Palimpsest System - Current Front: Bryaxis

Idiosyncrasy - (Anastasius/Sius & he/they collectively). Traumagenic system of 60+. 18 years of age bodily. #Walmart Cashier who dissociates through EVERY SINGLE DAY

[sadomasochisick]

This blog is a vent blog

This blog has every fucked up thing in it imaginable

I am a FUCKED UP PERSON. AND FUCKED UP THINGS HAPPEN TO ME EVERYDAY

You dont like it then LEAVE

I won't be nice over this. I deserve to have a space to scream over my life. If you want me to frolick in the fields with birdies then you're gonna be dissapointed

Sideblogs (made to mainly round up my posts about these things, not entirely restrict them to just these blogs):

Horny blog/(paraphilia, hypersexuality, pro/darkshipping, vents, etc): @paraphilisick

Fandoms/reblogs: @sadisick

Yanblr/cluster B shit: @cannibalisick

[sadomasochisick]

Guy the whole time im talking to him keeps going back to the same point: you needs get a boyfriend and have him give you money or pay for shit for you cuz you just cant-

Randomly also: oh yeah you could move in with me rent free

Also: in his 70s

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CASHAPP LET ME GET 25 DOLLARS OF OVERDRAFT COVERAGE IM GOOD RN LMFAO

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God that sixty bucks hurt real bad. I am cutting it close as fuck to not having bepugh money for shit

But I got some set kitten food, it'd be better than what my mum bought, fish food for my sisters fish imma get, a GOOD fish filter for my big tank so I'll just give my smaller one to my sister, and food for my body to consume

God damn that HURT THOUGHHH

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The guy who was tryna get me to move in with him/(he's in his 70s)/had me sit in the break room with him and he wanted to chat but I said I had shit to do and I'd be back. I come back after forcing myself to get fish shit and wasting 60 dollars on that and some food to eat and he's gone

Guess he was on his fifteen. Oh well. I'll see him again later anyways

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EVWRY OLD GUY IS FLIRTING WITH ME

NEW DOOR GRWETWR OFFWRWD TO WLT ME. LIVE WITH HIM WH

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You literally have dated a 14 year old before

Oh my god when I was a minor I dated a minor. Was I supposed to date a pedophile?

[fluffylord]

this gigantic ass coat making him look so cute

[fblckt]

who dis

[birdssong]

our own worst enemies

[ricksanchezbignaturals]

how can you hate a man that draws his grandson like this

[joonirooni]

It's still you.

[snowsingsalot]

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HOW DO I KAKE THE PAIJ GO AWAY

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NOBODU UNDERSYAND THE AMOUTJ OF PAIN IK IJ PHYSICALLY AND HOWBI JEED TO HANDLE IT YET ACT LIKE THEY KNOW TJERES IS WORSE

IT FWELA LIKE KY BODY IS BEING TOEN APART WVERYTIKE I MOVE FUXKIJG HELP MS

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I WANT TO FUCLING DJE

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I am in eztrwmly bad pain to where it's malign me unable to sit or stand and its giving me a migrianw. It hruta so bad I want to ducking scream yet I was still moving my fish to a twenty gallon tank and cleaning out the five gallon tank to get my sister a fish for her birthday so I can pick it up tonrorow and give it to her early to get her to shut the fucl up about it anyways. While I was doign it (multiple hours) she started yelling st me about what the fuck was I doing and I was onylbdoign to because I wanted to and I had no reason to be in pain when I crumpledup on the damn floor and almost cried. I sat on the floor on my hands and knees and kept moving to try to syop hurting so bad and she kept yelling st me and I told her she was gonna like the reason why I was fucling doing it so to stop yelling at me and then she started on other shit and made ms wanna dhxling die SHE IS 36 FUCKING YEARS OLD GPIJG ON 37 I AM 18 AND I HAVE BEEN TOLD 'GET TWSTWD FOR THIS CHRONIS PAIN CAUSING ILLNESS IT COUKDVE BEEN PASSWD DOWN TO YOU AND BE SHOWING UP ALREADY' AND NOBODY TAKES ME SERIOUS ENOUGJ TO FUCKING CARE AND SHE TWLLS MENIM ONLY IN PAIJ BECAUSE IM 'UNFIT' OR 'DEHYDRATED' BITCH AT AOKE POINT IM GONNA NOT BE EOTJWR OF TJWSE. YPU KNPW./24 DAMJ 7? IM ALWAYS DEHYDRATED? IM ALWAYS NOT ACTIVE? I HAVE A JOB, I DO EVERHHTING AROUDN THE HOUSE, I AM BABYING YOUR BOTCH ASS AJD I CANY TAKE IT ANYMIRE. SHE YELLWD AT MW THE SECOND I ENTRWD THE HIUSE. SHE YELLWD AT KE UBTIL I WENT UPSTAIRA. AND I AM STILL GETTING HWR A DAMJ FISH AND GIVING HER MY OLD AQUARIUM AND I STILK BOGUHT HER EVWRY SUPPLY FOR THW DUCKING FISH SHE NEEDS. I AM GOIJG TO KILL MYSELF