- im literally at 4th grade level math so im basically failing my gr11 ib functions class soooooooo i need to get good at algebra in under 24 hrs !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (pls kill me)
- i have to read a super boring book for eng and write notes and annotate and shit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 (pls kill me)
- psych !! exam !! in a year !! but !! i need to study !! NOW !!
- do my nails which is atm number one priority hehe bcuz #priorities
- organize my spotify playlists bcuz rn its so messy it gives me rlly bad anxiety !!
today has been exceptionally shitty <3 lately ive been getting way too many panic attacks like y ????? my anxiety has always been bad but i only get panic attacks like once a year but it's only 2PM and ive already had two !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mental health is deteriorating rn :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
also this is the song im obsessed w today or lately listening to it as i type this at exactly 2:30PM
- im literally at 4th grade level math so im basically failing my gr11 ib functions class soooooooo i need to get good at algebra in under 24 hrs !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (pls kill me)
- i have to read a super boring book for eng and write notes and annotate and shit !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 (pls kill me)
- psych !! exam !! in a year !! but !! i need to study !! NOW !!
- do my nails which is atm number one priority hehe bcuz #priorities
- organize my spotify playlists bcuz rn its so messy it gives me rlly bad anxiety !!
today has been exceptionally shitty <3 lately ive been getting way too many panic attacks like y ????? my anxiety has always been bad but i only get panic attacks like once a year but it's only 2PM and ive already had two !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! mental health is deteriorating rn :))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))))
also this is the song im obsessed w today or lately listening to it as i type this at exactly 2:30PM
please make sure that wherever you’re at in life, you don’t treat it like a transitory period. don’t waste your college years wishing to already be graduated & have a job. don’t waste your single years wishing for someone to be in love with. if/when those things come, they will come in due time and they will be good. but there is nothing like looking back and feeling empty because you wasted literal years ignoring what you had because you were hoping for something better. while it’s important to better yourself and reach for your goals, don’t neglect the present because that’s where you are now and it’s your now that determines your future.
nothing wrong with being easy to please! give all the books you read five stars. watch that movie again after people tell you that it wasn’t that great. play that band’s new album on repeat, even though it’s not supposed to be as good as their old stuff. refuse to say anything critical about something you thought was cool. be bold in telling grumpy people “actually i liked it a lot!”
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is the world really such a terrible place? yesterday i asked if oat milk was extra and the barista said yes so i said ok just regular milk then and when she gave me my chai latte she whispered “i used oat milk ;)” doesnt that make u want to live another day?
If you want your skin to be able to keep up with your weight loss, you HAVE to exercise. Especially if you are dropping weight fast.
So the tip is: do your CARDIO in the MORNING and your STRENGTH TRAINING in the AFTERNOON. (Especially if you’re a girl idk why but apparently our bodies burn fat better this way).
The reason: exercising first thing in the morning, before breakfast (if you have one at all) and just after an ice-cold glass of water burns MORE calories and gets your body into a fat/calorie burning mood. Therefore CARDIO is the thing to do here.
In the afternoon your weight training (this is VERY important to look skinny-toned instead of skinny-fat) will be more efficient. I don’t remember why, I read it somewhere and I just know for me it HAS worked. Also, for those who had/have quite a few pounds to lose, this is the way to avoid skin rolls and fat.
I’ve been doing this for a while so I’ve decided to share a few things I’m doing through. There are both positive and negative points and I don’t want anyone to feel motivated to start because of me This is simply to record this experience.
I used to feel bad about thinspo, manly because I didn’t look like those people and desperately wanted to. Now when I look at it I feel somewhat inspired to go on.
I’m worried about going too far and becoming one those people who sees a picture of a girl who is nothing but bones and actually believes that is healthy and/or acceptable
I can do more with my body without the extra weight holding me down. I run faster, jump higher and feel like I’m stronger than before.
I feel cold. Always. Whenever the temperature drops, I can feel it. My blood pressure is also lower, so sometimes I feel lightheaded and/or nauseous
I can fit into places. I don’t have to dodge people in doorways or on the street, I slip right through without effort.
Mah hands. So pretty, so delicate. Before, people used to comment on my nails, how they’re always nice etc. But I always had chubby fingers. Now people constantly tell me how my hands are beautiful and “elegant”
I can buy anything I want. There’s no more of “will it fit me tho?”. Basically all the clothes look good, which also motivated me to try different styles.
I spent more money on clothes lately because my old ones didn’t fit anymore.
I’m dating more. I used to stay at home and never do anything. Now I go to parties and have been with a few people , so I’m enjoying this a lot.
Overall, how people are nicer to me. Don’t know how, but I’ve noticed how I’m treated differently now that I look good and in shape. People smile more and give me freebies at diners and shops.
Something important keep in mind is:
It’s working because I don’t obsess over it.
I don’t count calories
I don’t avoid eating junk food and
I do not purge. Ever.
But how, then?
I drink A LOT of water. Always have a bottle on me. Always sippin
I eat twice a day. EVERYDAY. The secret? Eat a regular portion of food but with a shitload of salad on it. Avoid anything fried/industrial, and DONT DRINK DURING MEALS. Btw, I’m vegetarian, so no meat.
Exercise like a hoe. But I don’t go to the gym cause I’m poor. So, I walk a lot everyday (about 12km) and also run when I can and do yoga. I mostly use the Nike Training Club app and it’s awesome. My stomach is flat so now the six pack is coming through
Eat once or twice between meals. But again nothing industrial so fruit, grains and if I really crave something I make it myself so I can make sure it’s healthy.
Now, the absolute nail in the coffin: vitamins. Be smart about it, do some research to find the healthiest choice. Also, use your brain and don’t fall into those scams on Instagram. It doesn’t work.
Why the vitamins? Well, my hair looks great, and also my skin. My nails are strong af and I don’t “look sick” or “feel weak” throughout the day.
NO appetite suppressants. They don’t really work and will wreck your body
So, why do you do things differently?
Cause I’m a smart bitch and y’all should be too.
I know I can only push my body so far before it breaks down and takes me with it. I wanna enjoy being skinny, ya know? I wanna live and be pretty and feel good about myself. I wanna look like a model and smile and take pics and go places and meet people. I wanna live.
Also, I’m a biology student so I KNOW the science behind all of it. I know how much it destroys your body.
I’ve studied real corpses and body parts and cells and the whole process of metabolism. I know shit, not because I saw it on a blog and believed it. But because I did actual research and read books on this whole thing.
The catch?
What I do still isn’t healthy. Really. I still get lightheaded and starve myself. I know it’s doing awful things to my body.
And why do I keep doing it?
Cause I’d rather do minimal damage to myself than be completely destructive. That’s all.
This book, which is about 800 pages long, is one of the best pieces of literature I have ever read. It follows four friends after they move to New York City and pursue their goals, but most of the story focuses on one of the men: Jude St. Francis, who has a mysterious past that has wrecked him emotionally and physically. But despite the darkness of the subject matter (and it gets DARK) the acts of love and kindness and friendship from the people in Jude’s life will bring you to tears. It’s a gorgeous study of trauma, human relationships, and the marriage of joy and pain that inevitably comes with living. I read it two months ago and have thought about it every day since. It’s one of those books you want everyone to read and no one to read. (DEFINITELY check out the trigger warnings for this one.)
The Traitor Baru Cormorant, by Seth Dickinson
This book is a sprawling political fantasy, packed with detail and diversity and some of the best, most complex worldbuilding I’ve ever seen. Baru grows up under the shadow of imperialism and eventually joins a rebellion to break free of the empire that has begun to take over the world. She’s also a lesbian, which is forbidden in the new empire, but against herself is drawn to the enigmatic Duchess Tain Hu. There are devastating twists, loves, and heartbreaks that will break your heart along with Baru’s. To say anything else would be a spoiler, but if you like complex, morally ambiguous fantasy, check this one out.
As Meat Loves Salt, by Maria McCan
This book follows a man named Jacob as he slowly falls in love with a fellow soldier during the seventeenth century English Revolution. After the war, they attempt to establish a utopian farming commune and keep their relationship together. This book is a really interesting foray into 17th century England, but it is ultimately a dark, passionate tale of obsession and vindication that will leave you as sick with the actions of the protagonist as he is with himself.
The People in the Trees, by Hanya Yanagihara
This book is written as a memoir of a disgraced scientist, who discovers a hidden tribe in a small Pacific island that he believes holds the key to a longer (and even immortal) life. You almost forget that the events of the book are fiction and not a real memoir–everything described seems meticulously researched and vividly real. As always, Yanagihara’s writing is gorgeous, absorbing, and well-paced. It’s a haunting tale of how science, hubris, and greed can lead to someone’s personal downfall, as well as colonialism and cultural genocide.
The Goldfinch, by Donna Tartt
You might have already heard of this one, but I had to put it on the list anyway! After a traumatic accident kills Theo Decker’s mother, his life is thrown into turbulence and eventual crime, all stemming from a stolen painting. The story is tense, beautifully written, and will make you root for yet another morally gray narrator. For fans of dark thrillers, art history, homoerotic friendship, and/or coming-of-age stories, this one is for you.
Daytripper, by Fàbio Moon and Gabriel Bà
Although Daytripper is a graphic novel, it deserves a spot on this list. It follows Bràs, a Brazilian writer, and his journey through specific turning points in his life, each represented as a “death.” The art is gorgeous and the story flows impeccably, capturing the beautiful mundanities and joys of life. This book will leave you touched, inspired, and deeply affected.
The Vintner’s Luck, by Elizabeth Knox
After a vintner saves his life, an angel named Xas visits him every year for a single night. As the vintner grows, so does their relationship, just like a fine vintage. It’s difficult to say too much about the plot without spoiling the story, but I can say that this book explores the nuances of human relationships and the love we feel for each other, as well as the hate and fear that can pervade those relationships.
Beloved, by Toni Morrison
Toni Morrison is one of the greatest American novelists and Beloved is my favorite of her works. The book follows Sethe, an ex-slave, and her daughter Denver as they reckon with a ghost from Sethe’s past that begins to haunt them more literally than metaphorically. The story is both captivating and difficult to read, but Morrison’s writing is gorgeous and the characters come to life on the page. It superbly explores the depth of trauma and motherhood, as well as depicting the horrors of slavery in a way that doesn’t feel cartoonish or exploitative.
Everything I Never Told You, by Celeste Ng
Celeste Ng’s work has gotten a lot of hype recently, and for good reason. This book follows a family after the middle child, Lydia, drowns. We see the buildup to Lydia’s death and its brutal aftermath, as relationships are challenged within the family. It’s a brilliant look at familial dysfunction, generational curses, and interracial marriage in 1970s America, and a deeply haunting portrayal of how these issues can tear apart a family.
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