𝐉υ𝗌𝗍 α ɦαυ𐓣𝗍𝖾ᑯ ᑯⱺᥣᥣ ☆

"𝑴𝒚 𝒐𝒘𝒏 𝒍𝒊𝒕𝒕𝒍𝒆 𝒈𝒓𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒚𝒂𝒓𝒅, 𝒋𝒖𝒔𝒕 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒎𝒆 ❤︎." ⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔꒰ ᧔ෆ᧓ ꒱⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔⏔ ᛝᵀʰᵉ ᵈⁱᵃʳʸ ᵒᶠ ᵃ ᶠᵃˡˡᵉⁿ ᵃⁿᵍᵉˡ ˡᵉᵃʳⁿⁱⁿᵍ ᵗᵒ ᵇᵉ ʰᵘᵐᵃⁿ ‎ꫂ᭪݁

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Intro post to get to know me!

You can call me anything tbh, I don't really have a preferred name! (^_^;)

Pronouns: She/they/it

Age: 16

Lesbian

I have been diagnosed with autism, deppresion, anxiety and stereotypical movement disorder.

Likes: True crime cases (I'm NOT on the tcc btw!), lost media cases and internet misteries, the legend of zelda, ddlc, needy girl overdose, pokemon, scrapbooking, crafts in general and so much more!

I also love collecting beanie babies, pokemon cards, and I want to start to collect old dolls too!

My music taste: Britney Spears, Ayesha Erotica, Black Dresses, Jazmin Bean, Mitski, PinkPantheress, Vocaloid, Msi (DON'T SUPPORT THEM!) and many more <3

No dni list I block freely ＼(´Ｏ｀)／

Important!

This is a jiraiblr account, therefore I have to give some content/trigger warnings:

I will talk about suicide, deppresion, self harm, past SA, self destructive troughts, and other things, I also talk about it in a very light hearted way (with tw when needed of course) but I'm afraid that I might come out as romanticing these things, if I ever sound like that, PLEASE tell me because that's not my intention! I just wanna have a place to vomit my troughts and vents into, but I don't want to sound like I'm romanticing these topics so please call me out if necesary! Okay that's all (〃´ー｀人)

[s1nfultr0ughts]

hey, i used to be a moot

i really have no malice you truly are an angel even if your page can be maybe intimidating to strangers but you are very kind and thoughtful, my friend ... outside of context or feelings you remain a beautiful soul so please believe it when i say i mean no harm but i must forfeit my mutual standing not because i don't like you or what you stand for nor choose to post... i am just on a journey of healing and with that it starts with what i surround myself with

i only say this to avoid hurt because i love you as much as a platonic online acquaintance can and i truly dearly only wish the best for you including happiness, it just wont include me in your future even as a very small part on the Internet

i care about you, i only keep this anonymous because i would prefer this to keep private due to any sort of confrontation with online relationships putting me in dangerous situations before multiple times (even in private messages) in the past

i don't wish to hurt you and i REALLY REALLY do want you to be happy, have a good school life, achieve your goals and get the attention and love you need and desire because you deserve it

i am trying to stop my self harm which includes keeping content with triggering topics out of my mind

there is nothing wrong with you or what you're doing

you are a beautiful beautiful soul and my love will be with you even if we part

you don't need to change an ounce people love you as you are really you can see it and i trust (even if it's not my place) how you're going now and you will land as the person you were meant to be in the future as you keep going

keep going as you are

you're doing just fine and i believe in you from a distance

...keep yourself safe & please keep your heart open...

no sense of malice - lovingly, an anon former moot now dignifiedly resigned on a journey of my own

🫂🪽 /nm /pos /gen

Hi mootie, I'm happy you are trying to heal and stay away from content that might be triggering for you, even if it's means not interacting anymore, taking a decision like this can be really hard, I have tried, so I can understand even a little how hard this can be for you, I wish the best for you in your journey, remember to take care of yourself, drink water, eat and sleep properly, the process of healing mig

ht be slow, but it's not impossible. I hope you can let go of harmful habits, I believe in you, I might not know you irl but I love you, I believe in you and I will always have you in my heart <3 /p /gen

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꒰ঌ I really want anons, parasocial anons, hate anons, weird anons, obssesive anons, I don't really care, I just want atention. ໒꒱

[s1nfultr0ughts]

Your name makes me flinch btw

Your name makes my stomach drop btw

Your name makes me feel sick btw

Your name makes me want to die btw

Your name makes me nauseous btw

Your name makes my chest hurt btw

Your name makes the dread come back btw

Your name makes me want to cry btw

Your name makes me wish I stopped you btw

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One day I will be dead and all of you will have to face it

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Something only I can have

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I just want something for myself

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I just wanna hide to be never seen again

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There's nothing left for me

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Nobody ever listens to me

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I'm filled with shame and dread

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I can't look at anyone in the eye

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Why am I crying

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꒰ঌ I didn't want to have anything to do with the outside world, I was happy being quiet, but of course they wouldn't leave me alone ૮꒰◞ ˕ ◟ ྀི꒱ა ໒꒱

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I just want to sleep

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꒰ঌ I wish I could be a normal person, I'm just a bomb waiting to explode, everyone treats me like that, nothing more, nothing less, and I don't really know how to feel about it. ໒꒱

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꒰ঌ Sitting on a dollhouse, an ugly worn out doll 𖹭 ໒꒱