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Colleen

Why did you stop loving me. Why does life still hurt every day. Why does seeing you make me smile but wanting you makes me cry. I love you

Feelings

Just when I thought I would be done feeling the way I have been, it suddenly started up again. I met someone new... But I can't fall in love like I love you Colleen. I know I can't tell myself you will want me again, but I always hope. I miss you Colleen Marie Murphy. I want more than anything right now to give you a hug and see if you don't crumble to tears like I know I would. I wish you would reach out to me, no matter what the reason. Just so I could pretend as if I'm ok and know I can send a simple "Merry Christmas" or "Happy Birthday" because I'm reality, I will never stop wishing I could have had one day told my children I fought hard for the love of my life and I finally showed her she and I had real love. You and I have, not had, but have real love Colleen. There's so much damage, but our worst mistakes are the ones we leave broken. Goodnight Colleen.

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It will Colleen. I love you even now.

Alone

I feel alone. I am alone. It sucks because I don't want anything but to feel you against my chest as I hold you tight. I want you to run to me and cry and I want to cry even harder the second your head touches against mine as we stare not at each other, but into each other. In this moment, it won't matter what we've done, because we will finally see the pain we are both going through. You won't be afraid of me, you'll love me for seeing the only thing I want right now is you. I won't feel betrayed by you because I will see that you do love me, but that maybe you're not ready for me to be the only one you want to love. I don't want to make love with you, I want to love you. I want to spend a day together laying in bed doing nothing but talking and crying, and I want to wake up the next day and do it all her again until we are capable of telling the world it's what we truly want. I don't know what you want, but I know what I do. I want you... Just to hold you. Nothing more. Yet I can't stop hoping you find the most amazing man there is, because you deserve it. You're the best thing to ever happen to me, but The world fucked me over only giving you to me for these 3 years... I want more. I can't stop loving you.