You snap at me and get hurt when I'm blunt, so I soften how I talk to you.
You want to spoil me so you make these notdates, which I try my best to make sure you don't feel are one sided.
You want space, so I give it to you. You come find me when things are going wrong in your life and you're scared. You panic when you don't know if I'm okay. You worry I've blocked you.
You say you don't think you're deserving of love so I show you as much love as I can give a friend right now, you seem to want it and appreciate it.
You say you feel like I can ruin your life and you don't want to be my friend, then post I'm socially inept and have very very strong feelings for you and I won't back tf off no matter what despite you never communicating that to me.
You are the one with the feelings, but you need to paint me in some kind of light and lie to yourself and those around you. If the worst thing that could happen is a friend caring about you, I envy you. Next time, use your words to communicate. This is all on you and your need to escape anything real or good in your life.
