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The only time a guy has asked me out was when I was looking after an older woman called Ruth and I talked to her neighbour who was also there who would help with her shopping. Next time I saw her she double checked who I was and was like “oh my neighbour was wondering if he could take you to dinner!” And I was like “I’m seventeen and he’s thirty six, sorry….” I’ve been an adult for four years and I’ve gotten nothing from anybody since.

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I saw my neighbour with their dog and it’s a chocolate lab I think and it was playing with this massive stick and I was so jealous because my dog would hit you so you could get a blanket for her to sleep under if you touched her she’d kill herself.

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Constantly ping-ponging from thinking I look sooooo interesting and cunt to being the most ugly creature that my mother had the displeasure of birthing. A personification of pus seeping through her womb. Omgggggggggg but this lip with this eyeshadow palette 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

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Does anybody else find it so embarrassing when somebody sees you with makeup on within your own home. Like fuckkkkkm I’m such a loserrrrr.

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I hate when there’s a broad slightly buff man and you’re like oh he’s probably pretty fat under all of that and he’s just regular muscular like fuuuuuckkkkkkkkk. Fatfishing for real.

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I watched The Long Walk and I was like let me seeeee morrreee… Of the big boy… So I looked up Cooper Hoffman on Instagram and I couldn’t find an account but I saw an account about him and dude I straight up thought he was in a porn. I thought he was doing porn now. That new doninatrix movie he’s in is crazy. He’s just a kid. He’s only twentythreeteen.

He’s just running around in pink lingerie and being fully paddled on a woman’s lap with his underwear down. I mean he’s allowed to do that I just didn’t consider that a thing he’d do I guess. I just didn’t expect it. Kinda funny.

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Ugly photo, but I’m experimenting with this grey and black lip and I think it’s pretty nice.

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If that picture of my makeup got zero likes I would’ve been so embarrassed I experienced brain death but it got one (1) (☝️) like.

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Why does nobody fuck with meeeeeeeee.

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I’ve been trying grey lipstick out recently and I think it’s pretty……. C…….. cun…… t…… oh my goodness……. I just don’t say this stuff……….. this isn’t me……:::

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I love my dogggggy I want to Frankenweenie her.

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Why can’t guys who like fat girls or muscular girls be more normal about it. Why does everything about a woman have to be a fetish. You can like pubic hair, you can like goth girls, you can like gingers but it’s always some fucking porn category with some people. They say sexual things, they throw out porn-brained words like mommy and dehumanise the woman they’re interested in like it’s what you’re meant to do. I hate how normal it is. It’s FINE to like fat women, but why do we post photos of somebody groping a stomach to express that

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Men message depressed and lonely girls and act sooo oblivious when you don’t trust them like you’re typing to me with your cock half-hard in your hand hoping if we trauma bond you’ll get to see a tit. There’s a reason that despite me posting about my mental health and suicidal thoughts and self harm for years a woman has NEVER messaged me. It’s always been men.

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Every time somebody interacts with my account and I don’t recognise them I always check their account multiple times for a few days because I’m convinced they’re making fun of me. I’m so certain they’ll make a post calling me stupid and weird. I guess it’s self centred thinking but it makes sense

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I look at myself and I’m like fuuuuuck I look soooo British. I always feel like the middle stage. Feeling normal today though sorry for the TMI but usually if I start cutting it up it resets my brain a little. Whatever thaaaat means.

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I like my makeup today but I don’t think anybody will give a gaf.

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Still no notifications when I wake up…,,,,,… low-key should end my life.