escapism

she/her | just a shitty vent blog

[rottingutopia]

ok pinned post time

hi. this is a blog where i’m mentally ill. do not interact if you’re anti-recovery — i wanna get better. i’m just not in the right space yet. no radqueer, pro harmful para, or proship (and similar labels) allowed either. i'm a grooming victim, so you guys all disgust me. i'm level 2 audhd with depression, cptsd, madd, and possible bpd + ocd. i have more disorders not mentioned, but they didn't seem relevant. i'm an adult and i like pepoyo. i trigger tag everything.

before you follow — expect discussion of trauma, mental health problems, and bad coping mechanisms. i'm a toxic yumeshipper (i don't harass doubles i just really hate them). i won't reveal who my f/o is, but i block doubles. i also block really freely so don't think about it too much.

i'm pretty sure that’s everything needed to know. bye.

[suchaflirtt]

I need some pizzaaaa

[rottingutopia]

other jiraiblr blogs have cute themes meanwhile the best i can do is pick a decent pfp and pray

[thevo1dosphere]

[rottingutopia]

hey guys does the loneliness ever go away

[rottingutopia]

WE yes WE are proud that you washed your teeth!! *throws confetti throws confetti throws some more confetti at you*

THANK YOU ANON !!!!!!!!!! will keep trying to do it regulary because i hateeee being a stinky even if my depression makes it really hard to be clean

[lulu-is-depressed]

Let me mischaracterize and fantasize about my favorite character in peace bro.

[red-garden]

“Do dishes” and “take out trash” both require the use of a spell slot, vs “use phone” is a cantrip, and brother, I am a level one wizard

[rottingutopia]

i h8 mybody but i like food toomuch to ⭐️ so i genuinely just listen to subliminals and pray

[sraphm]

inside me there are two cats…

one says, “give me attention! give me so much attention! treat me like i’m all you need! remember me when i’m gone!”

the other says, “leave me alone and never speak to me again and forget i ever existed and do not perceive me”

[s1ck-pup]

[s1ck-pup]

i’m fine until i’m not and then i’m not fine for way longer

[bitchautism]

the online identity and gimmick-ifying of autism is so odd. I'm diagnosed with autism and yet I barely identify with any stuff I see about it anymore. It feels like autism is being rebranded as the Silly Guy Disorder that gives you smart and beautiful hyperspecific interests. it's not that I mind silly jokes or being lighthearted about being autistic- but when the entire social movement is based around marketing us this way, I just can't help but feel isolated from it. it feels like I'm not the right kind of autistic. I'm not marketable and digestible to common audiences, and therefore I am discarded by the movement in the name of progress and acceptance. it feels foul.

[thefaultinourchickennuggets]

the bad thing about having unhealthy habits due to mental illness, is when you DO do something healthy style you can't brag about about it because then people will then know you've been doing it yucky style all along. Like you can't brag you changed your sheets or brushed your teeth because then ppl will be like oh did you not brush your teeth regularly before? Thats yucky disgusting! So you just gotta keep it to yourself. And be proud alone, I suppose.

[rottingutopia]

having moral ocd(?) and my fav sns being the torture nexus for people with moral ocd is terrible

[shelly890]

how much fucking clearer do i have to make my abandonment issues for people to stop casually abandoning me as simply as one takes out the trash

[dziurawat3tnicaa]

When it’s getting so bad you start imagining how everyone would react if you do it.