WXS needs to be real.

I rarely will use this account as I am using a second blog. Taking an actual break/hiatus for a little bit. I will still answer and reblog as I'm just taking it easy now.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

Rui/ splatoon art that I did like..2 months ago idk.

new account is linked. Do not justify my poor and immature actions.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

I dunno if Tumblr is bugging, but I got a notification for an anon then it disappeared when I clicked on it……hm….

( I love knowing puppy kasa has a canon design🥹 )

[transylvanianstarvation]

Thank you for the tags @clairvoyantdisease and @fear0fdying

Name: Sylvan

Age: Older than sixteen, younger than twenty.

Relationship status: In a relationship

Sexuality: Straight/Heterosexual

Crush Initial: S and technically C (both my gf she just has two different names)

Followers: 304

Favourite mutuals: @morbid-vampyr @that-vamp-starr @vvallachia @saeraaaa @quixotic9999999999 @shame-in-you @coldmilkbeforebed @clairvoyantdisease @fear0fdying @bassyperson @samstalgia @lordst-ofeth-edge @vtheblaire @nightmare8-420 @necr0cism

[none of you have to do this by the way]

[bassyperson]

aww im one of your favorites :]

Name: Steven

Age: 15

Relationship status: single and probably wont be looking for a while

Sexuality: Gay (like, i like men), and if i do end up using the microlabels SIMPLIFIED im aroace (demiroantic and aegosexual)

Crush initial: n for nobody aha

Followers: tbd

favorite mutuals: @b4thory-1t-w4s-all-a-ho4x @krakencran @whitestreamrct2 @k-mart-hair-42 @notevennotpron @realmustaine @kirkwahmmett @reasons-to-not-end-it @th3-c0njur1ng @transylvanianstarvation @5000voltsthroughme (sorry we don't interact) @sludgekill in no particular order

no pressure to do this (yes hi i know i also tagged prev stfu)

[k-mart-hair-42]

thanks for the tag twin 🥹

Name: Katt

Age: 16

Relationship status: single and happy 😛

Sexuality: toric, meaning I’m out of the gender binary and I like guys

Crush initial: uhhh JH kinda sorta aha /j

Followers: idk man I aint counting

Favorite moots: @booplushie @b4thory-1t-w4s-all-a-ho4x @notevennotpron @whitestreamrct2 @ifperadventurethisbetrue @idontgottatellyoucrap @bassyperson @vinnie-p0t @sludgekill I KNOW I TAGGED PREV BRO 😭

[idontgottatellyoucrap]

YAYAYAYAYAY THANK YOU FOR TAGGING ME TWIN

Name: Cheerio, Lennon, Starr, Twiggie and I think I have another but i can't remember (none are my real name bruh)

Age: 16

Relationship status: single and have never dated. Im open to whatever happens bro but im a hopeless romantic BUT im happy single, idk man

Sexuality: bisexual :3 I dont exactly have a preference i like who I be liking

Followers: in the 100s I think but I can't remember specifically

Fav moots: IF I FORGOT ANY OF YOU IM SO SORRY @b4thory-1t-w4s-all-a-ho4x @axlthetwink87 @5000voltsthroughme @sleepyykal @whythefuk @georgeharrisonswife-real @ramohn-wilbury @sunny-of-the-beatles @gummybrahh @eggieeggsta @spiritusnonsanctii @bassyperson @k-mart-hair-42 @simpforsimon @nuclear-atm0sph3ar (I definitely forgot some moots but I'll update when I can)

Also open tags to join, jump in if you want!

[axlthetwink87]

THANKYUO BRO.I LOBVE YOY

Name: axl, vic and a few others but i prefer axl 👍👍👍

Age: 14 (you are tje youngest person ever...)

relationship status: i have a pretty lovely boyfriend called kurt and i love him so mych

Sexuality: gay/ bi-curious but i domt rlly care

Crush initial: k for kurt cauae boyfriend yayyy !

Followers: I DONT KNOE ACTUALLY, i think its almost 200 so mayhaps 197 ?? Something like that

Fav moots: EEP I DONT RLLY HAVE FAVES CAUAE I LIKE TGEM ALL BUT ILL TAG TJE PEOPLE I TAG IN THIS STUFF TH3 MOST MAYHAPS !! @undead-vamp @thereisnomilkk @thatonebisexualgunner @b4thory-1t-w4s-all-a-ho4x @chocolapilled @stormdotpng @heftyj4m

[thereisnomilkk]

TY TY TY I WASN'T TAGGED IN SHIT IN SO LONG @_@

Name: idc at this point call me anything 😭💔

Age: 14 (15 in 3 months)

Relationship status: 🫩

Sexuality: atp idk but pretty sure i'm omni

Crush initial: noneee

Followers: 115 :DDD

fav moots: @axlthetwink87 @cronotose @getchahorse @stormdotpng @thatonebisexualgunner @anaconda-creates I HOPE I DIDN'T FORGET ANYONE

[thatonebisexualgunner]

Yippie tyyy

Name: July (random nickname a friend gave me)

Age: 15

Relationship status: single like a pringle 😌

Sexuality: bi

Crush initial: none lol

Followers: 154 (how did that even happen)

fav moots: help Idk I‘ll just tag the people I see the most

@j3nny21xcx @glitterystrawberrypeace @axlthetwink87 @idontgottatellyoucrap @sleepyykal @xvivianmustdiex @undead-vamp @thereisnomilkk +many more but I‘m too dumb to remember names

[xvivianmustdiex]

yayyayay tyyyy :3

name: vivian

age: 15

relationship status: single

sexuality: oh buddy dont get me started. maybe bi maybe lesbian who freaking knows

crush initial: im scared what if somehow she's lurking and she finds this and then i die 😊😊

followers: 347 ^^ yippie

fav moots: uhhhh @basementgerardlover @thatonebisexualgunner (ik u alr tagged me but ur the freaking gost ok🥹🥹) @axlthetwink87 @liliesdontdieroses @mxgicrats @linoandhispotatoagainsttheworld @imbatmanpoperoni and katie ! idfk her username ...

[imbatmanpoperoni]

Ty fa da tag 🥹 umm ok ok

Nam:jasmine/nickname ja-man like batman yk

Age:17 (im unc ik)

Relationship: single to the max I want a bf 1 day, but tahts God's timing. No mine, buh 1 day 1 dayyyy

Sexuality: straight

Crush initials : I don't have any cuz i don't talk to boys :<

Followers: 208 Last time I checkedddd

Fav moots : @corteggs-for-breakfast @clemenzzz @beatbymarzz and Sami Sorry twin, I forgot u user 😔

[touakikittiessss]

WHAT YOUR 17?! Woah

Name: Sami (ofc I’m not saying my real one)

Age: im a teen>.<

Relationship: single but want someone so badly

Sexuality: demiromantic lesbian

Crushes initials: I… do not have one

Followers: i think 134?

Fav moots: I love all my moots but some of my favs are @mystery-the-pupp3t @starryvbs2500 @vinnieairhead @vividnightsystem @akitosmitosisfather (actually your like my fav person to annoy bro) @ningningsfreakywife ofc Batman, @parkedsunghoon1009 @enevermore

[vividnightsystem]

Aww we are one of your favs 🥹

Name: vivids collectively

Age: 18 bodily

Sexuality: changes but bisexual

Crushes: dunno

Followers: 233 or smth

Fav moots: love all you of guys but some fave are @randomvodkaboy @inscrutable-ari and @thes1llyone cause thats all we remember and ofc you and Vinnie are up there.

[thes1llyone]

Yayyyyyy I'm glad I'm one of y'all's faves :3

Name: Silly

Age: Younger than 18, older than 13

Sexuality: Omnisexual with a preference leaning towards feminine genders

Crushes: Nunya Beeswax

Followers: Recently hit 100 I think!

Favorite moots! (If you got tagged already then too bad >:3): @touakicatsss @mystery-the-pupp3t @mr-showtime-17 @flaunttheweirdmyfriends @starryvbs2500 @oceanamethyst @yourneighborhoodtransboy @vinnieairhead @sundewhasaudhd + ofc the vivids hehe :3

[mr-showtime-17]

name: hoshi

age: find out mf

sexuality: straight as hell

crushes: i dont have any anymore :p

followers: 112 ☆

fav moots... uhm.. all of them but im just gonna tag who i can remember rn while still very tired..

@arlo-theroomservice @3eggss @coffee--creature @hollowedoutcool @topkasabottomrui @oceanamethyst @touakicatsss uhmm who else... @aellathesas136 ....ya i forgot whoelse... if i didnt tag you pretend i did.

[topkasabottomrui]

Tysm for the tag!

Name:Hiro

Age:13

Relationship stats:I have a gf! :3

Sexuality:Lesbian

Crushes:my gf!

Followers:i think 43!

Fav moots! ;

@ruikasapeaksm

@hex-the-memelord @callingurhousephone @ruidafounddeadinadumpster

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

I’m a favourite..? 🥹🥹

Name: Ruida

Age: Above the age of 14 below 18. ( I ain’t sharing thank you very much😡 )

relationship stats: I also have a gf. ( Crossed out because we both do not seem to care anymore lol )

Sexuality: Pan/aro.

Crushes: 😶

Followers: I don’t keep count😭.

Fav moots :

@pikminenjoy3r @topkasabottomrui ( You already got tagged butttt..yk 👍 )

I have no other moots. So like, anyone can continue this.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

I’m taking an actual break.

I really need to stop everything and just fix myself and I’m not even going to try and justify it.

I’ve just been horrible lately and really need to fix myself otherwise I’m just going to have problems forever. I don’t want anymore questions or asks. I just want to really get better because I’m genuinely fucked in the head and it’s clear.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

I’m sorry. For many many things.

I did indeed steal art from @/mm_xb from Twitter. I did indeed claim things that were not mine, I did indeed do many many other things that were just wrong and I apologise entirely to both the people I have deceived and lied to but none other than the artist.

PLEASE. And I mean PLEASE go support the artist. Not me. They deserve all of the credit and all the rights.

I am so terribly sorry, I know it sounds like I’m not but I am. I just cannot handle trouble, but it’d be wrong if I didn’t make this apology. So yes. I am making this in true guilt and I do not want to be justified for this.

Running away from mistakes doesn’t make them better, it only worsens them. And that, is a mistake I could’ve made. But, thank you very dearly to the person ( or people..? ) who has been pushing me to do so.

I’m sorry, I’m not good at this type of stuff and I just kind of suck at apologies or anything really. But, no more of that.

Please, once again, do not justify my actions and you have every right to be angry. Once again, please go support the artist. Not me.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

Potentially quitting. Edit: My Alt Account will probably be my main from here on. I just…want to have a refresh. But not yet. Not right now.

Okay, I know I said I was just going on break but I might quit Tumblr. I’ve made fucked decisions and have forgotten important details in many posts which right wordedly has all been called out. I have no way of getting better because of personal reasons and this is why I’m planning to quit. I don’t want “pity” or empathy. It isn’t right to justify my stupid actions and that is final. If you want to have a talk then go ahead. But I really just can’t take it anymore.

It’s either ‘Oh, everything’s okay I’m not gonna do something stupid’ and every-time I do. I’m not 100% sure whether I will quit or not but most probably will for my own wellbeing.

Regarding of the toddler. Yes, that is true. However did you all really think I would post a child on social media? No. That child in the photo is not mine and I had thought I’d made that clear. However, I apologise once again and none of that is anyone’s fault, it’s mine.

I also have been feeling very low recently. I have been thinking of giving up. Of. Leaving everything behind. Because I just…I just don’t know what to do anymore. Going off of the internet might help but it all just feels wrong. Both feel so wrong. I’m sorry. I don’t like sharing my own personal problems and I think because I write them whilst I’m feeling the emotion it’s been screwing me up.

I’m not sure if my neurodivergence has to do with the potential reason for my lack of control and communication but, who knows.

That’s all.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

why do I feel sad all of a sudden again?

Nothings happened so why is my breathing getting faster and my eyes are stinging?? I genuinely don’t understand, my mother has tried reaching out to me, she’s tried being so happy and supportive of me but I keep pushing her away. I don’t want to take care of him. I’m still young. But the police is only going to make it worse. Why do I have to be born with something that differentiates me from my family. Why did I have to run away to an abandoned apartment. I’m sorry, this is so random but I’m genuinely confused I don’t get it right now there’s blood coming out of my mouth, I’m scared.

I am. I can’t keep posting happy things pretending I’m not anymore. I don’t want to talk about my emotions if anyone asks. Whenever I do. I can never word it right. As you’ve all seen.

I’m younger than said. I’m older than you think. I’m not young but I’m not old. I’m going to be an adult soon, I need to stop. But I can’t, the blood is making me choke as I’m writing this. My mother has texted me again and again asking if I’m okay.

Edit: this is what she has sent me, I don’t know what to say.

I don’t get it. She cares so much yet I just, push her away. I dunno. My mind is too rambled at the moment.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

Okay, I feel calmer now. And for some reason she never came. I dunno why. But, yk.

I love my mother so much it hurts. She’s the only family that I can’t trust but want to. Because I’m autistic, I’m too different from her. How do people genuinely want autism or any type of mental disorder?

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

why do I feel sad all of a sudden again?

Nothings happened so why is my breathing getting faster and my eyes are stinging?? I genuinely don’t understand, my mother has tried reaching out to me, she’s tried being so happy and supportive of me but I keep pushing her away. I don’t want to take care of him. I’m still young. But the police is only going to make it worse. Why do I have to be born with something that differentiates me from my family. Why did I have to run away to an abandoned apartment. I’m sorry, this is so random but I’m genuinely confused I don’t get it right now there’s blood coming out of my mouth, I’m scared.

I am. I can’t keep posting happy things pretending I’m not anymore. I don’t want to talk about my emotions if anyone asks. Whenever I do. I can never word it right. As you’ve all seen.

I’m younger than said. I’m older than you think. I’m not young but I’m not old. I’m going to be an adult soon, I need to stop. But I can’t, the blood is making me choke as I’m writing this. My mother has texted me again and again asking if I’m okay.

Edit: this is what she has sent me, I don’t know what to say.

I don’t get it. She cares so much yet I just, push her away. I dunno. My mind is too rambled at the moment.

[daily-vitamin-rui]

N0T B4D K1D… *chuckles.* BUT IT GOES MORE LIKE THIS— ahem- "H3LL0.. 1M V3R1TY! Y0UR P3RZ0N4L H3LP3R FR13ND *chuckl3z* 4ZK M3 4NYTH1NG, 1 KN0W 3V3RYTH1NG…" H-Help I’m turning I-into Ver-Hello I’m Verity, Your personal help friend *eyes turn white* Ask me anything *chuckles* I know everything… the clown.. hi guys *waves in friendly way* oh...oh..no..OH NO..! NOT NOW...NOT NOW..! *starts shaking violently and falls down with tears* n-no...N-NOO..AAAAGHHHH!! starts super sane charging and turns into verity and starts floating in the air with yellow lighting everywhere and yellow aura* HAHAHHA IM VERITY!! HEY UTS ME VERITY! ASK NE ANYING!! *everyone shakes with fear and dies of heart attack* me and le ✨ verities ✨ listening to this BOY IS THAT VERITY?!?!😂😂😂😂 SCUBAAAAAAAAA!!!! 🫱🫱🫱🫱🫱🫱👋👋👋👋👋👋👋👋👋 NO NOT T-T-THIS IM GLITCHING MY INNER DEMONS NOOOO- hey i-its me verity somet-things coming in 3-3 d-d-days NO STO- MOB Wait not this song agAAA - awsx HELLO IM VERITY Hello gu- WHAT NO VERITY NOOO PLEA- HELLO IM VERITY Me and ✨Le ✨ verity fictionkins listening to me when 🫦le pomni💞 says "In another life Jax..?🥵' and Jax replies with," In another life..Pompom🫦" so I lowkey say ✨dUdEe StAwpP✨ while me and ✨LE 💗DIVAS💗✨ drinking our 🔥LE MATCHA🔥 while listening to ✨LE KORK KORK MEOW MEOW POW FUNK✨ trying de🙄💖CRUMBL labubu ube dot cake Dubai chocolate matcha Korean chewy cookie👑 and le divas say 💖hold on- lemme ask ✨Le ChATgpT✨ what he thinks about this 💖🫦💖 and Me and🫦 Le diva 🫦when ✨LE BOTS✨ comment😂😂 ✨Le✨verity song W-what t-t-the no.. th-this isn’t supposed t-t-to happen! Hey Siri

🤖: Yes mommy?

Call all my friends

🤖: ERROR: no friend detected

I mean my pawns

🤖: Understood king. Calling 8 billions people…

Checkmate.

🥹yay

[ruikasapeaksm]

@topkasabottomrui didn’t you got the same thing lol😭😭

[topkasabottomrui]

YES I DID OMG😭😭😭I HAVE A PHOBIA FOR THESE THINGS

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

YOU TOO..? 🥹

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

waaaait epic mentioned in your pinned post 🥹

I love epic so much.🥹

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

What time is it for y’all atm.

It’s 9:40 at the moment for me. ( UK )

[booplushie]

my old pfp was my oc— no i would not. he once got into a fight with a guy over some chick and got knocked out with one punch.

my now pfp, kirk? hell no. Cliff? He might stab me, he might stab the danger, he might stab both?

@whitestreamrct2 @sludgekill @getzinyaa @k-mart-hair-42 @bassyperson open tags hooray

[vivi-la-vida]

mines olivia so hell yeah

tags: @sugar-and-spice-0801 @depressedwhimsicalchild @heavens-theif @wonllitz @damsel-understresss @m1lkypawz @bangchanssecondtoenail @kani-soulsalltheway @ebi-heartsalltheway @nyxcodedd @piensprincess @hyunjinlover-143 @virtual-angel-kanade @yuxriki @sonomartin @the-fall-of-ziggy-stardust @lee-fryer @dorichaes @ranboos-lesbian-memory-book @kittykori

[sonomartin]

Do I trust Jensen Ackles??? Sure..

@soyguillermo @ebi-heartsalltheway @kani-soulsalltheway @dorichaes @doradoro101

[doradoro101]

yh I defo trust Suga

@notonelover @haneurin @asaoj @shugarpiie @mydesiresangel @lee-fryer @jan-is-dead @eroticuntnectar @enevermore @sugar-and-spice-0801 + open tags

[enevermore]

HELL YESSSS!!! WHAT A GOOD DAY FOR NIKI TO BE IN MY PFP 😍

@touakikittiessss @ningningsfreakywife @cherryydollieee @da1stninjagofangirl @luvzwon @bruh37legolover @lovemoka-4sho @jwnstxr

[da1stninjagofangirl]

YEAH I CAN TRUST MY BOY SUNOO 😝 He'll protect ENGENE XD

@parkedsunghoon1009 @zanezanezane123 @bruh37legolover @luvzwonn @ningningsfreakywife

[parkedsunghoon1009]

Im it's sunghoon probably

@touakicatsss @nostalgiaultara

[touakikittiessss]

Imma do this one… ummm teetee just maybe… depends…

@mystery-the-pupp3t @vinnieairhead @vividnightsystem @starryvbs2500 @strawberryfairyflower plus open tags

[starryvbs2500]

oh hell yeah C.C. can protect me

@s0m3-strang3rs @rudobios @dariusmustn0t @suenestrellas @frayed-wind @angry-banana-27 @imadethisjusttolookatssmyposts @orikeys @quaimundo @criter2 @strawberryfairyflower + open! also sorry if you don't want to be tagged

[s0m3-strang3rs]

i uh… maybe..?

@dariusmustn0t @rudobios @the-animeverse-system @mr-showtime-17 @vividnightsystem @vinnieairhead @nihilisticshifuyu @thes1llyone + ANYONE ELSE I FORGOT 💔

[mr-showtime-17]

oh my goodness yes please

@3eggss @arlo-theroomservice @oceanamethyst @coffee--creature @hollowedoutcool @thes1llyone @topkasabottomrui + anyone else + open

[topkasabottomrui]

I'D protect him, he's my baby

@ruikasapeaksm @hex-the-memelord @callingurhousephone @ruidaisobssesedwithwroef

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

Uhm…….So….It might seem a lil crazy about who is my pfp……uhm………….who knows….……………………….

@pikminenjoy3r

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

I genuinely need to get myself checked out with my wordings. Like, I’ll describe something and each time I’ll always fuck something up.

[evilautismcreature]

I lowkey don’t want Rui to confront Sakaki ngl

I’ve seen a few posts, and @oceanamethyst brought up a really good point about Rui’s insecurity. I think if he did try to speak up, Sakaki would invent a narrative and distort the truth to make it seem like it was Rui’s fault all along and he’ll fall for it, because he believes wholeheartedly what others say about him, so imagine this professional director saying so to his face. If Sakaki shifts the blame on him, Rui will blame himself and stop talking. He won’t impose himself out of the blue. He is still learning to be confident in what he thinks is right.

People honestly need to normalize just. Not arguing and cutting toxic and harmful bonds from your life. If WxS just cut him off and distanced themselves, or just gave him a solid “we don’t want your help anymore.”, it would just save them the mental energy. What I think they (and we) should prioritize is Rui talking to Tsukasa, in particular. Not only to tell him everything he couldn’t say and regrets it, but also to bring him out of this mindset that the role is more important than his own life. He could seriously injure himself (or others, like Nene in Kasa7) and I would argue is at risk of.

Plus, what if Tsukasa gets major trust issues with anyone who tries to approach him in the future, since Sakaki groomed him, and that gets him stuck from getting new opportunities to grow and achieve his dream? Since he would only trust Rui and that creates some bad emotional dependency? Idk I might be going mental

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

I agree and yeah, I mentioned this when Ocean posted that post. Rui confronting Sakaki has a lot of consequences in regards to Rui’s thoughts.

But, I do not think Rui is going to tell Tsukasa that what Sakaki is doing is wrong.

Rui at the moment is blinded by what Sakaki is doing and we can see this in the last episode where he just feels..useless. He’s aware that Sakaki’s method is harsh and has a risk of damaging their mental health. But I do not think Rui is aware what Sakaki is doing is wrong.

Not yet at least. As an autistic person, and I’m sure many can agree this is a fair point. As an autistic person, we are easily manipulated.

And that manipulation can last from days, to weeks to even months.

I personally think Sakaki is going to manipulate Rui more into thinking that HIS way of directing is the correct thing and what Rui is doing is ‘petty and useless for wonderlands x showtime’.

If Rui told Tsukasa what was wrong in the next Wondershow event, that would make no sense event and lore wise. Because Rui doesn’t even seem to be caught on that Sakaki is doing the wrong thing. He genuinely is believing that Sakaki’s direction is doing good for Tsukasa and that his way of directing is wrong.

Don’t get me wrong, it’d be best if Rui DID tell Tsukasa or wondershow.

But I do not think that’s going to happen.

Rui’s very smart yes. But, if we are taking the fact he’s implied to be neurodivergent. Then he is most likely just going to be more and more manipulated by Sakaki’s instructions and that will change his directing style to something more toxic.

( Which…personally. I do not want as the fandom. ESPECIALLY the shippers will most likely take that as.-

-“Oh! Rui is turning into this evil toxic monster who doesn’t care for Tsukasa!” * Inserts Tsukasa cringe asf angst fanfic. * )

…Okay my apologies for that. But you get the point. ( This was not me dismissing your idea by the way, I just thought I’d share my own thoughts and opinions. )

Sorry if I worded this wrong as usual, goodbye.

[evilautismcreature]

You bring a really good point. Taking into the account the implication of him being autistic, I can see this going extremely south too. It’s easier for Rui to convince himself to “be less sensitive” and just become harsher himself as Sakaki is, than to take his feelings and intuition as the right thing to do. I might be projecting quite a lot when I say this but I think it’s important for this conversation, I’m 21 and autistic and only like a week ago realized my mother’s manipulative behavior. It takes LONG for you to realize people do bad for you, because if they mask their intentions and beliefs well enough, you convince yourself they’re safe and get blinded by it. If Sakaki gets to Rui, we are so FUCKED.

The way I imagine him being able to talk to Tsukasa is only if Emu, Nene and the vocaloids encourage him repeatedly, it’s the concept I wrote for Rui 7 in my head that I later wanna share here. Rui feels like a coward, blames himself, and Emu, Nene and KAITO encourage him to create the courage to talk to Tsukasa. I don’t think him alone, and where he’s at now, would do this on his own.

I like to think about tons of possibilities as well and maybe Rui 7 won’t solve the gap in their friendship, if anything it could even make them more distant because of what you said here (Rui taking Sakaki’s methods into action). It could be so interesting too honestly, we never saw Rui be cruel with anyone, it would be a scary scenario. I see your point about the shippers too yeah…… it sadly will be like that probably 💔 I really liked reading your thoughts tho! Thanks for sharing :)

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

Of course anytime! I like sharing my own thoughts and opinions here and there and also really liked yours too. :)

( Also I’m sorry about you and your mother, hope things are well )

[flaunttheweirdmyfriends]

have you ever thought abut middle school nene.

how she must have felt so hopeless and lonely because she thought she was incapable. how she used video games as a way of escape. doing mindless repeating tasks in an empty virtual world to escape from her failure. watching her childhood friend fall deeper and deeper into darkness and being too trapped, somehow, to reach out even though a mere wall separates them.

trying to disappear only to find that she still cared too much. why? feeling sorry for a younger version of herself, still naive and believing in fairy tale magic, who had thought she could become the little mermaid (but didnt the little mermaid eventually turn into sea foam that dissolved at the lightest touch, all because she had wanted too much?) instead of stuck indoors all day playing video games.

she cares too much to give up. still hoping in a tiny corner of her mind. blending in, blending in, become transparent, let no one in— if it means not letting them see you fail. whats worse, you still want to go on even after all that? how funny. do you deserve to? can you?

empty days pass and the music sheets still lie quietly untouched on a corner of the desk. she hates herself for allowing the hours to tick by like a stupid npc in a game passively waiting for the main character to come by and change their fate, a shell of a person. she hates herself or failing, for falling short; yet, shes the one sitting here, with her body filled with numbness and doing—nothing. and she hates herself even more for that.

still, she doesnt. cant. pick up the music sheets and scripts—light as feathers and too too heavy with the weight of broken notes and forgotten lines. what happened to the glittering dreams, the shining stages, the golden canary delighting the world with its sweet song?

but she doesn’t deserve it anymore, not unless everythings the best she can make it. it has to be even better than perfection. if they could do it, why cant she? but itll never be anymore, not after what had happened. a need for everything to be just as shiny and polished and perfect as that stage, ten years ago, was. the edges of the memory are fading, but she still sees everything, hears every note crisp and clear and sharp and demanding and mocking and so so stupidly perfect. trapping herself in a cage where the bars are constructed from her own dreams. how cruel.

just like the fate of the little mermaid. 

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

I’m so glad you talked about this because definitely needed to be said.

People like to think Nene is just this Shy Insecure diva with no personality, which is not true at all.

Nene literally hates herself because she feels ‘useless and weak’, she felt hopeless and fucking depressed not only because of herself, but because the one person who stays, the one person she admires, ( platonially ) loves, is literally crumbling falling into a deep ocean of depression and cages. She’s having to watch that whilst not being able to do anything.

Nene looks at her old self and cringes at it, she loves herself yet despises herself at the same time, no matter how old she gets. Nene will never truly be satisfied with her own self and what she does, she’ll appreciate the things she has and the people around but when it comes to her? She doesn’t know.

[ruidaisobssesedwithwroef]

You should name your toddler Frank, after Frank Sinatra! Also, don't trust the police with this stuff. The system is horrible for children.

Yeah, I figured. Frank is cute! I’ll keep that in mind :).