a heroic tragedy

Robin McNair, 31, District 10 Mentor. "There's a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't 'cause I thought I'd be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love and then you don't have it? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying."

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Sleep would really be nice now.

[jethro-brook-blog]

But Robin, I’d never lie.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

I really hope you wouldn't.

[felix--shea-blog]

Damn, last one.

[felix--shea-blog]

Too late to take any of those ideas back. Either stick around and enjoy the show, or hide on your floor.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

I don't think hiding on my own floor is a much better idea than sticking around. Maybe I should just try to escape the reach of this building.

[nate-district-seven]

I'm sorry I'm still half asleep what did you say?

[nate-district-seven]

"One sleepy mentor at a time."

"Not really I just haven’t woken up properly yet."

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Wonder what this place would look like if we were all sleepy at the same time, yeah. But well, being half-asleep is way better than not being asleep at all.

[felix--shea-blog]

Damn, last one.

[felix--shea-blog]

Let the building collapse? You’re thinking way ahead of me.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Maybe that means I should stop voicing such thoughts in front of you, I'll only give you bad ideas.

[felix--shea-blog]

Damn, last one.

[felix--shea-blog]

Usually all my ideas are pretty funny. Relax, you don’t have to be a part of it after all.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

But if you, for example, let the building collapse, I'll have to deal with the consequences.

[nate-district-seven]

I'm sorry I'm still half asleep what did you say?

[nate-district-seven]

"Oh… Oh right, wow I’m more out of it than I thought. Thank you.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

No problem. Always here to save lives, right?

Anything special that kept you up last night?

[felix--shea-blog]

Damn, last one.

[felix--shea-blog]

Yes, but now it is one. If I spent my life on good ideas, I wouldn’t have any fun.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

A lot of good ideas can be very funny, you know. You just have to find the right ones. Which are not doing stupid things in the Capitol.

[felix--shea-blog]

Damn, last one.

[felix--shea-blog]

Now there’s an idea, nice suggestion, Robin. Where should I start is the question.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

What? That wasn't really an idea, Felix. It was a joke. I'm pretty sure that's not a good idea.

[felix--shea-blog]

Damn, last one.

[felix--shea-blog]

Five-ish, give or take a few shots.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

That's... not too bad. As long as you don't throw the whole training center into chaos.

[felix--shea-blog]

Damn, last one.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Enjoying the Capitol booze? How many did you have already?

[nate-district-seven]

I'm sorry I'm still half asleep what did you say?

[robin-mcnair-blog]

That you're nearly running against that wall there. Could also be because you're still half asleep.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Sleep would really be nice now.

[fallenserena-blog]

I stopped caring or even thinking about the games at all about two years ago. Nightmares haven’t come back since…but I never took a life by pure blunt force either, which I’m sure has much harsher lasting effects.

It is, actually. Reliving the entire process, year after year until I’m old and grey…I don’t— and even if there is is another victor from my district, there’s no guaranteeing it will be a girl.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

I wish I could do the same, to be honest. But stop caring while teenagers kill each other underneath my palms? That's not really my thing, I'm afraid. Even if I'd want it sometimes.

That's the problem. There hasn't been a male victor since me, why should I expect another one anytime soon? Even if I really hope for it, the hope will only destroy me in the end. But hey, we should still be grateful that we're alive in the end.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Sleep would really be nice now.

[fallenserena-blog]

What do you think keeps you up?

Wow. That’s a long time. Sometimes I feel as though I might be mentoring until I’m 70…and then I realized that’s an actual possibility.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Nightmares, mostly. Nightmares and memories.

Scary thought, isn't it? I think I already got used to that one. You never know when your next victor might come along, and I think I gave up hope on getting out of this business about ten years ago.

[moonchild30]

You only have about 15 minutes left, at best. Then he’s gonna want nap time.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Sleep would really be nice now.

[jethro-brook-blog]

I believe I did the majority of the training last night.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Stop being so whiny. That's not true.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Sleep would really be nice now.

[fallenserena-blog]

Ah yes, that does sound a bit problematic now that you mention it.

Do you get tired of the same old yearly routine? How long have you been a mentor now?

[robin-mcnair-blog]

I do. It's very tiring, to be honest, so it's a surprise that sleep doesn't want to come that easily around here. Well, this year is my 16th one.

[robin-mcnair-blog]

Sleep would really be nice now.

[fallenserena-blog]

Who needs sleep when you’ve got the caffeine and adrenaline from the Capitol running through your veins?

[robin-mcnair-blog]

I do. Very much so. Unfortunately I can't live two weeks without a minute of sleep, and neither caffeine nor adrenaline do the trick for me.