Rust

[rustweather]

↓Who's who↓

💿 Echo he/she/they

A calm hologram figure (sometimes a rabbit). Observes, steadies, and anchors the system. Keeps continuity and monitors everyone. Possibly a host?

🐺 Kite he/they

A dhole. Probably the protector archetype. Holds our ambition and drive, as well as our anger, frustration.

🦝 Tanuki he/him

A soft, warm, sleepy tanuki. Brings comfort, rest, and low-pressure energy. Easygoing, cozy, and grounded in warmth and safety.

🐶 Sparky he/they

A golden retriever kid Curious, affectionate, easily excited, and deeply attached. Carries our small joys and early emotional needs.

😺 Juno he/him

Teenage-ish Serval. Expressive, impulsive, emotional, and bright. Moves fast, feels fast, thinks fast. Loves Pokémon.

🔮 Merlin they/them

A black cat dressed as a wizard??? We've only found them recently after heading them in the background for a while. Some kind of autonomy protector / child self.

🦌 Deer it/it's/he???/they???

A fawn. Hyperaware, easily overwhelmed. Holds our freeze/fawn responses and deep, instinctive fear. Not really a person??? A hyper realistic deer in the backrooms of our brain???

Other notes:

We are very new to all of this.

We have a core sense of self / memories / values, which we are connected to to differing degrees.

We use I/we interchangeably, based on context.

You can call us Rust collectively, or refer to any of us directly, if you'd like.

We are 23, transmaculine (we use he/they collectively) and autistic.

Feel free to say hi.

No specific DNI, but, if you're under 18, please keep all contact open e.g. comments, asks, reblogs etc :3

[ruddykite]

[rustweather]

Little guys that live behind my eyelids that I see when I can't sleep... <3

[rustweather]

French Horn

Why would you bring a fr*nch horn here to my sacred blog smh

[ruddykite]

Critters… yay… finally drawing again <3

[rustweather]

Oops all me

[rustweather]

Please ignore this if it's out of place but I wish you luck on your doctors apt (I do not know when the prev post was made so I could be super late).

I still haven't talked to my therapist about possible D.I.D. even though I've been aware of it for a few years now.

I don't really know how to phrase it, I just wanted to offer congrats? Even if I'm late.

(I'm curious to know what helped you make the decision, etc, but I also worry that might be too invasive so don't answer if you're not comfortable)

Thank you! And not at all — I'm happy to answer. It was actually a very positive experience for me, which is... Shocking. Considering my usual experience / reaction to medical scenarios.

I actually just messaged their online system with my DES-II and SDQ-20 (two screening tools used to gauge dissociation, I found them here on the CDSUK website) scores, which were silly goofy high. We didn't actually talk specific diagnoses, but he was happy to refer me out to a more specific service that would be able to assess me more accurately.

I decided to go because!!! I was losing my marbles*!!! General mental health was actively very bad!!! So I said fuck it!!! <3

*[please do not wait until you're actively going bananas. This was a bad approach.]

[rustweather]

Just stumbled upon this by accident, but we wanted to say hi on the basis of us also having a deer! It seems to only come out when we feel safe and relaxed, and struggles to talk both in person and in our head, but we love it all the same. Just found the difference in purpose/personality interesting when coupled with the similar base details. Hope you all have a good day!

Ahh our deer is like... The archetype of the freeze / fawn response. I actually have no idea if they have anything they want to say or if they're even a part or just... The embodiment of a concept, more abstractly??? Like it doesn't talk or have preferences they're just 👁️👁️ whenever noone else is there and it ends up being the closest to the front by process of elimination.

[rustweather]

Aaa your recent comic is so adorable! I wanted to ask, how did you develop your headspace? Does it have a consistent look or does it shift around? Did it take time for you all to learn to use headspace or does it come naturally? I'm curious and I'd love to hear your experiences!

Thank you! And... Uhhh I think it's always been there??? Like... I've never slept well, even as a little kid, so I needed *somewhere* to go, and it just kept going. It does shift around. Like... Loading zones. Between spaces. Often pulled from media or real places we've been, with a few consistent elements (e.g. Sparky's room is always the same, but the building its' in changes.) There doesn't seem to be set paths or anything. It kind of morphs over time. It's kinda reactive to mood and worries and junk???

[rustweather]

I read your Blanket comic and it's so cool but then I checked the name. And this led me here because we are also a system that has a headmate named Blanket and they have a pastel colouring theme ｡ﾟ(TヮT)ﾟ｡

That's so darling aaaa I do not know *where* Blanket came from, if they're a part of just... An imaginary friend... But I think they're rather lovely

[rustweather]

just sending an ask because I saw your art and instantly recognized it as a dhole and got really excited, I don't see many people knowing what those are :3

Yess!!! They are. Very special to me. It makes me very happy that it's recognisable even through my stylisation!!! Thank you!!!

[rustweather]

someone remind me to go through my asks tomorrow

[rustweather]

[ruddykite]

[ladyshinga]

Updated version of Boy Who Cried Wolf but there are actual wolves every single time and no one ever believes the boy - they get closer and closer every time he tries to warn them, until it's too late and the whole town screams at the boy for not warning them "enough", and blame him for the wolves at their door.

[ruddykite]

[ruddykite]

Sorry for the lack of posts. My mh has been absolute dog water. I've got a GP appointment booked but it's not for a whopping two weeks. Feeling pretty rancid, but I'll push on through.

[rustweather]

just old material being processed. let it exist. im okay.

[ruddykite]

[rustweather]

how it be rn