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[roryshope]

My heart hurts. Nor mentally nor physically can i deal with it all anymore. Chasing perfection is killing me. I do not know what to do with myself. My mind is haunting me with urges , I'm trying my best to not act on them.

I do not know why am I yapping here , idk what else to do, i don't know what or whom to look upto I do not know anything

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[chelseamotelno2]

i’ll never be able to form a solid opinion on my mother

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I can feel the urges rising back again. I'm afraid.

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Oh Lord, I'm tired. Tired of starting over again and again.

Oh Lord, I hate this feeling in my heart, as if it's going to explode.

Oh Lord, I crave for my mother to hold me, to care for me, to love me completely.

For me.

Just me.

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I wanted to bleed myself dry.

I wanted to die.

I couldn't. I'm still here.

Somehow,

through all the noise in my head,

through every restless night

and every aching morning,

I'm still here.

I look at the lily I got.

It brings me hope.

A quiet kind of hope,

soft and stubborn,

resting in fragile petals.

Hope.

Hope. Hope.

The word echoes through me

until I no longer know

whether it is a promise

or a curse.

Because hope asks me to stay

when I am tired.

It asks me to wait

when I want answers now.

The lily stands there,

silent and blooming,

unaware of the weight it carries.

And I keep looking at it,

wondering if healing begins

like this:

not with certainty,

not with joy,

but with a single flower

and a reason,

however small,

to see tomorrow.

Hope.

My biggest enemy.

My only companion.

[roryshope]

This attempt feels worse...

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I'm truly done with my life.

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Crocheting feels like home, speacially with my lana del rey songs and a car ride. My dream life

[dollygirlsposts]

Journal inspo from mine pt10

1. Lipstick stains drawn into flowers

2. Where do you feel your emotions?

3. Favourite kinds of

4. Thats so me

5. What does that girl look like to you

6. Whatever tf you wanna call this

7. Characters that look like me

8. Things I’ve posted/reblogged onto tumblr

9. Goals

10. Fig tree

11. Playlists

12. Me in 50 words

13. Myths/legends/folklore I like

14. 2026 bingo/bucket list/goals

15. Playlists

16. My different lives (lives I wish I could’ve lived)

17. Tracking mood based of the moon cycle

18. Having people write sweet messages in the front/back inside cover

19. Lookbooks (can do this with your own, Pinterest, vogue)

20. Vogue pages (cutting out things from my monthly vogue that i like)

21. Posters

22. What I bring to the table trend

23. Cake of wishes

[vanillye222]

[roryshope]

My pulse repulses

as I see shades of purple.

The lavender in the sky,

the lilac in the ocean,

the violet after the rain,

the skin underneath old scars.

Purple, purple, purple.

A color born from blue and red.

Blue, the ocean calling me under,

endless and aching,

and red, the fury beneath my ribs,

staining every thought it touches.

Between them,

purple blooms.

Purple is the color of my soul.

Purple is the color I cherish most.

Yet no ocean frightens me

as much as purple does.

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𝑼𝒍𝒕𝒓𝒂𝒗𝒊𝒐𝒍𝒆𝒏𝒄𝒆 (𝑫𝒆𝒍𝒖𝒙𝒆)

𝐋𝐚𝐧𝐚 𝐃𝐞𝐥 𝐑𝐞𝐲 • 2014

𝜗𝜚 ‧₊˚ ⊹ ˚⟡˖

1. 𝘾𝙧𝙪𝙚𝙡 𝙒𝙤𝙧𝙡𝙙

2. 𝙐𝙡𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙡𝙚𝙣𝙘𝙚

3. 𝙎𝙝𝙖𝙙𝙚𝙨 𝙊𝙛 𝘾𝙤𝙤𝙡

4. 𝘽𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙠𝙡𝙮𝙣 𝘽𝙖𝙗𝙮

5. 𝙒𝙚𝙨𝙩 𝘾𝙤𝙖𝙨𝙩

6. 𝙎𝙖𝙙 𝙂𝙞𝙧𝙡

7. 𝙋𝙧𝙚𝙩𝙩𝙮 𝙒𝙝𝙚𝙣 𝙔𝙤𝙪 𝘾𝙧𝙮

8. 𝙈𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙮 𝙋𝙤𝙬𝙚𝙧 𝙂𝙡𝙤𝙧𝙮

9. 𝙁𝙪𝙘𝙠𝙚𝙙 𝙈𝙮 𝙒𝙖𝙮 𝙐𝙥 𝙏𝙤 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙏𝙤𝙥

10. 𝙊𝙡𝙙 𝙈𝙤𝙣𝙚𝙮

11. 𝙏𝙝𝙚 𝙊𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙧 𝙒𝙤𝙢𝙖𝙣

12. 𝘽𝙡𝙖𝙘𝙠 𝘽𝙚𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙮

13. 𝙂𝙪𝙣𝙨 𝘼𝙣𝙙 𝙍𝙤𝙨𝙚𝙨

14. 𝙁𝙡𝙤𝙧𝙞𝙙𝙖 𝙆𝙞𝙡𝙤𝙨