Reader is stressed and exhausted with work and taking care of their kids that they think they started hallucinating things
1. Their bedroom door starts to automatically open and closes for them whenever they come home for work
2. Their chair randomly pulls out for them before they’re able to grab it themselves
3. Whenever they lose something, it ends up magically appearing
4. The cabinets and fridge open for them when they’re looking for ingredients for dinner
5. They ended up over sleeping and rushed to get the kids up before school, until they come out to see that they’re already dressed and eating breakfast at the table.
When they jokingly ask them how they got ready so quickly
* all gn + afab for smut unless otherwise noted *
anything under 1000 wc not listed, Tomura Shigaraki drabbles & shorter works here
Series:
In Progress:
False Advertising
enemies to lovers//fluff//smut//fem!reader
A career ending mishap splits your life in two: keeping up the glamorous appearance of being a pro hero and then there's the underground hero agency office job you work at part time alongside Tenko Shimura, who seems offended by your very existence. As your grouchy coworker starts to warm up to you, you realize he may have a secret life of his own.
[wc: 3.9k]
Thin Walls
fluff//smut
Your neighbor, Tomura Shigaraki, is obsessed with you. Living for the moments he sees you in the hallway, walks with you from the mail room, and jacks off to your livestream while listening through the wall.
[wc: 5.5k]
Villain Radio
fluff//low angst and quick reads
Band & Roommate AU (quirkless) | heavily features the LOV
[wc: 20k+]
Hitlist
vampire!Tomura Shigaraki + horror//fluff
A call from an unknown number leads to a deal with a vampire. How long can you drag out the bargain before you're his next victim? You were never meant to make it out of this alive.
[wc: 8.3k]
Concrete x Vanilla
in-canon//fix-it//fluff//smut
Domestic fluff, but make it ominous.
[ongoing]
By A Thread
fluff//witchy AU
A quiet night in your cottage shifts drastically when outcast Tomura Shigaraki arrives cursed at your doorstep in need of help. You brew a potion strong enough to heal his wounds, but the cost of it is enough to shift the course of your lives.
[wc: currently sub 10k]
Finished:
In The Stacks
fluff//smut//yandere//post-canon
A mysterious library patron catches your eye, seeking information about his past life. You help him, stirring up your own past in the process.
[wc: 20k+]
A New End
fluff//smut//fix-it
A few years after being kicked out of UA, you find yourself in the League of Villains. You'd never seen yourself as a villain but everyone is incredibly welcoming. Eventually, you even begin to see your standoffish new boss in another light. Will your future vision quirk be able to change what's coming?
[wc: 30k+]
Hitching a Ride
Separate Routes: Tomura Shigaraki and Dabi/Touya Todoroki
fluff // quick reads with low angst
You happen to end up with the perfect getaway ride: jumping in a van with the League of Villains. Destination unknown, you join them on a road trip filled with romantic tension, awkward tropes, and, of course, some light crimes.
[wc: 10k]
Oneshots & Short Series:
Application for Release from the Dream
liminal space weirdness with a pinch of fluff
» An unexpected accident lands you in a nostalgic place that's not quite what you remember. While searching for a way out, you quickly discover that you're not alone.
[wc: 7k]
Falling into the Woods in Spring
mothman!Shigaraki + smut
This can't be real, but it's happening. You take a tumble that leads to being lost in the forest for days. Is it your imagination or is that a large moth-man hybrid making it's way into your camp?
[wc: 5.1k]
DECAY
prohero!Tenko Shimura + smut//fluff
» Tenko Shimura will never forget the first time you walked up to him and confidently smashed all five fingers of his hand onto your face. Thanks to you, he also won't forget the conflicting night his quirk leveled up.
[wc: 10k]
The Art of Drowning
Tenko Shimura + quirkless college AU//smut
» It's just bobbing for apples, what could that possibly lead to? Famous last words before you drag your best friend Tenko Shimura back to your dorm room.
[wc: 1.4k]
Falling In Love With the Sound of Ships Sinking
pirate!Shigaraki x siren!reader + smut//eventual fluff
» Cursed by the gods - you're not quite merfolk, not quite a siren but that doesn't stop you from drawing ships to their rocky demise. One pirate doesn't seem all that phased by it. In fact, he's...laughing?
[wc: 5.4k]
Never Be Alone Again
ghost!Shigaraki + smut//angst
» A ouiji board, a song, and the ghost you didn't know you've been flirting with. When Tomura Shigaraki gets to have a body for one night of the year, of course he wants to spend it feeling and making you feel as alive as he can.
[wc: 5.8k]
Cemetery Drive
smut
» Tomura Shigaraki grows bored of his usual porn outlets and tries something new - a smutty friends to lovers x reader fic that ticks more boxes for him than expected.
» Two Mugs (part 2)
[wc: 2.3k in 2 parts]
Misunderstandings
fluff
When Kurogiri misunderstands the situation between the two of you, Tomura is too awkward to correct him leading to further misunderstandings on both sides (in your favor.)
[wc: 1k]
The Exorcism
fix-it // crack?? fluff??
» A ShigAFO fix-it, exactly what it sounds like.
[wc: 2.8k]
A Small Gift
fluff
» A fluffy little Tomura Shigaraki birthday fic.
[wc: 1.3k]
Claw Marks
platonic//angst//horror
» Caught in the zombie apocalypse with your childhood friend, you're cornered with no way out.
[wc: 1.6k]
You Started It
fluff
» Closing up the tattoo shop with your coworker, Tomura Shigaraki.
[wc: 1.9k]
Don't Fall in Love With Me
fluff
» A winter storm leads to you bail on the long trudge to the hideout and take refuge in a cabin along the way - and of course, there's only one bed.
[wc: 2.2k]
Cute When You Stutter
Loser!Shigaraki + fluff//smut
When your loser boss helps you get out of a situation with your ex, you dig yourself into a bit of a hole. As you continue to need his assistance through the week — you pay him in favors, leading to the two of you growing closer physically and, much to your surprise, emotionally.
[wc: 6.4k in 5 parts]
My Hero
angst//fluff
» You've been held hostage in this basement room for what feels like forever now. That is, until a hero comes to the rescue.
[wc: 2.2k]
Black Coffee
fluff
You run into Tomura Shigaraki at a coffee shop, but it doesn't seem to be the first time you've met.
[wc: 1.2k]
Online Girlfriend
Loser!Shigaraki + smut
» After a few months of chatting online, you finally get to meet your boyfriend in person!
[wc: 2k]
Laundry Detergent
Loser!Shigaraki + very suggestive//lightly smutty
» Your boss has been in a MOOD lately, all because of...the smell of your laundry detergent?
[wc: 1k]
Attention
smut
» Tomura Shigaraki always wanted attention. He wanted the world to see him. He needed everyone to know what he's capable of. But on a personal level, one to one, he's never considered what that would look like...until you showed up.
[wc: 2k]
You Love It When He Relaxes
smut
» You pull Tomura away from his game to help him relax at the end of the day.
[wc: 1.2k]
Tomura Shigaraki Helps w/a Sex Quirk pt 1
suggestive -> smut
» When you're hit with an interesting quirk by a very different villain, your boss, Tomura Shigaraki helps you track him down - and then some.
[wc: 4k in 2 parts]
Fem!Shigaraki
Garden Hose
mothwoman!Shigaraki + fluff//crack//suggestive
» In the middle of a calm, quiet night in, a strange moth creature crash lands in your yard and gets tangled in your garden hose.
» Pinecone (part 2 — holiday fic)
[wc: 3k in two parts]
Claw Machine // Staying In // Girl Dinner
fluff//smut
» A small collection of short stories featuring fem!Tomura.
[wc: 1.8k]
SMAUs:
Suprise! [birthday fic//crack]
Also Featured In:
Lights. Camera. Action?
Tomura Shigaraki, Spinner, Dabi x Reader
crack//very suggestive//lightly smutty
» You find yourself in series of suggestive situations. Will the LoV take the bait?
[wc: 2.5k+]
The Changing
Class 1-A & Reader; League of Villains
horror//crack
» There's something not right in your UA class and you're going to get to the bottom of it.
A series of short entries adding up to a short story.
[complete + ongoing offshoots] [wc: 7.8k]
University Gothic
horror//fluff
» When the biggest party on campus ends up being at a haunted house, where will you find yourself?
[complete] [wc: 9k+]
Murder Mystery Dinner
horror//thriller with separate happy/horror endings
» You're invited to a murder mystery dinner party at a house on the top of the hill on the outskirts of city. When you arrive, you find no obvious mystery. That is, until you become a part of it..
Featuring: The League of Villains
[complete] [wc: 5.3k]
Headcanons:
Why is Tomura Shigaraki kicking you out of bed? [crack]
Karaoke: League of Villains [crack]
Be my Valentine?: League of Villains [crack ❤︎]
Tattoos: part 1 [crack]
League of Villains Choosing a Holiday Movie [crack ❆]
League of Villains Throwing a Holiday Party [crack ❆]
» League of Villains Holiday Party: The Aftermath [crack ❆]
Sitting by them on a Flight [crack]
Escape Room: League of Villains [crack]
Concert Dates [fluff//crack]
League of Villains on Halloween [crack 👻]
* all gn + afab for smut unless otherwise noted *
anything under 1000 wc not listed, Tomura Shigaraki drabbles & shorter works here
Series:
In Progress:
False Advertising
enemies to lovers//fluff//smut//fem!reader
A career ending mishap splits your life in two: keeping up the glamorous appearance of being a pro hero and then there's the underground hero agency office job you work at part time alongside Tenko Shimura, who seems offended by your very existence. As your grouchy coworker starts to warm up to you, you realize he may have a secret life of his own.
[wc: 3.9k]
Thin Walls
fluff//smut
Your neighbor, Tomura Shigaraki, is obsessed with you. Living for the moments he sees you in the hallway, walks with you from the mail room, and jacks off to your livestream while listening through the wall.
[wc: 5.5k]
Villain Radio
fluff//low angst and quick reads
Band & Roommate AU (quirkless) | heavily features the LOV
[wc: 20k+]
Hitlist
vampire!Tomura Shigaraki + horror//fluff
A call from an unknown number leads to a deal with a vampire. How long can you drag out the bargain before you're his next victim? You were never meant to make it out of this alive.
[wc: 8.3k]
Concrete x Vanilla
in-canon//fix-it//fluff//smut
Domestic fluff, but make it ominous.
[ongoing]
By A Thread
fluff//witchy AU
A quiet night in your cottage shifts drastically when outcast Tomura Shigaraki arrives cursed at your doorstep in need of help. You brew a potion strong enough to heal his wounds, but the cost of it is enough to shift the course of your lives.
[wc: currently sub 10k]
Finished:
In The Stacks
fluff//smut//yandere//post-canon
A mysterious library patron catches your eye, seeking information about his past life. You help him, stirring up your own past in the process.
[wc: 20k+]
A New End
fluff//smut//fix-it
A few years after being kicked out of UA, you find yourself in the League of Villains. You'd never seen yourself as a villain but everyone is incredibly welcoming. Eventually, you even begin to see your standoffish new boss in another light. Will your future vision quirk be able to change what's coming?
[wc: 30k+]
Hitching a Ride
Separate Routes: Tomura Shigaraki and Dabi/Touya Todoroki
fluff // quick reads with low angst
You happen to end up with the perfect getaway ride: jumping in a van with the League of Villains. Destination unknown, you join them on a road trip filled with romantic tension, awkward tropes, and, of course, some light crimes.
[wc: 10k]
Oneshots & Short Series:
Application for Release from the Dream
liminal space weirdness with a pinch of fluff
» An unexpected accident lands you in a nostalgic place that's not quite what you remember. While searching for a way out, you quickly discover that you're not alone.
[wc: 7k]
Falling into the Woods in Spring
mothman!Shigaraki + smut
This can't be real, but it's happening. You take a tumble that leads to being lost in the forest for days. Is it your imagination or is that a large moth-man hybrid making it's way into your camp?
[wc: 5.1k]
DECAY
prohero!Tenko Shimura + smut//fluff
» Tenko Shimura will never forget the first time you walked up to him and confidently smashed all five fingers of his hand onto your face. Thanks to you, he also won't forget the conflicting night his quirk leveled up.
[wc: 10k]
The Art of Drowning
Tenko Shimura + quirkless college AU//smut
» It's just bobbing for apples, what could that possibly lead to? Famous last words before you drag your best friend Tenko Shimura back to your dorm room.
[wc: 1.4k]
Falling In Love With the Sound of Ships Sinking
pirate!Shigaraki x siren!reader + smut//eventual fluff
» Cursed by the gods - you're not quite merfolk, not quite a siren but that doesn't stop you from drawing ships to their rocky demise. One pirate doesn't seem all that phased by it. In fact, he's...laughing?
[wc: 5.4k]
Never Be Alone Again
ghost!Shigaraki + smut//angst
» A ouiji board, a song, and the ghost you didn't know you've been flirting with. When Tomura Shigaraki gets to have a body for one night of the year, of course he wants to spend it feeling and making you feel as alive as he can.
[wc: 5.8k]
Cemetery Drive
smut
» Tomura Shigaraki grows bored of his usual porn outlets and tries something new - a smutty friends to lovers x reader fic that ticks more boxes for him than expected.
» Two Mugs (part 2)
[wc: 2.3k in 2 parts]
Misunderstandings
fluff
When Kurogiri misunderstands the situation between the two of you, Tomura is too awkward to correct him leading to further misunderstandings on both sides (in your favor.)
[wc: 1k]
The Exorcism
fix-it // crack?? fluff??
» A ShigAFO fix-it, exactly what it sounds like.
[wc: 2.8k]
A Small Gift
fluff
» A fluffy little Tomura Shigaraki birthday fic.
[wc: 1.3k]
Claw Marks
platonic//angst//horror
» Caught in the zombie apocalypse with your childhood friend, you're cornered with no way out.
[wc: 1.6k]
You Started It
fluff
» Closing up the tattoo shop with your coworker, Tomura Shigaraki.
[wc: 1.9k]
Don't Fall in Love With Me
fluff
» A winter storm leads to you bail on the long trudge to the hideout and take refuge in a cabin along the way - and of course, there's only one bed.
[wc: 2.2k]
Cute When You Stutter
Loser!Shigaraki + fluff//smut
When your loser boss helps you get out of a situation with your ex, you dig yourself into a bit of a hole. As you continue to need his assistance through the week — you pay him in favors, leading to the two of you growing closer physically and, much to your surprise, emotionally.
[wc: 6.4k in 5 parts]
My Hero
angst//fluff
» You've been held hostage in this basement room for what feels like forever now. That is, until a hero comes to the rescue.
[wc: 2.2k]
Black Coffee
fluff
You run into Tomura Shigaraki at a coffee shop, but it doesn't seem to be the first time you've met.
[wc: 1.2k]
Online Girlfriend
Loser!Shigaraki + smut
» After a few months of chatting online, you finally get to meet your boyfriend in person!
[wc: 2k]
Laundry Detergent
Loser!Shigaraki + very suggestive//lightly smutty
» Your boss has been in a MOOD lately, all because of...the smell of your laundry detergent?
[wc: 1k]
Attention
smut
» Tomura Shigaraki always wanted attention. He wanted the world to see him. He needed everyone to know what he's capable of. But on a personal level, one to one, he's never considered what that would look like...until you showed up.
[wc: 2k]
You Love It When He Relaxes
smut
» You pull Tomura away from his game to help him relax at the end of the day.
[wc: 1.2k]
Tomura Shigaraki Helps w/a Sex Quirk pt 1
suggestive -> smut
» When you're hit with an interesting quirk by a very different villain, your boss, Tomura Shigaraki helps you track him down - and then some.
[wc: 4k in 2 parts]
Fem!Shigaraki
Garden Hose
mothwoman!Shigaraki + fluff//crack//suggestive
» In the middle of a calm, quiet night in, a strange moth creature crash lands in your yard and gets tangled in your garden hose.
» Pinecone (part 2 — holiday fic)
[wc: 3k in two parts]
Claw Machine // Staying In // Girl Dinner
fluff//smut
» A small collection of short stories featuring fem!Tomura.
[wc: 1.8k]
SMAUs:
Suprise! [birthday fic//crack]
Also Featured In:
Lights. Camera. Action?
Tomura Shigaraki, Spinner, Dabi x Reader
crack//very suggestive//lightly smutty
» You find yourself in series of suggestive situations. Will the LoV take the bait?
[wc: 2.5k+]
The Changing
Class 1-A & Reader; League of Villains
horror//crack
» There's something not right in your UA class and you're going to get to the bottom of it.
A series of short entries adding up to a short story.
[complete + ongoing offshoots] [wc: 7.8k]
University Gothic
horror//fluff
» When the biggest party on campus ends up being at a haunted house, where will you find yourself?
[complete] [wc: 9k+]
Murder Mystery Dinner
horror//thriller with separate happy/horror endings
» You're invited to a murder mystery dinner party at a house on the top of the hill on the outskirts of city. When you arrive, you find no obvious mystery. That is, until you become a part of it..
Featuring: The League of Villains
[complete] [wc: 5.3k]
Headcanons:
Why is Tomura Shigaraki kicking you out of bed? [crack]
Karaoke: League of Villains [crack]
Be my Valentine?: League of Villains [crack ❤︎]
Tattoos: part 1 [crack]
League of Villains Choosing a Holiday Movie [crack ❆]
League of Villains Throwing a Holiday Party [crack ❆]
» League of Villains Holiday Party: The Aftermath [crack ❆]
Sitting by them on a Flight [crack]
Escape Room: League of Villains [crack]
Concert Dates [fluff//crack]
League of Villains on Halloween [crack 👻]
Once upon a time... You found out your boyfriend was once a part of a 'no-strings-attached' threesome with his two best friends! But.. Wait.. Why are you suddenly asking them to teach you how to make your boyfriend submissive?!
K. Bakugou x Reader
⏔⏔⏔ ꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱ ⏔⏔⏔
Warnings: HEAVY SMUT with barely any plot (i was ovulating, sorry..), sub/bottom!bkg, dom!reader, top!kiri, top!izuku, mentions of kiribakudeku 3some (but no feelings were involved), NOT PROOFREAD
“You’re so cute, Kats,” you murmured, cupping his burning red face like you’d just discovered something precious.
Bakugo froze.
For a split second, he just stared at you. Eyes wide, breath caught somewhere in his chest, before his scowl snapped back into place. He jerked his head to the side, teeth sinking into his lip as colour spread all the way to his ears.
“Tch, what the hell are you saying?!” he snapped, voice rough. “Quit talking shit like that! I’m not cute!”
But he didn’t pull away.
If anything, his grip around you tightened, fingers curling stubbornly into your clothes like he refused to let go. His shoulders were tense, jaw locked, but the way his gaze kept flicking back to you gave him away. You can feel his toned legs encircle your waist, keeping you locked on top of him.
Soon, the bed creaked with a new weight. “Kacchan always says that at first.” Midoriya laughed lowly, scarred hand guiding yours to Katsuki’s bare chest. Your palms flattened immediately, relishing in the rapid, pounding thud of his heart.
Midoriya leaned closer, resting his chin on your shoulder, “He’s sensitive right over here-” still holding your hand, he guided it towards your boyfriend’s nipples. His fingertip brushed it first, showing you how to tweak it just right, slow and deliberate, before easing your fingers to do the same.
Your breath hitched at the whimper that escapes Katsuki, “S-shut yer trap, Deku! I ain’t sensi- h-hngaah…” he jerked like he’d been shocked, shoulders tightening as a tremor ran through him. His head dipped forward, blond bangs falling into his eyes while he sucked in a sharp breath through his teeth.
“Told ya..” Izuku’s laugh was soft and teasing, brushing against your ear in the closest, most deliberate way.
You can’t believe this is finally happening. You watched in awe as your blonde boyfriend uncharacteristically let out high-pitched moans, just from having his nipples played by both you and Izuku.
A few weeks ago, you and Katsuki finally got to bed after stressful days at work. The room was quiet in the comfortable way that only happens when you are in each other’s arms. The sheets were warm, and the faint glow of the city lights filtered through the curtains. You were half on top of him, half beside him, your cheek pressed against his arm, idly tracing the scars around it.
For someone who spent most of his life bristling like a ticking time bomb (both literally and figuratively), Katsuki Bakugo had gotten surprisingly used to this. He never thought he would find love, and did not even imagine that he would find comfort in someone other than himself. At the ripe age of 26, and being together for over two years, Bakugo was glad to be someone’s special person. He was glad- no, absolutely thankful to every single higher being, that it was you who gave him your never-ending love.
His arm was slung lazily around your back, hugging you so close to him, allowing himself to be the most vulnerable. Raw and exposed just for you to see. He’s not Great Explosion Murder God Dynamight, he’s simply just your Kats, ‘Suki, honey.
Silence settled again for a moment. It was the kind that didn’t need filling, the kind built from trust instead of awkwardness. Bakugo stared at the ceiling while you played with the hem of his shirt.
Then he spoke, like the thought had been chewing on him.
“…You- uh- ever do anything stupid before we started dating?”
You blinked, momentarily caught off guard by the question, and then, because he looks nervous? You can feel the way his fingers twist your hair, as if it can soothe his nerves. “Define stupid, Kats.”
“Like,” he gestured vaguely with his free hand, “relationship shiy.”
You lifted your head a little to look at him. “That’s very vague..? Are you talking about exes or something? I thought you already knew that I had previous relationships before?”
“Tch. No, dumbass. I meant like- Gah!”
Another pause after a groan. He didn’t look at you when he said the next part.
“…I.. Uhm. Fuck- used to be in a threesome.”
You sat up, jaw on the floor, because what do you mean the Katsuki Bakugo was in a threesome?! The same Katsuki who stuttered when he tried to confess to you years ago? The same Katsuki whose entire face got so red when you both shared your first kiss as an official couple?!
There was a long, stunned beat of silence.
“A what?”
“A threesome,” he repeated flatly, but he wasn’t meeting your gaze.
Your brain tried to catch up. “…Okay.” Then it caught up. “With who?”
Bakugo rubbed the back of his neck, suddenly looking way more interested in the ceiling.
“…Deku and Shitty Hair.”
You stared at him, jaw dropping even more.
“…Deku as in Izuku Midoriya?!”
“Yeah.”
“And Shitty Hair as in Eijiro Kirishima?!”
“Yeah. Sweets, I’m pretty sure ya’ only know one Deku and one Shitty Hair”
You opened your mouth. Closed it. Opened it again, blinking at him with eyes wide.
“Huh. Well… That’s… Something I didn’t expect to hear on a Friday night..”
His eyebrow twitched. “That’s it?”
“I meannnn” you gestured helplessly, “I’m surprised, of course. Two years, and I never knew about this, or that you even swing in that direction! But I’m not gonna like… condemn you for it or something.”
He studied your face carefully, like he was trying to see if you were lying. “You’re not weirded out?”
“Never,” you said honestly. “Though I have to admit that it’s something I’ll take time in processing.”
He exhaled through his nose and looked back at the ceiling.
“It wasn’t a relationship thing,” he muttered. “No feelings. None of that crap. It just… happened.”
You tilted your head. “How does that just happen?” You try to envision a younger Katsuki, the man you haven’t met yet. How did this arrangement come into play? Who initiated it? When did it-
Bakugo huffed. “Stress.”
“That’s your explanation?”
“Mm.”
You waited, eyes deadpanned as you crossed your arms and quirked one eyebrow up. He glanced at you again, clearly realizing you weren’t going to let him get away with that.
“…It was during that period after we started getting serious hero work,” he said reluctantly. “Everyone was wound tight all the time. Missions, pressure, rankings… all that shit.”
His fingers started idly tapping your thigh as he talked.
“We got drunk once and Shitty Hair suggested it as a joke at first,” he continued. “Deku turned red as hell. I told them both to fuckin’ stop playing…Then a few weeks later, it stopped being a joke. When, uhm, Ei and I were stuck with the nerd after he invited us to be the guest heroes in his class.”
You were quiet for a few minutes, trying your hardest to wrap your mind around his abrupt confession. Soon, you lay back down beside him again, resting your head on his shoulder.
“…Did it last long?” you asked gently.
“Nah.” He shrugged. “A few months, maybe. On and off. Sometimes ‘s all of us, and sometimes it's not. ”
“There weren't any drama?”
“Nope.”
“No secret feelings?”
“Hell no.”
You hummed thoughtfully as Bakugo glanced down at you again.
“Ya’ good, sweets? Y’know, you can be honest with me...” his brows furrowed. For a second, he wanted to go back in time before his stupid mouth started spewing his past. The last thing he wants is for you to leave him, or to be weirded out by Deku and Shitty Hair. There may not be any romantic feelings involved, but he still treasured those two dumbasses as his closest friends.
You shrugged against him. “You trusted me enough to tell me. That’s the part I care about.”
“…Tch.”
He clicked his tongue, but there was no bite in it. He brought you closer to him again, tightening his grip on your waist as he shifted positions, burying himself in the crook of your neck.
You shifted slightly to look at him, “…So,” you said slowly, curiosity starting to creep in despite yourself. You let out a soft snort of laughter, “How exactly did that first time even happen?”
Bakugo groaned and buried himself deeper against you. “Fuckin’ hell… I knew ya’ were gonna ask that shit, perv”
After your little “Hey!” and a slap on his shoulder due to his name-calling, he let out a long sigh.
“…Alright. It started after one mission when we were all completely wrecked…”
A few days later, you were still thinking about it.
“I was the- what do people call it? Ah, the bottom.”
You tried not to. You really did. Promise!
But the thought had lodged itself into your brain like a splinter, and every time you almost forgot about it, it would immediately come back to the forefront of your mind. If you were being honest, him being submissive was way more surprising than finding out he used to be in a threesome with his closest friends.
You bit your lip. Katsuki was always the dominant one in your relationship. Even when he was relaxed, even when he was soft with you, there was always that underlying edge of dominance to him. The way he guided you by the waist. The way his voice dropped when he was teasing you. The way he looked at you when he wanted something.
Katsuki Bakugo was not the type of person anyone would ever imagine being submissive.
And yet…
Your brain, very unhelpfully, keeps on remembering that specific part of his confession.
The idea that there was a side of him you’d never seen before… a version of him that had once trusted someone else enough to give up control…
It made your curiosity spiral. Not in a judgmental way. Not even in a jealous way.
Just… Plain desire. The need to see him be the one in your mercy for once.
What would he be like?
Would he still be stubborn? Would he get embarrassed? Would he bark orders anyway? Would he be quiet?
Your face warmed slightly.
Would he like it if you tried?
Immediately, another thought followed.
….What if you did it wrong?
This was the problem. You had zero experience taking the lead with him like that. Sure, you’d teased him before, pushed his buttons, but actually flipping the roles? That was different. You never even tried, to be honest.
What if it felt awkward?
What if he didn’t enjoy it?
What if you completely ruined the mood?
You sank further into the couch, staring blankly at your phone.
You’re overthinking this!
But the thoughts just kept piling up, until all you can think about is taking control for once.
There was… one solution. A very questionable solution. But technically, it was the most logical one.
Because the only two people on earth who knew the answer to your problem…
It was them.
“He reacts the most to direct attention… Always wanna be the center of everything, right bro?” A flash of red hair appeared, slightly in front of you. Kirishima’s muscular frame towers over Katsuki, and you can see how he ducked his head lower to Katsuki’s chest. “F-fuck. Shitty hair, you better not do what- MMMH!”
Bakugo’s back arched, head tilted back when Kirishima took one nipple to his mouth, sucking almost immediately and leaving love marks around the sensitive flesh. “Ha…A-ah, Oi! T-too rough, y-you braindead asshole!”
An uncharacteristic growl slipped from Kirishima’s lips as he bit down harder, drawing a sharp gasp and a breathless, “Fuck! Kirishima!”
Oh my… Seeing your boyfriend treated like a plaything by his friends, and now by you, sends a hot, restless feeling rushing through you. When your ass grinded against his clothed cock, Katsuki cried out, humping the air to try and gain more friction for his very erect member. “J-just do some shit already!”
“Ah, ah, Kaacchan,” Midoriya tuts behind you, fingers curling around the blonde’s waist and keeping him exactly where he wants him. There’s a teasing lilt to his voice. “You’re being rude.” His breath is warm, sending a tingling sensation that makes your pussy throb with want. “Aren’t you going to show your girlfriend some proper manners?” A chuckle escapes him. “Don’t tell me you need to be reminded.”
You feel your heart pounding in your chest when soft sniffles escaped Katsuki’s lips. His usually fiery eyes now look up to you, pupils blown wide. “P-please…”
“C’mon, Kaachan. Don’t want your sweetheart to be disappointed in you, right?”
“No..!” he jolted, hands reaching to your hips frantically. Blush taints his pale skin, going as far as his collarbones as he paws against your clothes. “P-Please…” he closes his eyes, biting his lips, “P-please fffuck m-me…”
Izuku smiled with exaggerated innocence, clapping his hands lightly, his voice pitched higher than usual. “Knew you weren’t totally useless, Kacchan!” The comment leaves Katsuki clenching his jaw tightly, short, frustrated whimpers escaping him as he tries to grind your ass back down.
Kirishima leaned back, admiring the marks he left on his bro’s pale skin, catching your attention once more. “Look, he’s easy to mark up, right? Sometimes he begs us to leave him filled with all sorts of marks, like he wants someone to claim him.”
A tremor passes through you and the explosive blond the second you feel the fabric of his undergarments being ripped apart.
Holy fuck, that was hot. And you assume Katsuki thought the same, as a low, needy whine escapes him.
“C’mere, we’ll show you what makes Kacchan beg and cry.” Izuku gently lifts you with ease, shifting you to sit at the side.
You can see a lube bottle being passed around by the two men, both of whom then slather a generous amount on their hands. “I’m sure you already know this, but you need’a make sure he’s properly stretched.” Kirishima looked at you with a beaming smile, as if he was not about to demolish his closest friend.
“Shit… You know what to do, Kacchan.” A simple tap on his knees made Katsuki silently bristle, but he still pulled his legs up, presenting to all three of you with his arms under his knees. Izuku smiled, moving to rest in between his legs, lifting his ass slightly to land a powerful smack in one cheek that caused him to lurch with a loud yelp.
You were nearly hypnotised by the way Izuku’s rough fingers teased the fluttering hole, rubbing teasing circles around the rim. “Fuck… Fuck, Deku! NNgh…Ha…MNGHHH!” his volume grew the second the tip of Izuku’s finger entered his awaiting hole.
“D-Don’t stop you, nerd! G-go..Hah…G-go f-faster! S-shit! R-right there! Angh..!” Katsuki whimpers, hands trying to find anything to grab onto after he lets his legs rest on Izuku’s shoulders.
A low whistle brought you back to reality, “Damn.. I almost forgot how loud Bakugo can be”, Kirishima says with a laugh, watching how Izuku scissors open a moaning Katsuki. “Here, I’ll show you another way to lube up your fingers, yeah?”
You gulped, nodding because you don’t trust your voice at this point. Shit, who knew your boyfriend’s thighs quake so easily at the most simple touches?!
“ShitshitshitSHIT! There! Y-you’re so close, Izuku! Fuckin’ press against it- mmMPH?!” His eyes widened at the sensation of your fingers on his tongue. Tears glistened as he looked up at you, struggling for a moment before giving in.
His eyes grew half-lidded, sucking and swirling his tongue around your fingers, thoroughly coating them with his saliva.
“Atta girl… See how pretty he looks?” Kirishima complimented, before nudging Izuku to remove his fingers that were roughly pumping inside Katsuki’s ass, letting it leave with a long, wet squelch.
The blonde protested in muffles, trying to bring Izuku back in by pulling him with his legs, grinding his ass roughly against the palm. “Patience, Kacchan. Your girl is going to find out how it's done”
Deku beckoned you closer. Just like earlier with Katsuki’s nipples, he gently grabbed your fingers to teach you how to tease the awaiting heat, how to dip your fingers inside, before easing more to pump slowly.
Your eyes stay focused on Katsuki, trying your best to remember which actions make him close his eyes in pleasure, begging you to go faster.
Brows furrowed in concentration, you curve your fingers slightly, just like how you would when you masturbate on your own. You hope you’re doing it right, especially with how Kirishima and Midoriya watch your every move as if waiting for you to hit something.
“S-sweets, g-go a bit d-deeper”, Katsuki instructed, already having his muscles tensed. You immediately follow through with his request. Suddenly, you feel one spongy spot that makes him jolt upright, an inhumane noise escaping his lips. “Ah! Fuuuuck, sweets, f-faster! F-faster- Yes, oh gods yes, just like that, you’re doing so well f’me! F-fuUUCK!” he screams, legs twitching as he meets your pace by slamming his hips on the curl of your fingers.
Kirishima took this as his sign to move closer to you both. He licks his lips, then wraps his entire hand around Katsuki’s hard cock, pumping it slow and hard. This made the blonde cry out further, the dual sensation making him shake on the mattress,
The continuous, frantic noises Katsuki makes only spur you further to hit that sensitive spot more. You match your pace with the handjob Kirishima is giving him, “Ah.. AH.. a-ah! Oh fuck.. E-ei.. S-sweets.. ‘M g-gonna, g-gon-na c-come!” he sobbed, hole clenching around your fingers.
Kirishima smirks, panting lowly as he glanced at you, “What do you think, should we let him come?”
“Yes! P-please, sweets. I-I was s’good!”
With a grunt, you nodded towards Kirishima, giving him the silent signal to go faster, “Y-yeah ‘Suki? Come on, let me see how much of a slut y-you can be”
Your words made him whimper lowly, sniffling in pleasure before one final slam of both Kirishima’s fist and your fingers made him roll his eyes to the back of his head, mouth opening in a silent scream as bursts of cum shot out from his tip.
Both of you pulled away, yet he still shivered, and you couldn’t tear your eyes from him, watching how his cock continued to spurt strings of cum that landed on his abs.
Bakugo collapsed back to the bed, panting and shuddering as his climax reached its end. Normally, this would’ve been the end of it. You already managed to learn what pleasures him, what pace he loves, and where his prostate is located.
But… Fuck… You may have to re-evaluate your kinks. Because now, seeing Katsuki barely even manage to sit properly… It makes you want to do a whole lot more.
“I think I’m getting the hang of this,” you chuckled, fingers brushing over your boyfriend’s inner thigh. You let your gaze flick to Deku and Kiri, letting them feel your attention before speaking. “Watch closely,” you said, voice low and deliberate, filled with a newfound confidence after seeing Katsuki become a subby, whiny mess, “and see if I’m doing it right.” The air between you thickened with anticipation, and both of them leaned in, eyes fixed on you, waiting for your next move.
You let your touch guide Katsuki to part his legs, keeping his foot flat on the mattress, taking the opportunity while he’s still recovering from his first orgasm. You drank in the sight of his twitching hole, heart racing at it gape due to your and Izuku’s touches.
“O-oi… The hell are you g’nna do- OH!” his toes curled, jolting when he feels a wet muscle enter his hole. You tentatively licked around it, then dived right in, eating him out. “S-shit.. Babe.. W-wait…” Katsuki brought his palms to his mouth, high-pitched gasps escaping him. You continue to suck on his hole, slurping on the wetness around it.
“Holy shiiiiit” Kirishima groans at the sight, immediately unbuckling his belt to let his own cock free. Izuku follows suit afterwards, and soon, they both pump their cocks in their hands, masturbating to your newfound intensity.
Katsuki gave them a low glare, “Disgusting, fucking perverts… Ya’ into this shit? Seeing me all- u-urgh- o-o-oh..” he chokes on his own voice, tearing up at you. He can feel the way his hole contracts around your tongue, can hear how wet he is down there. His two friends chuckle lowly, merely speeding up the pace on their cocks when you worship your boyfriend with your mouth.
The soft whimpers that leaves you only added to Katsuki’s pleasure, the vibrations course through his skin. Shit, he might come from this. His cock lay heavy on his abs, pulsing and curving for attention. Breathlessly, he reached out to it, crying at the immediate relief he felt afterwards. It’s too much. He matches his pace to the same pace Izuku and Kirishima set, the pleasure building as you treat him like your meal.
Shit. Shitshitshit-
“Cumming! Sweets, fuck- I-I’m cummi- a-ahh!” he sobbed again, body spasming when he came unexpectedly. Izuku and Eijiro moaned at the sight, their peaks hitting together in perfect unison, angling their heads of their cock to Katsuki’s body, painting his skin with the whites of their cum.
You panted, letting him catch his breath for a moment. Sitting back up on the bed, you wiped your face, slick and warm, but your eyes still burned with need. Yeah… there was no denying it, you were hooked.
His body quivers with your feathery touch, more… you want more.
“Kats, baby…” You murmured, bringing his attention to you. “Can you give one more?” he whimpers, shaking his head no. “N…No.. T-too much!” he pouted, lips trembling just like the rest of his body.
“Please…? Just one,” you whisper against his ear, “Look at Izuku and Eijiro, they haven’t properly cummed yet.. They’re our visitors, baby,” You urged. “Thought you wanna be good for me..?”
He sniffles, rubbing his eyes as he tries to remind himself to keep breathing, “O-okay..” he whispers, giving you his full consent to continue. You smile, pecking his lips and his cheeks, cooing softly at him. “Thank you, baby… Tell us the safeword if it’s gonna be too much, yeah? I love you.”
Sitting back up, you looked back at the redhead first.
“Kiri… let’s switch.” Your voice was low, firm, and edged with something that made the air thrum with tension. As you moved, your gaze lingered on your breathless boyfriend, tracing every shiver before flicking to the redhead. Finally, it settled on Izuku. “And Zuku… go there.” You pointed to the spot just by Katsuki’s face, letting your command hang in the air, heavy and irresistible.
“W-wha….” Katsuki mumbles, watching with hazy eyes when you straddle his hips, removing your clothes in the process and bumping your clit against the base of his cock, which was slowly getting hard again. He flinched, “F-fuck! Sweets, ‘m s-still sensitive”
“Shhh… It’s alright, baby. I won’t move until you tell me to.” Your hands glided over his abs, each touch grounding him, steadying his racing heartbeat. When they took their places, Izuku and Eijiro’s gazes were locked on you, their posture taut with anticipation. The air around them seemed to thrum with expectation, waiting for whatever you would do or say next.
Katsuki’s palms rested against your love handles, holding you tight against him. “Can you open your mouth for Izuku, Kats? Wanna see how you look…” A tiny hiccup escaped him, betraying how tense he was under your gaze. He opened his mouth, taking in the fat mushroom tip of Izuku’s cock, giving kitten licks and tiny sucks.
A low groan escaped Izuku, whispering praises, “Ffuck Kacchan.. Your mouth feels so good…” he nudges more of his length, more noises of pleasure leaving him until Katsuki fully took in his length, the blonde gagging slightly at the girth.
Izuku didn’t move, every muscle tense as he waited patiently for your next direction, his eyes locked on yours with a mix of eagerness and hesitation. You let your gaze drift back, slowly, deliberately, and found Kirishima already straining with anticipation, his chest rising and falling a little faster, pupils blown wide. The air between you seemed to thrum with tension as you held eye contact, feeling the silent heat radiating from him, the way his body subtly shifted closer as if he could somehow lean into your command. “Ei.. Part his legs”
He already knew what you were implying. He takes his cock to tease against Katsuki’s hole, before slowly sliding inside inch by inch until he is buried deep inside. “Ah.. Bakugo, s-so tight…” Katsuki cried out, despite gagging around Deku’s dick, his hand gripping you tightly.
And finally, you take his own cock, sliding it inside your own heat, your pussy clenching hard on his thick length.
After a few minutes to let him get used to the sensation, you, Izuku, and Eijiro seemed to have some neuro-connection, your control snapping and suddenly going all out on Katsuki.
Bakugo can barely form a single thought. He wants to moan, scream and cry at how good everything feels, but his mouth is being used by fucking Izuku. His eyes were crossed, mindlessly sucking on the weight on his mouth. He can feel the veins on the cock, gagging when the tip continuously hits the back of his throat.
Fuck… Izuku is so big. Hearing the taunts Izuku growls in his ear pushes Katsuki to suck harder. He immediately started hollowing his mouth, and his hands reached up from your waist to the base of Izuku’s cock, pumping it. Flat tongue memorising the taste of his pre-cum
Then there was Shitty hair, grabbing Katsuki’s legs and pressing them to each side of your waist, putting him in a somewhat missionary position. Kirishima smacks each side of Katsuki’s ass, slowly thrusting in and out, and then going faster and faster until he’s plowing at him.
Big.. So fucking big… He feels stretched out, massive cock curved perfectly to press against his prostate. The bed creaks forward and backwards with the shared movements of Izuku and Kirishima.
Fffuck. Feels so good, Ah- Mnghhh- The overstimulation is delicious, sensitivity making everything sensation the right amount of pain and pleasure combined. He screams muffled against Izuku’s dick, squealing when Kirishima uses him like a cocksleeve.
And lastly, there’s you. You bounce on his hardened cock, tip barely inside before you slam back down, repeating the process over and over. Your hands are everywhere on his body, tweaking his nipples, sucking more marks on any skin left untainted.
You make sure you push his cock to the deepest part of you, keeping him surrounded in your pussy’s heat.
It’s too much… The combined stimulation makes him feel like a slut.
But he absolutely loves it.
He relishes control of his body, letting the three of you do whatever you want.
Izuku slams deeper on his mouth, messily letting saliva coat down Katsuki’s chin as he continues to ease his throat. Kirishima acts as if he has no control over his hips, heavy balls slapping the curve of Katsuki’s ass, concentrated on hitting his prostate over and over.
Fuck me! Use me like a toy! A-ahh.. M-Mngh- P-please…
Intangible babbles coming from Katsuki’s lips only pushes you to go further. You use him like your personal dildo, rubbing your clit on his tip, grinding against it, then pushing it back inside.
M-more… Ngh.. More! More! He himself is growing addicted, screaming in delight in every movement the three of you do.
He swallows every drop of Izuku’s cum that shoots down his throat.
He lets Kirishima defile the deepest part of his insides with warm release.
He shoots his load inside you, each spurt making you clench and milk him for all he has.
Fuck… Sssso G-gggoood…
His memory is hazy after that first orgasm. From what he barely remembers, it lasted a few more hours, with the three of you changing positions a few times.
There was once when he was on all fours, cock pistoning in and out of him in an unforgiving pace, thick cums worth many rounds already sloshing inside him as his ass ripples in each thrust.
Then the other knelt back down, tongue messily eating him out, keeping his thighs locked around your head. Whatever it is, by the end, he was absolutely spent, covered and filled with everyone’s release.
The room was quiet now, the only sounds the faint rustle of sheets and Katsuki’s steadying breaths. You sat beside him on the bed, gently brushing stray strands of hair from his damp forehead, your fingers lingering just long enough to soothe him. “Shhh…” you murmured, pressing a gentle kiss to his temple after he groaned awake. He leaned into your touch, still trembling slightly, and you rubbed comforting circles across his shoulders, letting him feel that safe, grounding warmth after the bath you gave him when he was barely conscious.
By the time you glanced toward the door, Izuku and Kirishima were already gone, the soft click of the closing door marking their departure after they also had their own share of aftercare. They bid you and Katsuki a goodbye, even offering some food and medicine they remember Katsuki taking after every 'arrangement' they used to have all those years ago.
The emptiness of the room only made the moment feel more intimate, as if it were just the two of you suspended in time. Katsuki’s chest rose and fell with slower, more even breaths now, and the tension in his jaw softened under your fingers. You hummed softly, pressing your forehead to his shoulder, inhaling the faint scent of him that still clung to the sheets.
“You were amazing,” you whispered, brushing his cheek gently with your thumb. “Thank you… for trusting me. For letting me… experience this with you.” Your voice was low, tender, a mixture of relief and awe, and he gave a small, breathy laugh that made your heart clench. He murmured something inaudible in reply, pressing a brief, weak kiss to your hand and lips.
“I love you, Katsuki”
“I love you too, Sweets” he whispered.
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A/N: I can't believe I ovulated so bad to the point that I wrote this ?? HAHAHAHA Once hell week is done, I'll most likely go back to writing fluff/crack (do people still call it crack..?) Additionally, I logged into Tumblr after ~3 days, and I can't believe my previous work got over 1.1k likes?! Thank you so much! It was such a cool surprise seeing the amount of support I got, especially since I logged in just after taking my test! I was almost shy with all the comments, and I'm sorry I wasn't able to reply to everything:(
—to the one who understood; shigaraki tomura x reader
synopsis: tomura shigaraki didn't let just anyone into his life. he had built a cage around the most broken parts of himself, yet he willingly watched you slip through the cracks in the walls he'd so carefully constructed—it was either go big or go home, and you went straight for the most vulnerable part tomura possessed—his heart.
tagging @shigarakislaughter because it would be criminal to not tag the head of the tomura shigaraki nation HEH <3 also congrats on your new job bby!! :D
Tomura Shigaraki wasn't a bad person. That didn't mean he was the best—but nobody is perfect. He knows this. So, he doesn't try to be. He's simply his authentic self around you. Tomura never really did think he could ever attract anyone. He's not exactly conventionally handsome, and his humor borderlines between something sinister and wildly crude. But he managed to charm you, somehow.
He'll blame it on your parents dropping you on your head too many times. He'll blame it on Musutafu's hot sun frying all your brain cells—you're truly so stupid for falling in love with him.
Out of all the people you could have been with in the world, you chose the suicidal maniac with ideologies and ways bigger than life itself. Really, him? Tomura doesn't get it.
He doesn't like the way your voice softens when you speak to him. How you even managed to figure out his dislike for loud noises is beyond him. But, you accommodate for Tomura in a way no one has before. He watched you fall in love with him—he watched you go through every stage, and he did nothing to stop it.
He couldn't because it was inevitable: the second your eyes met his, your pupils dilated like a flower in bloom.
You were a new recruit to the league when he first saw you, a wide eyed thing who smiled too much. Tomura hated how there was nothing to dislike about you—he'd glance your way and scoff sometimes, because why can't he find a reason to steer away from you? Something that ticks him off? He refused to accept the fact that maybe you really were just a good person.
Tomura doesn't let people in, it's not his thing. His mind and body are a fortress and no one is allowed entrance inside. It doesn't matter how you make his heart skip or how you soothe the ache in his chest, he'd prefer if you stayed far away from him.
But Tomura kept you at arm's length—torturing himself by keeping you so so close yet infinitely far. He'll let you sit inches away from touching him, but when he glances at you—he imagines a milky way between the two of your bodies, keeping him in line and allowing him to never stray far enough to hold your hand or bump his shoulder against yours.
Kurogiri told Tomura if he ever wanted to pursue someone like you, he wouldn't be against it. Maybe it would be good for Tomura, he suggested. A soul connection was what Tomura had always lacked—and his soulmate was right there—you were right there. But Tomura was stubborn.
Tomura's afraid you'll calm the rage in his heart. He looks at you and he wants to forget all his pain, all his fear, all his hurt—he wants to toss it all into the sea and start anew with you. But the feeling is fleeting, because he pushes it down the moment it blooms in his chest. Stomps on it until there's nothing left.
"Tomu?"
Tomura's eyes tear away from the monitor in front of him the moment he hears your voice. Subconsciously, Tomura straightens in his seat and regards you with a glare, one that was more affectionate than filled with its usual malice reserved for everyone else.
You grin at his silent invitations once he beckons you into his room with a careless hand, telling you to close the door as he spins his chair to face you. Tomura's posture is as if he's sitting in a throne rather than a gaming chair, and your lips twitch at the sight—he notices your barely contained smile and sighs
"What do you want?" he murmurs, turning back to his monitor before he gets back to work. At least, that's what he hopes you think—he's clicking on random things, trying to look like he's busy or occupied with something. But the folder he closes and re-opens over and over doesn't go unnoticed by you.
"I see you've cleaned your room!" You grin, crossing your legs as you sit down on the edge of his newly made bed. Tomura rolls his eyes, folding a fist under his chin as his eyes stayed glued to his monitor
"Only 'cause you wouldn't stop nagging me about it. You're really annoying, you know that?"
Your smile only widens, and the sight makes something in Tomura's stomach flip. He ignores you, glaring at the screen in front of him and praying to the universe his heart would stop beating so fast already.
"I'm proud of you, Tomu. I know you don't hear it often from me, but I really mean it. I think you care more about this kind of stuff then you let on." You say softly, and you can see Tomura's muscles tense for just a second before they go slack—a sign that his undoing was truly your praise.
There's a light pink dust coating his cheek. He stares at you silently, blinking and waiting for you to continue on with something like "Ha, just kidding!" —anything to go against what you'd just said. But you're so sincere it almost hurts. Tomura's eyes widen a fraction when you hop off his bed with ease, moving past him and towards the door to leave—you're talking about how you're going to go pick up some dinner for the two of you from the corner store, sending him a cheeky grin he knew far too well before you placed a chaste kiss onto his cheek
"See you later, Tomu!"
Tomura stares at the door for a full minute after it closes. Then, he presses the heels of his hands to his eyes and slumps in his chair. For the first time in a while, Tomura cries. He cries because you're the kindest person he'd ever known.
Your son looks nothing like Tomura.
It's still Tomura's son, of course. But the boy grasping your hand right now has black hair, mused from the wind outside and wide brown eyes—sparkling with youth and joy. In his small hands is a card, and he holds it with vigor as he walks with you, chatting about his day at kindergarten today.
Of the pictures online, Tomura is depicted as a monster, with untamable white hair and the cruelest red eyes. That wasn't your Tomura, you had the pleasure of knowing the real one.
"I really hope dad likes my card. Ma, did you know I got to use my new markers in class today? Kenji even said they're the coolest markers ever! They draw so well!"
Your son's smile reminds you of a certain someone. You'd only seen the subdued look of genuine happiness in Tomura's eyes—he could never be truly happy after all he'd been through. Your son's emotions were more fleshed out—he is what Tomura never could be. Happy.
"That's nice, Tenko. I'm glad you liked those markers. How about this, we have a drawing competition with those very same ones after we're done visiting your father, okay?" You smile, gently pinching his cheek as he nods enthusiastically with a toothy grin. His eyes catch sight of something behind you—and he's off running a second later.
"Careful!" you laugh, following his excited footsteps as he finds the familiar headstone with the name Tenko Shimura engraved neatly on the top. Carefully, you pick up the old bouquet you'd left last week on his grave and replace it with the new one you and your son had picked up this morning.
Tenko launches into a full story about his newest comic after carefully placing his card down onto the grass, curling up against his father's headstone—giggling and smiling wistfully as he tells him all about his day.
Naming your son after Tomura was oddly fulfilling.
Your son is everything Tomura could have been if love had found him sooner—he could’ve been happy. The world was cruel, but it also gave you Tomura. It allowed you to love him, even if you came too late. Even if he was too far gone. And even after all that happened, Tomura didn't leave you all by yourself.
While Tomura's eyes are different from Tenko's—they both had the same enamoured gleam in them whenever they looked at you.
Tenko falls asleep by sunset, and you take your time talking to Tomura. You tell him about your new job, you tell him how Tenko found one of his old video games in your attic and has been playing it nonstop, and you tell him you miss him.
"—a fucking lot. I can't believe you're gone, Tomu. I see you every night in my dreams."
You glance down at the little boy in your arms, running a soothing hand through his hair to confirm he's asleep before smiling sadly.
"I almost followed right behind you. I would have—I woke up in a hospital with no idea that you were gone. Then, they told me I had this little miracle blooming in my stomach and gosh—it was almost like i could hear your laughter ringing in my head." You whisper, remembering the day Tomura died. It was night now, but your town was luckily safe enough for you and your son to go out and visit the nearby graveyard. Though there may be no body laying beneath, the headstone is enough for you to feel closer to Tomura.
You tip your head towards the sky, resting your cheek against the side of his grave. There was a night, you can't remember when—when Tomura confessed he liked your smile.
So, that's what you do. You smile towards the stars and picture Tomura hanging amongst them in the sky—watching you forever. Tomura liked to call you a treasure sometimes. Something good in a world that's rotten.
"You're special to me. So, please don't miss me too much if this all goes wrong. I'd hate to see you sad."
Your fingertips quickly press against your eyes, and you slump against his grave with a whimper. You allow yourself to cry only because your son isn't awake to see it. You cry because you'll have to mourn Tomura for longer than you've known him.
It hurts. That night when you go to bed is the same as all the previous ones. You dream of Tomura and his gentle smile. The only thing that lulls you to sleep is the prospect that maybe, just maybe—he's finally at peace.
An unexpected accident lands you in a nostalgic place that's not quite what you remember. While searching for a way out, you quickly discover that you're not alone.
liminal space weirdness with a pinch of fluff
contains: post-canon, death, feelings of being trapped, no quirks in the afterlife.
wc: 6.8k
I. DEATH
For as long as you could remember, it's always been the same dream.
The one where, well, nothing really happens. On paper, it's boring. You couldn't describe it if you wanted to, but there are always similarities. It's always the same. The setting changes, but you know it's coming when you feel it. When the dream seems too comfortably like everyday life then suddenly you're hit with a crippling bout if existential dread. It freezes you in place for a fraction of a second then it's over — once more, your eyes fly open to the darkness of your bedroom. And once again, you're shaking. You're not sure if it's scary enough to be called a nightmare, but you still find yourself in a cold sweat regardless of the label.
It happened again last night, leaving you tired and grouchy when your alarm goes off.
Grumbling your way out of bed, you drag yourself through your morning routine while dreading the rest of the day. And of course, it's the 14th. Valentine's shouldn't be different than any other day, yet it always hits you in ways you never quite expect. The flowers on your coworkers' desks. The constant advertisements for 'love', making you wonder if you'll ever have anything like that in the rest of your life.
Little do you know, you won't. Not in life, at least.
You drag yourself out the door with the same lackluster enthusiasm you've had all morning, exhausted.
Maybe if you'd slept better, none of this would be happening.
Maybe if you'd slept better, you would have seen it coming.
But you didn't and you don't see the bus speeding your way until it's too late.
There's not even time to panic, just a calm realization washing over you and a sharp descending darkness.
Then your eyes snap open.
And you're somewhere else entirely. It's not the street or even a hospital, but it's familiar. You feel like you've been here before.
This place is expansive. It's all marbled walls and tiled flooring. There's a grandness it should hold, yet you just don't feel it. There's something cheap about it, something abandoned.
A heaviness lingers in the air, bringing the space to almost absolute silence. Everything is muffled like a snowy day.
The lighting leaves something to be desired. It's mostly dim yet somehow still flickering here and there. As you right yourself and look down the open space, your eyes begin to adjust. Nondescript signs hang over rows of rooms with huge doors and windows.
You're in an old shopping mall. The one you thought they demolished a few years back.
Carefully, you stand-up. After getting hit by a bus, you expect to be sore. But you're not. Your body moves like air, without the slightest ache. It's strange, almost as if you're a ghost, but you feel quite solid. The ground is firm beneath you and your hands don't pass through the tile as you press your way up. Maybe the accident wasn't so bad. Or it was just a long, drawn out dream.
Something, or rather someone, moves at the other end of the atrium — you're not alone.
II. DESPERATION
Nothing is explicitly wrong, it all feels remarkably normal. But there's a feeling in your gut telling you something isn't right here. Your memories feel hazy, but you know these walls no longer exist. What you don't know is why you're here and who or what stirs at the other end of the mall. As calmly as you can, you make your way to the exit to go home.
The stores you pass are different than you remember. None of the names are quite right and when you look through the windows, you can almost make out the surreal scenery that doesn't belong here spliced in between the clothing racks. Others feel like something is staring back.
You walk a bit faster.
Every step echoes through the space, making you self-conscious about alerting anything lurking in here to your surroundings.
But nothing jumps out.
As you round the corner to the nearest exit, you realize it's pitch black outside. It must be night, maybe the streetlights are out. None of this is adding up and you're starting to get worried.
Barreling through the exit doors, you find yourself—
Entering through the other end of the mall? There's no way. You were just over there and now you're here. The world doesn't work like that. You turn, shoving your way back through the doors only to find yourself where you left a moment ago.
These doors are broken somehow, you decide, but there are other ways out. You'll go out through the parking garage instead. Your pace quickens to a run.
Another exit appears in front of you, you shove your way through finding yourself stumbling in through the main entrance.
This can't be happening.
The next set of doors does the same. You sprint to the next one, and the next until you're out of options.
Seeing the only shop name you've recognized so far, you barrel through the doors of Banana Republic, looking for another way out. You vaguely remember this store leading outside with a large entrance at the sidewalk.
As soon as you set foot inside, you regret it. The walls are lined with regular clothes, just like any other shop. However, everyone in here is a giant banana. The customers, the store associates, everyone. You duck behind a rack of clothes, nearly toppling it.
Through the hangers, you can see them milling about. No one seems to notice you. They go about their business as if nothing is weird about this at all. It's like being trapped in a strange dream.
Slowly, you stand up walk quickly to the exit.
They still don't look up or acknowledge you.
When you have a straight line to the door, you run through it —
Suddenly you're in a room full of water. The edges are glossy, reflective. A large plastic castle in neon orange sits to your left, the size of a house. A goldfish the size of a seal swims past your shoulder. You rush to the nearest door you see, feet struggling to grip the blue pebbled ground as it shifts beneath you. Stumbling through the exit, you find yourself with dry hair on the tiled floor, but no tidal wave follows. The water seems to be contained in the other side of the door.
Desperately, you run for the next exit again.
"It's no use," a white haired man calls out, making you nearly jump out of your skin. "That's just going to keep happening no matter what you do."
"Then how do I leave?" you yell back, out of breath as you slow to a stop.
"I don't think you do," he replies, "at least, I haven't figured it out yet."
"How long have you been here?" You walk a bit closer.
"A while."
Even in the muted light, you can make out most of his features. Long white hair makes it's way past his shoulders. A few scars litter his face and his eyes are a deep red that begs to draw you in. His clothes are all black, a hoodie and skinny jeans with red shoes. While looking over him, it occurs to you that you're not wearing what you were when you left for work this morning. Instead, you're dressed more casually. More you.
"Are you dead too?" he asks.
"Dead…" your voice trails off. Is that what this is? There's no way. You were just on your way to work. The last thing you can recall was being hit by a bus and then —
You were hit by a bus.
You were hit by a bus. There's no way you could have survived that.
"I'm…dead," the words catch in your throat, barely making it past your lips.
III. REFLECTION
You never really knew what would happen after death. For the most part, you made peace with that. Other times, that scared the shit out of you. The times when you'd wake up in the middle of the night in horror of the unknown. That's what death meant to you — a massive nebulous unknown. Ignored through the day and brought forth only by your subconscious. You never had theories or thought about it, it just was. And you (mostly) came to terms with that.
You've had a lot of time to think about it over what feels like days.
Sitting with the man you now know as Tomura in the empty food court, you explain it as well as you can. Somehow, he gets it.
"Same," he says, picking at a chip in the table. "I never really thought about it. Except— it's weird, but there were these dreams. Not nightmares or anything, they seemed normal but they just felt—"
"Like they reminded you of your existence. You had the dreams too?"
"Wait, you know what I'm talking about?" he looks astounded. "None of my friends ever got it. They thought it was weird."
"Yeah, I have them all the time." Had, you don't dream anymore. His eyes stare intently at you. "Everything was fine, there was just this overwhelming feeling. And I could never sleep after."
"Me neither." For the first time since you've arrived here, the corner of his lips flick up to a smile.
Later that day, you continue exploring. It's strange, you knew this space so well. It's where you would go when you felt like you fell into the cracks in life. When you needed space to think and figure it all out.
It seems fitting that you've been doing a lot of thinking since you arrived. There's not much else to do here. Tomura is nice enough, but he mostly keeps to himself. Or maybe he thinks you keep to yourself. Regardless, you find yourself wandering around aimlessly quite often.
Gasp.
Forever 20.
You walk past a few bleak looking shops, remembering the last time you went inside of one. A few have caught your eye, but you'd rather not be eaten by an oversized fish or taken by the banana people so you haven't gone inside of any of them again.
Instead, you sit outside of a particularly nice looking one with sunset colors glowing through the front display. A few purple clouds gently press into the window. You wonder why the stores are like this. Why some are so alluring and others terrify you. So many of them feel like distant memories, others completely new. If only you could grasp the meaning of it all.
Time passes.
Days, weeks. It doesn't make a difference. Space and any other laws of physics don't matter anymore so you're not sure if time applies either. When the sun never rises outside and you never need to sleep or eat, nothing divides the days or gives you any indication of how long has passed. It's all set, constant.
At least, for you it is.
"They changed when you showed up," Tomura says, gesturing at the shops. "Some of them were empty before. And a few of them are different now."
"Weird," you mumble, staring through the window of Fish Locker while watching the oversized goldfish swirl through the water. They remind you of a huge fish tank you saw at a restaurant you used to go to as a kid.
"It's not that weird, if you think about it."
"Think about what? What are they, anyways?" you ask, hoping he has some insight you don't. He doesn't exactly have a manual on this place, but he's been here for longer than you and that's worth something.
"You haven't figured that out yet?" he half laughs, "they're dreams."
IV. DREAMING
There's an old theater in the corner of the mall that you used to go to. It wasn't the biggest, nor did it have the most comfortable seats. But there was something about it that felt safe to you. How the imperfections had settled into the space with age. Like the familiar way the seats creaked when you leaned back too far or the way the screen went fuzzy at the edges.
You find yourself walking there now, hoping it's not filled with sharks or something.
As you walk down the aisle and make your way to a seat in one of the middle rows, you're shocked at how normal this feels. The floors are sticky and speckled with popcorn, like you remember. There's a faint smell of fake butter mixed with the sugary sweet of nearly everything else they used to sell at the concession stand. It's the first time you've smelled anything since you arrived here.
You find a seat, leaning back with your feet on the chair in front of you. Some previews start rolling.
But they aren't previews.
It's your life.
Bits of memories presented as trailers with dramatic music. Happy ones, sad ones. Some you thought you'd forgotten.
Seeing it all together like this makes you realize how beautiful it all was. The good and bad all blurring into one very human experience.
You stay for a while, watching.
The longer you're here, the more you start to notice.
That could be said about anywhere, but it's especially relevant when the rules you thought you understood in life don't apply anymore.
For example, you stepped into the elevator only to find that it drops. Every. Single. Time.
You wonder if maybe it's another dream, like the shops seem to be, but it's getting harder to remember the dreams you had in life compared to what you're seeing here. Tomura sees the same things in the rooms, so it's fair to assume half of them are his. Which half, you're not quite sure anymore. Even when you were alive, some of your dreams felt foreign to you. Like they were someone else's. Maybe it's related, you're not sure though.
"Still afraid to go in them?" a voice calls out from a few store lengths down. "They won't hurt you. At least, I don't think they can. If you die or fall or something, it just spawns you back out here to restart. Trust me, I've tried," he adds under his breath.
You wish you had his confidence.
More time passes.
And then more.
You think about what Tomura said and the certainty he said it with. If you're here forever, you might as well go exploring. Roaming the halls at a safe distance from anything exciting is getting boring. It's making you feel stagnant and stuck. While you know the dreams will begin to feel the same with time, at least for now it's something different than staring at walls and windows.
Bed Bath and Beyond, you read, always surprised to find the ones where the name stayed exactly the same. Tentatively, you press the door open.
What's the worst that can happen, you ask yourself, you're already dead. Your worst outcome still lands you right back here.
It's not like you can change anything, you remind yourself before stepping into the beyond.
After ripping the bandaid off and going for it, you find yourself roaming dreams more often. There are some, like Bed Bath and Beyond, that defy any idea of physics you've ever learned. They drop you into too many or few dimensions that you haven't learned to process. You need a break from these, they make your existence feel itchy.
Others, like Banana Republic are more surreal. Bananas instead of people. Water slides where you would typically see escalators. Giant fish tanks. Cotton candy clouds. Reality is unexpected, but at least comprehendible.
Some are just nice. Like real life, but idealized. A journey through the woods or a secluded spring. These are your favorites.
Many are exceptionally ordinary. You wouldn't realize you were in a dream at all if you didn't know what to look for. You're getting better at being able to look for the differences. Clothing racks and book shelves hidden in the scenery where it doesn't belong, all alluding back to the mall you're trapped in.
And then there are other spaces, the ones that still scare you too much to enter. Hands clawing at the windows and buildings reduced to rubble.
When you put them all together, they're remarkably dreamlike. You're beginning to see where Tomura's theory came from. He seems to be right.
Which leads you to the next and most human thought: what does it all mean? Why this?
Fortunately, you don't have to be alone in these thoughts. Sitting with Tomura outside of Horizon, you watch the sunrise through the front window.
"I have a theory," he says, "about all of it."
"Oh yeah?"
"I've been thinking for a while. About being here and why I ended up here. And now, how you're with me and no one else is."
"Why is that?"
"I—I think everyone ends up exactly where they think they will. Think about it, this is the closest thing to an afterlife we believed in. It's not like we thought we'd disappear or go to hell or something, we just didn't think about it without the dreams."
"Thus the dreams in the shop windows," you add, gesturing ahead of you. "I'll buy that. Now, if it's all just dreams, why are we in a mall?"
He pauses for a moment.
"I don't know about you, but this is where I went when I didn't feel like I could be anywhere else."
"Me too," you nearly whisper. It's strange, you seem to have so much in common yet you never remember meeting him in life. You wonder if that would have changed anything.
"Do you think it would have been different, if we'd met before?" you ask, knowing he's probably already thinking about it.
"Maybe?" He shakes his head. "Probably not. My fate was pretty sealed. And I don't think it would have changed all of this."
You nod.
"Does it matter to you though? What happened before?" his eyes search yours for the answer before you can find it.
"I don't think so," you reply. "I mean, it's not like that changes anything now."
"No," he smiles at you. "I guess it doesn't."
"One last question," you add, "about your theory. Why is it just us then?"
"I don't know. " His cheeks turn a shade of pink you forgot exists. "Maybe we're just special. Maybe we were meant to be in this together and that's the whole point."
Something about this makes your heart flutter. For the first time since you've arrived, you relax a bit. It's not great, being stuck here, but you feel like it could have been much worse.
V. CHANGE
Your time here grows repetitive, once more. What feels like months have passed and none of it matters. You're trying to unlearn the separation of days, weeks. There's no time, no change, and nothing to make any difference. Everything is the same over and over and over again.
You visit the dreams. They're enough to hold your interest for a while, but even the idealistic ones grow old with time. At some point, they all blur together. Mall spaces pretending to be something else. It's too quiet here. The air is too heavy. You miss smells, taste, even temperature differences. There are still moments when you find yourself with the same feeling as when you arrived here.
Stuck.
Usually when that happens, you find Tomura. Talking to a human is the closest thing you have to touching grass anymore. You could be in worse company too.
The two of you have gotten to know each other a lot better by now. You know his favorite video games, songs. Which dreams he likes the most; how he stays far away from the theater. You know what his friend's names were and tiny stories about them. And he knows all of that and more about you. There's something about a never-ending expanse of time that puts life into perspective in a way that draws all the deep conversations out first. You have a lot in common, including the ongoing stuck feeling.
Right now it's hitting harder than usual.
You search for Tomura to no avail. He's probably in a dream. Not too weird, he spends a lot of time in them. You'll leave him be for a bit.
Instead, you head for the next best thing: the theater.
Sitting in the front row this time, you watch as the screen begins to roll through your life.
Some time passes before you realize it's not the escape you're looking for. Childhood memories mix in with everyday adult life. You see the patterns, but you can't break them. One particular scene gets under your skin.
Why didn't you do something different?
"It'll all lead to the mall forever anyways," you yell at the screen, watching yourself choosing to walk through this space when it was alive and filled with people.
You don't know what overcame you, but you're certain: you need a break from this. While you're not sure if mental health is a priority after death, you're starting to see that staring at your own life for this long is only making you wish you'd done things differently when you had the chance to. There's only so much you can take at once before you start to feel even more stuck. Maybe this is why Tomura avoids this place.
You stand up and walk out, hoping you can find him somewhere now. Peeking through the windows, there's no sign of him.
When you come across a few that you thought you knew, they look different inside. You reach a store you used to spend time in, you're faced with something different. Darker.
Do the dreams change?
"I've never seen that before," Tomura says, considering the window. He arrived a few minutes ago after a dream shifted with him in it. "At least, not before you got here."
"Maybe there's someone else here? Someone new?" you ponder.
"No," he replies. "You spawned at the same spot as me — right there." He points at an open area a few shops away. "If anyone is going to drop in, I think it would be the same place."
The two of you decide to walk around, just in case there is someone new here.
Four laps go by and there's no sign of anyone. You find a few more changes to the dreams.
"Should we go in one and see?" you ask, unsure if that will answer anything.
"I guess," Tomura shrugs. "I don't know what else we can do."
You follow him through the door of Journeys.
What was once a winding trail through a soft forest has been replaced by something darker. The trees are still there, but they feel less feathery and more like claws ready to grip around you.
The soft feel of moss beneath your feet has been replaced by damp, slightly muddy ground. With every step, sticks crack from beneath your feet. The sound is sharp, unnerving. Everything in you wants to be silent. Unseen.
"Should we turn aro—" your voice is drowned out by a large screech. Suddenly the forest is closing in on you. The once flat trail buckles ahead.
Without thinking, you grab Tomura's hand and start running back to the door. It's much further than it was before. This room has always done that though, the trail stretches on endlessly as you run to no avail. It's never tried to eat you though. Can you die after death? Or will it just hold you here forever?
Your legs grow tired, you're making no progress. If anything, the door seems to be getting further away.
"This way," Tomura yells, pulling you through a small gap in the trees. Branches squeeze around you, barely leaving space to move. You can feel them digging into the skin of your ankles as you try to thrash your way out. A stick snaps, freeing you for long enough to lunge through a door, finding yourself in a neighboring dream.
Your feet slide out from under you as you jump into an endless night sky. Sparkling stars shine through fluffy purple clouds. Weightless, you float to the door and back into the mall. As your feet hit the tiles, you both collapse on the floor outside of Airy.
Tomura looks down at your hand, still wrapped around his and quickly yanks away.
"Sorry," he replies quietly at the thinly disguised hurt look on your face. "I'm not used to — it's just, holding hands is new for me."
"It's fine," you mumble. "I shouldn't have — I just wasn't paying attention to that. Sorry."
"No, it's okay." A blush spreads over his cheeks and he turns his head slightly to hide it. "You can. It's just new." Quickly, he switches to another subject. "So, uh. What happened before they changed?" he asks, sitting up.
"Huh?"
"The stores, the dreams are different. Did you see when they changed?"
"No," you explain. "I was in the theater. I think I was in there for a while, I was having a bad day and I yelled something and left. Wait." You know that what you're about to say will sound crazy, but you have to throw it out there. He's entertained every other random thought you've had, you're sure he'll understand. "Do you think that caused it?"
"Yelling? Did you scare the dreams into changing or something?"
"No, I yelled because I was frustrated. I don't think I was scary. I said something about how it all just leads to being stuck here and then they changed. What if your idea was right. That we're here because we believed in something close to this. But the dreams are real connections back to life and that actually got through somehow?"
Tomura sits with your words for a while.
"You're saying the dreams are all like portals, they actually connect to our lives?"
"Yeah, something like that." You don't have any real proof of this, but for now it's all just conversation anyways. Everything is. So you continue, "and what if we could change more than that? If we have a direct link to ourselves before, maybe we can make ourselves believe in something else. Something better."
"So, let's say that's true. That we're going into the actual dreams we had and not just some copy of them. How do you know that changes anything real? What if we're just causing the weird feelings we had in the first place and it's one big loop that leads here?"
"Maybe, I mean," you explain, "I can't say I'm completely right about this, but what if I'm not wrong? The dreams changed. Isn't that the type of thing that would happen to someone whose thoughts changed? Maybe I actually got through somehow."
"Well," Tomura smirks. "We'll never know unless we try it. What do we have to lose?"
VI. ADAPTING
Your experience in the afterlife started with the first dream you went into, so it only makes sense that you start there too. Well, maybe it doesn't. But you have to start somewhere.
"Ready?" Tomura asks, already pushing the door open. He seems to bounce back from uncomfortable encounters faster than you.
"As ready as I will be," you mumble while following him into Banana Republic.
None of the banana people so much as glance as you walk in, they're pretty mundane for how surreal and strange it is for you. One sorts clothes behind the checkstand while another holds a sweater up in front of the mirror.
Tomura doesn't seem phased by this. Maybe one day you won't be either.
"I've had this dream since I was a kid. They're so weird," he whispers. "Anyways, what's the plan? Do we just start screaming or something?"
"Uh, no. I don't think it's that simple. We do have to yell, I think, but maybe let's do something better this time? I'd rather not make everything darker again."
"Yeah, good point." He pulls a jacket off the rack for a closer look. It's much elongated to fit a human. "Well, after you then."
One issue. You didn't think this far ahead and you have no clue what to say now.
"Uhm," you think for a moment before speaking. "The afterlife is great."
"Louder, " Tomura stares expectingly at you.
"It's great! The afterlife is amazing!"
One of the bananas drops the clothes and hangers they're holding onto. Another side eyes you from the register before quickly returning to their work. You're surprised, you didn't realize they could notice you. After some head shakes, they resume their milling about.
Hopefully the message got through, you're not sure what else would.
"That's probably enough," you say to Tomura, "let's see what happened."
When you exit, everything looks the same. However, that's how it was the last time until you walked around for a better look.
The two of you start roaming the mall, doing a few laps before giving up.
"It's all the exact same, at least it looks like it from out here," Tomura says, slumping onto a bench.
"Yeah," you reply, feeling let down. You really thought this would work. "Maybe I was wrong."
"You're really giving up on that after one attempt? That's not enough, we need to try harder than that. Maybe it was just that dream. Or something you said didn't land. I don't really know, but I think it's worth trying again."
You nod. Somehow he always softens the disappointment. It would have been nice to have someone like him in your life. You're glad he's here with you now.
"So, it's decided. We try again."
You take a break from it for a bit, letting yourself process it all before planning what's next. Maybe he's right, it could have been the dream. Would you really notice anything different when there are huge bananas roaming around? All of the existential dreams you had in life were more ordinary.
You tell this to Tomura.
"Hmm," he considers. "Maybe you're right. I still think we need to try a lot more of them, we can start with the normal ones though."
"Yeah," you agree. "Let's see how many we can get to in one go, then decide if it's working from there."
"Maybe we divide and conquer then," he says, "it'll take less time that way."
"Sounds good."
It's agreed that you'll each start with the more simple dreams that are distinctly yours and go from there.
Heading at a row that's familiar, you step through a door and find yourself in a classroom. Your elementary school class.
And in that moment, you realize that you're in your underwear while giving a presentation. Mortified, you remind yourself — it's only a dream. Still, they all stare and you can't help but feel uncomfortable.
"I, uh," you stutter, "this is the afterlife. And it's good, great even." You feel like a broken record without anything else to say.
No one reacts, they continue gawking as the heat creeps up in your cheeks. Like the last dream, this one might be too far removed from expected reality to make much of an impact. Regardless, you still find yourself hoping.
This scenario is getting to be too much. Rushing out of the room, you press through a side door. Then—
Was it that simple? For a moment, you think you made it out. This hits you like a punch in the gut for some reason you haven't figured out yet. Isn't this exactly what you wanted?
The sunset casts a glow over the sidewalk. You're on your way home in the area you grew up in. It feels so normal. Almost too normal.
However, the details are starting to come together. It's one of the dreams and you can see that now. At a closer look, the bushes in front of your neighbor's houses are all leafy clothing racks.
It occurs to you that this is it. Here's your chance. With so much going on in the other dreams, it's nearly impossible to get anything through. It won't work if the setting is already too weird — nothing would stand out enough. It has to be ordinary, like this one.
Your mouth opens to call out, but something stops you. There's a deep ache in your gut.
It's not right, not without Tomura here.
What if you make a change and he's not there to shift along with you? If any of this is working, it seems very possible to be separated.
You don't want to go alone.
So, you hold back — watching the scenery and reconsidering the plan.
Tomura seems to know a lot of things and at this point, you've determined that he's probably right most of the time. But he doesn't know everything and none of it's for sure.
The shops that make up the ones that are distinctly his dreams haven't changed. Yours did though, without him.
Which gives you a new theory.
You're in this together by dumb luck, some ill fate that leaves you both in limbo in a shopping mall. It's not that you're meant to be, you're tied together by the basic circumstance that neither of you had any real beliefs to begin with mixed with a weird affinity for this specific mall. An occurrence so rare that it created a population of two.
It's a sweet idea, but thus far nothing proves his statement that you were meant to be together in this. So, if your theory is correct and you mess it up now and change the past without him, you'll leave while he's stuck here. It'll be nearly impossible to find him again.
The sun fully sets just over the horizon, glowing a deep bronze. You turn and walk out the door.
VII. SYNCHRONIZATION
"Okay, where should we start?" Tomura asks while laying out the plan at a table in front of the food court Panda Express. The pandas in the back have been doing circus tricks ever since Tomura made some change in a dream earlier. It's a bit distracting.
"Maybe let's go over the main parts, what's working for us and what isn't."
"It just seems unpredictable," he remarks, gesturing at a panda walking a tightrope. "Sure, we seem to be able to change things but we have no clue what to expect after. Definitely not that."
"Maybe we need to be more specific then," you reply. "What would you want," you ask, "if you could pick an afterlife and do it all over again — which would it be?"
Tomura thinks for a while. "I guess I'd just want to go wherever my friends are going to end up."
"Do you think they'll make it here?"
"No," he says quickly. "It's not — this really wasn't their top pick of places to go. One of them actually made fun of me for it, not like he went anywhere better though."
"Dabi?" you guess, at this point he's told you enough about their personalities that you feel like you already know them.
"Yep, that's the one," he laughs. The two of you sit quietly as a panda lands a double backflip behind the counter. "Really though, I'd just want to be somewhere open. Somewhere everyone could be free without feeling trapped. Maybe we could all sit on a nice beach somewhere."
"That sounds nice," you add, "I think I'd like the same."
With some vague idea of a plan, the two of you get back to work. You'll visit the dreams together, making the same changes together as you go.
Starting with Lush.
It's one of the nicer dreams, so you don't mind visiting it.
You enter together, finding yourself surrounded in trees. Long strands of moss hang down around you, everything has a faint glow to it. It's pretty enough that you can almost ignore the camouflaged clothing hanging from the upper branches.
Stepping into the water of the spring, you always expect it to be cold, but it's always completely neutral. You feel like a weight has been lifted off your shoulders.
"This is it," Tomura calls out, "this is exactly what the afterlife is like! Peaceful."
"Tell all your friends!" you add.
The two of you laugh. You stay here for a while, taking a break from everything outside of here.
Little by little, dream by dream, you make your way through the mall. Sometimes you take breaks, checking in and making sure you're on the right track. You still don't know if there is a right or wrong way to approach this so you just try to stay consistent.
Eventually, a large crack appears through the atrium roof overhead. Neither of you are entirely sure what it means, but it's too late to turn back now. You're committed.
The dreams themselves have changed too. Most have taken on a golden hue. Some of the doors have cracked, getting jammed in a way you can't easily enter.
You take it as a sign that you're not meant to.
This doesn't leave many options. At this point, all that's left are a handful of stores that you've been avoiding and the theater.
"I know you hate it in there," you say. Tomura doesn't argue. "I'll go in first and you can try after. It's one of our only options."
He nods. As much as you can tell he doesn't care for this, he gets it.
You walk through the doors, take a seat, and wait for the movie if your life to start.
This time it's a birthday. One of the last ones. You watch for a moment, taking in the memory. It's more bittersweet than you remembered it. For a moment, you wish you could console yourself. Then you realize that's exactly what you're here to do.
"It'll be okay," you call out to your living self. "Life gets better then the afterlife is great. It's nice here. Everything is open, free." You scramble to find more words, "and there are beaches. Beautiful ones! Next to forests that practically glow! And you don't have to be alone," your voice waivers, that one is true. I spite of everything you'd change about this place, you haven't felt alone in a while. "Tell everyone, they'll love it! You need to tell everyone!"
Feeling like that's the best you can come up with, you stand up to leave. Tomura is leaning against the wall as you exit.
"I heard what you said in there," he says softly. "I like it. I'll say the same thing, so we don't get separated." He hesitates while turning to the door.
"Do you want me to go in with you?" you ask.
Tomura shakes his head. "No. There's a lot more I need to tell you about, but right now isn't how I want you to find out." He scratches the side of his neck, nervously. "My life wasn't great and I have to face it myself first. This time I can actually change something."
"I understand," you reply. "Youll do great."
With that, he disappears through the theater doors.
Some time passes.
Tomura's not yelling as loud as you were, so you can't quite make out what he's saying. You know it's working though.
Most of the windows you can see have changed. They're all brighter than before with more open space. A few are filled with sand. The banana people are now lounging on a beach somewhere sunny. It suits them.
Another crack echoes from the other end of the mall as Tomura walks out. He takes a deep breath, "it's done."
There's a thunderous boom as half the building crumbles away. It shakes you to your core; Tomura seems unphased.
" We're close," you exclaim. "Just a little more."
"There's one closeby that we can still get into," he shouts over the destruction. "Come on."
You chase after him to a door you've never been through, stumbling into what looks like a barren wasteland.
"This is it," he yells, wind kicking up dust at his feet. "Everything's going to be great. We'll have an afterlife filled with friends and we'll never feel trapped!"
You feel like he's saying it more to you than the dream itself, but the idea seems to get through. Without warning, the ground fractures below you, leaving a massive chasm through the space. The door leading back to the mall breaks along with it.
Through the dust, you see a singular side door connecting to the next dream. It's is all that's left. There's nowhere else to go.
Tomura grabs you by the hand, pulling you through it. The wall crumbles as you pass, leaving you inbetween. For a moment, you're terrified. What if this wasn't the right choice? What if it all just leads to nothingness?
Regardless, you're in it together which is worth something. Gripping his hand tighter, you keep ahold of him — wherever you end up, it won't be alone. One last bang reverberates through every fiber of your being. Then everything goes black.
VIII. REBIRTH
When you open your eyes, you're in another dream.
Sand presses against your cheek while the ocean laps at your feet. It feels cool, refreshing.
Tomura lays to your side, hand still firmly wrapped around yours. Long white hair drapes over his face. His eyes flutter open slowly.
It's bright here, golden.
But the more you look around, the more you're realizing this isn't a dream. At least, you don't think it is.
There are no hidden clothing racks or checkstands. A breeze blows through the trees in the distance. You can smell the salty air, feel the grit of the sand. Nothing feels off, it's just nice.
And there are people.
A blonde girl skips towards you, followed by a few others in the distance. You recognize some of them as Tomura's friends. And there are some familiar faces too, ones you've missed.
People always seem to think Tomura is shy and like...I just can't see it. He has this unwavering confidence in himself, paired with just generally not giving a fuck what people think.
I mean, he's not smooth or cool by any stretch of the imagination, but he also wouldn't try to be. He's a weird NEET that doesn't like people much. You knew you were signing up for. Tomura would probably have to be pretty comfortable with you to develop feelings anyway, which means you two are way past probably everyone saw it coming before he worked out what it really was.
Also, you definitely don't get special treatment over the league. You're just as important, of course, and likely a member of the league yourself, but he cares about his people. He probably takes care of you the same way he does them, just buying you random things and lurking around you like a cat. In that same way, he trusts in your skills, and isn't any more protective of you than he is the rest of the league, unless you genuinely need it. He's strong enough to protect you, so it's not a big deal to him.
Tomura doesn't flirt, but if you're the shy type you probably will wish he did, because instead he just looks at you and says whatever he's thinking. "You're kind of needy, not that I mind." "You make such a cute face when you want attention." "I know full well you know the controls, but if you need an excuse to sit in my lap then I'll teach you again." He will tease you whether you're a boy, girl, or other. It doesn't matter if he's the top or the bottom in your relationship, or if you're bigger than him (which let's be real, he's a 5'9" twink weighing in at 130 pounds, so it's likely that you'll be bigger in some way). He's just like this. Honestly he's not teasing you on purpose, this is just how he shows affection. These moments are unprovoked, and impossible to see coming.
He doesn't really talk much, but he will listen to you go on for hours about whatever you want, joining in only if he has something to say. He likes sharing space with you. Quality time and casual touch is important, so it may come off that he's possessive, but it's actually the opposite. He's not the jealous type, because he trusts you. He's also not really likely to notice any flirting (towards either of you) unless you tell him, and even then you would have to ask him to deal with it (or the person would have to be clearly bothering you) for him to do anything. God help you if you're the jealous type.
You can't really embarrass him either. If you try to tease him by asking why he's done something romantic (romantic for HIM, anyway), he'll simply say it's because he wanted to, or he'll straight up say it's because he likes you. "I did it because we're together. Isn't that obvious?" That doesn't mean you can't make him blush or fluster him, though. Tomura isn't used to affection, much less anything unconditional. Compliments, sweet words, and physical affection that you initiate are bound to get to him, but the most effective is just simply taking care of him. If you make sure he eats or take care of his injuries he kind of forgets how to do anything other than nod. He's flustered and overwhelmed with affection, and the best part is that he's AWFUL at taking care of himself, so you can do this as much as you want honestly.
Generally Tomura would be a good partner. He notices things about people and remembers them. He takes care of the people around him and considers their dreams and wishes. He's not a normal boyfriend by any means. Dates are rarely an outside thing, because even with hiding his appearance he just doesn't like being around people, but you still spend a lot of time together. He's not good at communicating the way other people do, but he does communicate. Sometimes he's genuinely lost as to how to help, especially if you're upset about something, but he WILL try.
Also arguments wouldn't be that difficult to solve, because he will straight up state his issue, and if it gets too heated he'll just walk off and come back when things have calmed down. He doesn't work up easily (we can see this with how patient he is with league members, so a pre-league Tomura might be a little worse in this area), and would rather just talk and find a solution. We don't see him yell often, so I think he probably doesn't like to, but also won't let you yell at him either.
Basically you're dating a loser gamer with zero shame and so much love for you, and that loser also just so happens to be Shigaraki Tomura, one of the largest villains in Japan.
Your daughter was strange to say the least, you love the poor girl — but something was off. Your daughter constantly stared at the blank spaces in your home, calling out a name you thought you’ve long forgotten. She can’t possibly remember him, can she?
Cw: inspired by the k-drama “hi, bye mama!” Ghost tomura, angst, hurt/comfort, open ending? Takes place a few years after BNHA ending.
A/N — tldr: Tomura tries to be a present father even though he’s already passed. Tomura pov + reader pov at the end. Short fic, Not proofread. New years started off terribly so everyone gets this shitty fic as a gift :)
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Tomura can’t remember much about his life before. He knows he started a war, he knows he hated heroes — and he knows you — the one who stayed behind.
When he asked you to join him, you ran. Refusing his offer to be something greater, to tear down this wretched society. He couldn’t blame you, it was a tall request, though he wished desperately that you would’ve considered.
Looking back on it — no wonder you ran — how could he be better than any hero if he forced you to fight?
Tomura should’ve asked questions, he knew you agreed with him. So why did he foolishly let you go? He should’ve said something that night, ran after you, begged you to tell him anything.
Now he has to deal with the consequences for the rest of his life undead time. You never talked about it, he never inquired. Kids were the last thing on his mind — he was a villain — he had other things to worry about.
A family was something people like him didn’t get to have, a thing he was glad you left him for to pursue.
The kid was his — he was certain — the child was practically a mini him. She was different, she had a similar quirk to Nana, it wasn’t anything destructive like decay.
Tomura wasn’t sure if he envied his own spawn or if he was glad she got the better chance at life. It was a hectic mess, though he doesn’t dwell on the past any longer.
You’re a pretty good mom, he noticed that the more he stuck around. Was this why you ran? Did you not trust that he could be a good father? There were so many things he wanted to say, so many things that’ll permanently be left unanswered.
He wasn’t sure if he’d like to know your thoughts on the matter either. If you assumed he’d be similar to his father…well, Tomura doesn’t think he’d be able to handle it.
It’s so silly the more he thinks about it. A strange concoction of emotions that overwhelm him. It wasn’t hard caring for her, it wasn’t in the slightest.
When you’d fall asleep in the living room — he cares for her — he doesn’t blame you for your exhaustion. You’re human, tired, struggling, and overworking yourself to provide for her.
Though he can’t help the envy he feels at the sight. Despite his death, how terrible it must be juggling jobs to keep afloat, you never once raise your voice. The kind of parent Tomura wishes he had, the kind Tomura wished he could be.
The girl babbled in front of him, a child no older than four. She had his eyes, her nose similar to yours. A mini mixture of you and him.
“Mom’s tired isn’t she?” He softly muttered, trying to keep a gentle tone. He watched the way you did it.
How you’d enunciate your words to help her understand it better. She giggled at his words, trying to hold onto him, but to no avail. She flinched back at the contact, almost like a cold shiver went through her.
Tomura wished he could hold her in return. If he ran with you that day, would things be different? Would he be here now? Watching over your shared kid, hugging you close, helping around when you were overwhelmed — would that have been his future?
It’s entirely domestic, a luxury Tomura knew he couldn’t afford then, and now most certainly cannot.
He gives her advice on her drawing, tells her to add a dog. She asks questions, bubbly and full of enthusiasm, and he tries to match her energy.
It’s exhausting, nonetheless he wouldn’t trade it for anything. Tomura never dreamed of having a family, he almost wishes he did things differently.
Then he’s reminded of this rotten society, and he’s instantly convinced that he’d do it all over again if given the chance. Though with one key difference — he’d convince you to stay on his side, and most of all he’d make sure to win.
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You love your daughter, of course you do — however there’s something off. You don’t know when exactly it happened, yet lately she’s been acting strange.
Your friends tell you it’s normal for kids her age to have imaginary friends, but were their imaginary friends supposed to be named after someone they shouldn’t know?
Her speech isn’t the greatest, nonetheless the sounds she makes seem rather similar to the name — Tomura — you’ve never mentioned him
It scares you, not the fact that she’s different…it’s the thought she knows something you’d rather leave in the past.
Tomura’s dead. You remembered it clearly, post partum was hard — finding out he died made it harder. You told everyone her father was gone before she was even born, a part of you feels guilty for manifesting it into existence.
You knew you couldn’t tell Tomura, you couldn’t just have her on the run either. So you left. It was easier than staying. Tomura wouldn’t have changed for you, at least not entirely.
She needed stability, not a villain for a father. You promised to keep it a secret for her sake, so why does she know him?
Ghosts aren’t real, you don’t think they are. But what if? Even if they were, what would that change?
The more you think about it, the crazier everything seems. You dated a villain, got knocked up, ran away, and lied to your daughter on who her father was. The universe might really have it out for you — now she speaks of a man exactly like him.
It’s unnerving, you try to stay strong, nonetheless it still hurts.
“M-mom…look what I mmade with T-tomu!” She ran up to you, all elated and excited.
You didn’t think it could get worse, but it did. It always does. A dog, you, her — Tomura — in what seems to be a crudely drawn garden, the sentiment would’ve been cute, if not for the obvious red flags in this picture.
Tomura. You have no photos of him, you never spoke of him, you tried to hide it in the dark — a secret you’d take to your grave. So why does she know him?
You zoned out for the rest of the day after that, you went through the motions. Feeding her, playing with her, tucking her into bed. The usual, now with time to unwind — you rush into the bathroom — splashing water across your shaken expression.
When you raise your gaze, you see something in the mirror. No, not thing, more so someone you shouldn’t be seeing.
“Hey.” What? The same hoarse voice, those same red eyes you fell for, the same hesitation on his face.
He can’t be here, it doesn’t make sense. However, most of the population has superpowers — so maybe? It made sense, yet didn’t.
Love him or hate him, there's something absolutely tragic to bring up about Pawbert that his life must’ve been a lot worse prior to even the events of the first movie. He was the least favorite of the family and yet, he still craved his family’s approval despite how toxic and cruel they truly were. He also displays disturbing signs of superficial charm, hiding a sociopathic and narcissistic personality. He is devoid of any true empathy, only knowing about the basics of somebody based on little information. He also comes across even prior to the reveal of his true nature as rather shallow and distant. He values the cold and distant vibes of his family over genuine warmth/kindness and this attitude from his vile family over the course of his life has twisted him into a cold-hearted murderous sociopath.
It also doesn’t help that his family have psychologically and even physically abused him and he genuinely believes this is normal despite how genuinely frightened he is in scenes where his family hurt him regardless. What’s even sadder about Pawbert’s life is he could’ve gotten actual psychological treatment earlier in his life so he would end up having a normal childhood but instead, he was being used for cruel work meant to undermine the city he has lived in for years and he could’ve genuinely had friends who cared about him instead of clinging to his cruel family who clearly don’t care about him and just use him for whatever they need to get done. To say Pawbert desperately needs psychological help and a restraining order away from his abusive family in order to help him adjust into a mentally healthier life for himself is a severe understatement.
