in between the raindrops

she who thinks a lot

[writingboutyou]

I’ve always treated my life like a balancing act standing on a thin line between chaos and order. I would feel so much, then I wouldn’t feel anything at all. So many days felt like the day before, or Sunday. I always hated Sunday. Sunday reminded you that tomorrow was another week. You had to get back up in the morning and act as if your first waking thought wasn’t of how to convince the world of the sanity you did not have. Sitting in that classroom with four white walls, for five days just as bland, makes you forget what it’s like to feel. Forgetting something so simple such as human emotion, makes you crazy. So you find ways to remember. You do things rational people wouldn’t understand because the scariest thing is being numb, and being used to it.

v.m // we all have our vices (via writingboutyou)

[01101011011010010110111001100111]

It had me thinking: Even if we would never meet again, I actually wouldn’t mind. I would guess that feeling is mutual.

Not that I wouldn’t want to see you again ever. I’ve just accepted the fact that the last time we’ve been with each other’s presence might be the last.

That’s how I feel with the majority of my friends.

[rrrrrainexxx]

Some people just come and go

[rrrrrainexxx]

I like your name a whole goddamn lot. I like saying it out loud. The one and two syllables that perfectly matched together like a hot, scalding coffee in a freezing winter day. And for some reason, no matter how common it is, you have the ability to make it a rare beauty. Perhaps because, it is nonetheless you.

[rrrrrainexxx]

FACT

I'm attracted to depressing things, to poems made of melancholy, to music that have deeper meanings.

[rrrrrainexxx]

It is somehow both maddening and odd how my heart skips a beat every time I see your name pops up on my phone notifications.

[rrrrrainexxx]

All these love songs but no one to sing it to. How wretched is that?

[dictionaryofobscuresorrows]

“Life is short. And life is long. But not in that order.”

Zenosyne: The Sense That Time Keeps Going Faster

[rrrrrainexxx]

ten seconds.

one - you called my name, out loud.

two - i turned and felt so proud.

three - i smiled and greeted you.

four - then, you smiled too.

five, six, seven, eight - we talked, and tried to talk.

nine - i muttered my good bye.

ten - ‘take care’, you answered in a fly.

i should have stayed, we could have shared the same way, we could have talked a little more longer - on how have you been, on how the weather was like, you would tell me about all the exciting things you are up to and i would tell you enthusiastically, about nothing and everything both at the same time. 

but nevertheless, out of the thousand seconds in a day, ten seconds was enough to complete my day. and it was you who made it ever so lightly.

if only, you knew,

[rrrrrainexxx]

I just want someone who likes to look at the stars just as much as I do.

[rrrrrainexxx]

Love is only a word, until someone arrives to give it meaning. Don't give up. Remember, it's always the last key in the key ring that opens the door.

Paulo Coelho, A Manuscript from Accra

[rrrrrainexxx]

Maybe today will be the day

Somehow, this has become a motivation for me this past few days. Maybe today will be the day - the day day for something I'm not exactly sure. And when that day comes, I'm pretty sure I would know. Behind those six words lies a little sparkle of hope, a little optimism.

[rrrrrainexxx]

I hate you for all the wrong reasons. But still, you are my favorite person to hate.

[rrrrrainexxx]

Smitten

It's annoying how I smile just by the sound of your name. The mere meeting of our gaze feels like the sun moved a little too closer, I can only look away because you shine too bright for my human eyes.

[rrrrrainexxx]

It is already late at night and I am crying myself to sleep because it still hurts thinking that you are gone. But then I smile, ‘cause I know that you still have lead such a wonderful life.

I miss you Mommy, each and everyday.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

People never learn anything by being told, they have to find out for themselves.

Paulo Coelho (via blairwaldorfings)

[rrrrrainexxx]

I look at their profile, scan it and say to myself: "Damn, everything is so fvcking curated nowadays." Social media has become people's greatest pretend.

[thetime-ishere-deactivated20180]

Falling back into a destructive mindset after being okay for a while is exhausting and upsetting.