Til the day I die

sideblog for JP. ooc info only.

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Just very done with people hating on people I care about. Josh and Kells don't deserve a bit of it.

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ugh

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Points 2/10: 114

New muse +20 New conversations + 14 (josh dun, elijah lahey, kells, John o’ callaghan, sean mcloughlin, mackenzie grande, blake harnage ) Selfies + 20 (josh, blake, mackenzie, elijah) Plots +30 (elijah, blake, kells) New friends + 10 (kells, mackenzie, sean, elijah, josh) Past/New romantic plot(s) + 20 - mackenzie and Rook were set up on a blind date about a year ago, are now just friends. - Rook flirts with elijah, it’s casual. Plot details: ex best friends w/ Blake, moved apart and are beginning to reconnect. Blake knows about Rook’s camming but has yet to confront him about it. Kells and Rook are best friends. So much that it gets problematic when Kells gets protective of the younger. Mackenzie and Rook are good friends after being set up on a blind date in the past, they’ve been confidants in the fact they’re both a little gay.

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Lol why'd I do that

[ilovesmoothjazz1998]

reblog in 45 seconds to have a slutty little night

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Mr. Lonely plays in the distance

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LMFAOOOOOO

[maybeantonioj]

IM DEAD

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Drunk. Time to cam. I'm usually happiest then.

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My two best friends are getting married in t minus 5 days

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recycling. ignore everything below this.

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I'm numb. Trump is our president. This doesn't feel real. Important documents for the lbgtq community as well as black people have disappeared from the white house and that scares me. Being a openly gay man in this country right now scares me. My two best friends are getting married in less than three weeks and I don't even know what's going to happen. Will Trump repeal gay marriage? What about all the strides the lbgtq community has made? Civil rights documents disappeared from the white house. What does this mean for all of my black friends? I'm scared and numb and angry and I don't know what to do. So I'll drink. Because what else is there to do?

[c-ptsdofficial]

me: *wakes up*

self hatred: *fuckin decks me*

[bugtears-deactivated20150413]

I get jealous really easily but not like an angry vengeful jealous more like a really sad lonely jealous because everybody likes everybody more than they like me and I really really don’t blame them. 

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Lmao kells just told me Josh pushed me away because I wasn't "good enough to be friends with josh dun". That's a wonderful fucking feeling. Nice. Now I really might move out. Or at least heavily consider it... I don't want to live with fake ass people. If he's got an issue with me just tell me instead of giving me a silent treatment.

[brklynbreed]

Stop chasing people. If they block you, cut off contact, ignore you… Let them go. Let those who naturally gravitate to you enjoy your energy. We spend so much time begging for those who wouldn’t blink twice at the thought of you. Cherish those who are there by choice, and not there because you chased them every time they decided to escape.

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Spent new year's alone. So I just got shit faced, because what else is there to do? I'm real tired of being alone all the time but I can't trust a single fucking person. I haven't talked to Kells or Josh in like a week. I'm back in Cali. I still have to flip this smack... I got rid of a little of it when I got back, but I'm still drowning in it and I want it gone asap so I don't have people breathing down my neck. I hate being at a thug's beck and call. I hate myself lately.