entropy

don't pacify me

[sappyoldsoul]

8th —

Missing you always, Forever in our hearts.

February 01

[sappyoldsoul]

"Kanunay, karon, puhon, kanimo ra ko ko mupahuway."

"Always, now, and in the days to come, in you alone, I will rest."

[sappyoldsoul]

"Kay sama ako sa balod sa lawod nga naga-atang. Dad-on unta ko ning hangin paingon sa imong lapyahan."

"Because just like the ocean waves, I long for the wind to take me to your shore."

[sappyoldsoul]

Happy Birthday, Sizzums!

Happiest Birthday to my favorite person in the world! The best ate!! I love you! 😘

[sappyoldsoul]

Tagay para sa tagumpay.

[sappyoldsoul]

I crave intimacy, surrender me your mind and body.

Pleasure me with your soul, give me your all.

[sappyoldsoul]

[sappyoldsoul]

Stay safe everyone. 🙏 ctto

[sappyoldsoul]

12am and a bit delusional

I would give anything to have what we had before, anything to have you back again. 

Just one chance to make it work. 

My fingers hovered over the keyboard of my phone, typing my bottled feelings for you that you once set aside. Contemplating whether I should send it or keep it in my draft folder along with many others, as it should be — a fleeting moment caused by my delusional self. 

Inching a finger to press send, reality bites me in the head. 

Love should be given willingly, not forcibly. I, this me right here, I wanted you to give me your love willingly. Not out of pity, not forced. 

Isn't it sad to want something the most in this world only to know in your heart that it's the most impossible thing to have? I would do anything — hell, I would trade anything just to have what we had before. Anything to have you back. 

But more.

[sappyoldsoul]

Hello bitches, I’m back.

[sappyoldsoul]

READ THIS

Please know that you are worthy and you are loved. Don't think otherwise.

[sappyoldsoul]

Can you reschedule sadness?

[sappyoldsoul]

Sad and horny: Deadly combination.

[sappyoldsoul]

I see a rope,

see a blade,

I'm holding a knife

and my mind plays a series of scenarios —

bloody hell.

But I don't do it, no I don't.

I let go of the knife

take the rope and blade

out of my sight.

I sighed, and murmured to myself;

Well I guess today's just another normal day.

[sappyoldsoul]

12:50 AM

When your house isn't home, where do you go?

[sappyoldsoul]

Bakit nararamdaman ng tao na mag isa lang sya kahit na marami namang tao ang nakapaligid sa kanya?

Siguro din kasi, kahit sa dinami-rami ng taong nakapaligid sa'yo, wala namang nakikinig sa'yo. Pakiramdam mo walang nakakaintindi sa'yo. Many will pretend to listen but only few will make an effort to understand. You can be alone and be at peace or you can be around a sea of strangers but still feel calm and happy. Thing is, if you feel like you're at home and that you belong, wherever you are and whatever situation you're in, you will feel at ease.

[sappyoldsoul]

Hello po ate! Ako po yung kausap nyo sa askfm hehe.

Hiiii! Eto ka pala hahaha. Thank you so much sa mga sinabi mo. You really made my day. Baby girl, I've read your writings and they were all nice. Keep on writing, please.