[sadauroras]

#sadauroras is an indie & selective multimuse featuring muses from yellowjackets, buffy the vampire slayer & the fall of the house of usher. written by maddie ( 26, she / her, est )

the haunting of bly manor: dani clayton. (fc: victoria pedretti.)

the fall of the house of usher: madeline usher. (fc: willa fitzgerald / mary mcdonnell.)

yellowjackets: mari. (fc: alexa barajas / marisol nichols) melissa. (fc: jenna burgess / julie benz) i also write taissa over here.

orphan black: echoes: kira manning. (fc: keeley hawes.)

little women: jo march. (fc: saoirse ronan/maya hawke.)

a league of their own: carson shaw. (fc: abbi jacobson.)

xena warrior princess: gabrielle. (fc: renee o'connor.)

bottoms: hazel. (fc: ruby cruz.) josie. (fc: ayo edebiri.)

buffy the vampire slayer: buffy summers. (fc: sarah michelle gellar.)

lisa frankenstein: lisa swallows. (fc: kathryn newton.)

[sadauroras]

i wanna come back!!!

[misquigley]

Back and forth they always seemed to go. One minute they'd be fine, able to co-exist and even be friendly to one another. Then the next one of them, often Mari, would start up an argument. She wasn't innocent in the slightest, had instigated her fair share of arguments, but for the most part she minded her business. There was no need to fight one another, not when they were all trying to make it to tomorrow and even next week, but sometimes it just happened.

Except it hadn't happened for a while. For some reason ( weird and confusing if she was being honest ) they hadn't fought as of late. The two fighting and seemingly to have an issue with one another was Mari and Shauna. Which, if she was being honest, Misty didn't mind not being on the receiving end of either woman's radar. She just wanted to exist and help out however and wherever she could. And if she was being honest, something she'd never admit to, she liked it when the other was nice to her.

They had won the game, outsmarting Shauna and her team. Everyone was having fun, overall, and there was plenty of mulled wine going around. Though she rarely drank more than enough to make her head feel fuzzy, her body tingling just slightly; that was enough for her. Tonight was no different except she had found herself seated next to Mari, somewhat away from the others and it was going alright. And she's not even sure how their faces wound up so close to one another, yet she didn't mind it, not really.

When boy's are mean to you, it means they like you, someone had told her once upon a time. Misty had believed it and kept reminding herself of it every time a boy at school picked on her. Though the only person as of late, since they've been stranded, to pick on her has been Mari. And she wonders if that saying could be used for girls, if that's why the other picked fights with her and vise versa. It's why the words left her mouth without much thought, curiosity and mulled wine shoving them off the tip of her tongue. And she notices how Mari's eyes dart down to her lips, how her own do the same and how there's a flutter in her chest, how her mouth goes dry.

Nothing happens. Except for the feeling of finger dragging along her lips. She blinks once then twice before she's coming back to her body ( because of course she had left it, why else would she say that to Mari of all people? ) and she's leaning back, away from her. Eyes darted to the ground, her grip around cup tightening. "No I don't," and her voice is too high when she speaks, giving herself away because she does. For once she wished someone would want to do anything with her, even if just holding her hand.

[sadauroras]

it was true that a lot of mari's wrath lately had been used towards shauna, instead of misty. honestly she would much rather be fighting with the blonde, at least she knew that she wasn't in any serious danger. besides, there was something different about it. like as if it held a different weight. it came from something else. maybe her fights with shauna just came from pure hatred, but that's not what she felt about misty. it was fun to mess with her, there was almost a rush.

mari's still shocked that misty would say something like to her. maybe it was the wine, she had some herself. but it didn't explain where it would come from. it was so forward, so unlike misty. it was almost enticing - like a dare. that's why she had placed her finger on the other woman's lips, testing the waters. she was just curious. there wasn't anything wrong with that.

there's a slight scoff at misty's words, shaking her head. "i don't believe that." her eyebrows raise, one finger hooking under her chin and pushing softly upwards so that she would have to make eye contact with her. she doesn't know if it's the wine or what - but weirdly the more mari thinks about it the more she doesn't think she'd mind kissing misty. it actually sounds sort of appealing? which is a problem for later.

maybe it's because they'd gotten along a lot more lately. it could be that, or maybe mari was just losing it. she can't tell and while she's looking in her eyes it doesn't really matter. she steps a bit closer again, keeping the eye contact. her voice is quiet as she speaks, hand moving to cup her cheek and she leans forward. "i believe you'd love to kiss me." mari doesn't give misty anytime to protest, immediately placing her lips on top of the others softly.

[sadauroras]

what keeps your soul tethered to the mortal realm?

regret.

perhaps you have unfinished business with someone. perhaps you wish things had gone differently. unfortunately, there is no such thing as fair. come to terms with your regrets. acknowledge them, but do not let them tie you down. allow yourself to accept what cannot be changed. that is the only way you will ever be free. learn to accept. learn to move on. learn that nothing is perfect. you deserve to be free despite your wrong doings and regrets.

tagged by: @misquigley

tagging: anyone who wants to do it <3

[sadauroras]

@owestwind: ❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

she's quick to welcome strangers into her space, if not with a mixture of both nervousness and a sense of kindness. there's a quick nod and welcoming smile as she speaks, still so incredibly new to london so she's willing to try to fit in the best she can. running away from her problems (literally) shouldn't be a negative, right? she's a new person, nobody knows her here.

"oh! no, not at all!" she responds, turning her attention towards the other woman. it wouldn't be incorrect that she had been in her own little world previously, almost completely zoned out. "smoke as much as you wish. i don't think you'd get in trouble or anything."

[sadauroras]

@misquigley: ❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

there was always an argument between them, a way to one up each other at every turn. maybe they just couldn't deal with how similar they were - at their core just two girls that were widely hated, outcasts in their own ways. mari could swear up and down that she was different, she wasn't weird like misty, people just didn't get her. she was an acquired taste, while misty quigley was just odd at birth.

but there was a certain pull between the two of them that mari couldn't explain. she could act like it annoyed her all she wanted, but if it really did, why was she constantly picking fights with the blonde for no reason? the words leave misty's mouth and mari pauses, so incredibly aware of how close their faces were to each other. she doesn't even know how they had gotten so close but she can't help letting her eyes dart from misty's own eyes to her lips.

it's a brief look but she doesn't step back, not moving out of the other woman's space. the statement intrigues her, even if at face value she doesn't want it to. "oh my god. you wish i would kiss you quigley." if she sounds defensive, it's because she is. misty's words still hang in the air though, a small flutter moving through mari. hand reaches forward to let a finger briefly linger and swipe on the other's lips, pulling back if only to watch misty's reaction.

[divinetenebris-movedarchived]

if there was ever a time to think that the wilderness was still fucking with them, even all of this time later, it was this. of all the people. really? melissa? the name stuck in her head like a dagger. one that she had learned why some years after- when she had finally accepted who she was. but it didn't dull the blade of the weapon.

there's an awkward smile at the joke. like okay yes it wasn't a bad joke. god damn it mel, don't be funny when it's supposed to be strange. that wasn't playing fair.

"thank god is right." old jackie would have lived in the compliment of looking the same. but old jackie died out there- not a thought she lingered on too often. especially after the whole 'the old taylor can't come to the phone right now' thing from a few years back. "what? oh...oh god, no. for a multitude of reasons. no- jeff and i are...civil. in some ways, i think? but no, no. i am not still with mayonnaise in human form jeff sadecki. what...what about you? are you seeing anyone?" the word anyone hung like a sword from a rope.

[sadauroras]

why was jackie the first person she saw after all of this time? they barley talked when they were in school and that didn't change once they were stuck in the woods together. they were basically strangers and that's what melissa assumed they were ever going to be.

she didn't really know what was going on in any of their lives, she didn't have the need to. but jackie not being with jeff throws her for a loop for a second. if jackie wasn't with him was ...... no. she forces herself to think otherwise, just choosing to throw on a smile instead. "oh!" she can feel the tension in the air though, both of them clearly trying to figure out if the other will speak about their shared feelings surrounding shauna.

"i would have assumed that you'd be right back to where you were before everything happened. but i guess not. mayonnaise in human form is clever though..." she agreed, but she'd never say it. wasn't her place. it wasn't like jeff really knew her either. "me? oh no." it was hard finding people who got her. plus it was hard when she wasn't over the situationship she had as a literal teenager. "nobody for me. i'm not ... sad about it. just the way that life goes."

[sadauroras]

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜ ( for melissa from shauna / @darkconsumed)

she'd be lying if the status that being around shauna afforded her wasn't a benefit. who knew that the crush she had harbored for what felt like years would keep her safe from a pack of angry cannibalistic teen girls in the present? ( she was also in that group - but to her ... her and shauna were in the right. they were the only ones who seemed to want the very best for the group. ) power interested melissa and being closer to it was the goal to stay alive.

eyes flutter as she looks at the woman in front of her, a nervous gleam in her gaze. she wasn't afraid of shauna. she remembers the shauna that she saw in the hallways before the crash, the one that she would always try to figure out the courage to say hi to but never did. melissa felt braver now, or at least in some ways. "really? you'd do that for me?"

melissa knew that turning against coach ben made her a target for some of the girls. she also knew that aligning herself so closely with shauna meant she could be second in charge when the day came that the wilderness picked the brunette instead. if she was offering to keep her safe, it meant she cared and that was all that melissa needed to know. "you did the right thing out there, it was awesome. they're only afraid of you because you're right."

[divinetenebris-movedarchived]

charlie scoffed instantly. he had not been close with mari before. hell, he barely knew most of them before. all his job was to learn how to win (something the yellowjackets did in spades) from the best. even now he held that sentiment. they were the best. to be out here like this, surviving and almost...thriving in some regards? it drew every ounce of respect out of him and poured to the floor at their feet.

"the second we let me in charge is the second we start dropping like flies. for dumb shit too, i'm sure-" he joked in return. carefully he moved the pieces of wood to either side of her leg. keeping very shaky hands away from contact as best as he could. "you say that now, but wait. i'll need a break every three seconds if i touch you."

self deprecation was easy. "we'll get you through this. it won't be a cast, but fishing line is incredibly strong so if the wood holds in place, it'll be the best thing we have." he was not their medic. that was still on misty. but he could wrap a twine just fine. if anything, he'd call her in if he felt like he wasn't setting it right.

"don't burden yourself too much though, mari. you just went through a lot. you are allowed to rest."

[sadauroras]

charlie seemed to be the only one who was taking mari seriously. nobody else cared, not really. they had barely given her a second to breathe before they had told her that she had to walk back and find coach ben again. that was the right thing to do, wasn't it? she wasn't so sure anymore. part of her hoped that he had moved somewhere else and that they wouldn't find him in that cave.

eyes wander towards the wood surrounding her leg, a feeling of thankfulness washing over her. this would have to do for now. she knows she'll heal eventually, or she hopes she will. the last thing she needs is to not be able to participate or be useful because of her knee. optics meant everything in the wilderness and she wasn't looking to be alienated from the group even more then she was.

"i don't know...if we haven't dropped like flies by now...i'm sure you'd be fine." she remarks, shrugging. being leader isn't something she wants, knowing that she would much rather follow whoever is in charge. there's a fear that the wilderness will choose shauna next and she shutters at the thought. "if it works well enough, i'm fine with it. anything is better then nothing."

"i can rest after we find him. if i tell them they should wait - you know all of a sudden i'd be the villain. shauna would probably get them to turn against me or some shit."

[nightprompts]

&. 𝐚𝐧 𝐚𝐬𝐬𝐨𝐫𝐭𝐦𝐞𝐧𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐨𝐠𝐮𝐞 𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐦𝐩𝐭𝐬.

( this is basically just a very self indulgent list of various fluff, angst, and suggestive themed dialogue sentence starters. )

❛ i could keep you safe. they’re all afraid of me. ❜

❛ i’m trying to fix your hair, so hold still. ❜

❛ your heart is beating so fast right now. ❜

❛ promise me you’ll still be here when i wake up. ❜

❛ you’re not as bad as everyone says you are. ❜

❛ i thought you’d like some company. ❜ 

❛ clean yourself up. you're getting blood all over the place. ❜

❛ here, give this a try and tell me what you think. ❜

❛ you can kiss me, you know. ❜

❛ come back to bed. ❜

❛ you look good like this. ❜

❛ working together again, it’s just like old times. ❜

❛ how is it you always know what i need, huh? ❜

❛ you’re lucky you got away with only a scratch. ❜ 

❛ i can’t imagine losing someone like that. i’m sorry. ❜

❛ you know you can always talk to me. ❜

❛ the only one who gets to kill you, is me. ❜

❛ so, what do i owe this pleasure? ❜

❛ ah, so you aren’t heartless after all. ❜

❛ may i have this dance? ❜ 

❛ it’s okay, you can touch me. i won't break. ❜

❛ enemies make the best lovers, you know. ❜

❛ hold still. this might sting a little. ❜

❛ we can't keep doing this. ❜ 

❛ you look like you've got something to say. ❜

❛ just relax and let me take care of you. ❜

❛ thought you’d be lighter without all that blood. ❜

❛ i had it under control. you didn’t need to do that. ❜

❛ everything looks so beautiful from up here. ❜

❛ you treat all your ladies like this? ❜

❛ well? how do i look? ❜

❛ can’t sleep? ❜

❛ do you mind if i smoke? ❜

❛ i’m scared of ending up alone. ❜

❛ i don’t think i’ve ever seen you smile. ❜

❛ how long has it been since you've slept? ❜

❛ you are losing my interest, and that’s very dangerous. ❜

❛ i’d suffer hell if you’d tell me what you’d do to me tonight. ❜

❛ you look really pretty right now. ❜

❛ i’ve never cared for anyone the way i care for you. ❜

❛ i’m not wearing any underwear. thought you’d like to know. ❜

❛ just a few more stitches and you’ll be as good as new. ❜

❛ i’d say we make a pretty good team. ❜

❛ i want you to forget this ever happened. ❜

❛ i'm here for business — not pleasure. ❜

❛ if i didn't know any better, i'd say you were jealous. ❜

❛ you'd look better down on your knees. ❜

❛ fine, keep acting like you hate me. ❜

❛ kiss me again. ❜

❛ are you asking me out on a date? ❜

❛ just sit there and look pretty and let me handle this. ❜

❛ you okay? caught you staring off into space again. ❜

❛ well, i do feel better now that you're here. ❜

❛ i'm not drunk enough for this. ❜ 

❛ why is it whenever we see each other, you’re covered in blood? ❜

❛ i was wrong about you. ❜ 

❛ the first time i met you, i had no idea you'd mean this much. ❜

❛ you gonna be a good girl / boy for me? ❜

❛ i’m not afraid of you. ❜

❛ books mean more to me than people anyway. ❜

❛ i just wanted to say thank you for protecting me. ❜

❛ how about a kiss goodnight? ❜

❛ i don’t have time for distractions right now. ❜

❛ you shouldn’t be out here by yourself. ❜ 

❛ if i have to think about one more thing today, my head will explode. ❜

[ava-deb]

ALEXA BARAJAS as MARI IBARRA YELLOWJACKETS (2021— ) S03E04, 12 Angry Girls and 1 Drunk Travis

[antlerqueefs]

you can stay, if you want

[darkconsumed]

Maybe what she had written was a lie. Melissa had existed long before the other day, though she had only ever seen the other in passing. Seen her at practice and games or in the halls at school; she was the only one to wear a pink hat. But there were more than just one way to see someone, and that was something Shauna realized the other day. When they kissed, she looked at the other in a way she hadn't looked at anyone—outside of Jackie—ever before, not even Jeff.

Ever since then, anytime her eyes landed on Melissa, she saw her. And she couldn't stop thinking about the kiss or how it made her feel. She had tried to ignore it, to pass it off as a once off, but her showing up right now had her wanting more. Which she knew she hadn't conveyed that plainly, had all but ignored the other woman except a look here and there. Why? Because she didn't really know how to process it all, to have one of the others not avoiding her. For maybe feeling some sort of way for her in a romantic sense. To be feeling, somewhat, happy and hopeful. It was a lot.

Hearing the nervousness come from her with one word, was almost enough for her to smile. Brows arched as she listened further, wondering if she would ask to talk about the other day and how she'd turn her down. How she'd do anything, even kiss her again, to avoid talking about it. But nothing comes out and a soft sigh left the brunette as eyes returned to her journal. "You can stay if you want, Melissa..." she murmured, leaving the metaphorical door open for the other.

Shauna had thought they'd be able to avoid talking about it, but then the words were spoken and the question was asked. Yes, a lot actually, she thinks to herself as pencil pressed against paper, yet nothing was written. She remained like that for a bit before she placed the pencil in the middle and closed the notebook, sitting it beside her on the log. "Is that why you're here...to talk about it?" she asked, even if she had a sinking feeling that was the case. And yes, she did avoid answering Melissa's question. For now.

[sadauroras]

shauna was hard to read. or maybe melissa was just hard at reading people, she couldn't tell. everyone else was so scared of the other woman, so fearful that they would barley make eye contact, but instead melissa just felt a fondness. a curiosity to figure shauna out. she sorta always had that drive even before the crash, when she'd nervously wave in the halls and complain to friends that she'd never live up to jackie (they'd tell her to pine after someone else and she would agree - only to gush about shauna a few days later) there was just someone about her that she admired - even more now that she'd gone through all she had in the woods.

melissa's heart flutters as shauna tells her that she could stay, a smile covering her face as she slowly walks closer to the other, sitting down besides her. "oh. I guess i'll stay then." her voice is quiet, mustering up the courage to say more. what do you say to your crush after you make out with each other after being standard in the woods for the past however many months? there wasn't a playbook and she didn't even think that this could happen before this.

it wasn't how she thought their first kiss would go - with a knife at melissa's throat. but it was the first time she felt seen by the brunette. the rush of adrenaline that had pushed through her was all consuming and she wasn't thinking. there was just a pull to her lips and the real surprise was that shauna had kissed her back instead of killing her. "i mean if you want to. i guess it was like.. pretty crazy." melissa curses herself for her choice of words, knowing how awkward she sounded, but she can't seem to stop herself her rambling. "but not crazy enough that i wouldn't mind doing it again, you know?" who knew that her first kiss would invoke such a fire in her, melissa certainly didn't. "i just... wanted to know how you felt. we haven't really been talking."

[divinetenebris-movedarchived]

the groan isn't lost on him and charlie can only grimace outside. still no permission yet. if she had wanted privacy, he needed to give it. even if he was worried beyond reason.

any chance he could, charlie took it to help the others. laura lee had blamed herself for bringing the plane down and the rest had laughed about it. but that idea festered in his chest like a wound. not that laura lee had done it, but it was somehow his fault. like the miasma of bad luck that followed him brought them to suffer. it was selfish, but on days of lucidity and away from the haze of hunger, charlie reasoned that it was always better to blame himself than any of the others just trying to survive.

he didn't hesitate to go in after that. his expression was a wry smile, the unkempt dark hair even more all over the place after running through it with worry. "that's exactly what i'm here for. i...-you know i'm bad with touch so this might take me a second. but i have a make-shift split for you. we can use some fishing line to hold it. it'll be stronger that way."

[sadauroras]

she watches as he comes inside, a small thankful smile on her face. nobody else would have done this for her, she knows that. everyone else was preoccupied with their own issues and problems. mari was fine with that on the outside, but on the inside she wonders if she should have even come back.

"god, you're more helpful then anyone else here. you should be the leader." of course she had to have a dig at the others, a small eye roll comes after speaking. "but please, take as long as you need. i just need to be able stand for more then a couple seconds. it's embarrassing to be this fucked up."

she pauses, letting out a sigh, "now they're all preparing to lead a search party to find coach and .... " it was such a complicated situation but she was so hesitant to spill more about what happened. yes he did keep her hostage, but there were moments ... where she knew deep down that he really just was a normal guy. "i just need to be able to show them where he is."

[feminaferitas]

"I don't even know where you end and I begin."

In honor of Yellowjackets Season 3 and the evolution from heart necklaces to slap bracelets, I wanted to finally get this Season 2 inspired JackieShauna art out of my head. Really happy with how it turned out -- in homage to Gustav Klimt's "The Kiss"!

[divinetenebris-movedarchived]

there were days when the woods would creep back into jackie taylor's life. some were much worse than others. but as the years dragged on, she felt the distance between her and it lengthen. much like the physical space between them. she could breathe a little easier a little more regularly.

the one thing that could whip those memories back? a face returning, almost if from the dead, that lingered in those nightmares. melissa.

bright eyes widened and jackie could feel her heart hammer in her chest in a way that seemed like it would soon break apart her bones. "big time," she confirmed with a weak, terrible attempt at a smile. "i...-how are you melissa?"

[sadauroras]

she wasn't surprised that it was awkward. it isn't often that you see someone that you spent months and months with out in the woods. for melissa, that was never. it wasn't something she was really into remembering.

she had spent so many years jealous of jackie for reasons that seemed tiny now. they never really became friends, either. melissa had always been more of the quiet outcast, most of the group not into getting to know her. the term boring was thrown around a few times, of course.

"surviving." she says simply, more of a joke about being presumed dead then anything else. she doesn't even know what to say or what to ask. do you still talk to the others rings in her head, deciding not to ask. "but you .... you look the exact same. it's like no time has passed. but thank god, it has." there's a certain hardness that she'd developed over the years as a sort of protection. "you uh ... are you still with jeff?" it was the only thing she thought to ask.

[sadauroras]

( avilionea )

you know i only have eyes for you. ( laurie + jo )

it's something she knows all too well. she feels it in every interaction they have - that he wants more. jo doesn't know how to make it any more clear that his friendship is the most important thing in her life. she doesn't want to lose him but also her feelings are conflicted. she wants to be loved, but does she just want to be less alone? is this not what every girl wanted? she isn't sure anymore.

eyes flutter towards his, shaking her head. "you know, laurie. there are some really great girls out there for you." girls that aren't jo. girls that know what they want and know that they want a traditional life. she fears that she'll never be that type of person and he deserves more. "i can always help you out - ask around .... i don't doubt that they'd love you."