No One Stays At The Top Forever

32 / M /Music / Art / Horror / Love 💔

[sadbasketball]

gentle reminder that I’m active on my new blog, any stragglers that would like that username just DM me!

[sadbasketball]

No one has the right to judge you here. I've always seen tumblr as a retreat from real life, I hope it can become that for you again too!

I wish you all the best!

I really appreciate that. It’s people like you that have made this place feel safe for me to post my feelings. Hopefully one day it will be that escape for me again. I’ll be back eventually ♥️

[sadbasketball]

That’s the deal tho bc someone shouldn’t be important once you are no longer a part of her life because it is unhealthy and it is an obsession and maybe you need to get help if you literally cannot leave it alone just saying because you remind me a lot my ex and I had to get a restraining order on him because he was hung up on me for about three years, which is ridiculous



I hear what you’re saying. But it’s not the same though. The only person I’m hurting is me. To equate me being sad about an ex to someone that you had to get a restraining order on is a big leap.

But, I don’t really think that we are supposed to just up and forget someone existed the second that the relationship ends.

I’m leaving her alone. I’m not looking at her social medias. I don’t follow her on anything anymore. I haven’t messaged or texted her in a long time. So, really I’m not seeing what your issue is with me. If you don’t like what I post then why follow me or even look at my blog?

I’m just not understanding your stake in this whole thing. I’m not just sad because a relationship ended. I’m allowed to have feelings and I’m allowed to not be happy.

I’m sure she doesn’t look at this blog so it’s not effecting her in any way shape or form. She’s moved on and she’s happy. This was just a place for me to vent and talk about the things that hurt me. You don’t get to see the good at all here.

Again, I’m sorry if this has in some way made your life worse. I’ll just go be happy now. Since it’s so incredibly easy to do. ✌🏻

[sadbasketball]

You need to stop obsessing over the ex. That’s why you’re so sad. Move on. And about the other ask why would you contact them? That’s so damn toxic. If my ex did that I’d be afraid of them and report them bc still hanging on is literally creepy imho.

You’re just telling me everything I already know. Moving on isn’t easy for everyone. I’m trying. I’m really trying.

As for the last ask I’m fairly certain you didn’t read it correctly. Not once did I say that I contacted them. In fact quite the opposite. So I’m a little confused by the hostility. I haven’t talked to her in months and never once did I give her any reason to be afraid of me or any reason to report me for anything.

Also, nobody here knows exactly how things went down except for her. Once it was apparent that she didn’t want me in her life anymore I stepped away.

But, I’ve already said I’m leaving tumblr so you won’t have to see anything about it anymore. I’m sorry that it bothered you so badly that I still have feelings for someone who was incredibly important to me.

[sadbasketball]

Is your ex on tumblr? Are you not able to contact them anymore because they blocked you?

Yes they are on tumblr and no I’m not blocked on anything as far as I know (I haven’t looked recently but last time I did I wasn’t). I’m able to contact them but I’m choosing not to. I’m trying to respect them by staying out of their life.

I think the big thing to takeaway and I’ve not expressed it much here is that things didn’t really end badly. Nothing absolutely horrible happened. The distance hurt. The lack of communication hurt. But, at the end of the day. I did that to myself and I have nobody else to blame.

[sadbasketball]

I’m going to be taking a step away from social media. Tumblr & Instagram have become more of a reminder of sadness and loneliness than I’d like. If we were talking and you’d like to continue. DM me and we can figure out another way to communicate. I will still keep Snapchat and FB messenger for now.

Thanks for listening to me whine. It was awesome here until it wasn’t.

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Missing you is the hardest thing l've got to deal with everyday.

[stricatul]

No point in getting attached. No one actually stays.

[sadbasketball]

I don’t think I’ll ever get over this feeling.

I’ve been tired for years.

Maybe this is just how life is going to be.

[tendernxss]

hope // modern baseball

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“Time always exposes what you mean to someone.”

— Unknown

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— Sylvia Plath

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It’s the little things