Delusional Posts

my delusion that I believe actually should have been canon she/her #S3&4 denier

[sakanayasan414]

Call me Sakana:)

I am over 18 so you don’t have to censor anything.

I talk about Victorian Husbands/Johnlock from ACD Holmes, BBC Sherlock, Granada Holmes, Sherlock & co (spoiler alert!), Sherlock Hound, and Hilson from House MD.

When I say “Holmes” and “Watson”, I usually mean ACD Holmes and Granada Holmes or their adjacent and when I say “John” and “Sherlock”, I usually mean them in BBC or Sherlock & co.

Positive interactions are always welcome so please comment or reblog with tags and comments (and I will be responding to all of them because I don’t know when to stfu). I love seeing this fandom alive and well after all these years:)

Not much going on, but if you agree with my delusion and stay, I’d be happy!

[sakanayasan414]

I kind of don’t want azicrow to remember their past because if they did, the billion years were eternity and 50 years (if lucky) are so so short

[sakanayasan414]

I’m so sorry but I’m still not over the ending of GO s3. Yk what not even just the ending. EVERYTHING. It felt so rushed (thanks to NG for ruining Terry’s work btw). Jesus could’ve had bigger role. Muriel could’ve been actually explored. I hate that this is the ending we get. I hate that this is goodbye with our angel and demon.

[sakanayasan414]

I don’t know if I’ve mentioned this before but I have BRIGHT pink hair. Like you would never see this in Japan outside of Harajuku. But girl needs money and I need to do labour so I’m wearing this black hair wig to the interview. Please wish me luck.

[sakanayasan414]

I found them on Twitter and it deeply scares me. To think the production team still thinks queer kiss is a taboo.

[sakanayasan414]

I don’t know why everyone is so calm and sane while I go crazy. What do you mean they forgot everything??? What??? Did we watch s1 and s2 for nothing?? Neil and the production team absolutely destroyed Terry’s work coz this ain’t it. I only loved good omens for Terry. Not for Neil. I hate you.

[sakanayasan414]

Crowley doesnt know that he created the stars he loved so much. He doesn’t know why Azi’s favourite colour is yellow. They don’t remember Ritz. I don’t care how “happy” they are in human forms. I hate the ending. They deserved a better ending than “oh in another universe”. And we deserved better endings than “gays are happy in another universe”. We deserved representation of healthy queer relationships.

[sakanayasan414]

Just a little thing I made during the pandemic to make my followers watch good omens.

[sakanayasan414]

Anyways can I talk about antichrist x Jesus yaoi??? That was the best thing that happened in the season. Excellent use of free will. I can’t wait to see all the hate from the Christians.

[sakanayasan414]

I’m going into a psychosis thinking about the lost memory of 6000 years. I need a fic where Crowley remembers everything thinking azi doesn’t know anything and just dies in agony. And azi is thinking the same but instead of being sad that Crowley doesn’t remember it, he’s just happily waiting for Crowley to remember coz waiting for a few years is so much better than 6000 years

[sakanayasan414]

I’m sorry but what was the abomination??? The ending??? What???? They wanted to be together for 6000 years and now they get a few decades together without memories of those 6000 years??? Hello??? Hello??? Why can the gays be happy in their universe? Why does it have to be in “other universe”?? Is it so hard for them to be happy in their own skin???

[patchwork7987]

And people are saying this is their happy universe as if it wasn't out of character. Yea, in this season they suddenly wanted to die and give everything to earth, but crowley constantly wanted to run away with Az and abandon it, Az wanted to fix earth, as he literally said this season, for him and Crowley as well. Neither of them wanted to die and leave eachother, I don't care how many fans do their weird "well its what they wanted and you're asking to much and you're whiny and stupid so you should stop complaining and keep eating your slop".

Every gay media shouldn't have to end in some bs like "in another universe", and we shouldn't have to just accept it because its "what they wanted" (it really wasn't, if you asked crowley in s1 or s2 if he'd kill aziraphale for the sake of earth he'd have said no).

[sakanayasan414]

YES YES YES EXACTLY

Gay ships deserve to be happy in their own universe!!! Crowley deserves an apology from Aziraphale. They deserve an actual ending!!! The whole episode felt like bad written fan fiction (if it was fan fiction I’d prob love it coz I’m a sucker for happy ending BUT canon can’t be that way plzzzzzzz). It also felt sooo rushed (coz it prob was fuck NG) and we deserve better epilogues than this after waiting for YEARS.

[ponkydraws]

Anyone else grow up with Geografens testamente? No?

[sakanayasan414]

I’m sorry but what was the abomination??? The ending??? What???? They wanted to be together for 6000 years and now they get a few decades together without memories of those 6000 years??? Hello??? Hello??? Why can the gays be happy in their universe? Why does it have to be in “other universe”?? Is it so hard for them to be happy in their own skin???

[ponkydraws]

Love you moot but they got what they wanted :,) more importantly they got to live without any anxiety or pain related to the systems that had kept them captive for the past 6000 years. They got their happy ending the way they wanted it

[sakanayasan414]

Yes I know darling but like they forgot EVERYTHING. They’ve never EXISTED. NOTHING. I’m devastated.

[sakanayasan414]

What’s my favourite Harry Potter trope? Hmm probably au where everyone is alive and happy and gets along with each other because I’m still a 5 year old who believes in happy ending. I am childish I know I can’t be saved.

[sakanayasan414]

I’m sorry but what was the abomination??? The ending??? What???? They wanted to be together for 6000 years and now they get a few decades together without memories of those 6000 years??? Hello??? Hello??? Why can the gays be happy in their universe? Why does it have to be in “other universe”?? Is it so hard for them to be happy in their own skin???

[sakanayasan414]

Seeing queer romances made me realise how much representation matters. Growing up in Asia, healthy gay relationships in big media weren’t really a thing (yaoi exists but it’s not quite a healthy relationship nor real one and yuri was mainly catered towards men who fetishize lesbian relationships) and it didn’t help me to try to discover my sexuality and everything. I don’t think my brain even registered tha being gay is an option. My parents are relatively progressive and supportive but not having seen the examples of queer relationships, I couldn’t imagine myself being in one. All the shows and movies I was obsessed with turned out to be queer baiting (Johnlock, AshEiji, Janis, Sparia etc.) it really messed with my brain. I don’t know where I wanted to land but my point is that I hope Gen Alpha grow up with every representation you can think of and be woke and accepting unlike the homophobic Gen Z.

[sakanayasan414]

I know I can’t be complaining about being in a med school because I’m extremely privileged and living the life that many people only dream of. But I sometimes think about what my life could’ve been if I hadn’t given up on the dream of becoming a writer. If I could re-live the time I read Sherlock Holmes for the first time, I don’t know what I would do. If I could re-live the time I touched the writer’s soul. If I could re-live the time I experienced things I would never have in real life. If I could give the life of devoting my time for the passion and dream a chance. I wonder if I had made a mistake.