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WE'RE BOUND HERE AS THE NIGHT, IT BREAKS AWAY AND IT ALL GOES DOWN . beneath the brine - the family crest

(ava13 spoilers) (non-blood colored blood + blood colored blood) hey guys. how are we doing. this was inspired by how both chosen and second were caught in the crossfire of h4ck3r's & dark's bloodlust. enjoy time taken: 4.5 hr medium: ibis paint x

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AVA 13 SPOILERS

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IM GOING TO BE ILL OH MY GOD

SHE HAD TO WATCH A MINDLESS COPY OF HER PARTNER KILL HER OTHER PARTNER

justsomebadartistguy

this shit flopped again everywhere tumblr is the only one holding me like sad hamster

baked-bun4

local OJ experiences condensation in da summer heat

lybelulacony

Another art dump after a while

#THAT MEPHONE IS SICK #also cool animation

sadcabbages

Stuff and things

msparetta

i like tissuews

microknifeyuri

hey wouldn't it be messed up if your entire character arc was about how regardless of how loud you are nobody really listens to you no matter how much you try to be seen. wouldn't it be messed up if one of your only "friends" kept constantly attacking your struggles as a joke and you had to deal with it because you don't want to be mean until you can't hold it anymore and explode.

wouldn't it be messed up if you managed to make a friend and said friend, while well-intentionated, wasn't as present as you would've liked her to be and didn't really listen to your struggles (again, fair, as she was struggling with very very bad ocd), leaving you alone and feeling even more insecure than before.

wouldn't it be messed up that you end up alone in your team because they're all busy with their own problems and didn't care to check up on you, not even the team leader noticed your struggles, the same guy who's supposed to be there for his team, and the reason why it was falling apart so quickly, and no one was listening to you at all.

wouldn't it be messed up if you felt so very deeply alone and in pain and scared and you wrote it all down in a diary that is sacred to your privacy, only for some asshole to steal it from you and read all your secrets out-loud, to the point where you start to cry because it's too much, and then she says she can make you better, only in exchange of giving her half of the prize once you win, taking advantage of how vulnerable you are emotionally and how desperate you are for a connection

wouldn't it be messed up if this same person was just using you to get closer to someone who she actually cared about, and was constantly treating you in the same way she used to treat that special person (like an moron), and she tried to make it so that at times she didn't seem as bad, despite wanting you to hurt your friends? despite wanting you to cause harm? and you had to accept this? because you were scared that she could reveal all of your secrets and everyone would know how vulnerable and alone you felt? how terrified you are? but you keep "trusting" this person in hopes they change, but you, deep down, know they won't. you just feel trapped.

wouldn't it be messed up if someone was trying to save you during it all. and he did. but you realized how much you were losing yourself a little too late. and you managed to leave that person and put her on her place, and you decided to leave that place because you couldn't do it anymore. and the person who saved you smiles at you and says that you look happier. and you are. and you warn him about the person that hurted you, scared that she could do something, but she won't.

you're safe. and you're finally meeting someone who understands your pain.

now, wouldn't it be messed up if, after all of that, after all the pain you've gone through, it was all thrown away to ignore everything about yourself for the sake of the person that made you so very afraid, and it's seen and treated as a good thing, and you're supposed to be the only one that fixes them, and you are but a former shell of yourself that only exists for that.

you're mic ii. isn't that messed up