kinfession: for awhile i had a serious problem with grif there on chorus. that attitude changed over time, believe me (this isn't in any way meant to be a callout literally at all), but i did. at first i didn't care much one way or the other about him, and then i just grew to feel like he couldn't give less of a shit about any of us, our planet, the war, any of it. what sucked more is that i absolutely couldn't blame him, how could i? these weren't his people, this wasn't his problem. still, the disgust was there. and it felt so terrible watching the other rebels fall all over themselves trying to get near these guys, especially matthews and especially with the way grif treated him. i can't even say anything beyond that cuz i fed into the bad treatment too, but it just feels different when it's an outsider picking on one of your people, like they haven't earned the right to do that yet. but things changed, things grew from there, and i outgrew the bad blood. grif could go on and on about how carefree and lazy and too cool for it all he is, but his actions said different and i guess actions were what mattered most. i miss him, i really do. i feel like a background character in his story, but he's not one in mine and that sucks, but whatever, i can feel some type of way about it and still deeply, deeply miss him. i just try to remember the actions, not the words, and it makes me feel a bit better -a bitters introject