Rubix

Y am I here?

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Writing a little fic about the A Sphere lives AU. I felt it went well so I decided to do a painting for it too!

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the other night i had a dream where i was leaving my goldfish under someone else's care while i was on vacation and then i came back and they were dead. apparently the person was a dumbass and didn't dechlorinate the water despite me telling them too and my fish perished. and then the person proceeds to try and shift the blame to be because i 'shouldn't have chosen such a fragile pet' while also saying it wasn't a big deal because they are just fish. i am still mad about this thing that did not happen.

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i dont understand

for some reason when i import it different objects are flipped???

this isnt even a finished model cause i was having face orientation issues with a different one so wanted to test and uh. i dont know if this is a blender issue or a roblox studio issue. please help.

i genuenly have no idea how or why this happend, the first model i imported only needed a few tweaks (one material per object and correcting face orientation) but it was NOTHING like this. also for some reason this other model just...wont flip its faces????

and when in blender it said they would be visible but arnt. i am so confused.

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uh oh...

she uh...does not look good with even eyes

making an arms version considering how i redisigned them she have tail now

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went ahead and drew A Sphere the way i draw my other spacies cause why not.

i also shrimped a square

i actually used highligter for coloring a sphere cause he wasnt YELLOW ENOUGH >:(

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so a few days ago i explained flatland to my grandfather, talking about the book here and then asked if he wanted to watch the film, to which he said after a few beers. he is the second person to tell me this and just further reinforced my point that to someone unfamilar with flatland it is completely insane. either that or im just bad at explaining.

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RUBLOX

so after some trial and error, redoing one of the textures, i introduce to you rubix in roblox. im planning ot animate here in there cause i uhhhh....that way i can be more immediatly useful and get more familier with studio. now the thing with the textures is at one point she got fucking skinned

and considering she technically has two mouths, she has a really fucking dumb t-pose

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been a while

so the model wasnt technically finished since i never made the little triangle mouth to go along side to other one, getting to work on that.

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And…here I am screaming into the void again. I mean…these posts don’t do well. I guess I just do it to say something when no one else is there. Sure I could just keep a journal but that’s not as cathartic.

This is less about actually posting any art and more insecurity about where I am about it now. And I guess also just…myself as a person. It’s just… I don’t know I feel creatively incapible? That I don’t have ideas or concepts. It’s not the technical aspects of my art that is uncomfortable it’s the core. It’s just…it’s not visually interesting? It feels sterile?

This was a win and the finished could be found on this blog…uhm…no one’s going to do that. I think why I center so much around the ideas in the art is because I am first, a world builder, and that is an art form that is entirely just ideas. I wouldn’t say it’s quite writing since it’s just…explaining what isn’t real, but not in a story sense but worldbuilding is also a story.

And like…I don’t know what else to do cause everyone is just like ‘no your art is good’ but it feels like everyone is thinking about the technical aspects of it. But I’m not asking about the technical aspect I’m asking about design elements and what the character actually is.

Maybe I’m craving attention.

Maybe I’m looking for empathy.

Maybe Im a sick, dopamine burnt fool like so many others.

I dont have anything to offer.

And even if I do get acknowledgement for one or two stories what then? I’ll run out. It’s not infinite.

No one reads this far anyways…or maybe they do and I just don’t know. Cause it’s just not interesting. I know I wouldn’t want to read about someone else’s identity/exestential/art crisis. I’d be online to forget about things for a bit…I have other things to do.

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Weird plant I found in nearby creek (it’s the long one in the center, does anyone know what this is? Same for the moss I wanna know). Also some cool moss! (There were lots of frogs and even a couple snails!)

More details about the peculiar photosynthetic organisms.

The long plant kind of reminds of bamboo at least superficially, but I’m not too familiar with plants so I don’t know. The region is northern Texas (not the panhandle the part near the red river) near a creek. The soil is kind of sandy and reddish is the best I could describe? Very crumbly when dry and firmer albeit malleable when wet. I found this after rain. The area was in the shade. When I grabbed one to examine it they wernt very sturdy at all and seemed to be hollow on the inside.

As for the moss it’s sort of loopy, like how steel wool curls in on itself…that’s the only notable feature about it I can gather really. Other than that it was growing where moss grows. Near water (although it was specifically on stones with tips emerging from the water and not in one of the more stagnant areas of the stream)

Bonus if anyone figures out the snail. Don’t really care about it as much I was just happy to see something that wasn’t various kinds of water walking bugs or frogs for once.

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RIP OLD BOSS IDEA

So…since I might actually be dropping the whole floating hands thing that means one of the boss ideas I had for the campaign may, unfortunately, perish.

The idea was as follows (cause I can always take the core concept and put it in something else)

(I might regret this but it’s fine, I have other reveals I’ll unveil as the campaign is happening so you guys can sorta enjoy it too)

You got a tetrahedron right? And he has access to a bunch of cloning machines and cybernetic implants that increase the amount of hands he can control at once. So the idea is the party goes to confront them for….a reason? And he’s like ‘hahaha you fell onto my trap’ or whatever and then there’s just this torrent of hands coming out from the vents and cabinets and from under piles of garbage. And these hands all go to the tetrahedron and the hands sorta grab onto each other and form a ‘hand golem’. And then they fight.

There was a reason this technology was banned…

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So uh…another late night post cause I can’t sleep.

Bro it is so weird googling information for a nations campaign.

Like I go from researching a list of war crimes, to Canada wildlife and geography, to trying ti figure out if I could turn heroin into either a powder or a gas (for war of course) and now I’m thinking how to weaponize a moose.

When I was looking at the war crimes most of them were just kinda sad and didn’t really wanna do those in a game…but child soldiers? I can see that…

In one of the past nation’s campaigns I played in, I committed war profiteering, enslaved all of humanity (only because one of the other players wanted to genocide all the humans and I wanted to keep them alive cause not evil but it just ended up being awful anyways. Like yeah…sure, great idea to let the chocolate empire run by soul eating rock monsters from space lead the remainder of humanity), and then I BUILT A RIVER THROUGH A CONTINENT (for trade of course….and also I really needed a city that wasn’t in the mountains)

It’s just. Damn nations games are just not occurring at all?! Like, if you enjoy the chaos of DnD games nations games are just that but amplified. You have the power to put the world in an economic depression. I honestly find it so funny that there were several times I became a world empire and just would not fall…or even have a civil war or something. Because the best trick to having a stable nation is to avoid war when you can, sell chocolate, and keep your civilians content with life. Sure initial expansion is slow…but once you’ve acquired money…oh you just fucking won. Wanna research horrible machines to torment your enemies? Throw money at it…wanna start building a strong relation with another nation? Wait until the current leadership is having money issues and give them money to turn them into a puppet state. No good nation that doesn’t like you at all? Simply procrastinate getting into a conflict, wait until there’s civil unrest in their nation and then fund things strategically until said nation is no longer an issue.

I love slowly acquiring money while watching the other players go to war with npc nation…I like sitting back, pretending to not be a threat, give them gifts of chocolate….until like like a snapping turtle using its tounge as a lure then I ambush them with a sudden influx of strategic cash and propaganda or just stop selling them stuff because more likely than not I’ve become THE source of goods within that geographic region (thus putting the leadership in a position where they must either ease relations with me, settle for a worse deal elsewhere, or endure the wrath of their people)….exept that one time where I tried this on a player nation who actually knew what he was doing, was already self sufficient, and just wanted me dead….that was the campaign I spent the whole time running around the globe trying to settle down to do capitalism only to pissoff thr locals and have to flee before I could get any decent industry running…it was really sad (that was also the one time I didn’t start in the tropics and didn’t immediately start selling chocolate…so uh…chocolate is the key to a successful nation aparently…ok also coffee but the chocolate thing is funnier to me)

And then there was this one time in the last campaign where my leader (a 60ft big soul eating rock monster) was going to one of the player nations for negotiations and a ceremony I think and almost got fucking assasinated. I’m really glad they didn’t cause then they wouldn’t have have befriended the propheted ‘evil necromancer that’s going to end the world and kill your adopted son that reincarnates and you have to go find and your not even sure it’s the right guy’ and unlocked their past memories of being a part of a technology advanced space empire and thus having knowledge of better technologies (we were in the Bronze Age). I made hot air balloons…and called them U-Boats…as in like…Up-Boats…cause they’re up in the sky….i mean…Aether did kind of go insane and started hearing voices but this didn’t lead to anything bad. This isn’t a set up the campaign ended before anything bad could happen cause of that.

But uh…yeah nations campaigns are a play option that exists…i definitely recommend giving it a try cause they are just built different from more player focused campaigns (depending on style you can still do a lot of role play though). As far as systems you can really use anything as long as there’s a basic character creation system and (depending on what system your using) you may or may not have to create stuff for running a nation. So like…military, economy, civilian happiness, etc. it’s more management but that’s where the chaos comes from. One moment you’ll be like ‘wow! It’s so great that my military is so big!’ And then the costs of keeping up the troops and (depending on your nations overall culture or how effective your propaganda was) then it’ll be ‘well shit now I’m broke and the farmers want me dead’. But like, it’s the sort of thing that just gets more and more insane as time goes on, and I know that’s just a think with long standing ttrpgs in general but it’s really amplified in nations campaigns.

Honestly giving me the same vibe as first playing spore and encountering the various quality creations. Ally with the freddy fathers, enemies with some dinosaurs. Normal day.

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Finished that comic thingy

heres the initial version i did on the second ever whiteboard

this was made before i changed it from rubix being orbitons girlfriend to being her kid instead. honestly, im not really sure how to depict relationships so i just kinda defaulted to 'friend you make out with sometimes' cause thats my current understanding of it. also ignore the second A Square in the initial thingy hes uh...not supposed to be there.

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Something I find funny about my fish is that the orange one (The Goods) is somewhat judgmental and tends to dart around when eating, very energetic and somewhat skittish although not quite fearful of people. Piracy on the other hand is sort of like The Goods emotional support. Piracy is extremely curious and is usually the first to swim up to the side of the tank to beg for food. In a way, Piracy is almost as energetic at The Goods, exept that energy is directed entirely towards begging.

And when feeding The Goods kinda just darts around the whole tank sucking up one or two pellets at a time whereas Piracy just sorta meanders up and sucks in the whole clump of 6 pellets.

When I use the sinking food they both do that meandering thing and I once saw Piracy suck up a bit and spit it out once The Goods came over only for The Goods to immediately spit it back out again and for Piracy to eat it.

I was initially worried that because one is a fancy and the other is a common that there would be issues with feeding and bullying but they get along great. I’ve noticed The Goods become less skittish and they will both sometimes seek each other out, swim around together for a bit, before splitting off to forage on their own and eventually come back together. Sometimes Piracy won’t realize The Goods went to the other side of the tank, look up from sorting through sand and then swim with what little might fancies have to be with The Goods.

I’m aware that the tank is a bit small (20gal +hardscape) and I plan to triple the tank size to accommodate them properly. Although right now they both seem to be doing good in the current set up.

Also, does anyone have any advice for some good plants that will accommodate them? Preferably something that absorbs a lot of the waste and is hardy enough to not immediately get murdered by them. Currently I have one anubias and it’s doing well, but I’m unsure whether I should fully commit to anubias or add something else for variety. It’s I don’t want to take up more of the tanks space than I have to because it’s only a 20 gallon. My current amount of sand is about 1 inch thick.

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my fish...again

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Guys, I shit you not. First aliens on this save.

Oh buddy no

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Some doodles

Experimented with giving them cloths and I think they look hideous. Maybe it’s just that I always draw aliens or monsters or whatever and cloths arnt necisary for them so I have no idea how to draw cloths but yeah.

Also some modified flatlander designs and I made the lines more line like. I felt like they were too thick :(

Also Zeph is there.