I hate that I'm happy for finance triggered weight loss
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Finally I'm down to 120.5lbs (54.6kg)
Due to difficult financial times so I haven't satisfied any cravings, even if I wanted to. Only spending where absolutely necessary, and mainly eating bead, jam, and coffee.
I've been trying since 2023 to loose weight by eating healthy and exercising at an attempt to improve overall as a person. But financial struggles are causing restrictions on my eating. Unlike my ed calorie or health based restrictions, it's based on costs and how long it'll last. Bread was a fear food because of the calories, but now I eat it because its 39p
I want to eat vegetables and fruits and proteins. I want calorie/health based restrictions not because it's all I can afford. My ed restrictions is an internal mental factor. But this is an external factor
I cannot help but rejoice over my weight loss despite going against my wishes to be healthy and improve overall. My ed is too grateful for being broke, that wishing that it happened years ago, and that it'd stay this way. Despite stressing over rent, bills, and travel, and despite how desperate I've become it get any money.
My ed is willing to do absolutely anything if it means I loose any amount of weight. Seeing such determination put into practice, honestly scares me so much.
But I have been successful in loosing weight