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Ciggy Break 😘

2023 was a confusing and challenging year for me. I was still struggling with the heartbreak of a past relationship when I developed feelings for someone who didn’t feel the same and ended up dating one of my closest friends. That experience made me feel like life has always been working against me, no matter how hard I try to stay positive or optimistic. It became harder to keep a hopeful outlook, and I reached a point where I just couldn’t do it anymore.

To cope with the loneliness and heartbreak I felt was inevitable, I decided to focus on working out, eating healthier, and distancing myself from men and relationships altogether. When 2024 began, I tried again to invest in self-improvement by working out, going to therapy, and finding distractions from life’s struggles. However, things didn’t go as planned. I ended up losing my job, and I’m still unemployed, feeling like I’m at my breaking point with no clear direction forward.

Last night, I had an eye-opening realization that my life feels predetermined, and I have no control over the outcomes. When I think about my future, I don’t see a husband, kids, love, or anything fulfilling. Some might say I’m just emotional or overreacting because of recent events, like being stood up by a guy. But it’s not about him—it’s about realizing that, since my last relationship, I haven’t been able to maintain any meaningful connections with anyone I’ve talked to. It feels like my dad was right when he said I’m cursed, and there’s nothing I can do to change that.

#unfiltered thoughts #embracevulnerability