I Can't Live Like This

[under-the-masks]

It fucks me up to know that you woke up next to someone that’s not me

[salem-cursing]

My partner always makes me eat, and she’s given me loads of chocolate and ice cream lately. I look disgusting. 

What’s a good calorie limit to lose this excess weight really fast, without drawing too much attention??

[salem-cursing]

I looked in the mirror today and cried. I was making progress a few months ago, and now I’ve lost that control. This is horrendous.

[salem-cursing]

I really want my 2 months of binging to come to an end ;-;

I didn’t plan this but everyone around me is forcing me to eat

[salem-cursing]

I’m actually panicking

HOW THE FUCK HAVE I GAINED WEIGHT?? 

I was losing weight, restricting whenever I could, I was seeing a difference and for once, I was happy! I just wanted to look nice, for myself and my partner (whom I haven’t seen in ages), and not feel fat! Was that really too much to ask?? 

I had a whole outfit planned out, I was gonna push past my Body Dysmorphia and actually live, for once! Instead, now I’m crying in front of the mirror, wondering why my body has to be so disgusting.

I hate this. I hate it so much.

[salem-cursing]

Okay, so I failed yesterday and today. My mother made me eat, and all I want to do is throw up (I can’t)

I’m meeting my partner tomorrow, and I wanted to look thinner for her ;-;

[lowcalzombie-deactivated2022041]

not me having my fifth mental breakdown of the week over being ugly

[salem-cursing]

Day 2 of only eating so I can take my vitamins (small banana or piece of melon)

[the-rewritten-stars]

If you make fun of

1) what I’m eating 2) how much I’m eating Or 3) how I’m eating

Chances are I won’t eat for about a week after so thank you for that

[salem-cursing]

I want to slice off my face :))

[salem-cursing]

I can’t always stop myself from eating at night, and that makes me feel so guilty, like I’m letting my ed down

[salem-cursing]

Man, I hate being fat. I just wanna eat junk, but I can’t because I need to reach my goal weight

[salem-cursing]

That awful feeling when you fit back into your clothes yesterday so you rewarded yourself with 500 calories (first meal of the day - 11pm), but now you feel like you put on 10lb overnight 

[bddiaries]

What’s it like to be beautiful? What’s it like to look in the mirror and know you’re attractive? Seriously what does that feel like? What’s it like to like your appearance and know that everyone else does too? What’s it like to have people always be nice to you? Go out of their way to do things for you?? 

[makerstyle07]

I don’t judge other people by their weight and yet I feel like I need to be skinny to be the best. 

[salem-cursing]

It sucks having Body Dysmorphia when the only compliments you receive are from family or people who’ve never met you in person.

*sigh*