spoken word poetry

I lust for the words you fail to tell me

[shes-a-maslaniac]

idk why anyone would be interested in me romantically i literally watch netflix, complain, and wear the same four to five outfits with different mixes and matches all the time

[blue---rain]

https://blue—rain.tumblr.com/

via weheartit

[sad-herondale]

Tessa: Won’t they sew your mouth shut and remove your eyeballs?

Jem: yes because I’ve sworn to become a silent brother and protect the city of bones

Tessa: I still want to see you

Jem: YOU’RE NOT THE ONE GETTING YOUR EYEBALLS REMOVED RIGHT?!?! SO YES YOU CAN STILL SEE ME

[athenadiane]

“your lips

matched the colours of my cheeks

crimson red with a hint of pink

and i wonder how it would taste like

if i went in for a leap “

— December 14

[sad-herondale]

An open letter to my beebo, moon, baby shark, tukmol, oodorning, oodight, ♥️, a letter for my favorite what if.

-

I remembered the times our eyes met. I knew it was the first because I only saw you often not much when I fetched my cousin from the school you were from, I studied in a different one. It was out of luck when I was looking for his section I asked you for directions, you didn’t answer. Every time I went to his school, I’d always sneak a glance at you. Your eyes, your smile, and even the way you treated others caught my attention and I instantly saw my ideal guy in you.

Months passed and I found out you had a girlfriend, it was no big deal since I didn’t really know you well. School ended and it was funny that you transferred to our school. I still didn’t try to approach you because I was shy. Months later I heard you dated someone else, it hit me hard maybe because I really liked you.

During the summer of 2017, I messaged you on Snapchat and we suddenly became close. I also found out that you and the girl went separate ways, damn I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t happy.

We got to know each other through texts and we’d glance at each other in the hallways at school. Our conversations happened so often that my feelings too grew for you.

Your birthday came up and I gave you a small box filled with the things I thought you’d like. You appreciated it and I was exhilarated that you did.

We got to know each other; we hang out thrice. But what’s devastating is that, you’d never like me the way I liked you. You gave me false hope and that was just one of the few things that made me hold on.

But in the past few days, I’ve been suffering from panic attacks and I’ve been overthinking some things. My heart condition cannot take my feelings and emotions. I’d be lying if I said that it wasn’t because of you. You caused me so much happiness and pain at the same time that I cannot bear with it. I’m sorry if I’m giving up, I’m tired of getting hurt by my own expectations. Don’t worry, it’s not your fault I’m hurt, it’s my fault too.

I hope you find someone who would make you smile, give you so much effort and love you for who you are. I hope she won’t give up on you and I hope you’d love her too. My feelings for you have not completely gone yet, but I assure you it will soon. I wanna fight for you, but I’m tired and maybe you won’t be as worth it as I imagined, or in short maybe I don’t deserve you.

So many things remind me of you it’s sad actually. The moon reminds me of you, this emoji♥️, baby shark, hoodie, Mcdo 😭, 2k17, BAF2017, BCDA, CJH, army navy, 25 hours, and many more. :(

To the memories we shared, I’m pretty sure won’t happen again. Maybe we’re a result of bad timing. Things get complicated and bad decisions get in the way, but just so you know, you will always be my favorite what if and almost lover. We may not have become as how I wanted, but I will always feel lucky that somehow in my life someone like you passed by. I may have a lot of regrets of what I should have done and what it would be like to be with you but I end up remembering all the blissful memories I had with you. Maybe destiny has its own plan why we met and who we’ll end up together with. Maybe in another universe, in another time, in another dimension, in another life maybe just maybe, I’d end up with you.

My heart ❤️

[sad-herondale]

To all the nights we've spent To all the memories we shared My hand still tingles even if you're not holding it My heart still feels happy even if you're not with me I really just wanna kiss your lips

He had soft kissable lips

[sad-herondale]

An open letter to my beebo, moon, baby shark, tukmol, oodorning, oodight, ♥️, a letter for my favorite what if.

-

I remembered the times our eyes met. I knew it was the first because I only saw you often not much when I fetched my cousin from the school you were from, I studied in a different one. It was out of luck when I was looking for his section I asked you for directions, you didn’t answer. Every time I went to his school, I’d always sneak a glance at you. Your eyes, your smile, and even the way you treated others caught my attention and I instantly saw my ideal guy in you.

Months passed and I found out you had a girlfriend, it was no big deal since I didn’t really know you well. School ended and it was funny that you transferred to our school. I still didn’t try to approach you because I was shy. Months later I heard you dated someone else, it hit me hard maybe because I really liked you.

During the summer of 2017, I messaged you on Snapchat and we suddenly became close. I also found out that you and the girl went separate ways, damn I’d be lying if I said I wasn’t happy.

We got to know each other through texts and we’d glance at each other in the hallways at school. Our conversations happened so often that my feelings too grew for you.

Your birthday came up and I gave you a small box filled with the things I thought you’d like. You appreciated it and I was exhilarated that you did.

We got to know each other; we hang out thrice. But what’s devastating is that, you’d never like me the way I liked you. You gave me false hope and that was just one of the few things that made me hold on.

But in the past few days, I’ve been suffering from panic attacks and I’ve been overthinking some things. My heart condition cannot take my feelings and emotions. I’d be lying if I said that it wasn’t because of you. You caused me so much happiness and pain at the same time that I cannot bear with it. I’m sorry if I’m giving up, I’m tired of getting hurt by my own expectations. Don’t worry, it’s not your fault I’m hurt, it’s my fault too.

I hope you find someone who would make you smile, give you so much effort and love you for who you are. I hope she won’t give up on you and I hope you’d love her too. My feelings for you have not completely gone yet, but I assure you it will soon. I wanna fight for you, but I’m tired and maybe you won’t be as worth it as I imagined, or in short maybe I don’t deserve you.

So many things remind me of you it’s sad actually. The moon reminds me of you, this emoji♥️, baby shark, hoodie, Mcdo 😭, 2k17, BAF2017, BCDA, CJH, army navy, 25 hours, and many more. :(

To the memories we shared, I’m pretty sure won’t happen again. Maybe we’re a result of bad timing. Things get complicated and bad decisions get in the way, but just so you know, you will always be my favorite what if and almost lover. We may not have become as how I wanted, but I will always feel lucky that somehow in my life someone like you passed by. I may have a lot of regrets of what I should have done and what it would be like to be with you but I end up remembering all the blissful memories I had with you. Maybe destiny has its own plan why we met and who we’ll end up together with. Maybe in another universe, in another time, in another dimension, in another life maybe just maybe, I’d end up with you.

My heart ❤️

[sad-herondale]

It's 4:21 a.m and after 348 days, you're still on my mind.

ShesCrazyforCountingTheDays

[sad-herondale]

The summer love she asked for was the summer love her bestfriend had.

ItsBreakingMyHeart

[sad-herondale]

Co-relating books to experiences #1

Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare

She asked him if he read the book He answered with a yes Astonishing story of the girl I haven’t read it yet she responded

Impossible for him to wait on the sequel

Let him be she said Overrated conversations started from 8:00 Very much difficult for her to sleep Every night she checked her phone

Yet no messages from him was received Oh such bullshit she felt Unrequited love again

[sad-herondale]

it was never unrequited. simply one just wasn’t ready

[sad-herondale]

Co-relating books to experiences #1

Lady Midnight by Cassandra Clare She asked him if he read the book He answered with a yes Astonishing story of the girl I haven't read it yet she responded Impossible for him to wait on the sequel Let him be she said Overrated conversations started from 8:00 Very much difficult for her to sleep Every night she checked her phone Yet no messages from him was received Oh such bullshit she felt Unrequited love again

[sad-herondale]

Clear skin, pale face.

The type of girls boys like to like N. M you're prettier than me anyways

[sad-herondale]

Tessa: Won't they sew your mouth shut and remove your eyeballs?

Jem: yes because I've sworn to become a silent brother and protect the city of bones

Tessa: I still want to see you

Jem: YOU'RE NOT THE ONE GETTING YOUR EYEBALLS REMOVED RIGHT?!?! SO YES YOU CAN STILL SEE ME

[sad-herondale]

The only bond forbidden to the parabatai is the romantic bond. As upheld by the Clave and written into the Shadowhunter's Codex, these bonded pairs must maintain the dignity of their warrior bond and must not allow it to transform into the earthly love referred to as Eros.

Tragic isn’t it? Emma and Julian disobeyed this law now they must face a such consequence. 

Is it torture?

Death?

or even worst what if Julian won’t be her parabatai anymore.

I have come to realize, we aren’t such creatures so we don’t have to worry about this.

But falling in love with someone you can’t have in the real world is shittier

[sad-herondale]

Jem: I mean if Will likes Tessa sure I’d give her to him

a few months later..

Jem: Tessa and I are engaged!

Will: *mentally face palms*

[sad-herondale]

Emma: *in love with Julian but acts in love with Mark*

[sad-herondale]

Do you know those 3 dots on messenger that flickers with your name every time you’ll type a message? I’ve always seen that pop out with your name but you never sent a message. Tragic right? Knowing you’re typing me a message but you never sent it breaks my heart. Maybe some words are better left unsaid.

Messenger Thoughts (via @shadesofrad)