An Unexpected Route
Inspirations are what affect people’s future and long-term goals. People look up to influential people, idols, or leaders, and want to see themselves in those positions. Many work their way up to get where they want to be. In order to have a pleasing and successful life, one must be content with their chosen occupation or profession, but, in my case, I am not satisfied. Going to college, being involved with campus organizations, and networking is my dream come true. Though there are times that I am not sure what I really want to do. I am grateful that I am in an institution where they offer all types of studies and are willing to help me choose a career that suits me.
My last academic year for me is approaching. I have seen many of my peers change their major or quit college. Then I came to realization that no matter how hard I tried to stay on task and follow the plan I had for my future, I always lost interest. I had my entire college life planned and I knew it so well like the back of my hand. My professor had once told me, “You’re trapped in a bubble where you’re not sure what you want. You have the determination for anything and that is the beauty of it.” I really took what he said seriously because he told me what I have always tried denying to myself.
It has been difficult for me since. I was very motivated in the beginning of the year, showing my face at different club meetings, networking with professors, staff, and even alumni. I was all over the place! However, there was always a question clinging on the back of my head: what benefit will it really give me? Is it something I want to do or somewhere I want to be? These questions have given me an uncomfortable experience. This quarter I decided to drop further membership of a sorority. The sorority felt more deceived than upset. I told them I rushed things too fast and just need to take a breath of fresh air before I make any more doubtful choices.
I want to live a life with purpose. The only way to achieve this is by planning to have a job that I love. I want to changed my major to communication, but I have been trying to prove myself to my parents ever since. I do not want to let them down. My family has always seen me as the future engineer of the household. That is why everything I do, I do to make them proud of me. Now, I want to do what I have always wanted to do. From this point on, I hope to make decisions that will please me because in the end, the decisions I make will affect me the most. I want to be able to settle on a path I was destined. People have high expectations from me but I can only give so much.
Living a life I have always wanted, without bothering what others have to say, is rewarding because I am doing what I love to do most. Planning a completely different strategy to become successful in the future was painstaking but it will be worth it in the end.