ut acerbus terminus

alex, 30, norway. he/they.

[dilililidi-deactivated20211120]

[thesecretlifeofmecfs]

Pain severity scale for chronic pain patients!

I always struggle with naming my pain #. After going through a couple occasions of 10/10 pain, I compare everything else to it. Even if my pain is very distressing there's this strange resistance/guilt to ever naming my pain above a 3 or 4.

[thiefking]

actually you know what that's exactly it i would rather someone add 5 parantheticals after every sentence than use tone indicators it's 1. accomplishing SO much more in terms of clarity 2. extremely funny to look at depending on how they're used

[thiefking]

observe:

"is this real? /gen" — i thought /gen meant "general" for ages. i would not be able to understand this on first sight a few years ago and is thus ineffective

"is this real? (genuine question)" — i fully understand this without issue

"is this real? (genuine question) (can't tell) (very realistic) (looks real) (scary) (photoshop?)" — is not only incredibly clear it's also very funny to read all of these thoughts stapled together while also in their own parentheses. it's also the most useful because now i can actually address all parts of what they are asking me with as much specificity as BOTH of us need

[olderthannetfic]

A New History of Fandom Purges

On November 24th, 2018, I posted a list of major deletions of sites or of content on sites that stripped fandom of its history. A bunch of pro-shipper blogs had just been deleted, and people were nervous. I suppose I was thinking “All this has happened before…”

On December 3rd, 2018, Tumblr’s Department of Irony announced the NSFW ban. Thanks for providing this salutary lesson to The Youth and a billion reblogs to me, I guess.

Today, we have AO3 for writing. Audio, images, and video are in as much danger as ever, yet fans attack AO3 every donation drive. For those of you who forget our past…

HERE IS WHAT HISTORY HAS TAUGHT US!

1992 - Chelsea Quinn Yarbro forces a zine to be destroyed

1995 - Viacom/Paramount goes after fansites

1995 - Anne Rice gets IWTV fic deleted everywhere

1997 - Fox and Lucasfilm go after fansites

1998 - AOL goes after X-Files fansites

2000 - Warner Brothers goes after Harry Potter fansites

2000 - Anne Rice anne rices again

2001 - Tripod Massacre

2001 - Anne Rice goes after IWTV fic on FFN

2001 - The Bronze shut down as Buffy changes networks

2002 - FFN bans porn

2002 - FFN bans RPF

2003 - Gryffindor Tower implodes

2004 - FFN bans script format

2005 - FFN bans CYOA, Readerfic, 2nd person, Songfic

2005 - Sheezyart bans adult content; y!gallery founded

2005 - Viacom/Paramount goes after fansites again

2006 - Sakura Lemon Archive suddenly closes

2007 - Strikethrough, Boldthrough on Livejournal

2007 - Youtube institutes Content ID, deleting many fanvids

2008 - Slash Cotillion closes, taking much historical m/m with it

2009 - GeoCities shuts down, taking old fannish websites

2009 - Greatestjournal shuts down; RPGs deleted

2009 - Marvel gets scans_daily deleted

2009 - imeem, major vidding hub, closes suddenly

2010 - FFN forums purged for inactivity

2010 - DeviantArt purges adult fanfic

2010 - Literate Union goes after Twilight fandom on FFN

2011 - Delicious destroyed by Yahoo’s incompetence

2011 - China arrests women for writing m/m; destroys danmei.org

2012 - major FFN crackdown on porn

2012 - Megaupload deleted for piracy; also destroys vids, podfic

2013 - Max-Dan-Wiz.com purged of fan-generated content

2014 - Quizilla shuts down

2014 - China purges m/m story websites; arrests female authors

2014 - Blip.tv deletes vids

2014 - Viddler deletes vids

2015 - Journalfen’s servers become fully robust, deleting Fandom Wank

2016 - y!Gallery deleted

2016 - Elfwood goes offline

2016 - Audiofic Archive corrupted; major blow to podfic

2017 - Chinese author jailed after being ratted out over fandom drama

2017 - Parents get queer Warrior Cats fic purged from Wattpad

2018 - Tumblr deletes pro-shipper blogs

2018 - Tumblr announces NSFW ban

2018 - Wattpad deletes accounts/fics without warning

2019 - China purges weibo of m/m; more women jailed

This is only a small taste of the many times that:

Fannish moderators got bored, ran out of money, or had a falling out, deleting a site/list/forum along the way.

Sites got bought out and closed for being unprofitable.

Fandom got hit as governments targeted piracy or political dissidents.

Fans grudge reported each other.

Official forums got deleted when the canon finished.

It’s not always malicious. It’s not always about us. But we lose every time.

Some of these purges hit everyone. Many of them hit m/m content specifically or female gaze-y material in general. This is why antis are dead wrong. This is why anti-fujoshi policies end up being anti-m/m policies. This is why we need clear labeling, not content restrictions.

This is why we need AO3.

And it’s why we need a solution for audio, visuals, and video too.

[totallysilvergirl]

So grateful for the historical memory and the long view on a phenomenon many of us have come to late, and/or take for granted.

And this is why AO3 generates twice its goal amount in just a few days: they are irreplaceable.

[findingfeather]

Also: they don’t have to be perfect to be irreplaceable, and they also don’t have to be perfect to be better than our other options.

(If you think you can make a better option, have at! Allez-y! Gods-speed! AO3 came out of people Just Doing It, so can your perfect ideal! But Also.)

[zaneclodon]

who else remembers thwomp night (estimated july 26, 2013) when everyone was posting mario 64 thwomp sound effect edits

[hiddency]

[horse-goodbyeee-deactivated2026]

randomly curious if im weird or if people are like me

if you're 20+ what do you usually watch on youtube?

influencers

commentary channels

video essays

music videos/solely for music

product/media reviews

secret 6th option (put in tags)

not 20+ / don't use youtube (results)

Voting ended onApr 15, 2023

[scribefindegil]

Types of brain fog:

Brain is primordial sludge & you are drowning in it

U are a ghost and nothing is real

Mental equivalent of attempting to stream some high-res video game when all you have is dial-up

The thing you want to articulate is *right there* but you're just scrabbling at it like a cat continually failing to catch the bird on the other side of the window

The Void

[churrotowns]

alex hirsch going rogue… king shit

[skrytch]

From the original thread

[headspace-hotel]

I MISSED THE KENTUCKY ONE OMG

[dduane]

(sigh) …Notes. 🤣

[deathgasmic]

men have those slutty veins in their hands and expect you not to lose a lil focus

[theocannibalism]

Have not stopped thinking about this picture I took of Tansy this morning

[theocannibalism]

plus cropped and rotated courtesy of one of my discord servers. absolute creature

[straycatj]

なかよくねるです

We're sleep together with love...

[mrscancelled-1]

[sketchdeath]

literally sleeping on a barbecue sauce

[only-cat-memes]

Your daily dose of cat memes

[fernsnailz]

guys. murder of sonic the hedgehog is really good

[wrathofthegiraffe]

In the vast world of comics, I wonder if there have been heroes with a “Groundhog Day,” type power. By that I specifically mean a hero who, if they die, immediately finds themselves waking up at the beginning of that day again. If they don’t die, they just continue forward through time.

I’m just thinking of how crazy it would be to have that hero on your super hero team. Like, you go to headquarters in the morning, and it seems like everything’s normal. But then you go to fire off a one liner, and they say it at the same time as you. And suddenly you know. Something went wrong.

And then one day you come in, and your heart drops as you see that their every move looks rehearsed. They answer questions before asked. They are totally aware of everything that’s about to happen. Imagine how scary that would be, realizing you’re starting a day that you’re team mate has failed to survive maybe dozens of times.

[wizardstan]

Sometimes he’ll walk up to you and just slap your sandwich out of your hand and say “don’t eat that” and you’re thinking, damn, what did that sandwich do to me? This was actually still the first time through the day, he just wanted to mess with you.

[ghost-cassette]

Majora’s Mask from everyone else’s perspective

[backgroundcheese]

haven't talked to @airshipcity in a million years but last night i had a dream they were coming to visit me while at the same time i was flying to visit them in norway and our planes passed each other

[airshipcity]

OH NOOO

[backgroundcheese]

the norwegian airport looked a lot like the dallas airport

[airshipcity]

maybe one day we'll finally compare airports in person....