I Don’t Know why or how I’m Still Here

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[runasulienadanika]

someone fucking shoot me.

[ofroseandivory]

something that’s both infuriating and hilarious about harrow the ninth is that it becomes so difficult to differentiate the realities of canaan house from the byproducts of harrow’s lobotomy for two reasons that have absolutely no right to exist simultaneously: harrow has brain damage and gideon is allergic to locking in. what actually happened? which details from harrow’s perspective are just things gideon simply didn’t pay a lick of attention to, and which details are absolute horseshit made up in the aftermath of the great lesbian grief of harrowhark the first? someone needs to save them from themselves

[runasulienadanika]

GRIDDLEHARK AND CAMPAL ARE OPPOSITES BUT ALSO PARALLEL TO EACH OTHER AND IT MAKES ME SO INSANE

6th House is on mercury and 9th House is on pluto so they're on the opposite ends of the dominicus system

9 is 6 uspide down and 6 is 9 upside down

the Ninth House and the Sixth House are religion vs science

Gideon and Harrow are (were) childhood enemies, Camilla and Palamedes are (were) childhood friends. Gideon and Harrow had a hard time trusting each other, Camilla and Palamedes trusted each other with everything.

Gideon and Harrow are all about forgetting ("But I don’t even remember about you most of the time", the whole lobotomy situation), Camilla and Palamedes are all about remembering ("I’ve carried you, Warden. And I’ve carried your memory … I’d rather carry you", "Palamedes remembers everything: That was his problem. I always remember him. That’s mine")

Gideon and Harrow are water (the Pool Scene, Gideon being in the "well" in Harrow's mind, Harrow deciding to stay in the River and Gideon "dying" in the River), Camilla and Palamedes are fire (Palamedes's first death, Palamedes and Camilla's lyctoral ascention)

in griddlehark's case the necromancer carried their cavalier's soul, in campal's case the cavalier carried their necromancer's soul

Gideon and Palamedes sacrificed themselves, Harrow then carried Gideon's sword even though it was killing her and Camilla carried Palamedes's bones even though boe electrocuted her for it

Gideon and Camilla are both "devotion's casualties"

Harrow and Camilla risked permanent brain damage to save the souls they carried

Gideon barely had any training for her position and Camilla trained her whole life, but they both didn't normally use their rapiers and were both set on fighting rather than on traditional duelling

the 6th and the 9th are both poor, underestimated, dying houses. Harrow and Palamedes have been leading them since they were very young and they do anything to try to improve the situation

Harrow fell in love with the Body when she was 10, Palamedes began writing to Dulcinea when he was 8. both into old dead chicks (as Gideon phrased it) while also loving their cavaliers

Camilla watched Gideon impale herself to force Harrow's ascention, Gideon watched Camilla light herself on fire during her and Palamedes's ascention

"This was your shell but it was all filled up with me" & "It's not you. It's me wearing you"

"I keep turning around to find you, and there’s nobody there." "I know the feeling." & "You’d touched that letter, and I—you know it was killing me twice that you weren’t there, right? You must know it was destroying me to be there in your body, trying to keep your thumbs on, and I couldn’t even hear your damn voice?"

"Kiriona Gaia was staring politely at the side of the truck, as though there were something really interesting on the paintwork" & "Even Camilla, who had turned away to politely investigate something on the opposite wall, wasn’t there"

"It was just her and Harrow and Harrow’s bitter, high-boned, stupid little face" & "Palamedes said, and now Nona knew he wasn’t speaking to anyone else in the universe"

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there's probably more, that's just from the top of my head. but yeah, they make me insane and i'm foaming at the mouth.

[scrapoddles]

Frames from my GRIDDLEHARK ANIMATIC... go watch :)

[runasulienadanika]

i have been fooled. i have been fooled by Gideon Nav's point of view. i should've known better, she had been isolated her whole life and her only companion was Harrow and we all know how that went. what does she know about normal and healthy relationships?

i knew that Camilla and Palamedes were codependent and weird about each other. but i assumed that was the norm? that it wasn't anything weird? no, apparently even Judith Deuteros, someone who barely interacted with them except for when she was arguing, noticed how bad it was. my god.

and no wonder Cam and Pal never commented on how weird Gideon and Harrow's relationship was (except for the beginning when Palamedes said they shouldn't separate). they fucking met their match. the final boss of codepency and the final boss of obsession. it's that damn spider man meme again.

[steampunkcorgi]

[vividciggy]

TLT as tumblr text posts (pt. 2)

[seasonofhotness]

Day sixteen of making art everyday for Pride Month. June 16: Adora and Catra from She-Ra!

Prev.

[lena-in-a-red-dress]

Currently Reading:

Shifting Gears by our very own Jazz Forrester! The audiobook switched to being included in Spotify premium, so I jumped on it as fast as I could. You should to!

[feluart]

mothers

[jbthegift]

Happy Supercat Endgame anniversary - 09 Nov 2021!

[wistfulwatcher]

clois + supercat parallels: the core of the story

[chloedanvers13]

Cat is Kara’s Lois. It’s just…. Obvious.

And Cat and Lois are friends, so… like, c’mon… how much can they signpost it without saying it? Lolz

Two people, two personalities who compliment each other, and in their own ways are uniquely-positioned to actually UNDERSTAND each other on a level no-one else could. ❤️💙

[civilorange]

From beginning to end,

This is a list of chapters for “i will make you queen of everything you see,” put into chronological order for anyone who is interested in reading it that way. I’ve finally fixed this. I’ve brought it completely up to date and made sure they’re all in the proper order—especially snap shots that place within the same year. All interludes—chapters containing multiple years—will be in their own list.

snap shots.

// snap shot 54 // snap shot 02. // snap shot 27. // snap shot 05. // snap shot 03. // snap shot 04. / snap shot 93. / snap shot 64. //  snap shot 92.  // snap shot 01. // snap shot 83. // snap shot 19. // snap shot 63. // snap shot 33. // snap shot 48. // snap shot 97 // snap shot 37. // snap shot 62. // snap shot 52. // snap shot 65. // snap shot 07. // snap shot 09. // snap shot 22. // snap shot 58. // snap shot 75. // snap shot 06. // snap shot 12. // snap shot 41. // snap shot 46. // snap shot 08. // snap shot 32. // snap shot 23. // snap shot 55. //  snap shot 25. // snap shot 77. // snap shot 17. // snap shot 45. // snap shot 40. // snap shot 11. // snap shot 14. // snap shot 18. // snap shot 69. // snap shot 35. // snap shot 30. //  snap shot 99. //  snap shot 15. // snap shot 42. // snap shot 16. // snap shot 29. // snap shot 21. // snap shot 36. // snap shot 24. // snap shot 73. // snap shot 31. // snap shot 44. // snap shot 59. // snap shot 28. // snap shot 47. // snap shot 34. // snap shot 39. // snap shot 43. // snap shot 56. // snap shot 78. // snap shot 49. // snap shot 94. //  snap shot 91. // snap shot 74. //  snap shot 89.  // snap shot 81. // snap shot 70. // snap shot 66. // snap shot 50. // snap shot 51. // snap shot 79. // snap shot 84. // snap shot 53. // snap shot 57. // snap shot 60. // snap shot 76. // snap shot 67. // snap shot 88. // snap shot 71. // snap shot 80. // snap shot 82. //  snap shot 86. // snap shot 90. // snap shot 96. // snap shot 87. // snap shot 95.  //   snap shot 85. // ( snap shot 100. ) // FIN.

interludes.

// snap shot 10. // snap shot 13. // snap shot 20. // snap shot 26. // snap shot 38. //  snap shot 61. // snap shot 68. // snap shot 72. // snap shot 98. //

updated to snap shot 99.

fan mixes. // “i will make you queen of everything you see,”. // “untuck your thumbs,” // “finally,” | a queen of everything playlist. //

[rumncokesibling]

Question to the Bones Fandom -

I’m going through a rewatch I may have missed it on prior watches but when do we think Zack was approached to be the apprentice?

[corvophobia]

was in a painting mood

[thestargayzingetherian]

80s Adora is a lesbian too, she was just having a chronic case of comphet. This is why she was dating Sea Hawk, but eventually realised she was so much happier dating women and her family were obviously supportive and thus, 80s Catradora happened.

Happy Pride motherfuckers.

[annoyinglandmagazine]

Reading Gideon the Ninth and I’m not convinced these ‘lesbian necromancers in space’ are ever going to make out, say they love each other or actually date. I’m getting the sense they’re going to spend all four of these books being utterly deranged in a hundred different ways that have never been done before in an extremely disturbing and lesbian fashion. This is not a criticism, I am very much on board for more of this, btw.