Twenty one She / her ˗ˏˋ ★ ˎˊ˗ Grace lover ⊹ ࣪ ˖ Janes brunnete English is not my first language! I don't apologize for my bad grammar ₊⊹ i love music, coffee, and the rain, sometimes and i hate my glasses This blog is safe for my gege lovers (Caleb Main)
the drama 𖦹⋆゚ɞ ༘⋆| “dripped in my pearls, like coco chanel.” [hcs]
lars lindstrom x cunty!fem!reader
—established relationship.
✶ nobody in town can quite wrap their heads around it. you walk into church on sunday in heels that click against the wooden floor, perfectly curled hair, lipstick that somehow survives the whole day, and a coat that looks like it belongs on the cover of a magazine. then, two second later, lars quietly walks in wearing the same brown jumper he’s owned for years with bright red kiss prints on his face, and without even thinking, you reach over to straighten his collar before sitting beside him. the collective confusion in the room is almost audible.
✶ everyone assumes you must be with him out of pity until they actually see you together. then it becomes painfully obvious that you’re the one completely gone for him. the way your face softens the second he walks into a room. the way you’re always unconsciously reaching for his hand. the way you look at him like he’s the most handsome man you’ve ever seen.
you are, without question, the most intimidatingly gorgeous person in town. people stop and stare when you walk past. women ask where your dresses are from. men try their luck every now and then. none of it matters because the only person you’re interested in is the painfully awkward six-foot something sweetheart who blushes if you kiss his cheek in public.
✶ you’re ridiculously protective of him. someone laughs a little too hard when lars stumbles over his words, and suddenly they’re met with you smiling politely while saying, “that’s not funny. explain the joke.” the smile never leaves your face. somehow, that’s the scary part. people quickly learn that flirting with you isn’t worth the risk because you’ll politely point towards lars across the room and say, “my boyfriend’s right there.” meanwhile, flirting with lars is somehow an even worse idea because you get so jealous, not in a toxic way. just… deeply offended that anyone would even look at your boyfriend.
margo greets lars a little too enthusiastically one afternoon and you spend the next ten minutes quietly attached to his arm like a particularly glamorous guard dog. afterwards lars asks if something’s wrong.
“’course not.”
“…okay.”
“just wondering why everybody suddenly wants to touch my boyfriend today.” lars nearly chokes because… your boyfriend.
you say it constantly too.
“my boyfriend made that.”
“my boyfriend fixed my car.”
“my boyfriend picked these flowers.”
like it’s your favourite phrase in the english language. meanwhile lars still gets flustered every single time he hears it.
✶ he also becomes unintentionally smug after a while, though nobody would ever accuse lars of actually showing off. he’ll just absentmindedly mention, “oh… um… i should probably head home. my girlfriend’s making dinner.” cue every man in town wondering how on earth that happened.
✶ you adore dressing him up. shopping becomes one of your favourite hobbies because lars would happily wear the same five jumpers forever if left alone. you’ll hold up a jacket and go, “baby, you’re going to look so handsome in this,” and he just quietly lets you steer him towards the changing rooms because making you smile is worth every second of embarrassment. the first time he comes out wearing something properly fitted, you actually put a hand over your heart.
“…good lord.”
lars immediately looks concerned. “is it bad?”
“bad? baby, i’m trying very hard to behave myself in the middle of this shop.” he goes bright red from the roots of his hair all the way down his neck.
✶ you never let anyone underestimate him. if somebody talks over him, you subtly redirect the conversation straight back. “sorry, lars was saying something.” and then you look at him with so much patience and encouragement that he always finds the confidence to finish.
✶ lars absolutely loves watching you get ready, and he’ll never interrupt. he’ll just sit on the bed reading while you do your makeup, every few minutes he’ll glance up and ask. “…what’s that one for?”
“blush.”
“…oh.”
“…and that?”
“highlighter.”
“…it… sparkles.”
you smile at him in the mirror, “you’ve been watching this whole time, haven’t you?” he immediately looks guilty, and you think it’s the most adorable thing in the whole world. “…maybe.”
“come here.”
he shuffles over, and you take a tiny bit of highlighter on your finger and dab it on the end of his nose. lars looks mildly concerned, “…am i shiny and golden?” you laugh so hard you nearly fall off your vanity chair. “yes!”
“…oh.”
“you’re so cute!!”
“…i’m shiny.”
“both can be true.”
✶ your favourite place in the world is tucked into his side. it doesn’t matter if you’re wearing designer boots or a silk dress that has half the town staring. the second lars slips an arm around your waist, you melt into him like you belong there. and despite how confident you are with everyone else, you’re impossibly soft with him. your voice drops. your smile changes. every compliment becomes genuine.
“there’s my handsome boy.” and he blushes every single time.
✶ everyone talks about how lucky lars is, but the truth is, you think you won the lottery, because beneath all the shyness and awkwardness is the gentlest man you’ve ever known. someone who notices when you’re tired before you do, who warms your car up on freezing mornings without being asked, who remembers the smallest things you mention in passing and quietly acts on them weeks later.
✶ people see the beautiful girl dating the awkward guy, you see the kindest heart you’ve ever been trusted with, and you’ll defend it with your whole chest.
✶ you also love making lars flustered, you’ll walk past him wearing the tiniest little dress you’ve ever owned, kiss him on the forehead like it’s completely normal, and watch as he completely forgets what he was about to say.
“…i…”
“yeah?”
“…”
“baby?”
“…i don’t remember.” you just smile and kiss his cheek again.
✶ lars has this habit of looking for you in every room without realising it. if you’re at church, he’ll unconsciously glance over every few minutes just to make sure you’re still there. at community events he’ll quietly scan the crowd until he spots you laughing with someone, and the second he does, his shoulders relax. you catch him doing it once, after that, you make sure he’s the first thing you look for too.
✶ people assume you’re dragging lars everywhere, the reality is much sweeter. you’ll get invited somewhere and immediately ask, “can lars come too?” and if the answer’s no, you don’t go, it’s that simple.
✶ every woman in town suddenly discovers lars is actually incredibly handsome once he starts dressing a little better. which is unfortunate, because now they’re looking, and you notice. one afternoon you’re at the grocery shop when the cashier smiles a little too brightly at him.
“have a lovely day, lars.”
“oh… thank you.”
you don’t say anything until you’re back in the car, “…she smiled at you.” lars slowly nods, “…yes?”
“way too much.”
“…i think… that’s her job.”
“doesn’t mean i have to like it.”
lars spends the next five minutes trying not to laugh because you’re pouting over someone saying have a nice day.
✶ despite looking like you belong in a fashion campaign, your favourite thing to wear is one of lars’ oversized jumpers, it smells like his laundry detergent. lars walks into the living room, sees you curled up wearing it, and just quietly smiles to himself because his heart physically cannot cope with the sight.
✶ you always hype him up, he’ll come downstairs wearing the most ordinary outfit imaginable. “how do i look?” you immediately put both hands over your mouth. “my god…”
“…what?”
“you’re so handsome it actually annoys me.”
he looks down at himself. “…it’s just… a sweater.”
“exactly. and somehow you’re still making it everyone else’s problem.”
✶ if anyone ever says, “i never would’ve expected someone like you to date someone like lars…” you don’t even hesitate, “someone like me?” they immediately regret opening their mouth. “you mean someone who’s obsessed with him?”
✶ lars is constantly buying you tiny presents because that’s how he shows affection. not expensive things, just thoughtful things. a hair clip because yours broke last month, your favourite chocolate because he noticed you hadn’t bought any recently, flowers he thought matched your dress, and he’ll hand them over almost apologetically. “i just… um… saw these.” and every single time you react like he’s handed you the moon.
✶ he starts absentmindedly fixing your jewellery. your necklace clasp gets tangled and before you can even ask, his fingers are carefully untwisting it. your bracelet catches on your sleeve, he notices. your earring comes loose, he quietly reaches over. his hands are always so gentle that you barely feel them.
✶ your favourite game is complimenting him completely out of nowhere. he’ll be washing dishes, “you’re so handsome, baby..”
“…”
driving.
“your hands are so big, lars.”
“…”
reading.
“you’re so hot when you’re concentrating, honey.” eventually he just covers his face with both palms.
“please…”
“never.”
✶ he starts getting a little braver with affection because of you. at first he’s nervous even holding your hand in public. then one day he absentmindedly kisses the top of your head while you’re waiting in line at the supermarket. he doesn’t even realise he’s done it, you do. you spend the rest of the day smiling like an idiot.
✶ because you’re so effortlessly confident with everyone else, people assume you’re the dominant one in the relationship, they couldn’t be more wrong. the second lars quietly says your name in that soft voice of his…
“love?”
you’re there immediately, “hm?”
“could… could you come here for a second?”
you drop everything, because if lars asks for affection, it’s basically a national holiday for you. he opens his arms a tiny bit, “…i was wondering if maybe…” you’re already hugging him, he smiles into your hair so softly nobody else even notices, “…thank you.” lars doesn’t ask for much, so when he does ask, even in the smallest ways, you never make him ask twice.
✶ the whole town slowly realises something important. you may be glamorous, you may be confident, you may turn heads everywhere you go, but around lars? you’re just so hopeless, completely, helplessly in love. the second he smiles at you, every bit of your carefully curated composure disappears. suddenly you’re giggling, and playing with his fingers, and leaning into his shoulder, looking at him like he’s the prettiest thing you’ve ever seen. and he looks at you exactly the same way.
✶ every now and then, lars catches people staring at the two of you. he knows what they’re thinking, how did he end up with her? he still doesn’t really know either. but then you’ll reach over, intertwine your fingers with his, and absentmindedly kiss the back of his hand while you’re talking to someone else, like it’s the most natural thing in the world, and for just a second, he stops wondering why you chose him. because the way you love him is so effortless, so certain, that he starts believing maybe he really is exactly where he’s meant to be.
✶ he’d fall in love because you were kind to him, and you’d fall in love because he’s lars. the whole “she’s a baddie and he’s just… lars” thing only works because neither of you actually sees it that way.
✶ everyone thinks you’re doing lars a favour by dating him, meanwhile you’re lying awake at night wondering how on earth you got lucky enough to be loved by the gentlest man in town, and lars is lying beside you thinking the exact same thing. neither of you can quite believe the other chose you. it’s almost like the relationship is built on mutual disbelief and unwavering devotion. just two people who look at each other and think, “there’s no way i deserve you.” and somehow, you spend the rest of their lives proving each other wrong.
you knew being with lars would be different, dating him didn't magically negate his preferences to touch.
it didn't bother you, doesn't bother you at all, you like him, a lot, time with him is a blessing on its own.
but you did wish you could hold his hand every once in a while, especially in crowded areas, when you find it a little difficult to match your stride with his, almost getting swept away.
or maybe during walks in the park, cold air nipping at your skin, tip of your nose red and numb, fingers itching to clasp around his.
"my brother and I used to play there," he muttered, head ducking towards you, his cheeks plush and rosy, soft smile lingering on his lips, "sometimes we'd stay here for hours."
you nodded your head, looking at the broken tree house, worn with age, trying to imagine little lars and gus running around in circles, playing games fighting and making up.
"gus told me you use to hide a lot," you leaned closer, eyes meeting his for a brief moment before you looked away, giving him space again, "make him look for you all the time."
he grinned sheepishly, fiddling with his gloves, eyes darting around the empty park, "he was bad at seeking me."
there is an underlying sadness in his words, you reached for him, hand hovering by his arm, "he did find you eventually though."
"karin says wishes get answered here." he mumbled, eyes closing momentarily as he breathed in the cold air, warm puff of air surrounding him like a halo when he breathed out.
"Is that so?"
he nodded his head, before gesturing towards the lake, "do you want to go for a walk?" he pulled one of his gloves off, tucking it into his pocket, "you don't have to—"
"I'll go." a part of you want to tease him, another wants to savour the moment, "I'll always go, lars."
you wait for him to turn, guide you to the lakeside, when he surprises you, bare hand held out, before he snatched it back, quickly wiping his palm against his pants and holding it out again.
"so, you don't get lost," he spluttered, scrunching his nose slightly in discomfort but he persevered, adding, "accidentally, i wouldn't let you."
you pull you gloves off, sliding your hand into his, fingers cold against his much warmer palm despite being cradled in your gloves longer.
Con él siempre era una aventura desde que se conocieron en el set de una peli de acción, el actuaba como el hermano de la protagonista del set mientras que tu eras la mejor amiga de la prota, no era tanto tiempo en pantalla pero era tiempo suficiente para que tú y él pasarán un poco de tiempo juntos, primero eran pequeñas charlas sobre el día en el set, la siguiente página del guión, hasta que un día se encontraron afuera del set, tu estabas sentada afuera de la cafetería que tanto te gustaba y él de casualidad se encontró contigo, tu lo invitaste a tomar un café, que podría pasar? Era solo un café con otro actor de la peli, hasta que ya no fue solamente eso, se siguieron encontrando, cada vez más seguido y fuera de cámara, ahora estaban ambos en su camioneta con las luces apagadas después de que la mayoría del equipo se fuera, tú tenías tus piernas arriba de la consola del carro mientras que él tenía sus piernas estiradas debajo del volante, ambos estaban comiendo una hamburguesa mientras hablaban del día hasta que a él se le cayó un tomate en el suelo de la camioneta pero lo más gracioso había sido como cayó, la cosa rebotó de su chaqueta de Miami double stunt hasta el suelo, y tu casi te atragantaste con el pedazo de hamburguesa, después de toser ambos empezaron a reírse fuerte, tanto que te empezó a doler la cara y ahí cuando la risa murió y lo miraste, como la tenue luz de afuera iluminaba su cara y la luz se reflejaba en su revoltoso cabello, algo te hizo comprender, que tal vez…ya estabas empezando a sentir algo por el.
getting fixated on something is funny because the first like week i have an insatiable need to tell everyone i know about it and spread the good word but by weeks 2 and 3 it becomes so intense and personal that even hearing it mentioned in public makes me sweat as if a dark secret was alluded to