Wrapped issues { Zisam }
zitao-ia:
It was something that had started in early childhood and never really left or changed. No matter what Emilia did or was she would always be someone Zitao admired and saw as a rolemodel. She was the strongest person he knew and ever would know but she was also soft in other ways, ways she usually did not show anyone. He loved her and he loved to hate her as well whenever she showed some extreme cruelty. He hummed about it before Samuel continued on a road that was very dangerous.
Zitao’s dark eyes returned to the lighter ones of the drama-teacher. “She would never stay here indefinitely.” The alien answered in a soft tone of voice. “Most of us don’t, we go here, we do what we came for and then we leave again. Even if we are perfectly able to live our whole lives on spaceships, nothing is the same as returning home and see the azure skies of Ixtab Prime again.” He smiled sadly at Samual as he shrugged and looked at his hands. “Jamie and Emilia will leave when her mission is completed.”
Which implied…
He scratched the label off his drink as he frowned slightly. “I don’t know when, she has never been really open about it to me or Jamie, as far as I know. Well, it is because I am a traitor and Jamie is sleeping with a traitor I suppose. I don’t know why she came to Earth or why she is staying. I have no idea what her mission is aside from the usual. Kidnapping, information collection, annoying the Naum, the usual.”
Kidnapping. He could do it, he thought as he looked up at the handsome man again. He did not think he would ever lose the unique skillset that came with being an Ixtab, to lift someone from their bed without them noticing it, only to have them open their eyes when it was too late. When escape was no longer an option and the only thing they could hope for was to be released.
What Zitao said, made him feel .. small, oddly enough. Small and insignificant and human, because these were all troubles so far out of the scale of what even Sam could imagine, that it seemed like he couldn’t give the alien any genuine comfort no matter how much he wanted to. He didn’t know how it felt to be light years away from home, much less how far that distance actually was, or to yearn for a place you could never go back to. Betraying everything Zitao had ever stood for to join up with the enemy was a problem on an entirely different level than his own days of fraud and picking up new identities. But what he did understand was the sadness mirrored in the other’s smile and it pulled him out of his chair with a soft sigh, just in time with Zitao lifting his gaze again.
Fortunately, he remained oblivious to the thoughts of kidnapping and yet a similar kind of selfishness as the one Sam himself had felt mere moments ago -- and it allowed him to cup the other’s hand, gently guiding his fingers away from where they scratched at the bottle he held, while his other arm came to rest around Zitao’s waist. “Shouldn’t have asked, huh?” A small, apologetic smile ghosted over his lips as he tilted his head a little, aiming to catch the other’s gaze again in case it drifted off. “What I do get from all this though, is that it’s out of your hands for the moment; that there’s a time and place to worry, but doing so now won’t change anything. And that you have time to figure out what you want.”
Releasing the other’s hand, he brushed two fingers over his cheek and down behind his ear, half-cupping Zitao’s neck while rubbing small circles into the soft skin there; the side of his finger scraping lightly against some of the earrings adorning him. “And for what it’s worth, I’m glad you’re here right now.” Even if the beginning of their conversation had been tense enough to suggest otherwise, which was another reason why Sam wanted to express it.












