the sun hitting the sea

formerly roughtimesahead😔🕊

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Aaanyways hi again, I'm Tris!! if u dont know me yet, im a uni student majoring in biochem and i struggle with 3d (BED as a younger teen, Ana typical behaviour now). This is my space where i deal with these issues/ try supporting those with similar struggles. I might also get into random rants about life because im too lazy to write a diary entry sometimes lol!🪽⭐️

I dont want to promote/ glorify this illness and im pro recovery & harm reduction!!! There will also be no space for bigotry, fatphobia or general bullying on my page🩵🦋

That being said, some info below the cut:

Height: 173 cm

SW: 76 kg

CW: 65.7 kg

Current BMI: 22

GW: 49 kg

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also if anybody wants to fast together for the next 2 days (id also be open to prolonging to 72 hours👀) dm meeee🩵🩵🪽

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fast is also starting right neow and were gonna do 48 hours, ive had enough of my own bs😮‍💨😮‍💨

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had one of the toughest weeks of my life and gained 1 FUCKING KG!!!! THATS SO AWESOME!!!! 65.7 KG YESSS BMI 22 AGAIN AMAZING!!! Seriously though, somebody please shoot me right between the eyes i cant do this anymore.

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i fucking hate this disorder sometimes wtf😭 I went to the gym, crushed a chest&shoulder workout and ran a 5k afterwards (+ i already had gotten 12k steps in earlier by running errands before lunch) but i still feel like a big ol failure because i consumed 1400 calories (which is still over a 1200 cal deficit in total??). On one hand i enjoy feeling nourished for workouts and noticing that everything is easier and more fun, on the other hand it feels so wrong to not be hungry 24/7 and i miss the sense of purity while ⭐️ving... its a dilemma😔

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also today's lunch was a pear (not depicted lolz) and an apple!💚🍏🍐

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i was gifted this sugary coffee drink as a free sample on the street and had half of it (i usually dont like coffee, but this one was really sugary, the half can i drank already had 100 cals lol) and it was really tasty but when i tell you 15 minutes later i was SPRINTING to the bathroom omg???? I was genuinely flabbergasted Lmaoo!! I knew coffee could have a laxative effect but that was scary😭

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Lunch today: A sugarfree pepsi (2 cal), a chicken teriyaki onigiri (137 cal) and a smoke🩵🪽 in my book, thats three courses for 139 cals lol!!

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getting myself to post on here, knowing ive lost everything that was on my old blog is so discouraging :< ive been t'ed once before but this one really stings and i just cant see myself finding all my old mutuals💔

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my bmi is officially 21 now which seemed literally impossible back when i was in the trenches of my B€D and im proud to have lost over 10 kg.🐬🩵 I literally cant wait to get out of the 20s, only 6.5 more kg to get to 19!!