Do you have any advise on how to tell your significant other that your into this. I’ve dropped so many what If questions and they are all answered with “no I wouldn’t do that” “that’s gross” and I’m scared if I tell her she will break up with me. But I also don’t want to say anything because I feel like it will make her feel bad and do it even though she wouldn’t like it. What should I do?
I think worrying less about how to tell your partner about your kink and spending more time figuring out your own personal kink and relationship needs and boundaries is key here. Once you’re more clear on those things, the issue of how to talk to your partner about your kink should become much less difficult.
Here are 3 things that I think would be helpful to do/consider when figuring out your own needs/boundaries around this topic:
1.) Do some soul searching and get really, really honest with yourself about your needs related to your kink. I’m talking in your own personal life by yourself, as well as within your romantic relationship. You’re the only one who can figure out how much you really need to engage in kink/headspace related activities (with and/or without your partner’s involvement) to truly feel fulfilled and content. To be fair, that can be hard to figure out if you’ve had limited opportunity to actually engage in kink related activities. I find that it can also be easy to underestimate or deny how much time you actually want/need when you’re already in a relationship with someone who isn’t into the kink, but I really believe it’s important to try to put whatever relationship you’re in aside and think your needs through because getting clear on that can save you and your partner a lot of trouble and pain in the long run.
2.) Consider the potential outcomes that could result from telling your partner about your kink and decide whether you'd be okay with those outcomes or not. Here are the different general possibilities I see coming from opening up to a vanilla partner about your kink:
a.) They are not willing to accept or engage in your kink with you at all, for whatever reason. Obviously that’s not an ideal outcome, and hopefully it won’t be the case for you...but if it is, at least you can make an informed decision and move forward with your life without wasting any more time worrying about how to approach your partner about this.
b.) They accept your kink and are cool with you engaging in kink related activities without their involvement (i.e., your partner is ok with you wearing dips around them, but they don’t personally get involved in anyway).
c.) They are willing to try certain aspects of the kink with you (i.e., maybe they’re cool with reading you a bedtime story while snuggling some nights, or helping you change out of your regular clothes and into a pull-up or dip on occasion, etc). Imo, this outcome is probably the best case scenario someone in this kink could reasonably hope for within their relationship with a partner who doesn't have the same kink. I say this because I personally don't believe that you can *make* anyone have a kink that they don't have an interest in otherwise, no matter how much they may love you and/or want to be into it for you. Therefore, the best case would be to have a partner respond with an open mind and willingness to engage in your kink in whatever ways they feel comfortable (and I'd recommend taking the time to really identify and respect their boundaries around what they are comfortable with trying or not and when in order to avoid completely turning them off/overwhelming them or causing them to build up resentment towards you over time...also, hopefully you can discuss and identify meaningful ways to return the favor for them to help balance the give/take within that part of your relationship).
d.) For possibilities "b" and "c", you'll have to decide whether you are personally fulfilled with the level of involvement in your kink that you get from you partner. Think carefully about this and consider the long term...will you be content in life receiving that level of involvement for years to come, or will you always be wishing for more and feeling lonely and/or incomplete because you truly need more involvement from a romantic partner in order to feel loved and content? If you decide you need more involvement, but want to remain in your relationship with your current partner because they are just the bee’s knees in your book and the overall chemistry is great, then consider whether possibly opening up the relationship to some degree to get those needs met could work for the both of you. This is a whole different topic of course, but I felt it was worth mentioning because breaking up with your partner isn't the only option here. How realistic is the idea that one person is really going to be able to meet all your wants/needs for your whole life, anyway? We're all just imperfect humans with our own totally natural, valid needs, and sometimes loving someone else can mean accepting that you can't give them what they need...but you can give them the gift of accepting your limitations and letting them find a way to get their needs met in a way you both agree and are comfortable with.
3.) Trust your gut before talking to your partner if you have fears or reservations about sharing something like that about yourself with them-even if you can't exactly put your finger on why that is. I say that because I've been in relationships with people earlier in my life that I never shared my kink with, and even though I wasn't aware of it at the time, it's because I didn't actually trust them enough to open up and be that vulnerable with them (and that turned out to be for good reason, too). Being vulnerable with someone is certainly not easy, and it isn't something you should do with people who haven't shown you that it's safe for you to do that with them. If you find that you can't be vulnerable within your romantic relationship, then I'd encourage you to focus on why that might be and whether there might be a bigger issue at hand before trying to discuss your kink with them.
As far as general tips for talking to your partner about your kink (hopefully once you've considered the above points), I think it's important to just be honest about it. Don't try to beat around the bush or make it out to be something it's not just to try and get some level of participation from your partner while you try to figure out ways to talk them into doing more, as that can definitely backfire on you once they realize you likely had that goal in mind from the start.
Explain to your partner generally what your kink is about and what it means to you. If your partner happens to have her own kinks, maybe discussing those with her and talking about the underlying reasons she finds them appealing (i.e., underlying power play, dom/sub dynamics, exploring societal "taboos", etc) could be a good way to establish a common ground with her in order to help her understand what wearing dips or being in littlespace does for you. Be willing to discuss what things you'd like to be able to do around them with or without their participation, and give them the time and space they need to digest that information. Perhaps suggest starting out with less "hardcore" activities (like you being in a pull-up around them, watching a littlespace movie/show with you, or trying a bedtime story with them, etc) if they are willing to give some a try.
Ok, I think those are all the tips I have for you atm. Feel free to ask me follow-up questions if you have any. Otherwise, I wish you the best of luck in your relationship and in your kink life!