like that.”

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[rkashe]

as seems to be typical with luxe, luna loves their music video. judging by the concept the director laid out for them, it’ll be a clever commentary on the sexualization of the music industry, which luna finds fitting for a group relying so heavily on sex appeal in their concepts. luna has never been mad about that, surprisingly, for as outspoken as she's been about feminism. there's objectification in it; sex sells, after all, and that's the only reason royal has them do what they do. luna, however, paints it as power, and if she's going to get sexualized anyway (she will) she'd rather be upfront about it, opposed to being forced into a cute concept. 

she hopes this song will be as successful as up&down was, though she doesn't want her expectations to be too high. she thinks it might be hard to top their last single, even if ah yeah sounds a lot like it. if it isn't broken don't fix it, she supposes. it's the only thing she's a little disappointed in from this comeback so far.

seolhyun calls her over from where she was chatting with a staff member, and luna happily goes over. when seolhyun wants her attention on a music video set, it's usually for something fun, or a good distraction at the very least. she always appreciates it, as someone with a short attention span that's bored a little too easily. watching the other girls film occupies her time better than she ever expects, but socializing is always more successful.

she sits down as requested, and grins and thanks her groupmate for the compliment. their outfits do, for lack of a better term, kind of slap (as usual.) "i feel like a businesswoman in my other scenes too," she laughs. "like i'm the boss and my worthless employee broke the copy machine so i'm chewing him out. maybe he even hit on me. either way, he deserves it! these have a similar feeling. it's fun." luna always enjoys the opportunity to yell at a man. it reminds her of when she stepped on one at the end of the year shows. hopefully they enjoy it too, and think it's an honor to be mistreated by ashe of luxe.

she listens to seolhyun's mock reporting, then laughs. "i should release a statement," she decides. "'i can't help that the my teammate was was trash,'" she laughs again. "that's it. man, i would get in a scandal over something like that, wouldn't i?" realistically, there's a lot she could get in a scandal for.

[rkashe]

` where the heart is ━ *

rkyena·:

as euijin shares her experience, seoyoung nods sympathetically, trying to imagine it. in a way, euijin’s life is the opposite of hers. being raised in another country and having to search for her family… it’d be a great burden for any young woman, and something that takes great bravery and strength, she thinks. out of all the millions of people in south korea, to find one’s family was a remarkable feat. “i hope it was worth it,” she says, wondering. “i mean, i’m sure it was worth it to find your sister. but the rest of your family. i hope everything’s worked out with them.

“uh…” seoyoung pauses. “yeah.” she is an only child, technically, though it’s hard to even think of herself as being anyone’s child anymore. “unfortunately,” she adds with a small, pained laugh. “my parents… well, they put a lot of expectations on me because of that. and i wasn’t really able to live up to them, so…” she pauses again. “we don’t talk anymore.”

she raises her eyebrows high. five siblings?! “oh my gosh, that’s a huge family! how lucky you are.” seoyoung smiles. she really does think euijin is lucky. even if having that many siblings might be an annoyance at times, it must be so amazing. how could you ever feel alone? “ah, and you’re the oldest? wow, that must have been a lot. i’m sure you took great care of the little ones, though.”

i hope it was worth it. those words stick with her, because she's thought the same many times. she thought those words over and over during her time at sphere. it was worth it to fine sunmi, but she could've done that with only three years in korea, then reunited with her family, traveling around the world some more. on the other hand, she wouldn't have built the family she did here in that time: sunmi's family, now hers by extension. she also came to terms with the fact that she couldn't live that life forever. eventually, she would need to start her own, and stop freeloading off of her parents, and she had no secondary education and no dream job other than performing.

she stuck it out, and here she is, luxe's ashe. when she stood on her debut stage, it felt like everything was worth it. she never takes it for granted for a day. can she say it with her whole heart? there's the smallest doubt, but still, she says, "it was," with a smile. "worth it to find sunmi and luxe." maybe with only one it wouldn't have been. she will always have to come to terms with the fact that she has been gone for half the lives of some of her siblings, that her youngest brother may not even remember her, that she will not be able to celebrate the twins' graduation or watch them grow up and live their own lives.

it makes her chest feel tight again. most of the time, she doesn't regret the choice she made anymore, but it is such a sacrifice to make.

she hears the strain in seoyoung's voice, and looks over to her, listening, a little glad for the distraction from her own thoughts even if it's at the cost of some of seoyoung's peace of mind. her words are saddening, and luna frowns. she can't imagine being estranged from her family, even with the physical distance between them. they are her heart; both of her families are. "well, they're missing out," luna decides, and she slings her arm around seoyoung in a half hug, rubbing her arm quickly before letting go.

she grins and nods. she does consider herself lucky, even if the rest of seoyoung's statement is a bittersweet one, smile growing more nostalgic, eyes a little more distant. "i miss them." she focuses again, smile widening. "but they're happy for me, and proud of me. kpop is really big in the states now. apparently they brag about me being their sister all the time."

[rkashe]

rkjinwook​:

sms |  ashe 😼💥 sms |  I think so too 😸😸😸 Who knew in 2020…. sms |  The choreo is pretty and the bside is good too so watch both our stages tmrw!! sms |  Oh? I think ours goes til oct? 👀👀 sms |  Don’t worry, it’s not like i leaked half our album to u or anything.. 😇 sms |  Thanks tho, I feel good about this one..? 😳😳 Everyone worked hard..

( text → jinwook 🙀🐥: ) * the year our lord 2020 * okay i will!! i’ve been watching the music shows anyway for sunmi and now de:code is back too and i have to support them out of obligation and also because i love baekhyun and he deserves support always 😤  * i don’t know who i hope wins 😔  * [image attached] * okay maybe i’ll see you then! and i’ll push you on the ending stage and cause a scandal * i would leak our album to you too if i had anything on it but i don’t 😔 it’s a really good album though. i think some of the other tracks are better than the title but you didn’t hear that from me * #convexallkill let’s go

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「 Gryffindoom 」

yuzurk·:

not in a million years had she expected for the female to just say ‘okay’. once she did though, yuzu understood what her cousin meant with them being similar. the streamer felt her chest immediately swell over with another new wave of fangirling emotions right then and there. 

instead of squealing out though, she snapped her fingers and tilted her head while clicking her tongue. “right. I knew there was somethin’ I been forgettin’,” the new trainee counters with ease before mirroring the smile right back to show off her squishy, chubby cheeks with no shame. 

“t’bad yer too busy t’actually lemme take ya to that organic cafe in our fancy company buildin’,” yuzu complains with an exaggerated sigh, pout settling onto her lips. “I’m sure we gon’ make it work somehow. my feelin’s are true n’ just after all. ain’t no one love ya as genuine as I can,” the girl continues to string the charade along, managing to stop herself from laughing and instead winks at the idol.

yena seems like quite the character. luna can appreciate an energetic person any day of the week. people that are too serious and can’t take a joke bore luna immensely, but even from speaking to her for about 30 seconds, luna can tell that won’t be a problem with yena. (what name does she go by? she knows it isn’t yena. hell, she doesn’t remember. she’ll ask.)

luna smiles back at her, and nods sagely. her next words confirm she is indeed a royal trainee, however, and luna’s smile turns softer. “so you are a royal trainee,” she muses aloud. “sorry we haven’t met until now.” it’s kind of a funny situation. she trains in the same building as yena, with only a certain amount of people, and yet this is where they meet. it’s both a surprise and isn’t at the same time. jieun knows good people.

“i don’t know,” luna hums in protest, letting her eyes wander away from yena nonchalantly. “you have a lot of competition.” even in the form of a joke, luna will make any of her potential suitors work for it. “i’m not an easy girl to tie down.” she remembers what she wanted to ask suddenly, so she adds, more seriously: “you’re yena, right? but you go by a different name. what is it again?”

[rkashe]

luxe august schedule ☽ all of august ☀ luxe’s first full length album!

nine songs is a lot to learn in one month, but it’s for good reason. their first full length album. as is often the case with comeback preparations, luna is overjoyed. she’s eager to dig into memorizing all of the lyrics, and listening to the demos of their new songs on repeat until it comes time to record them.

she likes too good to me. it’s a bouncy song, and it’s different than the usual love song. it’s one she can relate to more, about being the villain in a relationship with someone who treats you well, as the title suggests. luna has been that in relationships: the noncommittal one, the careless one, the cold one, so much so that many of her relationships were never real relationships at all. she thinks it’s refreshing, even as the message resonates with her. it’s not an uncomfortable feeling, rather, something she’s happy to be able to share with their fans. she’s sure other girls out there will understand it too.

she has mixed feelings about re-recording luxe’s old songs. they still don’t feel like hers; it still feels like she’s rapping xayah’s lines, and it’s something she thought she outgrew after their success with up&down. those feelings come rushing back though, but with it comes a little optimism. this is her chance to make them her own. luxe is reclaiming these for the current members. still, she imagines it must be bittersweet for naeun, seoyoung and seolhyun-- a reminder of the members they lost along the way, even if it’s representative of a new beginning of sorts, too.  

midnight is cute, but in an unconventional way as well, not a typical love song, but one luna thinks could apply to anyone that makes you feel less alone. 

ladi dadi and how why are her favorites on the album, though both also make her angry, because they’re exactly her type of song, and she wishes they were her songs. she wishes she would’ve written them. ladi dadi has the sort of brass sound she loves to use in songs, while how why has a punchy future-bass influenced chorus that she wishes she could’ve composed.

(”did you guys probe my brain to make these songs?” she jokingly asks the songwriters when it’s her turn to record the songs. “you know i would’ve written these.”)

it’s just evidence that they’re still more experienced and skilled than she is, and more motivation to work harder to write and compose more cool songs for their next album.

one thing is the typical ballad of the album-- or at least she thinks so when she first hears it. she’s pleasantly surprised when it picks up, even with its stereotypical  lyrics of heartbreak. there’s something refreshing about this too, though, in that the lyrics are sad with a more uplifting instrumental. she can appreciate it.

ultimately, she loves their first full album. she suspects she’d love it no matter what just for what it is, but it’s so much more exciting to be genuinely invested in all of the songs. they all have their charm, and she’s sure all of their fans will have a different favorite. more than anything, she’s grateful to be a part of this milestone with the other luxe girls. luxe’s first full length album. it’s not just their first one with ashe, but their first one altogether, and all the raps will be hers this time.

she can’t wait to share it with all of their fans (even if there isn’t a song she wrote on this one.)

[rkashe]

` where the heart is ━ *

rkyena·:

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as euijin relates her bizarre experience, seoyoung’s mouth drops open in shock. “oh… my god. that’s… like something from a drama. i wouldn’t even believe it.” to learn something so suddenly that could turn your world upside down? she might faint. “that’s incredible luck. or fate. or god, yeah.” she’s not exactly religious, but she certainly couldn’t think of a better explanation for something like that.

she rests her head on her knees, thoughts roaming. “i’m trying to imagine what i would do, but i really can’t,” seoyoung says, with a disbelieving laugh. “i used to dream of having a sister. i wanted it so much. maybe…” she trails off and sighs. maybe if my parents had another child, they wouldn’t have placed all their expectations on me. “well, i guess things happen for a reason. luxe is my family now, after all,” she says, mustering a small smile.

luna never turns down hugs, naturally affectionate, and she doesn't feel silly in her crying. she squeezes seoyoung back, and even if there's something inherently embarrassing about crying in front of other people, surely this will only bring them closer. that's something she would never turn down either, even if it meant sacrificing some of her pride.

she raises an eyebrow at seoyoung, then further dabs at her eyes, tears finally drying. she makes a mental note to hydrate extra for the day to make up for all of the lost water from crying. maybe seoyoung has a point, though. aside from the small physical resemblance she and sunmi share, they do seem to have a certain likeness in spirit. "maybe she knew even before we did," luna laughs. that's highly unlikely, but she likes to think sphere's ceo was happy to unite them. baek jiyoung was a kind woman for as long as luna knew her. thinking of her still makes her heart hurt a little. baek jiyoung lost both of them, too. she wonders if she's still happy for them now, having debuted outside of her hands.

she laughs again, nodding in agreement, because she and sunmi's story is an unlikely one, and a little hard to believe. maybe it's believable because it's so contrived. surely it has been done before so many times that drama writers could find a more dramatic way to reveal sibling relationships? "i actually came to korea to try to find my birth family. sphere was kind of just...a detour, but i ended up finding my family without even really trying." she shakes her head, still in a little disbelief herself.

she still hasn't met her dad. it's a topic she's afraid to broach, though she's sure her mother's husband would understand, angel of a man that he is. in the meantime, she'll keep putting it off. she's plenty busy with her career now. she doesn't feel the desperation to know like she once did. maybe it's thanks to the new family she gained after all.

"are you an only child?" she asks seoyoung, because she doesn't remember, though she's sure they talked about it before. "i don't remember," she admits with another smile. god, her skin is going to be terrible from all the crying, she realizes, but that's a problem for a euijin of a later time. "sunmi is my only blood sister-- that i know of --but i have five adopted siblings. i'm the oldest. i don't think i'd know who i would be if i wasn't a sister." seoyoung's words make luna grin, though. "and now i have four more sisters!"

[rkashe]

rkjinwook​:

sms |  ashe 💥 sms |  🙀😹😻😼😽😾😸  All are good to me!!! sms |  Yours is just “ashe 💥” do u want a cat too?

sms |  ashe 😼💥 sms |  Well I added one just in case 😼 sms |  I like sheep and llamas but 🐑🦙 aren’t as cute i think…. sms |  Oh .. does this mean u still aren’t leveled up in our fancafe?? My username has 🐥 it’s on all my posts !!

( text → jinwook 🙀: ) * kim “cat emoji” jinwook * sure give me a cat emoji what you have now is boring 😤 * 😻 * alright fair * pft you think i’m in your fancafea

( text → jinwook 🙀🐥: ) * i know i’ve literally messaged you about your fancafe posts before but pft...

[rkashe]

rkjinwook​:

sms |  ashe 💥 sms |  HAHAHAHA sms |  Is it because I’m 🐸🐸?? sms |  Naeun noona used to say i’m frog emoji but I think my image is still more duck these days…. 🤔🤔

( text → jinwook 🙀: ) * no it’s because you’re a dweeb * aren’t you 🙀🙀🙀?? * your contact name in my phone is “jinwook 🙀” * did she really... 🤔 i can’t really see either but i guess i’d agree more duck if i had to pick. i’m feeling like. sheep more though. or a llama but a nice one, like a stuffed llama not one that spits