Memento of Ours

; not exactly emotionless, but close Welcome to my potent thoughts. I post stuff which I thought is art but not. This blog will try to be as aesthetic as possible but will surely turn into a mess. Hopeless romanticism will also fill this. Be ready to cringe.

[rlyne]

trying to keep up with my flatlay skills again. i was gone for like a couple of years already and i think i don't have "it" anymore. i think i ran out of creative juices and stuff. i also can't write anymore. i used to be so eager to do this and that but at a certain point in my life, i feel like i can't do anything anymore. i feel useless again. i feel super frustrated. :< today is Easter Sunday and it symbolizes a new start, a beautiful beginning. i will try my best to start anew and feel more alive again. happy easter everyone. 💙 wishing also that this crisis will end. let's all be safe and healthy. #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs #rlynelovesfood #flatlays #flatlayph (at Manila, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-3wGCgjkue/?igshid=1bv0q5sbmang8

[rlyne]

Following the path of clouds, on the other side, will our old selves still be there? And I know that I can’t turn back time or hold onto you and bring you back....  -Flower, iKON #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs #flatlays #flatlayph #kpopflatlay #kpop #yg #ikon (at Manila, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/B-l4Wf4D5F7/?igshid=1kjlsbk589unl

[suenghun]

[181125] noa’s ig live  (©)

[rlyne]

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[rlyne]

The Great Seungri indeed!! @seungriseyo #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs #kpop #ygentertainment #kpopflatlay #seungri #bigbang (at Manila, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/BrcxFvxHJQq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1s8y9w9d5mpaw

[rlyne]

Celebrated 11:11 Like It's my BDAY: iKON Continue Tour in Manila

I don't know where to start but *fangirl squeals*

One of the best concert I've been so far! iKON really leveled Big Bang in my heart. This has been a very memorable night for me. Though I went alone, I still had the best time of my life. I really did not anticipate a close interaction. I just wanted to see them up close and hear them live. Being on the mosh pit is always the best decision I always had. It was so fun andhyped.

Also, I think this is the first time I participated on a successful fanprojects (LOL. PH fans are not good with this esp YG PH stans.) Everytime I hear BDAY which is a very hype song, I get teary eyed. It is so weird. This is the worse Post Concert Depression I ever had after Big Bang Alive Tour.

All of them really look great in person. Who said they are not a visual group? They are a visual group! Aside from the visuals, their stage charisma is undeniable. Hanbin is really charismatic everytime he performs! Bobby is always smiling and looks really having on stage. He is so charming. Jinhwan being flirty as always with glowing skin. Dong always the sexy DK. Yunhyeong as always deserves the fanservice king award and

Junhoe...Yes Juneeyaaa is so freakin' gorgeous with his amazing live vocals and baby Chanwoo who charmed my noona heart. I just can’t believe it.

Seeing them for the first time really awed me. I know that all of them enjoyed performing in front of these very hyped people. I felt that I am not on a concert but on a party in a huge club! I really have a lot to say but I can’t put it up in words. All I know is that

I need to see iKON again! And they deserve all the love they are getting right now. I am sure Manila has a sure spot on their next concert tour. I am looking forward to that!

[rlyne]

Hey guys!! Here's my video for iKON in Manila. I hope you guys like it. ❤

[rlyne]

Hello guys!! You might want to check out my video for my Winner in Manila concert experience. I am a newbie in video editing but I tried my best to compile all my clips in a nice way. I also have a vide for iKON in Manila. I will be posting it next. I hope you like my video. 💙 Thank you in advance.

[rlyne]

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Here is a snippet of my Winner Everywhere Tour in Manila video 💙 You might want to check it on my Youtube Channel!^^ Just click on the link on my profile. ^^ #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs #rlynevlogs #winner #WINNERINMANILA #WINNEREVERYWHERETOURMANILA (at Manila, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqUZHDfHyo_/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=eb18aoz2yf7t

[rlyne]

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My iKON Continue Tour video is up^^ You might want to check out my Youtube Channel. I also uploaded my Winner Everywhere Tour in Manila video today. Snippet on my next post. Click the link on my profile to direct you on my channel!! 🖖❤ #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs #rlynevlogs #iKONinManila #ikoncontinuetourinmanila (at Manila, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/BqUX6xXnDh-/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=b84y84rcp2wi

[rlyne]

A Special Night with Winner: Winner Everywhere Tour in Manila

Started my last weekend with an amazing night with Winner. Mino, Yoon, Hoony, and Jinu again graced Manila with their unique performances after their first Manila event during 2NE1's All Or Nothing Tour in the Philippines few years ago.

I didn't plan to attend but I have no regrets. It was definitely worth attending. Winner's vocals is really mesmerizing like I am still listening to their official audio. I left the arena with a happy heart full of love for the group. 💙

Honestly, I lie low in stanning them since Nam Taehyun left but I continue still supporting their music. There was a part of the ment wherein Yoon mentioned their first time in Manila as OT5 and it made me cry. I miss themas five. :( But being a four member group doesn't made them less charming . I can really attest that they are really performers with a heart.

Winner's color is different from the the usual YG style but still Winner managed to hype the crowd with their powerful vocals and overflowing charms. It was really fascinatng to watch them because their vocals arereally exactly the voices you hear on their official audio. Though I opted to buy the cheaper seat, I still enjoy the experience so much and I want todo it again. Next time I will probably see them upclose.

Each members' solo performance left me in awe. Mino with his hot performance of Body, Yoon with his undeniable power vocals, Jinu with hisemotional rendition of GDragon's Untitled and Hoon's sexy Ringa Linga dance. Every body owns the stage.

One more thing that I want to commend is the aesthetic graphics on each performance. Winner's creative team is jjang!

This is definitely one of the best weekend I had for this year. I will probably going to see Winner again soon!

PS. I had a hard time opening the gorgeous Winner lightstick. This was the stressful part of my Winner concert. haha

[rlyne]

Happy Anniversary to my babies!! @withikonic 💙💙 I so love you guys since your Team B days and love you more with the addition of the cutie maknae @chan_w000 . You guys worked hard and you deserved all the love you are receiving. Thank you for keeping me sane during my downtime. I love you guys and see you in November!! #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs #flatlays #kpopflatlay #flatlaysph #kpop #ikon #ygfamily (at Manila, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/BnyUqSUla6q/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=183hhl33irgky

[rlyne]

떠나지 마 just stay 지금 이 시간을 멈춘 채 너와 eh 함께라면 난 I could die in this moment Forever young~~ #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs #flatlayph #flatlays #kpopflatlay #kpop #blackpink #ygfamily #rosé #squareup (at Manila, Philippines) https://www.instagram.com/p/Bm75TmzlgiH/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1lhuy63ph2itn

[rlyne]

Hello guys! It's been a while! I've been to a temporary hiatus because of some unfortunate and saddening events in my life. These past few weeks has been very depressing for me. I never expected that everything will happen very quick. As much as I want to share some of my photos afterwards, I lack the enthusiasm to do so. But I am trying my best to get my feet back and be inspired again. I am very grateful to all the people who's been with me during one of my darkest times. To my sister who's been stronger than me as ever, my cousins, aunts and uncles. Salamat! And to my friends and collegues,for their warm embraces 감사함니다! 💙 Winter for me is almost over. Though for some of you spring is blooming, for me it's just starting. P.S. I miss you Mama. You've been my audience eversince I started doing these flatlayouts and photography. Inspire me and cheer me more up there! I love you. #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #rlyneblogs (at Manila, Philippines)

[rlyne]

In February, I hope there is everything to hope for and nothing to regret. Though it is the shortest month of the year, let's make the most out of it. Happy February!! #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #flatlay #simpleflatlay #pinterest #calendarflatlay #rlyneblogs (at Manila, Philippines)

[rlyne]

Trying out Laneige Delight Pops Two Tone Lip Bar. It looks really pretty! The new Two Tone Tint Lip Bars are formulated with Moisture Wrap technology, which is also used in the Lip Sleeping Mask. They are equipped with moisture and hydrates the lips. I think I got No. 8 which is the Cherry Milk shade. Will post a review soon! I've been kinda busy these past few days but I will try to cope up!! ^-^ #instapic #instagood #instadaily #instaphoto #vsco #vscogood #vscofood #vscophoto #vscodaily #vscomanila #vscogramph #vscogram #foodgasm #instagrammerph #cosrx #laneige #shelim #kbeauty #kbeautyph #kbeautymnl #rlyneblogs (at Manila, Philippines)

[rlyne]

Saying Goodbye to 2017

While a lot of people are posting their gratefulness to the year has been, I on the other hand can't fully express my thankfulness. Half of my year has been really tough. I never thought that I was able to handle such burdens. It seems like I am too young to handle everything in my shoulder. Every aspect of my life burst like a balloon filled with water that splashed directly on my face.

My family is just small. I only have my mom, sister and my late auntie who raised us up. Unfortunately, she left us suddenly. Her passing is like a punch on my heart that until now aches so badly. She has been our pillar eversince. I relied on her so much emotionallly, spiritually... especially during the times that we discovered that my mom has cancer this year. I never thought that she will be gone too soon. Lots of regrets is in my heart right now. I should've learned more from her and I should've have showed her how much I care for her. But yes, regret is always at the end.

With all these load in my luggage, I am already at the verge of breaking down. I was suicidal... meaning having the thoughts of ending my life and the eagerness to die. I've been anxious on everything bad that might happen again. People around me haven't notice I guess since I am putting a good show of being positive and happy like I was before. It is so difficult for me since I can't cry anymore and this is the time that I need to be strong. Up until now I am still lost. Everything's piling up- financially, emotionally, psychologically. I know I am the one who can only help myself at this point in time. I thought that if I die suddenly, who will look after my mom? Thoughts are still there but I am fighting that demon inside.

There are a lot of times that I want to be alone. I've been pushing away friends who try to reach out and also I am avoiding talks about my aweful life. I became anti social but I am hating the feeling of being without anyone or anything else.

Up until now, I am fighting my own battle with life. I am trying my best to put on a smile and be positive. My relationship with Him has been shattered too and I don't know how to keep up again. I feel ashamed to reach out since I neglected His presence. Spiritually, I am so lost.

This might sound cliche but I wish that 2018 will really be good to me. I am so tired now and I want to lessen the weight I am carrying. Wishing everyone who's struggling the same as me to keep up with life too. Happy New Year, everyone.

[rlyne]

Thank you @pepero_ph for the loot bag!! 잘 먹겠습니다!! Me and the kids in the house will enjoy this!! ^-^ #peperoph (at Manila, Philippines)