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#[ visage. ] hey get outta the way! quit gawking! move it; move it. clear the road! -- … ma'am.#[ /peeks head in a la aerith. ]#[ did you know one aerith gainsborough is cloud's non-ghost and ghost gf? no? well i'm here to remind you. ]#[ before i hop back out for a tiny little bit. i've been spending the day falling back in love with her. ]#[ ... not that i ever stopped. just renewing the vows sort of thing. ]

oflosechesters

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#[ cloud strife. ] you gonna be okay getting home? / and if i said i wasn't? / i'll go with you. / i thought you needed to get back?#[ i'm a day late-- it was too late yesterday when i realised. ]#[ better late than never? applies to almost everything? ... ]#[ happiest of birthdays to the best of the final fantasy boys. ]#[ and of course i had to do it by reblogging from the best boy with the best gif. ]#[ anyone: sae you hate using 'best'-- me: well what can i say; some deserve exceptions. ]#[ but baby boy; you take character depth to a whole different level and you deserve every ounce of passion you're given by... ]#[ but baby boy; you take character depth to a whole new level. and you deserve every ounce of passion you're given... ]#[ by both your creators/designers and the fans as a whole. ]#[ remember your ghost girlfriend loves you. ]#[ and even before your girlfriend (but not officially your girlfriend) becomes your /ghost/ girlfriend. ]#[ she loves you. ]#[ arguably more than you may love her. ]#[ what can i say she's in a little less denial than you are. ]

iniziareold

I will resurface here soon, I’ve just been on Animal Crossing for the very first time ever for the last few days and I’m drowning.

#[ if you have acnh by all means-- let me know; let me visit you; i'll be on this still religiously in a while from now. ]

robbersdjh:

“‘prompts: 1) things you said at 1 am 2) things you said through your teeth 3) things you said too quietly 4) things you said over the phone 5) things you didn’t say at all 6) things you said under the stars and in the grass 7) things you said while we were driving 8) things you said when you were crying 9) things you said when I was crying 10) things you said that made me feel like shit 11) things you said when you were drunk 12) things you said when you thought I was asleep 13) things you said at the kitchen table 14)things you said after you kissed me 15) things you said with too many miles between us 16) things you said with no space between us 17) things you said that I wish you hadn’t 18) things you said when you were scared 19) things you said when we were the happiest we ever were 20) things you said that I wasn’t meant to hear 21) things you said when we were on top of the world 22) things you said after it was over 23) things you said on the streetcar at 1 am 24) things you said with clenched fists 25) things you said in the back seat of a cab 26) things you said sitting still 27) things you said on the phone at 4 am 28) things you said but not out loud 29) things you said in the backyard at night 30) things you said on the highway 31) things you said while I cried in your arms 32) things you said I wouldn’t understand 33) things you said at the back of the theatre 34) things you said in your sleep 35) things you said that made me feel real 36) things you said you’ll never forget 37) things you said with the tv on mute 38)things you said while holding my hand’ 39) things you said when we first met 40) things you said when you met my parents 41) things you said you loved about me 42) things you said when you asked me to marry you 43) things you said in our vows 44) things you said before you kissed me 45) things you said on new year’s eve 46) things you said when you kissed me goodnight 47) things you said in a hotel room 48) things you said on our honeymoon 49) things you said when we were 18 50) things you said when we were 70 51) things you said as we danced in our socks 52) things you said with my lips on your neck 53) things you said in the dark 54) things you always meant to say but never got the chance 55) things you said under your breath 56) things you said in the spur of the moment 57) things you said when no one else was around 58) things you were afraid to say 59) things you said after we fell in love 60) things you said [make your own]”

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the ones with single quotes aren’t mine, but the rest are. great story and fic prompts

reblog if you want your followers to send you a number and pairing to write a fic about

#[ prompts. ] that's right; it's a gift. you know for scaring those things away. / what things? / nevermind.#[ for the old and the numerous new. <3 ]

I’ll be finishing up my own code today both here and on iniziare, I’ve gathered the starters written for me (bless you guys <3) and have drafted memes. I’ll also finally be hopping into ask boxes later today because I’ve restrained myself from doing so until I’m done with things like code and whatnot, but Aerith will be bugging people. It’s long overdue.

#[ out of character. ] regardless of warnings; the future doesn't scare me at all. nothing's like before.#[ ... some tags need updating. RIP. ]#[ work is insanely calm today and it's quiet here so nothing should stop me. ]

Cloud Strife / sicsemper:

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐇𝐈𝐓𝐂𝐇 𝐎𝐅 𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐇 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐄𝐒, startled in the quiet ; blue eyes widening a fraction in what he feels ought to be indignant as his attention snaps to her, but feels rather more like an exposed nerve. a defense of his character is drawn in on the same. ❛ what––– ? ❜ the word is a near balk before it dies on his tongue, acrid to the taste, the moment his eyes sweep her countenance and take in the bare curl of her lips. she’s teasing him ––– again. cloud inhales deeply, and exhales it on a huff of a sigh ; lashes fluttering closed as he accepts, once again, a certain sense of resignation: shoulders dropping from where they had begun to rise in their tension, posture slumping as he lets it go ––– even if the burn of his cheeks could still be felt, predominantly cooled by the low lamplight ( or so he hoped ).

hands tighten their grip, gloved fingers curling to depress the flesh of his bicep as he considers her words. a question slowly rises from his gut to tickle the back of his throat, yet there is a tick at the corner of his clenched jaw as if to trap it behind his teeth. swallowing it back down, he shrugs one shoulder. ❛ oh, i… ❜ he considers the prospect of the night slipping through his fingers like fine grains of desert sand, only to be scattered on the wind, and comes to a comfortable place of knowing the streets of sector five would’ve known his likeness again sooner rather than later ; lips pressing into a thin line as if to keep such sentiments a secret between the teeth before he inevitably speaks. ❛ … yeah, sure. ❜

there is a moment, then, as blue eyes sweep the playground beneath them. the silence is comfortable all but for the split second it takes for him to want to grip the night between his hands and pull so that he might stretch it into eons beyond counting ; and in the back of his mind, an alarm rings that sounds like a guilty conscience reminding him that sector seven was waiting just beyond a wall practically within arm’s reach. he stifles it. ❛ the flowers, ❜ he says, gaze flickering between the swings and the tires, ❛ that you used to sell here ––– tell me about them. ❜

The warmth of a smile claims her, but it is not his verbal response that prompts it, instead, it’s the tolerance he bears her jests and challenges time and time again, it’s the permission of her in his orbit; and not only accepting her invasions but his continued tolerances of her lingering. In that, and in that truth that he sat to her side still now— lay the looming fear that the night should not count its hours for there would be too few, there would simply be too few. Because I want to stay with you, had that not been the admission she’d confided him with? But perhaps she’d been too frank, perhaps he, too, would disappear at night’s end. And yet, the thought of Cloud Strife falling fate to any absence from her, was one she actively dread before there were ever signs of it becoming a reality. And though her hands stray from the fabric of her skirt to one another instead, folding within themselves in search of comfort and touch, her smile strengthens as it always did. “Good, I know it’ll make her very happy.” She certainly told no lie, but her words had not been any more truthful in comparison.

“—Hmmm? Oh.” It seems so long ago, as if she were hardly as young as she was— but she had still been a child, with childish hopes, dreams and wishes. And yet, a childlike wonder and delight had never quite forsaken her, and the tilt of her head in his direction bears enough excitement to prove it. “Do you remember Rude, that guy with the pigeons and the sunglasses, before we went back home?” A tap of her boot to his own, as if ensuring she had any and all of his attention. “—You know, the guy whose butt you kicked? He was my very first customer!” That little addition had been a whisper amidst a barely restrained laugh, as if it were a well-kept secret between him and her. But no volume could quite hide the certain delight and pride at her bodyguard that she stole a glimpse of, before aiming her glance at the surrounding playground, calling forth a memory that was most certainly clearer than many others. “He wanted to buy some for a girl he was with, I think she was his girlfriend? Or if she wasn’t, I think he definitely wanted her to be his girlfriend.” It remains ever bright, that smile, a seemingly permanent resident now as a focus returns to him, a hand’s thumb brushing over the open palm of the other absent-mindedly. And for once, she struggles to maintain the gaze and so it falters, dropping to his knee. “Any way, flowers don’t really grow anywhere else around here, so I was told that I should sell them, so I tried it for a while.”

#[ in character. ] what will we find on the other side? / freedom. boundless; terrifying freedom. like a great never-ending sky.#[ v: vii / remake. ] if we succeed we'll be changing more than fate itself; we'll be changing ourselves. i guess that's why i hesitated.#militus #[ do you recall how often i said 'fuck you' out loud in response to what you'd written me 8 eons ago in your reply? ]#[ (listen i'll be the very first to call myself out-- okay; the second. because i need you to do it first). ]#[ i won't ask for your forgiveness; i will simply say that writing this has had me miss them even more than i did with us talking. ]#[ and i hope it gives you some extra serotonin. <3 ]

When certain bits in the Ultimania about Aerith give me infinitely more food for thought to get the gears going, and then also transforms the resolution scene entirely. It’s not a dream. It’s not a dream.

#[ out of character. ] regardless of warnings; the future doesn't scare me at all. nothing's like before.#[ getting to this a little late i know but-- ]#[ this is why i've been so hesitant to say anything more than... ]#[ 'she knows more than she thinks she knows but doesn't exactly always know just how much.' ]#[ because man-- they give us hints but never quite give us enough to form a proper conclusion. ]#[ i've been so hesitant; but this allows me some leeway. ]#[ so the resolution scene is not a dream sequence; it's real. it's an astral projection of some kind which means... ]#[ it's either OG aerith of sorts or even arguably AC aerith. /or/ this is something linked to the cetra. ]#[ but i've always been cautious with the 'overpowering' of aerith that i've seen some theories fall into. ]#[ like we know she's inherently and thoroughly in connection with the planet post-death; that one's made rather obvious. ]#[ especially if you put a fair bit of weight to the overall arcs in advent children. ]#[ but it's pre-death that's the puzzle. ]#[ is she in direct connection to the lifestream? or to the planet? ]#[ both? ]#[ yes; no? i don't think it's so black and white. she's a cetra-- so obviously there is /a/ connection but one needs to question how much. ]#[ don't mind me; i'm going to dive headfirst into the cetra now. ]

wutaiiwarrior:

“mhmm yeah, but like? it aint that bad.” well, she supposes that it at least couldn’t possibly be any worse. “at least it aint raining!” speaking of….yuffie definitely doesn’t take a deceptively obvious sniff at the air all while giving the sky itself one heavy, ‘ i dare you ’ kind of looks before leaning forward to rummage through her pack. a second ticks, & she’s back up. pulling free some bread. one of which she holds aloft for the flower peddler. “hey.” the tone is soft now. hesitant in a way it rarely is. “tell me about the slums? what’s it like?” is it anything like home is what she wants to ask, but never says. & sure, she’s seen a bit for herself, but — but that was never the same as living it.

“Oh— thanks!” She picked at it rather immediately, some would say out of courtesy, but others would argue she’d done so perhaps too quickly, as if she were unsure what to do in the position she’d, in usual circumstance, offered to others. And so when her hand lowered, a smile formed to frame a simple utterance, delight inhabiting the tone of her voice far and true. “They’re not so bad.”

She’d stopped facing her upon the slow and absent-minded twirl on the tips of her toes that returned her to the thoughts that’d often seemed to claim her. The serenity she felt amidst these ruined and dusty pathways, however plagued with rubble and broken memories as they were; she saw beyond that Passion, hope, the will to rebuild something greater, something of life heart, something of heart: something that was already there but so many likely would never see— but did anyone ever see what she saw? “I actually wouldn’t want to live anywhere else. Frankly, the thought of it scares me.” Amidst strands of brown that’d brushed her cheek at the sight of wind, her smile grew ever brighter, as if she were joined by fond memories as she spoke. “Yeah, so they may not look like much, but they’re our home, and they’ve come a long way— and further to go still!” At that, a little peek over her shoulder returned her focus to her company. “But I knew you weren’t from here, I never forget a face!”

#[ in character. ] what will we find on the other side? / freedom. boundless; terrifying freedom. like a great never-ending sky.#[ v: vii / remake. ] if we succeed we'll be changing more than fate itself; we'll be changing ourselves. i guess that's why i hesitated.#wutaiiwarrior #[ i know i took forever to respond to this-- but it was one of the first things i wanted to respond to after my return. ]#[ it'd been long since decided. ]#[ because i went through our dms and your excitement thrilled me and i reread this and got all excited again too. ]#[ thank you for writing this up for me! <3 ]#[ also-- we totally need to do a KH thing. i crave and need. ]#[ also i'm sorry-- i got slightly carried away! ]

iniziare:

Hello, hello, I’ve not gone anywhere— I am right here, I’m catching up on DMs on both Discord and Tumblr, notifications, activity as a whole and I’m updating my blog as to prepare it for proper activity again. Life has been stressful, I’ve been immensely tired and stuff is now calming down and looking up, so I think I can slowly incorporate Tumblr back into my routine (I’ve been missing it very sorely lately), so please, bear with me a little longer still as I fix up the mess that my presence on Tumblr and find my footing again. <3

#[ out of character. ] regardless of warnings; the future doesn't scare me at all. nothing's like before.#[ announcements / psa. ] then you talk; tell me a story. / not for free. / cheapskate. oh--! gotcha! / you're killing me here.#[ forgot to reblog this here the other day-- but i'm working on it! you'll see me resurface very soon. ]

𝐖𝐇𝐀𝐓 𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 𝐃𝐎 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐄𝐌𝐁𝐎𝐃𝐘 ?

Love as light

[ Love as a luminous force—warm, radiant, and golden ] When Mary Oliver wrote "Light of the world hold me” and when Charles Bukowski said “I look at her and light goes all through me” and when David Viscott said “To love and be loved is to feel the sun from both sides” and when E. E. Cummings said “Lovers alone wear sunlight.”

Tagged by: @lionfated (You were like, the very first time I tag Sae in aaaaanything, it’ll be this kind of painful thing; I see how it is Lucian <3), and @militus you cheat always, why drag me down into the abyss of Clerith with you; I never asked for this Tagging: Like the others noted, steal it! But also: @inventorem, @aicidos (Tifa!), @dcwnseeker (pick your poiiison!), both @finiarcl (Terra) and @lighthouseborn, @wutaiiwarrior, @trickstercaptain

#[ various. ] dangerous place for kids to play. / raised in the slums; remember? / you're tough. / hmm; that supposed to be a compliment?#[ relevance. ] don't just... run off on your own. / those the words of a soldier candidate? / so petty!#[ so here's an admission and it's odd to make this kind of admission considering the kind of person i am. ]#[ i sat here the other day and i was chatting with mika about ships and square enix and how i feel about clerith. ]#[ and i say i talk clerith very specifically because it's the only way that i know how to talk about them. ]#[ i talk about /them/. but i don't always talk about... her. not beyond a certain point. ]#[ i can talk about what cloud is and means and embodies for aerith; but when it comes to how she expresses what she feels... ]#[ in a setting that is beyond what we've seen? ]#[ in a 'we're finally here' kind of setting? it becomes difficult. ]#[ am i making sense? ]#[ i'm always so very much about the 'pre' phase of falling in love because it's there where you find those tidbits that... ]#[ create the foundation. it's the phase before anything settles. it's the excitement but also the complication. ]#[ it's the time that i'm feral about as a person but also as a writer because... ]#[ /clenches fist and internalises everything before i ramble for 30 pages because this is why i've loved a past muse as well. ]#[ in terms of 'stages' of love. because vastly different beyond that. ]#[ any way. IT'S ABOUT SO MANY THINGS that i want to talk about but also don't quite. ]#[ any way-- ]#[ but i can still envision the 'what is it like when this love enters the phase of 'out in the open' and... dare i say; settled? ]#[ i can envision that. but with aerith i almost... can't. ]#[ and it has nothing to do with her fate or anything. it's this concept where... she's so warm. she's so in people's faces and caring... ]#[ and wanting to do what's right. that's where her love is; for people and for the planet. ]#[ and it's in everything she does. ]#[ i see people speak of headcanons of intimacy and of love and how their muses are with their significant others. ]#[ and it's the first time that i've had a muse where i'm so invested in a ship and i analyze it so very much-- ]#[ but i can't tell you in long coherent details what she'd be like. ]#[ what she'd do. what she'd say. ]#[ does that make sense at all? ]#[ i talked about this the other day too; it's not a concept of 'i don't know' or am missing something. ]#[ it's that some characters are involved in something so intimate and intense on a level that is spiritual... ]#[ on the level of one's soul rather than one's heart. ]

saintuaire:

I get linked to anything Kingdom Hearts and things go wrong for me emotionally. All that happened is this in the first three seconds and I felt things. And it’s nothing even inherently special or even semi-emotional but it’s like the music and Sora and it’s the recipe that my heart needs to make me even slightly sob. Why am I an emotional wreck over Kingdom Hearts.

I’m officially putting @finiarcl / @lighthouseborn up for adoption even though I never adopted her myself in the first place. How dare you do this to me, making me see Chip and Dale’s be cute and ‘it’s all about the friends we meet along the way’ and then YOU SHOW ME @#$%^ing TERRA AS IF THAT’S OKAY?!

#[ out of character. ] regardless of warnings; the future doesn't scare me at all. nothing's like before.#[ i cannot run two solo blogs. i can't. i cannot do it. ]#[ firefox: yes you can; you have the perfect extension for it. ]#[ i shouldn't. ]#[ BUT KINGDOM HEARTS. I'VE LISTENED TO SIMPLE AND CLEAN FOR 8 HOURS. ]#[ also to new followers-- i swear i'm not a crazy person. i'm just stupidly passionate sometimes. [#[ so passionate that i use the wrong parentheses. that's okay. ]#[ >:( ]

#[ out of character. ] regardless of warnings; the future doesn't scare me at all. nothing's like before.#[ i have tears in my eyes it's fine. i'm a 32 year old woman with a heart and i feel things and it's okay. ]#[ i'll just have a casual little cry over sora and the friends he makes along the way it's fine. ]

emy-san

saintuaire

emy-san:

Flowers.

Happy Birthday Aerith 🌸

#[ visage. ] hey get outta the way! quit gawking! move it; move it. clear the road! -- … ma'am.#[ i got linked to this by lighthouseborn (love love and recommend) out of the total blue which was very rude but i also loved. ]#[ emy's work is all over my pinterest and also all over my likes (my apologies for having liked... i feel like 60+ things in an hour. ]#[ but i always feel my heart warming a little whenever i see something new that is either entirely aerith or has her in it. ]#[ i genuinely haven't fallen so in love with a female character in an age and a half mostly because i've written so many female muses... ]#[ that something has to stand out a fair bit for me to find the intrigue again. perhaps i'm extra picky on them because i also am a woman. ]#[ and i personally enjoy writing characters that are very far removed from myself simply for the ability to learn to understand... ]#[ what i don't personally feel/experience/understand. ]#[ and aerith came along and while of course there's aspects to her that i thoroughly understand... ]#[ there's a lot about her that is so foreign to me but i /love/ delving into that because i think those challenges make us grow as writers.#[ but also as people. ]#[ it's the ezio/francis/jace process all over again already. ]#[ but any way; i'm getting off-topic a bit. ]#[ i'm reblogging this late for her birthday but i'm not just reblogging it for her birthday. ]#[ i'm reblogging it for the absolutely gorgeous style of art. i'm reblogging it because it's so inherently /aerith/. ]#[ it's so incredibly girly; /feminine/. it's so light; so warm and so all-enveloping which is everything that aerith is. ]#[ and every time i read these things; these words i use to describe her; i think and look at her name. ]#[ aerith. aeris. earisu. air-- earth. wind. light. ]#[ square enix; in aerith i think you've written one hell of a character that i think will go down in the gaming history books. ]#[ she already has but with the remake; you'll set this in stone even more and i cannot describe my gratitude. ]#[ because she's exquisite. ]

naughtyandnicerpmemes

Reblog if I’m allowed to send you in character asks even if we have never talked before.

#[ announcements / psa. ] then you talk; tell me a story. / not for free. / cheapskate. oh--! gotcha! / you're killing me here.#[ always. i know i'm prone to randomly messaging people about anything from serious plots to gossip about chocolate. ]#[ but not everyone is. so even if we've never once spoken; never hesitate in any capacity. my askbox is open always to everyone. ]#[ and if anything; if we're mutuals-- i'll be thrilled because i'm seeking interaction always. ]

As I’m going to be back/forth between my drafts and setting up the navigation, I’m going to be very slow and Tumblr’s IM system and I are not buds by any means; so if we’re mutuals and you want to be able to properly poke me, hit me up on Discord, just let me know who you are when adding! Sae#3614

#[ out of character. ] regardless of warnings; the future doesn't scare me at all. nothing's like before.

When Spotify randomly starts playing Simple and Clean without any kind of warning whatsoever while I’m preparing myself a big ‘ole mug of tea— and not only am I (now that I’ve gone through most of Kingdom Hearts in such a short span of time) overcome by a ridiculous amount of emotion, but I’m also here like, ‘this, this has to be my OOC tag’, this or something from Sanctuary for obvious URL reasons. So guess what I’ll be doing in a minute. Sorry Mandy, I love your quotes but I need Utada for my tags.

#[ out of character. ] regardless of warnings; the future doesn't scare me at all. nothing's like before.

Tag drop: part 2.

#[ cloud strife. ] you gonna be okay getting home? / and if i said i wasn't? / i'll go with you. / i thought you needed to get back?#[ clerith. ] no matter how far away you are… once you find your light; I'm sure it will lead you back here again; right?#[ zack fair. ] okay; i'll come visit. this is a promise. / i'll be waiting.#[ elmyra gainsborough. ] i always knew that one day i'd have to say goodbye to my baby girl. but not yet. please; bring her back to me.#[ ifalna. ] this room... looks exactly the same. every morning; they'd come and take my mom away. i remember crying here alone.#[ tifa lockhart. ] i'm sorry. i can't stay here. i have to help them. / go; tifa. follow your heart.#[ barret wallace. ] remember that nice girl who found you? when we bring her home. you need to say thank you okay?#[ marlene wallace. ] you smell nice. / oh? / like... like our flower! / i hope you remember it.#[ red xiii / nanaki. ] stop. this child's a friend.#[ tseng. ] before you say another word; know that your options are limited. / how about... we make a deal?#[ reno. ] bodyguard huh? you know i'm hers too right? / since when? this is the first time i've heard of it. / classified op; princess.#[ rude. ] hello aerith. / what do you want? / haven't seen him before. he your new boy toy?#[ sephiroth. ] you're wrong. / those who look with clouded eyes see nothing but shadows. / everything about you is wrong.#[ v: vii / youth. ] but aerith... even when you're all alone; don't you hear voices whispering secrets?#[ v: vii / crisis core. ] you know a long time ago; i used to sell flowers here.#[ v: vii / remake. ] if we succeed we'll be changing more than fate itself; we'll be changing ourselves. i guess that's why i hesitated.#[ v: vii / original. ] i'll be going now. i'll come back when it's all over.#[ v: vii / advent children. ] dilly dally; shilly shally. Isn't it time you did the forgiving?#[ v: vii / post-advent children. ] why does everyone keep calling me their mother lately?#[ v: kingdom hearts. ] please don't let the worlds disappear. please let him be safe. she prayed for the worlds. for sora… and for him.#[ v: vii / intermission. ] where's a roof when you need one? / gonna be okay? / should be but… weird. my stomach's in knots.

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