The Savior ~ A Loki x Reader story~
Summary: Loki's previous trip to earth as D.B Cooper was just a simple prank amongst brother; there was absolutely no hidden agenda behind it whatsoever; certainly was not a way for Loki to take a peek at his so called destined soulmate. Y/N has not had an easy life, and has been hurt by the world way too many times. Can she trust her destined soulmate, or is she too far gone to love and be loved? This story is full of love, heartbreak as well as whole lot of mischief and many talks about past abuse.
Chapter 13: Jealousy, Jealousy.
My first day out of the cell and Hydra agents came in trying to take my girl. Not only that, but I was useless without my magic. Yes I am stronger than the measly Midgardians , but if I had my magic I would have wiped their existence with a snap of my fingers.I had to figure out a way out of these cuffs and soon.
My door knocked and in came my brother without waiting for my confirmation.
" I am just checking on you, brother."
" As you can clearly see, I am okay."
" Your soulmate who, I can see you care about dearly was attacked today and has been sleeping for the past 4 hours, because of how much energy she has drained. It is okay to be frustrated Loki, I am here if you need me."
" She wouldn't have needed to drain herself if I had my magic, you know very well how I can heal myself."
" Brother, I cannot take the cuffs out now; we just got Tony to agree to let you out. Besides, your father is the only one who can give the ok on your magic back."
Before the big oaf could complete his sentence, a loud scream interrupted him. A scream that was too close and too familiar for my liking.
I widened my eyes knowing that it belonged to y/n.
Me and Thor immediately ran out of my room and went straight to hers.
The solider had also heard the screams and had reached her room faster than us.
She was having a nightmare.
I looked at Thor, not knowing what to do. I didn't have my magic to just take it away.
Apparently, James had other plans and immediately went to my soulmate's sides and enveloped her in a much too tight hug.
I was the only one allowed to hold her.
I went to her side as well and tried to wake her up.
I tried to comfort her and take her away from the solider, but she jumped from my touch and scooted closer to him.
" Get them away , get them away." She cried into James shoulders.
" It was just a nightmare doll, no one is here" he said as he brushed her hair.
He held here even tighter and started to rock her a bit.
I couldn't stand to see this much longer.
I was delusional to think she could ever feel safe with me, that she could ever love me.
She already loved the solider.
She preferred his touch over mine.
Come to think of it, she has never allowed me to touch her other than yesterday when she healed me.
I ran out of the room and into mine.
Thor had cane after me , but I had threatened to shove his dick up his own ass if he did not leave me alone.
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I woke up curled into James arms. He had also fallen asleep.
I must have had a nightmare. He was always there to comfort me, when I was afraid.
He obviously sensed my movement, as he woke up as well.
" Yea, I feel my energy back."
" You should, it has been 10 hours." He said as he looked at the time on his watch.
" Wow, that's a long time."
" Tony will forever nickname you sleeping beauty now."
I chuckled, knowing how true his words are.
"What was your nightmare about?"
" I don't wanna talk about it. It was something that happened while you where in the ice."
He sighed and looked down with guilt.
" James, you couldn't have done anything."
" I know, but I wish I could. You are my family, my sister basically. I could have gotten us out sooner."
" You where brain washed half of the time."
" Ya, anyways. Let's go and have some food I am starving."
I nodded at him and followed him out of bed.
" Wait, let me get Loki."
Bucky stiffened, as I knocked the door of his room.
I knocked and knocked, but no answer.
"Hey, Jarvis .. where is Loki?"
~ He appears to be in his room, but he has been ignoring all knocks on his door today miss. Y/n~
That was weird. Why was he ignoring me?
Maybe he didn't know it was me?
" Loki, open up it is me."
" I don't think he will open." James said.
" He sort of stormed off when You refused his comfort and chose mine, when you had your nightmare."
" I think he doesn't know the nature of our relationship y/n."
James was right, Loki did always hate the mention of James.
However, Loki should not shut me out just cause of a miss understanding.
If he wants to act like a kid, then so will I.
" If he wants to know the nature of our relationship, he should have asked."
With that I stormed off as well and went to the kitchen.
I was hungry and I needed some food in me.
" Sleeping beauty has finally awaken"
I ignored tony as I rummaged through the kitchen. I was angry and hungry.
" There is lasagna in the fridge." Natasha stated.
I got out the entire pan that still hadn't completely cooled off and started to eat straight from the pan.
" You know, this was meant for all of us right?"
" Who woke up on the wrong side of the bed."
" She is just mad at Loki." James started
"Has he been ignoring you too?" Thor asked.
" Don't take it personally, my brother is not the best at handling any type of emotions. Let alone jealousy."
" He should talk to me about it first Thor, instead of acting like a baby."
" You are right my lady, but Loki has always felt unworthy of love. He was alway jealous of me , and thought our parents loved me more. "
My heart broke at Thor's confession.I didn't know Loki had felt all of that. I guess we really hadn't gotten to the deep talks yet.
" I will go see him after I am done eating."
I was already half way through the pan. I surprised even myself. I had never eaten this much food.
" You have an appetite of an Asgardian , my lady"
" It is probably from the force field you created" Bruce started.
" I have been trying to monitor your abilities , so far there is one pattern. Which is you always need to recharge after using your powers; when you heal people you need to sleep in order to get back your healing energy as in normal humans sleep helps in healing. As for the force field, I am assuming it takes a lot of energy, meaning you burn a lot of calories and your body needs to compensate that with food."
" Hydra never gave me enough to eat, just to survive; is that why I was never able to do a force field before?"
Bruce's analysis had me thinking.
If only hydra knew that giving me food instead of torturing me would have unlocked even more powers.
" Y/N " Natasha called out.
" We need to start training you, in combat and at your powers."
I obviously had a fearful look in my eye, because James held my shoulders and whispered to me that the training here wasn't like hydra.
Still too many memories, just started flashing again and I could already feel my breathing deepen.
I excused myself as calmly as I could and went back to my room.
I was trying to calm myself down, but I couldn't.
My breathing was getting shorter and shorter.
I didn't know what to do.
~ Mrs, you seem to be having a panic attack; Who would you like me to call out for you~
In a matter of seconds, I heard my door unlocked and Loki getting down to me and asking me to follow his breathing.
" Just like that, little one follow my breath."
" Now, do as I say; Inhale through your nose for 4 seconds."
" Now hold your breath for 7 seconds."
" Now let it out through your mouth in 8 seconds."
I did this for a few more times until I felt my body calming.
" Where did you learn this?" I asked him.
" I had been researching all day on ways I can help you with to calm you down that didn't need magic."
I didn't want to talk about it, but I also knew I had to make Loki understand some of my fears as well.
" Natasha mentioned that I would start training, and well I panicked because Hydra had a horrible way in their trainings and The memories just flashed."
" Was that what you had a nightmare about?"
" No.. Hydra didn't like that I would need to sleep after healing someone...."
I stopped talking and he held my hands.
" You don't have to tell me if you can't."
" I want to." I said as I squeezed his hands harder.
" They would torture me to keep me awake, but no matter what they did I would still fall asleep even in the middle of torture since every time they either electrocuted me or punched me I would heal instantly which also resulted in me getting more sleepy. "
Tears where going down my face now, fearing what Loki would think of me if I confessed what had happened next.
" Please don't think of me any less." I said with obvious shaking in my voice.
" Why would I ever think anything bas about you , little one."
" They discovered that while physical torture wouldn't keep me awake, but when mixed with psychological it would."
" They would have their way with me, non stop."
Loki's hands left mine and he got up.
He paced around the room and punched the wall , leaving a big hole in the room.
I cried harder this time, knowing that he was now repulsed by me.
Loki noticed and quickly came back to my side.
" You don't have to come closer. I know I am disgusting."
" Darling, no ,no I was just angry; not at you. I would never be disgusted by you, non of this was your fault. You are the most perfect person I have met. You are my soulmate, my other half. I will not rest until I have taken down this organization and killed every person in it."
I looked at him and saw the genuine look in his eyes.
I nodded, as he carried me to his lap and cuddled me. I also wrapped my arms around him and snuggled closer.
" There is nothing going on between me and James; he is like my brother. I was just used to going to him for safety for years."
" I know darling, I am sorry I over reacted."
I could still feel him tense
" You make me feel safe Loki, I have never felt safer until this moment."
I could feel his muscles relax as he kissed my forehead.
It was true, I really had never felt this safe.
I was falling hard for him and fast.
