Amends
This is a really weird letter to have to write to you guys, but I felt the need to write it anyway. I want to make amends with anybody who may be upset with me, or Manno, or Georgi for saying an official goodbye.
First, I'd like to say that Georgi did NOT leave because Manno and I left, and I really don't want you guys to think that. It's not my place to say why she left, but I promise it was for personal, good reasons that aren't my business to share.
As I'm sure a lot of have been told by now, a few of us have moved to a new roleplay. Something was said on the ooc blog, and some of the old NAHPRP members had a hunch that you guys weren't happy with us for moving to a different RP.
Please don't be personally insulted that some of us moved to another RP together. We never intended to hurt anybody or cause tension, or make anybody want to "punch us in the face" (assuming that was directed at us).
I really want to set one thing straight: Myself and Manno did not, in any way, mean to insult you all with our goodbye letters. We weren't trying to say you were illiterate or that you guys never ever wrote - there are headcannons on the dash quite often, and I loved to read them. I, personally, left because I didn't personally get many opportunities to para. I've been told it's because I wasn't active enough and that's why I never saw them on the dash, and that may very well be true, making it even more clear that it was probably best I left.
Alexis, this is kind of directed specifically towards you. I never, ever wanted to insult you with my letter. You've created a wonderful RP, and I'll never forget it. You've been nothing but the nicest person to me. When Mr. Commerson died, you allowed me on a hiatus without question. When I told you about my cousin, you were extremely understanding, despite the fact that I never forewarned you. I would never, ever want to insult you.
See, when I first started RPing, it was on GaiaOnline, and I wrote very short paras. After a year or two, I started joining more advanced RP's as I got more confidence, and after a while, I was posting responses that had 5+ paragraphs, each with about 10-15 sentences. This is where I started to notice real improvement in my writing.
Though this RP was wonderful, I felt like I, personally, was growing a bit lazy, and that's the reason I left. I'm trying to get back in the habit of constantly writing long, meaty paras, which is why when I stumbled across a brand new RP I saw it as an opportunity. It's not because you guys "weren't good enough" - not in the least. I'll never forget you guys and how wonderful you were. It was because I was starting to feel like I was slacking personally. I got lazy. Sam and Alexis would post these long, beautiful headcannons, and I felt like I couldn't match that anymore. THAT'S why I left. I wanted to go somewhere where I could get back in that habit, where I could gradually continue on with my writing. The only reason I didn't do it here is because everybody had their RP partners for the most part, and it's really hard to get out at this point.
Again, I'm really, really sorry if I insulted anybody when I left. It's not what I meant to do at all.
I hope you can find it in your hearts to forgive me. I never meant for it to end up this way.
Forever and always,
Patsy Lynn
