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So I've put on a little weight (that's what happens when you binge drink four times a week #senior), but I'm not convinced it isn't entirely in my lats. Yet, my butt somehow has shrunk. 

My current lifts are:

Bench:145, Dead: 275, Squat:??? I've been off heavy squats for probably six months now. Knees are fun. That's probably why my ass has shrank. If we trust strength standards then I am 15 pounds away from the 700 club, that's my goal by the end of the semester. 

I want to compete, but I have never even trained with someone who knows what they are talking about much less a coach. I wouldn't know where to start. 

Overall my knee is doing very well. My right quad is only about 2 cm smaller than my left. I'm trying to run 15 miles a week, but it normally ends up being about half that. With the sun I'll probably up it more.

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Sometimes I get insecure about my body

then I wear leggings to the gym and all is right with the world.

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Relationships are a lot easier if one of you is the gym.

(via shesquats)

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Doing my hair after arms and shoulders is like deciding to shotgun a beer after taking tequila shots all night. Things will be coming out of places they shouldn't and there is only pain in the foreseeable future. 

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My father just informed me that women who lift weights lose their figures. I can't even. 

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We did a yoga instructor party on Friday. Showin' off dem gains! But for real a power hour with a shot then a minute of abs then a shot is the best pregame known to man. 

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My favorite part of shoulder day is how ridiculously jacked I look after. 

[girrrltalk]

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Halloween PR

Maxed out my dead today. 253, a 13lb pr. I hit 200 for five without breaking a sweat and knew today was the day.

Went to class dressed as a dinosaur.

FBG$

[sogswell]

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Study break= perfect time for a tricep shot

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Yulia Viktorovna Vins, or Julia Vins

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Beautiful

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Gorgeous

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I've drank half a bottle of tequila tonight

and I'm buzzed. How is this fair? I royally ruin my diet and don't even get drunk. 

[flagnorfail4life]

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NEVER. SETTLE.

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yuuussss gmh

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Perspective.

Keep at it kids… be tenacious in pursuit of your goals.

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THIS

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Today's calories have been solely dessert and wine based. DA FUQ IS WRONG WITH ME. 

[nudemuscle]

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This isn't going to have some overarching point

I finished my gres today. 168 q, 165 v. Those are really good scores. I was relieved and then I was directionless. It's not like lifting, you can't just raise your goal. I am sleeping beside one of my oldest friends who tonight told me she was actually assaulted and didn't tellanyone because of the abusive relationship she just ended. The same relationship that kept her from talking to me. She is snoring very loudly. I want to rework my program because it has no order since I quit soccer. Tomorrow. I ate ice cream and pizza in moderation tonight. Anxiety. Losing weight is supposed to make my relationship with food better. Small steps. On Monday the doctor looks at my mri. I don't expect anything wrong, but I'm not sure how there couldn't be. There is always something wrong. My 23 year old brother has choosen this summer to act like an teenager. He was never a teenager when he was a teenager. I feel like I want to be successful so much it hurts. Somedays it doesn't though. Those are worse.