𝑨𝒓𝒕𝒔

𝙰𝚕𝚠𝚊𝚢𝚜 𝚁𝚎𝚖𝚎𝚖𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝚝𝚑𝚊𝚝 𝑳𝒊𝒇𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒂𝒏 𝑨𝒓𝒕 ♡ If you want to see some of my artworks, you can follow / add me on / visit these accounts: ➪𝑰𝒏𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒎: @𝚛𝚘𝚜𝚎𝚌𝚊𝚝_𝚊𝚛𝚝

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I might have a cold, called 'Love Sickness'.

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There was nothing between us, right? It was just the moment of us holding each others arms waiting and watching the dusk uncover the sun rise, but was there really something between us?

Now, it seems I found myself longing for you, yet I hate to think I've been feeling guilty not reaching out for you. Ghosting you was merely my defense mechanism for longing and hiding out of confusion, but why did it affected me so much for doing such a thing for you? For I've done it a couple of times to people who I don't want to disrupt my inner peace with.

Thinking about it, I've kept comparing you to someone who I've rejected for liking somebody who doesn't even like me back, and even wished that we could've been together if we tried.

I'm still confused right now, if I really did love you or was it the lonely hours that pushed us the corner.

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Ganahan nko mka uyab kronnnn 😩😩😩 like fr fr, plss kana lng crushie tawn nko oii

(for twitter)

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Daeee, idk what to do anymoree, seems like pampalipas oras rako nimo. Idk, feel lng nko na recently palang to nahitabo imong last rl then idk dli pa sad ko sure sa akong feelings towards nimo, dli ko ganahan e padayun, yet ganahan ko na ma clear akong intention towards nimo like in a way na dli intimate na relationship, pero daeee g mingaw namn kog uyab2 😩😩, red flag kay ka, pero feel sad nko na same rata nga red flag HAHAHA ambot oii, ari ra nko e dump akong frustrations 😞😞

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Ugly sobbing rn

Just finished reading berserk's last chapters, AHHHHHH I want to cry my heart out, i feel so sorry for guts, for trying so hard to protect casca, only to be snatched away from him by griffith!! UGHHHH been so emotionally attached to guts, for all the struggles and sacrifices he has done, it was like all for nothing... The moment he cried, can't hold myself from crying...

How i wish wanting somebody to talk about it.

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"Dream of us"

Ohh, How I wish

I wanted be yours

And you will be mine

We barely talked each other

I wished it lasted longer

Your presence before

What kept me going

When summer ends

Flowers bloomed

You inspired me

And kept me high

I should've held you

But the wheel has stopped

It made a distance

That were far to reach

It made me stop

To where I was

Yet, there you are

Kept going

Where life leads you

Maybe, that how our story ends

My dream of us

Was merely just a dream

Not meant to be true

Because you were never mine

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Loneliness and Linger

Felt sad

And empty

Slightly mad

But admittedly

Say that

I madly

Truly

Needed

Somebody's hand

To knead

This soul of mine

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Christmas 2022

I didn't feel the joy of Christmas this year.

I don't know why, but I just don't feel it.

Felt like it was just another ordinary day.

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Deep in thoughts

Got tired of doing nothing

I feel worthless right now

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Since I don't have twitter anymore, so I'll just move here in tumblr hehe

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Maybe I'll keep an update on how I messed things up here in tumblr haha

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It's been while since my last visit on my tumblr account, and I'm here to rant my emotions that I've bottled up in these past few days..

Now its 11 pm on the evening, just finished reading this letter for myself... I am totally ashamed of what I've done in these past few days... You know, for three months I've been working at Jollibee, and I do love my job there, and I am committed with my time working there and I sometimes managed my time to do some of my activities for school works, but I can't split my time for family, friends, and for myself. Been so focused on doing my job there and then on oct 23rd, I messed up really bad. I've done something that could terminate me from work... I've done it so careless and nonchalantly and not thinking of the possible consequences might happen to me. I've done something that made me regret... It's what they say, curiosity killed a cat... I am scared that I might lose my job because of it, but what scared me most right now is how should I face my parents after knowing what I did and I'm not ready to face that consequences... Just wanted to disappear right now, and wishing it was all just a dream... Wishing that it didn't happened... I don't know what will happen tomorrow, the decisions will be made at the hr, but I hope I can get my job back, I don't want to lose my job yet...

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Law of Attraction

Today, I hope my future self will read this note, maybe 5 years from now or so on. I know you are not really that active here in tumblr, I know how busy you are with your life right now, I know you are having trouble with your decision making. I hope you didn’t make decision that made you regret doing it. I hope that your making your younger self proud. I hope that you are now doing things that you enjoy doing it. Right now, I am thinking of pursuing architecture, and I hope when reading this old letter, you are now graduated from the career I chose, I hope that I did not make you regret choosing this course, because right now, I REALLY WANTED TO PURSUE ARCHITECTURE!!! You better keep yourself strong and don’t be swayed and I hope that you will bring me that far enough to achieve this goal of mine

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I wish I can be confident enough to express myself to society

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Talked to dad today,

I feel sorry for him, and I can't express my feelings in front of them.

I hope you trust me. I hope you don't put me much pressure for the career I chose that you think I might fail.

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If anything goes wrong,

I'm sorry mom

For not being able to become the child you want us to be

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Longer nights; Shorter days

Hoping we stay longer,

And keep our fights shorter.

Even though our distance got longer,

Our talks got shorter.

I can still wait that longer,

And hoping we'll stay together.