a fallen leaf🍃

+ a random storyteller

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I would talk to the trees if I could. as I try to understand their melodies they've tried to send, though I don't get the signals. I'm at lost. same way as I was, when you left without saying a word. did we talk too much? that in our separation we were running out of voices. were we burned out in silence? that after our separation, we still have so many things unspoken. were we too excited? that in our separation I had no strength. were you really care about me? that in our separation, you didn't have any intention to stay.

[miftahulfikri]

“Kita memang tak sedang bermain-main, tetapi juga tidak menaruh harap yang begitu yakin.”

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for the one who has promised me a home,

I finally get to tell you about this.

home is not a place; home is a feeling

that I might not find in you

and maybe not in anyone else either.

now I belong to me; I'm home.

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if you shed tears, it's not because you're a woman

if you get hurt by him, it's not because he is a man

we are human; human can hurt; human can get hurt and cry

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a song and its story

I let myself to write this as I still feel the same way as I did on the first day we met. I'm writing this while listening to the song that he recommended me, saying that the song was all about me. I know it's late. after what we've been through. way too late I just listen to the song, now. but, I can feel the love through the song. it reminds me of the good old days. bet whenever I listen to this song, I would always remember those good memories, the day when he gave me his best, the day that he made me to be the best version of me. thanks to the song, I could forget the pain. it brightens my day. it helps. it works. ❤

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it happened.

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-best part- You don't know babe When you hold me And kiss me slowly It's the sweetest thing And it don't change If I had it my way You would know that you are You're the coffee that I need in the morning You're my sunshine in the rain when it's pouring Won't you give yourself to me Give it all, oh I just wanna see I just wanna see how beautiful you are You know that I see it I know you're a star Where you go I follow No matter how far If life is a movie Oh you're the best part, oh You're the best part~ *punteun. ini cuma mau nyobain nyanyik pake mic di headset baru aja kok. soalnya kalo dipake telfonan, kok mic nya ngajak gelut :3

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so u n r e a l

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best parts

the moment he convinces me to believe him. I'm in love.

the moment he grabs my hand tight when we cross the street. I'm in love.

the moment he pats me on the head and whispers "your hair smells so good", though I haven't washed my hair for 2 days. I'm in love.

the moment he puts his food on my plate. I'm in love.

the moment he fixes my hijab when it's in a mess. I'm in love.

the moment he wakes me up in the morning and saying good night before I sleep. I'm in love.

the moment he laughs. I'm in love.

the moment he tells me to stay. I'm in love.

the moment he keeps his promises. I'm in love.

I use present tense, as those things are still my favorite!

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Hey, you know what, what they've told me was right. What my heart tried to tell me was right. But I don't regret us. I don't.

- separation

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rasa yang tak bernama

aku lupa, kita bukanlah siapa-siapa.

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A lesson

This year taught me nothing but a lesson..

that even the ones that I hate don't deserve my hate.

that in the end I might regret every single step that I take, and end up hating my own self. knowing eventually no one can love me better than me. no one.

that I may seem scared of getting hurt by people, though in fact I'm scared of myself, that has a big chance of doing so.

that I stand strong but people might find a way to spot my weakness or always will.

    but this year also taught me,

  that there's no replacement of me to me.

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Maaf atas daya juangku yang tak sebesar rasa inginku

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Sebagian orang bersedia untuk disakiti dan dikhianati. berkali-kali.

me

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masala(h)lu mu

Kau boleh saja punya masa lalu, tapi kau selalu bercerita tentang itu kepada wanita yang kau sebut akan menjadi masa depanmu. Bukankah itu lucu?

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I wish I was the reason you laugh, you cry, your sleepless night, and your misery.

-because you are

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sebab-akibat

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