DISASTER WAS MY GOD.

𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝚆𝙾𝚁𝙻𝙳 𝙸𝚂 𝙴𝙽𝚃𝙸𝚁𝙴 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙸 𝙰𝙼 𝙾𝚄𝚃𝚂𝙸𝙳𝙴 𝙾𝙵 𝙸𝚃.

[sahafiun]

hey everyone!   fareeda has been moved to a new blog,  new url! @zuhuraha <3

[kingsmemes]

In honor of SPOTIFY WRAPPED,  send me a number 1-100 and I’ll write you a starter based on the song.

[sahafiun]

pov fareeda invites you to her house but then she gets out her deck of cards and a floating eye appears wyd

[sahafiun]

hello consider this a lil plotting call 🫣 you like this i give you your favorite sleep paralysis demon

[sahafiun]

Door

[sahafiun]

pov you’re doing a masters in media and communication that focuses on journalism but you have to make a presentation about a brand <3 

[sajaboys]

𝐒𝐓𝐔𝐅𝐅   𝐒𝐀𝐈𝐃   𝐈𝐍   𝐔𝐆𝐆𝐎𝐒   𝐃𝐍𝐈  .        sentence starters from a discord server. adjust as needed.

“  yeah that’s what I want,   sensory assault.  ” “  i can’t believe you make shrekcore look this good.  ” “  who the fuck wets their shoes?  ” “  i will gag them.  ” “  so this pleases the nut.  ” “  ALL THEY DO IS SHIT.  ” “  wait what yeehaw alabama racist figure is this guy?  ” “  please don’t gaslight.  ” “  [name],  can you get some taste?  ” “  i wish death on all.  ” “  i don’t think.  ” “  i’m happy but my depression is also back.  ” “  is that a punching bag in the back of your mouth?  ” “  no worries,   you’re stupid regardless.  ” “  i mean this in the nicest way possible.    shut up.  ” “  wow thank god i wasn’t here when this happened.  ” “  that animal looks like it’s been through hell.  ” “  it’s 7am and too early for this.  ” “  what if i said no.  ” “  i told them it was a social experiment and they fell for the bait.  ” “  goodbye i’m going back to sleep.  ” “  i need to pee so badly.  ” “  can you fuck off?  ” “  we don’t call them hotels,   we call them the street.  ” “  is this what it’s like to kiss ass?    tastes nasty.  ” “  i’ve never been nice one day in my life i don’t know how you do it.  ” “  who the fuck would fuck yzma??  ” “  i know you’re a weak bitch.  ” “  i hope you fall off the stairs and break your leg.  ” “  he has tan france energy.  ” “  do you think if i write about my trauma i’ll get a good grade?  ” “  now what the hell is that?  ” “  how about i kill you?  ” “  are you godmodding me?  ” “  my foot up your ass is about to be real life if you don’t shut the fuck up.  ” “  even when we’re wrong,   we’re right.  ” “  i hope you all die.  ” “  STOP PSYCHOANALYZING ME.  ”   “  this was so aggressive,   tell me how you really feel.  ” “  every day you wake up and you consciously choose violence.  ” “  fucking doofenshmirtz balloon looking headass.  ” “  bold of you to assume i have any brain left to rot.  ” “  i’m not even hilarious i just need to see a therapist.  ” “  is she meant to have chicken legs?  ” “  i’m gatekeeping.  ” “  you’re going to want to apologize after i beat your ass.  ” “  why are you thinking about a 2000s song?  ” “  ew,   why would you do that?  ” “  i hope a pigeon shits on you.  ” “  can you imagine hearing that from a white man ?  ”  “  you gotta word things better.  ”  “  was that not a proper conclusion to make ?  ”  “  no one asked.    go back to the life you don’t have.  ”  “  manitoba ?    the company that manufactures TVS ?  ”  “  the ballsack is my daily curse.  ”  “  it takes skill to be that effortlessly stupid.  ”  “  y’all chose to discourse about men at five fucking am for me.  ”  “  this man gives me a major ick.  ”  “  i would just call them annoying but that works as well.  ”  “  snatch him.    you better SNATCH HIM.  ”  “  well maybe get some eyes.  ”  “  i want a relationship but i also don’t.  ”  “  oh who is this paragon of wokeness ?  ”  “  oh you were thinking of DEATH ?  ” 

[sahafiun]

gina linetti dancing while everything is becoming chaotic meme except it’s fareeda making up a prophecy because she’s bored and wants to ruin someone’s day

[sahafiun]

thinking about her (the handmaiden)

[sahafiun]

Visit Original Link

𝙸 𝙰𝙼 𝙰 𝙿𝚁𝙾𝙿𝙷𝙴𝚃 𝙰𝙽𝙳 𝙰 𝚂𝙺𝙴𝙿𝚃𝙸𝙲.    highly selective   &   mutuals only    FAREEDA AHMED,     an original character of original lore.      inspired by egyptian mythology,     diving into the genres of horror,     fantasy and crime.       mature  &  triggering topics present.       extremely sporadic activity.     written by inaya   (    she / they / he,     twenty five    ).      previously iarets.      CARRD.

[sahafiun]

STARTER CALL.      @ilvaites​    /    NAKAHARA CHUUYA.      ACCEPTING.

❝    tell me a story.    ❞     she delivers the words quietly.      usually her demeanor is more loud and attention grabbing,      but she feels no need for that at the moment.      her defensive manner doesn’t matter when she finally lifts her head to look at him.     it’s the faintest of movements but it’s a lot coming from her.      she never dared to look at anyone when she felt so low but it seems a little easier at the moment.       ❝    not about the work you do or anything that has to do with abilities.    ❞     she’s grown quite tired of dealing with all of that comes with it.     it irritates her:     the burning,     the fighting,     the shared looks that only say one thing.      this is going to happen again.       but she lets it go,      even if it’s just for a day.      so,     when she says the next words,      there’s a hint of childish curiosity behind it.       ❝    tell me about something outside all of that.      maybe a happy memory.      oooor a silly story you heard.      something that would make your day a bit better.    ❞      she wants to listen this time.       once the storyteller,      now the audience.      it’s the only thing she really has energy for at the moment.           

[sahafiun]

PROMPTS.        @10tips​​.         “     please be careful,      fareeda.     it is very dangerous.     ”

❝    i know.    ❞     she simply says.     she stares at him blankly for a moment.     was it confusion?      or perhaps relief?     if it was a while back,     she would’ve been defensive.      she would’ve brushed it off like his words didn’t matter,      but they do now.      she feels some peace after hearing them,      like some weight is off her shoulders      —     as if her heart might a bit less heavy now.      and fareeda never really understood why dong  -  sik said these things to her     (     or perhaps she did,     she just never felt like they should be said to her     ),     but it lets her close her eyes for a second and let out a slow sigh.     she is more gentle this time,     more accepting.     ❝    i know it is.    ❞     nothing she ever did was anything but dangerous.      isn’t that the whole point,     though?      to help people even if it tore her apart?    even if it made everyone around her worry sick to their stomach?      this is just the way of things after all. 

and she looks at him again,      wondering if it’s that visible in her eyes.     it must be.     it would only be foolish not see how tiresome this feels to her.     get back up there,      her thoughts tell her.      it’s her job after all.     if not her,     then someone else will get hurt.       and it has to be me who gets hurt,      she thinks.      and she tells herself this,      as if she’s feeling self righteous,      as if she does not have a selfish bone in her body,      but the reality is this:      she needs to get hurt because she cannot hurt anyone else anymore.      her guilt won’t let her survive this.      she can’t ask any of her colleagues to do this because if her eyes fall on any more deaths then she might not make it.      the words of the head chief keep running back to her and she winces.     ❝    let me do this.    ❞     

those four words sound so simple,      but there is not one part of her that doesn’t know how this might end.      she knew from the start what she was getting into.      if you’re born into a country where you cannot express yourself,      you’ll explode one day.      and she is finally exploding.     ❝    i can’t keep watching this.      all of it   ...   it’s all because of me.      the problem is me.    ❞      it makes no sense to be saying this,      as the root cause of all these problems come from the people in power and their greed and need to work their people to death.     but haven’t they punished her for all she has said and written?      did she not lose her friends because she didn't listen when amira threatened that she would do exactly what she had done?      but,     of course,     like a naive little girl,     as if she didn’t know that her words will be true,     she did not listen.      now all she sees are those blank expressions staring back at her.    ❝    people were hurt because of me.      everyone blames it on that darn woman but I am at fault as well,      so I need to be the one to be in danger this time,      whether you like it or not.    ❞      

[sahafiun]

she did this for me fr

[sahafiun]

thinking about that dash game and how “when you’re reminded how alone you are” and “the desire not to trouble anyone too much” are so connected . fareeda always feeling like a burden despite her always being loud because she doesn’t care about most people but with the people she DOES care about she disappears so much bc of much she feels she just bothers anyone which ends in her loved ones feeling like they can’t get past her walls and so many people just no longer asking that she feels so alone and she has no one to blame but herself! no one to blame but herself GOD DAMN IT 

[sahafiun]

ONCE YOU’RE STRIPPED CLEAN,   WHAT’S AT YOUR CORE ?

RESOUNDING TRUTH:             you have a goal in mind,     and others brush it off right away   ...   why does everyone always tell you to follow your dreams when it's actually their dreams that they want you to follow?     your memory is weak,     and your conviction is even weaker on days when you're reminded of   how alone you really are.     it's hard to go on without someone pushing you forward   ...   is this what life is?     a cycle of monotony,     fueled only by the desire not to trouble anyone too much with your passing?     it would be nice to have something,     or someone,     to spur you on.     i hope you find them.

tagged by.      @ilvaites.  tagging.      @lingeringscars   (  layla  ),    @10tips,    @loetise​,    @dieangelo,    @vicioushope,    @guttersniper  and whoever else wants to!  

[sahafiun]

back on my fareeda biting agenda and i owe it to macy

[sahafiun]

thinking about how fareeda is the calmest when she feels safe surrounded by the people she loves