Forever Love

Gabby. 33 years old. Music is my life. Forever and ever a Cassie. VIP, Shawol,, B2uty, and BBC. Also love, Rain. BoA, 1TYM, Shinhwa, Miss A.

[anxietyproblem]

[toastbutteregg]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

eventually you realize you don’t want to die. you just don’t want to live the life you’re living. and slowly you try to create a life you want to live. just gotta start there.

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

no one needs to add “sounds fake but ok”, “no”, “well, not me”, “impossible”, etc. to this post. and i’d rather you not.

[duckbunny]

one day you think: I want to die.

and then you think, very quietly: actually. actually. I think I want a coffee. a nap. a sandwich. a book.

and I want to die turns day by day into I want to go home, I want to walk in the woods, I want to see my friend, I want to sit in the sun

I want a cleaner kitchen

I want a better job

I want to live somewhere else

I want to live

[zenosanalytic]

The thing to understand is that Depression

Even When It Is Trying to Kill You!

Is Defensive.

Your brain exists to preserve you; it’s just Dumb, and how it goes about “preserving” is determined by evolution’s ‘Good Enough’ meat-and-chemistry mechanisms rather than a firm grasp of biology.

You know how, stuck atop a burning building, ppl will sometimes throw themselves off in a vain hope of surviving? That’s what depression-driven suicide is. You are under THAT amount of stress, often sustained for a FAR longer time. Your brain only understands “Stress”: it doesn’t know causes, it doesn’t know Events, and it only has the one set of instinctive ‘extreme measures’ to fall back on. I made things SO hard on myself for SO Long conceiving of Depression as a Fight I had to Win, rather than a chronic illness in need of my understanding and careful management.

Help your brain. Nurse it. Ask yourself where it hurts and why. Recognize that the desire to die is a symptom, an injury, and not your ‘Truth’. Try to calm it, Try to endure: It WILL Pass. As perverse as it sounds, your desire to die is an expression of how PASSIONATELY you want to get away from the pain tormenting you; of how MUCH you want to LIVE. PLEASE Live!

[20o1-deactivated20240129-deacti]

🌷 here is a flower for anyone not feeling their best today

[rui-li]

need this today

[skunkeyemcghee]

Do yourself a favor. Sound up. Enjoy.

[funny-tik-toks]

[ebonykain]

This one needs to go right next to the Baltimore accent with the Aaron earns an iron urn.

[royal-random-the-yogurt-queen]

In case anyone hasn't seen it

[anais-ninja-bitch]

love how english started as a rhotic language and half the native speakers said, "oh, Fuck That Noise"

[findingfeather]

What I DEEPLY LOVE about the Baltimore one is how mad HE IS to realize what his own accent did to it. XD He's SO MAD. XD XD

[memecage]

I can see clearly now

[rui-li]

legit this is me

[crohniewitch]

[0dde11eth]

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

insta: @duckinggoodart

[pawjamas]

[simtric]

I love y’all ❤️

[halorvic]

how have you been?

[halorvic]

Update:

[halorvic]

—-

🎉

[rui-li]

May 28, 2022

This is me on my wedding day

[jerfreyy-deactivated20240211]

Kim Jong Un Would Really Hate For You To Watch This, Which Is Exactly Why You Should

LibertyInNorthKorea.org

[justdrinktea]

so in Japanese, we sang Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer.

here’s a general gist of the translation:

Rudolph had a shiny nose no one liked him he cried every night then one Christmas it was dark Santa decided Rudolph’s nose was convenient (literally it says convenient) Rudolph was useful.

I SHIT YOU NOT. 

[kkatkkrap]

[jupitereyed]

That’s basically the song without all of the fluff, though.

[headless-hat-deactivated2013121]

IT’S LIKE A VULCAN CHRISTMAS CAROL

[andiamburdenedwithgloriousfeels]

[theboywhoreadsbooks]

*Enters a bookstore*

me to myself: be calm

[kyidyl]

I stg this man and his nonsense.

[elidyce]

Chocolate wizard on his bullshit again