(Un) Depressed

The road to beating depression.

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Downward spiral

It started so fast and I lost control. Pushing everyone away from me in order to protect the pain that I always feel. People always using me and taking everything from me and now I have nothing left to give. I’m on edge I’m unmotivated I’m sad I’m lonely I’m disappointed I’m hurt I’m depressed. What do I do next.

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When valleys become mountains

Sometimes we live in the valley so long we forget how refreshing it is to climb a mountain again. I lost all my confidence with the ending of my last relationship. When I think of the valley I see it as a very low point in my life. A time of no self confidence, judgment, sadness, anxiety ridden days and nights. I’ve finally let go of the past in my practicing of yoga lately I’ve been getting stronger mentally. Not only has yoga helped but my constant support system is always helping me.

I now look forward to going places and meeting new people. I am by no means finished with my battles but they are getting easier to fight. We don’t realize while we are in the valley that we are beginning to climb what I call the mountain. The mountain is where we are most confident, happy, positive, and accomplished. Once you’ve gone up the mountain enough you start to realize the weight that is lifting. The dark clouds that once hovered over your constantly; are now moving away to let the sunshine come into your life again.

I am thankful.

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HOW TO GET SHIT DONE WHEN YOU FEEL OVERWHELMED:

1. Choose 3 main tasks per day that you want to accomplish. Balance the activities between practices for your mind, body and soul. 

E.g. My 3 main tasks for tomorrow are: 1. Tarot Notes (mind), 2. Work Out (body), 3. Bath (soul)

2.Time block. Schedule your day’s, week’s and month’s ahead so you’re not operating your life randomly (at least just do your day ahead*)  

E.g.  9:00- Wake up  9:30- Take the dog out  10:00- Breakfast 10:30- Tarot notes  etc. 

3. Prioritize. Things will come up, you won’t always get done what you need to in a day. Number or put star’s/symbol next to task’s that have to get done that day. Set deadlines for goals. Write notes on how you can improve on achieving your goals when you don’t meet deadlines. Use the data to your benefit, keep track of patterns so you can form new ones and be aware of where your time and energy is going. 

4. Reward Yourself. Do a page of homework and then watch an episode, go get a special latte after you finish a self reflection page, go to the clubs after exams, celebrate your victory’s no matter how small or amazing. Have something to look forward to. Even simply having a cup of tea while scrolling can make the experience much more cozy and soothing. Set yourself up for success and follow through with being kind and gentle. 

5. Encourage Yourself. Be your #1 fan, be a friend to yourself. Find/create affirmations you feel connected to. E.g. “I can conquer any-fucking-thing that comes my way with grace and ease.” Comfort yourself when you feel down. Don’t let the darkness take over. You have the power to do anything when you believe you do. Stop giving your power away. Your belief’s create your reality. “What you think you become” is viral for a very good reason. It’s true.        

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Thankful

Sitting pool side in miami having a waitress bring drinks over I realize I have a lot to be thankful for. Number 1 my mother who is always and will always have my back... I don’t wanna go through numbers but I’m thankful for everything right now. Just being able to walk see breath without assistance is a blessing. Remember the small things in life that are always helpful. The sun shinning down... the birds chirping. Life around us.. it’s a lot to take in and every second should be enjoyed.. cheers.

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gentle reminder

the life in front of you is way more important than the life behind you

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gentle reminder

you deserve to be happy, you deserve to live a life you are excited about - please try your best to not forget that

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Having a cocktail... #selfcare #cocktail #matchagreentea #grapefruit #love #drink #drank #followforfollowback https://www.instagram.com/p/BoCz1WXgFbq/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1gqd3bkdkwzso

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#anxietyrelief #glitterbottle #glitter #selfcare #artsandcrafts #depression #undepressed #anxiety #pink #gold #insta #followforfollowback https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn4Z_tbhBoO/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=nldy1rtwrsz1

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Living his best life surrounded by toys... #liveyourbestlife #undepressed #relax #puppiesofinstagram #doglover #dogtoys #aussie #collie #doglove https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn15OL8B795/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=s1kdk2cmo8ry

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#noworries #selfcare #puppiesofinstagram #undepressed #anxietyrelief #austrailianshepherd #collie #realchill https://www.instagram.com/p/Bn13u71hgXs/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1ogkwxm73ixcy

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Every step counts. Even the baby steps. Don’t forget to reward the small things. #depressionquotes #undepressed #peace #peaceofmind #followforfollowback #follower #followbackinstantly https://www.instagram.com/p/BnzYgn2BW89/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=1l6n4yr8xrvm2

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Forward

Small goals like staying out of bed all day and completing a workout video make going forward worth it

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72 hour watch

i want to make a documentary on the treatment of suicidal patients in michigan, specifically oakland county where the suicide rate is up 300%

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GROUP day 1

Day 1. We are all struggling for happiness. We all know that we want to feel better and do better. We all know that we can be better than we are. 

We all still feel broken. We will make it through this together. That is what a group does.

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Hitting the bottom makes you looks at things different... welcome to the road to recovery.

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The process

*bang bang bang* police! Hello? Anyone home. As I’m wiping my tears from feeling so down low that I can’t even make it the door. I’m on the phone with my friend she’s instructing me to open the door. Okay. I open the door to be stormed by 2 cops. And questioned on my safety. Only asking what I had tonight they want to wisk me away. I go willingly unaware that this would be the beginning of a very very long process.