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I’ve fallen.

I’ve fallen for a man at the age of 18.

It’s been 5 years and I’ve loved maybe two.

What was once a dream is now a nightmare.

I still love you but I don’t love who you have became.

You have no friends or family.

You’re a threat to your very life.

How do I ever leave this?

Will I ever be okay.. will YOU ever be okay..

I’ve fallen….

I’ve fallen for a man at the age of 23…

A man who cares so deeply you cannot see.

A man that shares my dream.

I’ve fallen.

I’ve fallen into a hole.

Torn by love and desire..

Could I ever leave you to die alone?

Could I ever leave you knowing your soul won’t be treated as kindly as I..

The life I want is dangled as a carrot in front of my eyes.

I’m entangled in this life. This situational hell.

Do you guys ever kind of want to give yourself an addiction? Do you ever just feel like maybe you’ll have the balls to kill yourself if you get an addiction like maybe life isn’t entertaining enough? Maybe I’m insane but sometimes I halfway want to find comfort in some thing, the way other people say they find comfort in their drugs.

#sorry for being depressing #sadnees #emo girls #not okay #depression #bpd stuff

The red sore nose from crying every day for over a week.

The swollen wrists and knees from clenching too tightly and punching.

The constant headaches from the pressure in your head.

The undying thought of how blissful it would be to not wake up again.

Maybe I need some help but may be the help doesn’t want me.

#sorry for being depressing #sad #lonely #bpd stuff #bpd #emo #emotional disorder

I’m tired of being hungry. There’s never food in the house because I’m broke. This shit sucks.