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So I got to 110 then just had 2 teeth extracted and lost it all again in 2 days, I’m so depressed ljke beyond depressed I haven’t been this sad since I was 18. I had to work so hard to just gain that 3lxs I was eating constantly all day for 2 weeks :/ I feel sick all the time now because my meds they put me on and not being able to eat because I have no appetite.

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So update, got my bf out we are living in an extended stay and I’ve been maintaining 107-109, none of my clothes fit and everyone in my life is concerned and so I’ve been trying to g@in to 115 but stay toned I just to look more womanly again, but now today after having probably 3000cxls yesterday I feel like my legs are bigger already and I’m struggling with that but also I can’t stay at this w3ight because I’m having heart pain everyday it’s getting worse like my stomach ulcers are back and at my lowest when I got stomach ulcers I was bed ridden for almost a year maybe more I stopped keeping track. I’m just constantly depressed, depressed that I’m too skinni but too scared to g@in I just don’t know what to do

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My boyfriend is in jail and might be for 3 months and I haven’t been able to eat really so I got to 107 in like 3-4 days. I had 1000 cxls for 2 days cause I was forced but yesterday I had 200. Today will probably be the same. I’m just depressed I don’t even want to lxse but I feel so guilty if I eat and he’s in there barely able to eat and I want to be disconnected from reality.

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Okay so I went to GA for the first time in 3 yrs to see my dad and had severe panic attacks the entire time and could barely eat and got to 110lxs but since I got back 2 weeks ago I’ve g@ined like 5lxs and I’m trying to quit drinking cold turkey for at least 2-3 weeks so I’m just going to get back to 110 and my goal for now is 107-108 and maintain. I’m going to try and f@$t or at least wait till 8-9 tonight and have under 300cxls today and tomorrow. I wanna see how fast I can lxse it again I just wanna feel in control like I did in GA

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March 31st

It’s the last day in March and I’ve been off track for like 3 weeks now. I don’t know how much I w3!gh but I’m guessing around 113 again. I’m trying to start drinking once a week or once every other week to save money and it will decrease my intake by a ton.

Tomorrow will be day 1 back on track and I’m going back to fasting until dinner everyday and trying to eat healthier, no sugar, and try to get 10k steps a day.

My goal is to maintain 110 for now but try to tone my arms and stomach more

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March 30th

I’ve been really inactive but I was eating normally for like 20 days and I’m scared to see what I’ve g@!ned but starting tomorrow I work Monday, Wednesday and Friday but I’m only going to get grilled fish and green beans for myself and get my bf the most high cxl sh!t to make me feel better. I feel heavier. I want to be 109

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March 20th

I’ve been maintaining 112 cause everyone thinks I’m getting too sk!nni and I thought so too but now I’m starting to feel guilty and horrible everyday cause I’ve been eating 1000-1200 everyday. Today we have broccoli cheddar soup at work I might bring that home and just have that. I’ve been eating fried food everyday too and I just feel so guilty. Today I’ll just get the soup and maybe a grilled chicken breast cause they make them thin and small here. Hopefully I’ll be around 600-700

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God I hate my life. Today I had like 550-650 at most and that was trying to increase. And I still feel horrible and I did 11k steps which is the most I’ve done in a while

Tomorrow I’ll have a new fitness watch/Apple Watch doop (I can’t spell but an Amazon cheap version) it’s better than my last one though and cheaper? It can also answer calls and the reviews said it was the cheapest alternative to the Apple Watch it was only $30 on Amazon on sale but I’ll give what I think as far as fitness tracking and stuff

So I think getting this watch is gonna put me even deeper in my 3D and I know I said I don’t want to keep getting smaller but fxck it’s so addicting

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March 11th

I’m like 111 now. I’m so conflicted because I like seeing it get lower and I don’t like to 3@t but also I’m hating how skinn! My body is getting and nothing is attractive on me anymore and I feel so ugly and unattractive. It’s really impossible to have a bf and feel sexy and attractive and also be an@. I can’t have both. But I told my bf this morning that I’m going to try to g@!n to 118 healthily so I can get my body back some. He won’t rlly hold me accountable but it felt good to let him know that I recognize how different I look and that it’s not good

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March 7th, 2025

It’s 8pm I just got home from work like 30 mins ago. Me and my bf are fighting and this time it’s like idk it feels like the end of our relationship. I’m like beyond depressed, just dissociation. I’ve said this a billion times and things end up working out but I still just have soul crushing sadness. We aren’t talking and we are doing our own thing but we share a room in my family house so it’s hard to have space

F@$ted today and I’m having 2 white claws (340) and I’ll have split pea soup for dinner (280)

Idk my real W3!ghT but I swear I’m closer to 110 then 113, I’m looking a lot smaller but I’ve been drinking everyday

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I’ve been maintaining 113 for weeks now because I’ve been drinking everyday. I’ve been having 300-600 solid cxls a day but yesterday I had 835. I’m really tired of maintaining so I’m going to try to not drink and if I do only get white claws and try to f@$t on those nights

Im about to go to work till 7:30-8pm, my bf forced me to have eggs before I leave so I’m having like one (70cxl)

F00d plans tonight are f@$t till I get home. Have 2-3 white claws (510) and skip d!nn3r

So total with alc will be 580 cxls that’s my goal

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7:00am: Feeling hungry/sick throughout the day

😕🫤😕🫤😕🫤😕🫤😕🫤😕🫤😕🫤😕🫤😕

1:30pm: Getting nauseous,light headed, brain fog

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1:41am next morning Going to bed hungry

🤭💀🤭💀🤭💀🤭💀🤭💀🤭💀

( Knowing I’m losing)

*giggling* “no i can’t laugh yet, I’ve got to hold it in”

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March 1st, 2025

All day I keep thinking it’s Feb. cause I always forget how short it is.

3D UPDATE 🌧️🩵🌧️🩵🌧️🩵🌧️🩵🌧️🩵🌧️🩵🌧️

I haven’t had an appetite lately so I’ve been f@$t!ng all day and having omad 100-300cxls a day. One day I don’t think I had anything but I’ve been drinking alc. everyday so idk what I w3igh. I just checked and it said 113.0 but I’ve also drank tonight and a couple heavy cxl ones, and I had a 5-6 bites of food so it’s not accurate I have no idea what I am.

I LOOK 10lxs thinner though I swear. Even comparing photos to a week ago. So even though the scale isn’t changing I think it’s cause I’m drinking. I got to 114 by only drinking once a week and now I’ve drank everyday for over a week I think or 6-7 days straight so if I can stop for 2-3 days I’ll know my real w3ight

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Feb 28th, 2025

I’m not 100% sure of my cxls the last 3 days because I didn’t really eat or have an appetite but it was between 100-300 everyday. But I’ve been drinking everyday since I’m working. This job is the most anxiety inducing thing I’ve ever done. I’ve never worked in a restaurant and I’ve been there 2 days and have to do everything alone