airina ✞

ephesians 2:1

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me ˖ ᡣ𐭩 ⊹ ࣪ ˚₊ 𓂃 ࣪˖ ִֶ♱ ྀིྀ

using the alias airina for my blog, i was @iwantmyhotmathsteacher + all the other iterations of it

religious girl who is making a good case for the total depravity calvinist doctrine

"16" flowers in my bouquet

talk to me me about my teacher crush/crushes or theology. reformed anglican if you care

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I like rape threats

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hate it when older men just randomly stop texting me because of guilt omfggg just commit to the grooming act or dont

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me. COUGH COUGH COME BACK 36YO PASTOR COME BACKKKKKK COME BACCK AUGHHHHH

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i dont want a boyfriend. i want a father figure who fucks me

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Sorry for whatever tf that just was its 4am thats my excuse

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i love him so much i miss him bro hes so beautiful i want to be with him forever

like i wanna kiss his face when i wake up next to him

and i wanna feel the sun kissing our bodies in the morning when we wake up and i wanna see our toothbrushes next to eachother and i wanna be his biggest supporter and i wanna watch his face scrunch up all concentrated when hes cleaning his glasses and i want him to look at me with that exact smile he does when he sees me but for forever instead of just sometimes

and i wanna see his eyes light up when i talk to him and i wanna feel his hands on the small of my back and i wanna know all the food he likes and i wanna cook for him and i wanna do his laundry and i wanna figure out how to budget with him and i wanna have a late night conversation with him in our kitchen and i wanna feel his hands on my face and i wanna feel my hands on his face and i wanna see him dressed up in his waistcoat at the altar waiting for me instead of her

and i wanna say grace with him before we eat his favourite meal and i wanna cry with him and i wanna feel our chests touching when we hug our hearts beating against eachother and i wanna hold his hands and i wanna be gentle with him and i wanna be rough with him and i wanna know what it feels like when hes inside of me and i wanna walk in the park with him and i wanna go on a hike with him because i know he likes that and i wanna listen to that artist we both like together and i wanna look at him just really look at him without any interruptions and i wanna curl up in his arms and i wanna kiss him even if hes sick and i wanna know where every mole is on his body and i wanna know what time of the day he usually takes his naps and i wanna take a nap with him and i wanna pray with him in our garden on a summer evening and i wanna see the world with him and i wanna know how it would feel if he loved me back

and i wanna know what kind of noises he makes when hes cumming and i wanna know how often he trims his fingernails and i wanna know how big his dick is and i wanna know his shoe size and i wanna know what size clothes he wears and i wanna know what he likes in a girl and i wanna know what colour he likes on girls nails and i wanna know if he has a weird kink and i wanna watch him shave his beard to the length he likes and i wanna shake him when he gets a stupid haircut and i wanna see his reaction when i make good food for him and i wanna see his reaction when i put his dick in my mouth and i wanna see how his nose scrunches if he scowls and i wanna feel his fingers curling inside of me and i wanna feel him throbbing in me and i wanna crochet him something nice and i wanna ask him if he wants anything specific from the supermarket and i wanna ask him about his past and i wanna ask him what he wants from the future and i wanna ask if he feels the same way i do when we're looking at eachother and i wanna light a candle in our bedroom when the sun is setting and i wanna ask him if he likes my new lingerie and i wanna watch his fingers gently strumming his guitar and i wanna ask him how work was

and i wanna ask him if he knows that id die for him and i wanna ask him if he knows how much it hurts when i remember he cant love me and i wanna know if hes ever thought of me as anything more and i wanna know if he would cry if i killed myself and i wanna see him crying when i die and i wanna know if he would cry at my headstone and i wanna know if he knows how much i love him and i wanna know if he's ever thought of leaving his normal life behind for me and i wanna know if he knows that i stare at him every chance i get

and i wanna know if he knows that ive stalked the shit out of him and i wanna know what clothes he finds cute on a girl and i wanna know if he thinks im pretty and i wanna hold his hand and kiss him when his parents are dying and i wanna see if he would do the same for me and i wanna watch him taking off his waistcoat after our wedding

and i wanna know if he likes when i wear cute underwear for him even though he wont see and i wanna live inside of his skin and i wanna watch how he flinches when he sneezes and i wanna hear him laughing and i wanna see him looking at me with love in his eyes and i wanna see him looking at me with lust in his eyes and i wanna see him just fucking looking at me

look at me look at me and i wanna be with him like forever i mean forever I mean it i love him i want him i need him just look at me just look at me i want him I want him i love him

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confessing my love to my teacher but instead of his reply being "oh wow.. i uh.. dont know what to say!" or "wow.. thats really sweet.. erm.."

its "awww do you like mee?? stupid girl has a crush on her teacher aww" whilst he squishes my face

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nobody tells you about the part where you're googling adam sandler porn for someone once you join the tc community

[starsinourparacosm]

i don’t even feel like i exist during summer break because what am i without him

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me right now

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this blog is mostly about older men but i want to bully a gay girl really bad so then she gets revenge on me by eating me out until i cry from being overstimulated

then she can call me out for liking how she touches me even though im supposed to be a good christian girl

is this too niche

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sometimes i wish i was younger so that guys would like me more

sometimes i wish i was older so i couldve taken my teacher crush away from his stupid ugly fat useless fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck SHITTY wife whilst i still could

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i know that when i post about liking older men its like funny and sexy and stuff but sometimes i actually realise im in so much fucking pain

I want to be in a normal relationship with a normal guy and he will be my age and hes going to be so normal everything will be good and we will go to church on sundays together and i will hold hands with him and he will be my age he will be my age and i will be normal and when i am with him he will fix whatever part of me is fucked up enough to want to be groomed this badly

then i tried it and it didnt work im just going to go have a crush on my old maths teacher forever

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sometimes girls get butterflies when they reaaaally like a boy

I get psychosis

[autistobrat]

me: listen up you little shits

me: not you mutual you're an angel and I'm thrilled to have you here

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this is how i feel about the girls who religiously reblog my posts

(cough cough @starsinourparacosm @lucky-cherries @eeyuuoye)

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Masturbated so fucking hard that im bleeding

i kinda like it though

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cock 🤤

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life is so boring without my 36yo pastor where are theyyyy ohmy gosh pastors come to me please ohmygosh i cnat do this naymore mmmfhfh pastor mgmhmhg priest mmmffff