so I got a couple of things to get off of my chest for anyone who cares to read or wants any explanation for my lack of activity.
tumblr was always my go-to platform for rping.ย i loved it... how it wasnโt like skype or discord where you had to know someone beforehand to interact with them or wade through a large group of people to ask around for what character they played.ย you could experiment and see your rp comparability with somebody in a big open community and form friendships and muse relationships accordingly.ย
when i first started doing this, there was noย โthis blog is problematicโ bullshit.ย there werenโt any call out posts and if you didnโt like somebody in the fandom you could just move on and enjoy the other people you got along with but recently tumblr rp has had me down
i still do what i want, rp smut when i feel like it and i know the stigma that comes with that, i wonโt pretend like it wouldnโt be easier for me to just go along with the crowd and do theย โappropriateโ kind of rp everyone can approve of.ย over time though, itโs made me paranoid.... because no one seems to read any damn rules before they follow me, I feel like i canโt reach our or shouldnโt because iโm theย โproblematicโ one, and once they figure that out iโll look totally stupid and be left high and dry.ย i just donโt feel like i can trust many people on the dash like new followers and as much as i wanna get active again, i feel like any dash messing or crack threads just wouldnโt happen, it just bums me out
maybe iโm just wounded from a few interactions that went sour, maybe this fandom has just exhausted the hell out of me... maybe iโm just fking getting old, i donโt know.ย i miss tumblr rp but at the same time itโs okay.ย iโm probably saving myself a lot of trouble, maybe.ย but i do wish things hadnโt changed so much and the main part of the fandom wasnโt filled with toxic antis but at the same time... even mutuals i feel a bit scared of b/c of some negative interactions or i guess the right word would be disappointing ones, like i couldnโt fill the void.ย like they have better options.
that sorta thing always cut me to the core and now iโm dodging around so i donโt have to deal with that but i know thatโs gonna happen no matter what in rp.ย but yeah, my reply game is weak and iโm sorry but iโm still gonna try to stick around some, iโve just found other ways to use my time and rp felt lowkey like a filler.ย my motivation to do them and to find new people is just at an all time low so iโm really sorry about that.ย iโll try to still do them for anyone who has the patience to stick with me but i understand if most people donโt.ย iโm really sorry for letting anyone down, especially those of you who have talked to me ooc b/c yaโll are precious and iโve made so many fun memories
this isnโt a goodbye just... a warning of very low activity.ย unless something really hypes me up which tbh doesnโt happen much but take this vent with a grain of salt, and sorry again.ย shout out to you few people, you know who you are, thanks for getting me this far and... iโll try to get around to doing stuff when i can, if youโre still interested











